Name:
Alison!!!
DOB:
080788.
Religion:
roman catholic.
Job:
missy.


memories will forever be a part of me. always...












#1 TO BE ABLE TO JUMP & WALK AGAIN

#2 grad from NYP

#3 a new/gd digital camera~=D

#4 ipod classic/touch

#5 oakley shades (crosshair s, violet)

#6 clutch bag (formal/casual)

#7 cashmere

#8 skirts!

#10 clothes!! but i still wan more =(

#11 lose weight! #12 have a gd memorable 21st birthday!

growing up aint easy... no one says its easy...

along the road of learning and falling we tend to get dependent on a person for support to pull thru such bumpy roads...

not cuz we choose to but for me its inevitable to be dependent at times..
knowing i dislike being weak.. i always hold my pride up high... refusing to cry in front of ppl or to show my true feelings.. i put on a mask... before i get hurt i put on a barrier before i crumble...

and whenever u pull down that mask without me knowing it, i got a shock.. cuz you touch something really sensitive that i tot ppl wont see...

we tend to get stubborn in ways cuz we dont see a eye to eye to things...
so we have to see it for our own to understand and believe to even give in or listen...

i can say i am emotional and crazy...
getting affected for the smallest things in life...
even the smallest mistake i made...

ppl say it takes time to heal and forgive oneself.. but i cant...
i tried... it can be a temporary forget instead of forgive...
and just one day, it will come flooding back that i couldnt breathe...
didnt know who to tell or how to say. afraid no one understands and find me a nuisance..


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time
expectations
promises
action
support
love

it all link dont you think?

in time we tend to expect things to happen which leads to having promises to be kept and when we made such promises we need actions to keep them or even fulfil them...

when we expect such action or promise, here comes a certain amount of love and support needed, to make them come thru/happen... or to even to start having expectations.

and to make it come thru we need to have support which is to undergo or endure, esp. with patience or submission; tolerate. most importantly to sustain a person's mind, spirit, give courage, etc. to have expectation of a love one...

i know tonight i took a wrong route... i had wrong expectation...
i cant promise it wont happen... cuz promise needs actions to prove.
but i hope i can make a point for myself to prove it...

alison dont worry... everything will be alright in time to come... cuz its all about learning and growing up... all abt getting used to it.. all abt getting the hang of it...

i always say
i dont want to be a burden and nuisance... and here am i asking for support...

how contradicting...

but i hope i will learn...
thru all the scars and wounds i will learn... with the trust and love... i will... cuz it doesnt matter how you fail.. but its how are you gg to finish... how you gonna finish strong... (:(: and u will find strength to get back up...


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2:34 AM


as tired as i am with the process of growing up...
as unforgiving as i am to myself with all the stupidest mistakes i ever made...

i never fail to rmb the video i watched in FB recently...

he said, "it doesnt matter how you fail.. but its how you gg to finish... how you gonna finish strong... (:(: and u will find strength to get back up..."

easy to say... hard to do..
but somehow this phrase gave me a bit more energy to carry with life...
i am not physically tired... and i'm just mentally tired...
alot to learn... alot of responsibility to carry...

i wonder how parents actually carry on with their duty as parents...
esp my parents with such a child like me can be really really extremely tiring..
wonder why they never gave up on me...

always... it had been always in my mind since young...
if i wasnt even born... if that sperm didnt met the egg...
i wont be around... my parents wont have to always worry and get angry...
quarrel and cried just cuz of me...

watched sister's keeper today.. thank god my sister is well and kicking...
around to kick my ass whenever needed... around to remind me to talk sense to me...
cried like crap during the movie.. used up one packet of tissue..

aiya... wad i wanna say was... if i wasnt even born... everybody's life will be much better! was never really much in need anyway...

as wad pek geok always say...
I NEED A GETAWAY TRIP... LONG HOLIDAY AWAY FROM SINGAPORE!

-you think you are not of much help.. but i beg to differ! actually that very evening i wished you were there.. cuz i know i wont be lost.-


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7:54 PM


i am so tired of living...

seriously everything hasnt been really good...
one after the other...

wished at that very moment when it happened i wish i left the world... maybe jus to be a vegetable and such... dont think to feel anything...
i know i am very selfish.. leaving ppl who love me behind without thinking for them.

i know it isnt the worse...

if i am the one consoling alison chua... i would had said that...
its a small thing... its a learning lesson... next time just be more careful...
it can be a life and death matter... i know... but to just thank god nobody is injured... be more careful next time... no matter how tired and unlucky it is...
life still have to go on... everyone been thru shit... maybe this is the shit i have to go thru... other ppl might been or going thru worse situation compared to mine.

for one monment i blame God.. why this why must it happen?!
but to think maybe God save my ass... he chose this to happen to me instead... cuz the other choice he had was a worse of thing...

rmb the cow story? if i rmb correctly...
there was a farmer who had a cow which was their only source of income...
yet the cow died...
farmer blamed God for letting it happen...
but the fact was, God chose to let the cow die... or else the person dead was the farmer's wife...

hahaha! this is wad i rmb... vaguely... something like that la... duno if it make sense u anyone who read this.. nvm... i understand can alr...


sigh! trying to look at the bright side... trying really hard...
ppl say, most importantly i am not injured...

comforting enough that the people involved ask me am i okay instead of scolding me...

seriously i wish i would die in my sleep tonight... due to complications i do not know...

selfish selfish selfish...

NVM MUST LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE!

-wish u could be here with me right now by my side... telling me its okay... telling me as long you are fine, that is wad matters-


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9:43 PM


past weekend was a blast!

drove to work myself.. parked my car... drove round sg! not literally everywhere but at least places i wanted to go with a car!

i drove to:
- work
- harbour front (includes harbour front centre and vivo)
- labador park
- east coast beach
- lower pierce
- devil's bend (i got scolded! no more gg there)
- upper seletar
- amk hub

and lastly i drove my dad to airport in the morning! 530am!
amazing! alot of small hiccups here and there! but i am still learning!

today isnt a much of a significant day but yet not insignificant. -you got it?-

been bumpy this week at least...
alot of mistakes done... i am not talking abt driving only.. i meant it in general.

which makes me feel really sucky...

its really suay! really! esp today! i almost wanted to bang my head against the wall.. lucky i didnt... cuz i know i will regret it now if i did... (talking nonsense again i know)

oh wells! as i told my friends... 破财挡灾， 以毒攻毒！
it will get better i hope! with all my might i make sure it will! hehe!

gonna starve next 4 weeks! :( not really tt bad.. just maybe i wont eat that much this 4 weeks! BUDGET! oh wells... no one to blame but myself!


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10:18 PM


today was kinda sad yet at the end very sweet!

went out to celebrate phoebe's bdae!
kushinbo so exp! duno why i ended up paying so much la!
duno la! argh!!

after tt went kbox...

as usual i got scolded and made you angry! :S
but really appreciated you came for the kbox even thou u didnt wan to...
and came down really early to meet us when u wanted to slp more!

spending more money on dinner cuz u knew i love sushi and would rather bring me to somewhere nice to eat! (:(:

was so excited when i went in... took sooooo many food la! and u all said very PS cuz like very greedy! hahaha!!! ;p

other den u being unhappy for that moment everything was damn fun!
esp when i found out u wanted to initiate something but failed!!
i was super happy at that pt of time...couldnt help it but to keep on smiling...

you knew i wanted to do that cuz i kept on whining abt it! hehe! (:(:(:

THANKS! really feel very _________! :D

thou during the outing i was whining why you like that ah.. why not like this ah! hahaha! =p being the naughty me as usual!
at the end realise how bad i was to even think that way!
you eventually did wad i wanted/wished u would do... but in your own cute ways! hehe!

um chio will tio lai shiong! hahaha! i think i did today! :)


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3:36 AM


Cancer Strength Keywords:- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive

Cancer Weakness Keywords:- Moody
- Clingy (!!!! since when?! hahaha)- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed

Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.


Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted. ( tt really depends on who i choose to hang onto!)
Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.

Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums.(SO TRUE) They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.

Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. ( no wonder i am always stuckin the past sometimes! thinking i shouldnt had done that i should have do this) They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.

Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. (true true! PEKSY!) It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. ( HAH! dont think i always play! i will be a good mommy k! )They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.


(:(:(:(: quite true la! now i know why i am so mood swingy! hahaha!!!


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3:05 AM


i am bored!!! help me!think having night shift kills ppl! haha!

did a quiz! abt what do i need most in a r/s?

You have a certain innocence about you.You want the simple things in life. You love hugs,kisses, and being in the arms of the person you love. You want to feel protected,loved, and adored. You like your lover to initiate the first move and on some occasions you like a little aggressiveness but for the most part you need physical affection in order to maintain happy relationship.


super true la!! cuddling jus makes me happy! (:(:


siannn can anybody find something for me to do?


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12:59 PM


the last night was alrite.. but was kinda sian at the end of the shift!

so didnt do my charts properly... :P
juliana helped me!

so tired that i slept la! tsk tsk!
went for health screening today.. didnt fast at all.. haha... got scolded by the idiots who took our bloods! @#@$%@#@!$%#$^%$

not happy dont take... i dun participate lo! helped to add numbers to the screening...

my BP was LOW! amazingly... 92/57! tts really low la! hahaha!
hehehe!

was fun la...

poke = blood taking!
squeeze = pimples and black heads during facial!
massage = during facial too!

slept like a pig during the mask time la! i think i heard myself snore! hahaha!
DAMN TIRED!!!!
but i am so awake now! o.0''' shall try to sleep later... to turn back my clock! (:

yea! i will only start work on thurs! dun you think DAMN cool! hahaha!


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1:46 PM


wahhhhh! my 2nd night!

really no life man! haha! went home str away sleep.. wake up intitme to eat dinner and go to work!

been driving to work these 2 nights! 1st night was kinda scary.. driving my daddy's car! so big! on expressway the very 1st time after passing my TP!
but its fun! (:(: getting use to it!! and i am loving it...

alrite! think i shall stop here!! (:(:

10 points out of 10! again and again... TRY! wahahahahA!


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2:12 AM


PEOPLE! I PASS MY DRIVING! I AM A LEGAL DRIVER! HA!


sooooooooo happy! when i knew i passed! haha! couldnt believe myself at first! (:(:
but just one hour later my mood was like crap... =p

phoebe n milton came down to my hse to slack! ate fried oyster again... thou i ate it last night with pek at chomps! haha!

chatted and all.. trying to psycho my family to let me drive for fun... car ride...
mommy knows me best la...

convinced my dad to sit with me to drive my frens back home to sengkang! haha! tgt with my mommy! (:(:

cuz apparently besides pek geok and phoebe was excited abt my new licence, everyone was really nonchalant abt it...
kinda depressing and heartaching at first... like no one to share my joy with...
seeing my mommy treating me like this, its really a very heartwarming feeling. (:(:

think no one understands how i feel... hehe... thou it may seems like a small achievement but to me is quite big...

its like another milestone in life kinda thingy...

i was so happy to the extent after getting my license... before video viewing, i went to the toilet cubicle and jump jump jump for joy! hahahahahaha!

something that i spent alot of time and money... something i really do it without saying its luck den can pass kinda test... (:

oh wells! more to come!!! jia you!!!
sometimes i think growing up is really tiring...
but come to think of it... its the small things that happens along the way help us to carry on with our life in this world too! (:(:

shake shake,
we learned something new today hor... thou the process of learning like shit... but ending of conversation was great... the nonsense we were able to talk abt, brings back memories to those times! nonsense time!


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2:39 AM


so irritating! youtube is down...

ok... work suck big time today...
esp at the ending... aiya...

everything just dont go smoothly la... last min ane called said got bgit coming up... without calling up to prep us they just send the patient up! i was like omg!!

busy like fuck...

den bed 1 have to keep on shouting for stupid reasons... like wanting to take off his clothes and go down n buy food!

shout n shout... my charts were screw up... didnt manage to do alot of things for phoebe.. she wasnt happy...

sigh... wheres my paper seagulls!!! :(
hahaha! =p this time i swear its not pms.. at least not pre... maybe post! wahaha!

fine theres one saying girls have pre, present, post menstrual symptoms... :D
EXCUSES! wahahaha!

OMG I JUST SAW ONE BIG CATERPILLAR IN MY ROOM!

yucks! lucky got my aunty... to remove it... so disgusting...
gd nights! being force to sleep!


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12:26 AM


today ended quite badly...

felt tt i am not good enough...
seriously not good enough...

you made the effort to do things tgt yet i ended up with this super sian and screwed up face while we were at it...

i so wanna blame it on my lack of sleep... but actually i dont think thats the point...

deep down i was unhappy... do not know why am i uphappy about...

just maybe i felt that i am not good enough...
i do not meet my own criteria...

one day... i might just regret.....

i want to turn back time...
everything didnt run as smooth as i plan...
help me... feel like crying when i was walking home...

wads wrong with me?
moody? lack of sleep? or just purely screw up me?


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11:59 PM


http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_434195.html

check this out! our MISS WORLD, SINGAPORE.
atrocious! tsk tsk!! sg reputation is gg down the drain!


today been gd!

had my off! went out had a reat time laughing and such!
went for driving! and its 10 times better!
he scoldings are 10 times lesser! and really in a good mood...
said i can go for my tp alr!

felt so much better... after last few nights of stress! hahaha!!!

2 more weeks! OMG!~ so scare and cant wait! (:(:(:


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8:21 PM


I GOT THE WORSE NIGHTMARE LAST NIGHT!
i dreamt that i FAILED my TP!!!!!!! argh!!!

i dont feel happy generally... like somethings in life aint gg the way i want it to be... wahaha!! the 'princess' me is getting into me again!!! =p

been really moody today... couldnt even decide on wad to eat for dinner had to force myself to eat something... sigh!!! think its just the nightmare la... nowadays i am very bothered by my driving more den anything else... i dont wanna fail.. i really dont want... *sobs* feel like crying when i am gg to take TP. when i am a person who had confidence in passing my tp and now i am being made to feel incompetent to go for it.

had huge huge arguement yesterday... the most amazing one... and yet again its something small! *lucky* but guess this is how we get to understand each other better... (:(: solved! why oh why??
again and again things in life jus proves me right!

when expectations increases more confilcts happens...

but its hard not to have a change of expectation... to me the level/ amount of expectation is given to that person is Equivalent to how important that person is to me...

aint it true? for example your random friend at work and your close friends, etc.
duno la... you all might beg to differ! =p


BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! driving instructor, mr tan u make me feel horrible!


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11:43 PM


happy monthsary again!!! hahaha!!!!


oh wells! life been really ok...
day by day it goes...
really hate driving lessons nowadays... i dread gg seriously... i always have to force myself to look on the bright side... never been so jialat before! TSK~

work is rather normal.. the same! i guess i am getting the hang of it alr! (:
worked with best bud and milton today! really cool!
tmr will be with ka juls and vino! power pack combination~!!!

been working gg out sleeping and all... many many events gg on...
vomitted twice last week!! omg... tot some food poisoning.. haha!! diarrhoea four timeS! got scolded for eating siew mai! hahaha! too oily...

really felt cared for.. i really do... something i never felt it in the longest time.. sometimes telling my mommy or jiejie i am sick sounds and feels funny...
damn... thou i know i can tell my mommy and jiejie anything la... almost anything! wahaha!!!

today!! i seriously almost crap in my pants!! walked out of my hse and all... den tummyache.. tot i can control till heartland mall.. and apparently i cant! i ran to the lan shop nearby's toilet! omg... funny but really horrible feeling.. never want tt to happen to me ever again!!

i am a crappy person!! literally full of crap!! hahaha!!!


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11:59 PM


got this on peksy blog... quite interesting...

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio :

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
'life aint always all nice. its up to us how we perceive it to be i guess. sometimes its hard to look on the bright side. sometimes we need ppl around us to remind us!'

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
'haha.. duh duh... but sometimes you dunno whether the next step is big or small... :/ '

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
' i totally agree! waste of energy... plus! you can always forgive but NEVER forget!'

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. siblings too. so do not take these ppl for granted!
' yes yes one of my those lines i always say... treasure them before you lose them and REGRET! '

5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 'dont have them so its okay!'

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. why win an argument which ends up in unhappiness among us?
'wahaha.. i always have tt tendency'

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
' ex mama: yea boy... u really did gave me a shock. :P '

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. ' who says! '

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
' i am trying real hard for this point. '

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
' maybe... maybe not?! when i read this i was thinking how true can it be... why i shouldnt be in it or not? is there a reason behind it?? '

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
' tts really comforting to know.. really. '

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.' *nods* nods* '

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
' if we can den there will not be any ppl having depression. '

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
' i read this somewhere " WE DONT STOP PLAYING CUZ WE GROW OLD, WE GROW OLD CUZ WE STOP PLAYING" :):)'

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
' how i wish i can do that... i want to go round the world to see those wonderful things and work random jobs! '

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it
for a special occasion. Today is special. ' kinky '

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
' woooooooooo... heh! '

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. so grab whatever opportunities there are to make your life a happy one. no regrets.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".

27. Always choose life. ' sometimes death is so much better!!! '

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
' its hard for me... sometimes i do not know why i try to do things to please ppl till i got really tired myself withour knowing it myself till ppl have to tell me.. :S '

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles. glad i managed to get through the tough period

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come. that's why i hvnt give up hope. in life

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
' that i am really tired of doing... '

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. so treasure everyday, every moments especially the moments you had with your loved ones including family, friends and colleagues.


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a line for you since you are reading!!!

theres no one in this whole wide world exactly just like me. i'm me and you are you. we're special dont you see? (:(:


Captured The Moment @

12:21 AM


sometimes i really wonder wads gg on in your brain? how do you form things in your head? how do you actually function...

wad is your actual character!? hahaha! sometimes i find it really amusing how you react to the smallest things around you... O-M-G!

been away from work for 6 full days! and is SO SO SHIOK!

nurse one patient who broke his leg and had to amputate his left leg due to industrial accident... how sad and sudden can it be?!
i really sayang his leg la... cuz i been thru leg operation too! and i know how pain and fustrating it can be... OPPS! bias!!! =p=p

so happy one of our PR patient actually went back to bed by herself! i wonder how she did that... which is really amazing la! she is as cute as ever... hahaha!!!
she was once our most irritating patient... now.. one of our cutest patient! (:(:

vroom vroom... started driving this few days! really shiok! but sometimes my instructor just spoils my day by keep on nagging at me! TSK!!! hahahaha!!!

my poor ethan boy is sick again! he actually had seizure! omg... is provoked seizures cuz by virus! SCARY MAN! even if i was a nurse i wouldnt know how to react to it la!

GOD BLESS HIM!!!


Captured The Moment @

11:43 PM


watched 'ugly truth' today!
was really amazing! hahaha! and when i was watching the whole show, i thought of that someone all along... haha! and yes pek guessed it right! (:

gamer was good... really nice! yao qing styled his hair! for the 2nd time in my life i ever saw him in that hair style... i must say it looks good.. (:(:
told him he shld style it more often.. and yes yes... the same old answer...

'that 10 mins of styling my hair i can use to to sleep..'

something along tt line.. blablabla...

okok! something crop up at work and between me n kimmi...
all i know was ppl at work said i shldnt be too hyper at work... i shld tone down alil.. :/

i duno la... it sucks... i do not know who said tt... not angry or anything.. just wanna know who said tt... den i would know how to react to that person whenever i work with them...

regarding kimmi.. i seriously do not know WTF she is angry abt! how the hell would i know she have all the trainings in the world and she was tired... not happy cuz i just teased her being a wet blanket and pang seh kia for not joining us for movie?! WTF!!! such small thing u can be tt fucking pissed abt? omg! and yet i tot wad BIG GRAVE MISTAKE I MADE TO MADE HER TT PISSED OFF... i do not know if i shld just take it as she is tired, tts why all her nonsense appear... who the fuck knows you are training for some Marathon... when you do not even explain yourself for it... acting all cool in front of me when i am teasing you? pls la... TEASING!!! I AINT ANGRY WITH YOU!!! OMG!

obivously i DO NOT understand that u are tired cuz you have been training EVERYDAY for tt... CUZ I DONT EVEN KNOW THE HIDDEN MEANING BEHIND IT!

do i know u fucking busted your training session just to go out with us? NO!
do i fucking know you wanted to train so hard for your own achievements? NO!

so who the fuck are you to get angry with me!?

talk abt commitment... if you do not TELL us wad the fuck you are thinking who the FUCK knows?!
yes yes! I DONT TRAIN, I DONT RUN, I DONT DO CRUNCHES like you DO... tt doesnt mean i dont understand how bloody tiring it is! i been thru trainings too.. i been thru times where i lie on my bed i said yes i finally did it...

sheesh.. sometimes i wonder.. maybe i shld just treat my colleagues and colleagues and nothing else... :S #$#^@#@!#!%#$^%

ah screw it... if she still wanna be tt pissed off abt it... go ahead.. cuz i wont stoop so low to continue to fight with you for such matters!

BAHHHH!!!!


Captured The Moment @

2:02 AM


was looking thru pictures in FB... esp some of my secondary sch frens pictures...
everybody seems to be dressing up more and etc...
and here am i wearing shorts t shirt and slippers where ever i go! hahahaha!
sigh... ppl slimming down but i dont... wonder why do they even go to an extend of dieting! when u can eat better eat!

sometimes i feel butt ugly when i look at them! hahaha! and always wanted to buy new clothes... BUT such feelings die down very fast! hahaha! i am happy the way i am... i have ppl who love me can alr! (:

my dad and i are STILL in bad terms... like we seldom talk and staff... like totally no communication... and if we ever talk, it sounded as if he is scolding me! TSK!
heartaching to think about it...

sigh... we have been very tired this few days... which kinda lead to flaring up at each other sometimes... something i think everyone will go thru such stage... yet again thank god its all small matters... (:(:

2 more days to my off day!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait! loves!


Captured The Moment @

9:46 PM


today i happen to bump into my fren on the way hm
he said he was gg to church to prac PNW
i said ok.. i drop by!
there goes.... 7 yrs active in church.. wad i have always know...
just came back when they start praying and prac... i totally miss those times...

guess i lost track of time... felt so familiar yet felt damn foreign...

oh wells!!!

that brewha... really gets onto my nerves...
sometimes i think if she got stab alive and bleed i might just stand there & laugh!
okok.. i know i am mean! =p i just couldnt help it la! tsk sian!
WAD COMES AROUND GOES AROUND

other den that works fine... life's fine! hahaha!


Captured The Moment @

10:22 PM


haha!!!
here am i blogging in jason's and aaron's hostel...
playing cards with regi qing jian ye aaron n jason... okok... jason is studying...
lost alot yesterday! 50 bucks! today jianye is helping me play! hah!


my week been really crazy.. heh... today is my only off day of the week! omg... working 6 days str sure die one...


bla... just read my fren's blog... felt her pain... oh wells... wad to do... if its meant to be....
think sooner is better den later... or else the hurt will be more...

bahbahbah...

i guess u cant really expect to be all nice all the time....

last night was the first time we ever got irritated at the same time... and at each other.. interesting... that feeling suck big time...
but oh wells lucky was it a small matter! (:(:(:(:

CHEERS!!!


Captured The Moment @

6:50 PM


hello hello!

life been great for me! (:
watched ALOT of movies this 2 weeks! O-M-G!
but its all worth it! cuz the movies i've watched were really nice & funny!
just maybe except BRUNO!!!! its damn funny but really VERY VERY traumatic! O.0
do not know wad i am talking abt? go watch it and u will know! :P

many other events happened this 2 weeks too!

met up with pek and mich! like FINALLY! ate our usual steamboat... followed by chit chat at TCC!
sweetie came and pick me up tgt with regi and calvin.. wanted to go changi beach but we ended up at east coast. we sat and chilled... laughed non-stop with regi's slow frequency etc. heh... a day to rmb... (: 21st aug n 22nd aug :D

oh oh! and it was jason's bdae too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SESSMAN! thou i know you wont be reading this.. as usual! hahaha! tts the whole point!

met up with my dear preceptor timothy tgt with phoebe and kimmi last week... had another great chat... all the laughters and nonsense we always do tgt as a grp!
went west coast... wanted fries but it was SOLD OUT.. so we bought hash brows...
wahaha! shiok la... have you ever buy hash brows late in the night from macs?
WE DID! (:

random random... been pms-ing this few days... haha! bad bad bad...

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AND finally! i got my pay.. but i can foresee the amt getting lesser just within days! SIGH! bills and etc

work been pretty alrite... just maybe my junior job suck... okok! its not maybe.. it is... and i hate it! :( when will i ever stop making silly mistakes...
dun wan timothy to shake his head and go 'sigh'
other den that.. work is really fun... jus maybe except one person making everyone very miserable feeling, sometimes.

when will the plant grow? grow to be very healthy and good to harvest?
reap wad you sow.

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i have started on a journey slowly getting to familiarise to its surroundings and the smallest details. something not easy but having real fun doing it! :)feeling the warmth and happiness while journeying thru!


tts abt it! darn lazy to type anymore! (:


Captured The Moment @

9:30 PM


jason's chalet was kinda alrite... but i feel like i went for a getaway trip... 3 days of no parents no work.. just sleep slack and eat... hahaha...
even thou we didnt get this monkey of the day drunk and gone... hope he enjoyed his bdae party and the present i/we gave him!

felt that my money and effort didnt go to waste... at least he will wear it everyday and it is wad he needs! (: a Guess watch.

think my brain cells are dying... the things we do! hahaha!! joke!


Captured The Moment @

7:00 PM


happy 5th month! (:

i actually rmb! hahaha!

was gg thru NDP songs... cuz pek geok told me abt mr brown 'NDP' version song...
heard it and i find it damn funny...

hahaha!

he had H1N1 song too...
anyway, was browsing thru the other songs... and realise as years gone by NDP songs are getting more and more commercialise! OMG! hahaha! O-M-G.. hehe

went all the way back to like 2000 NDP theme song... it still sound like a national song... read the comments and stuff.. think yr 2000 NDP song quite nice!
to think our current 2009 NDP song dont sound like a NDP song... duno if its gd or not... as in its gd cuz ppl will listen to it more often and find it nice.. hmmm... wad abt e bad part? maybe its doesnt have much impact? hahaha!

haiz... as time goes by... we start to lose the meaning in alot of things..
maybe its jus me... i feel that we take alot of things for granted?

miss national stadium!! oh wells!

blablabla.. random tots!

anyway.. tmr i will be in charge! its been a long time since i am being assigned as IC!

all the best to me!

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINAGPORE!


Captured The Moment @

11:45 PM


its been a long time since i blogged...

alot of things happened...

i celebrated my 21st birthday at aranda country club with my family and friends!
had loads of fun...

esp the 2nd night! hahaha...
thou i failed my driving practical.. which TILL NOW i still cant forgive myself for that stupidest mistake i made...

watching harry potter with my frens tmr! i cant wait!
in the mean time today was morning shift followed by an off day tmr!

SHIOK! sweetie got his car so we went to marina barrage to slack...
push him and he got into MUD! i felt so bad thou.. but damn funny la...
his hands were all GREY in colour...
couldnt help but kept laughing... hehe!

went to eat supper at thomson.. PRATA! after that head to lower pierce to slack...
played songs... did some cheer jumps! hahaha! and played a game that made my hand real RED!!

sweetiw gave in! he took us for a fun ride thru upper pierce! hahaha! tt was shiok man!

sweetie, thanks for everything tonight! hahaha! i know you are very tired... cuz u had to wake me up for work and stuff! hahaha! when i get my license which i hope i do i drive u around la! but not the upper pierce rd.. i think i WILL end up killing anyone who is in the car! hahaha!

alrite! gg to slp now! looking forward for my movie...

harry potter is like a world i would like to be in..
a place full of magic!


Captured The Moment @

2:41 AM


i am alrite... i feel alrite...

but sometimes i just yearn for the love i deserve and the hugs and kisses...
something i that i wan to feel belong to... someone i know will love me when i love him...

at the mean time i shall enjoy my singlehood...

some guys shld really have 3 ghosts in their life... (:


Captured The Moment @

11:18 PM


i think its better this way...
WE think...

we can actually talk and converse better as friends.. amazingly...
i didnt regret.. as u said we tried...

i wish u all the best.. finding the right one at the right time...
i wish myself all the best too~

it finally offically ended...
even thou i hope for the better...

maybe this ending is for the better! (:

we will move on with our busy life... focusing on journeying thru our next phase of life!

jia you!

one day...
one day we will really find the one...

is there really the one...
or we make make that one our 'the one'

hahaha! oh wells...
lets see what had God install for us!

u all no need to worry...
i will be fine... (:


It'll all get better in time
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

(: <3


Captured The Moment @

1:25 AM


had a ok shift today...

went Rebel next...
for a drink and a night of fun...

apparently, wad i've told regina b4.. 'u cant really have fun till you solve your problems!'

i dance and drank and laugh.. many photos taken...

AMAZING!

all the smile and laughter... it wasnt something deep down...
my best bud could see... could just see that i was bored...

u wanted to talk thru the phone... i was ok... but we didnt manage to talk tonight.
but i rather meet up and talk face to face...

i assume everything burst and ended... but apparently not... oh wells...

do not know wads the ultimate results/ ending..
i am gonna just take it well, take it with a smile and move on with life...
things will be different... but it is something we learn after each mistake.

i did try my best.. put in very single effort i think shld have put in...
if things are meant to be it will be...
i hope for the best thou...

and wads for the best? tts the question. nobody knows... only God knows...

life aint easy... but somehow... God will guide us thru all the waves that comes our way...

and here am i talking abt God when things goes wrong and i start putting my faith and hope on Him... haha!
God will forever be a part of us... esp we christians... tts my opinion...

anyway, i pass my IV test! so SWEETIE when are u going to treat me to a meal? (:
u gonna be away for these few days in malaysia! take care yea?
think by the time you read this u are alr back from all the fun...

its been a long time since we meet up and just talk rubbish tgt...
everyone is jus too busy...
ESP ME! with all the shift work...

oh wells... a few days of nothing to do or no one to disturb.. =p
take care!

a phrase u gave me -> 'In my weakness He is my strength, in my lack He is my supply, in my sickness He is my health!'

a passage.. which i think is nice.

I ask You to minister to their spirit.
Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy.
Where there is self doubting, release a renewed confidence to work through them...
Where there is tiredness or exhaustion, I ask You to give them understanding, guidance, and strength.
Where there isfear, reveal Your love and release to them Your courage.
(:


Captured The Moment @

4:36 AM


yes yes.. i am back to this blogskin...
cuz the other one gave me problem...

the bubble burst...
the fairytale ended...
my optimism failed me...


Captured The Moment @

12:19 AM


random random...

i duno why i had such a tot while watching drama series...

i duno why but even we dont meet up often.. we dont contact often...
i have that great amt of trust deep within in sessman and everything...

is like...

we both are actually tgt hand in hand working towards our goals in future, focusing on impt things in life...

you are busy with your work and family.. busy catching up with your sleep so u are able to wake up and have enough energy to work!

me... busy working... learning... and catching up with my friends!

on the surface it might seem why our relationship seems weird weird...
but deep down i actually had that amt of trust.. which amazed me...

tts why i sent you tt sms randomly telling you how i think! hahaha...

oh wells! ;)


Captured The Moment @

3:33 AM


loving someone is hard but trying not to love the one you are already loving is harder.


BAH!!! I CANT BELIEVE THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY REACTIONS AT ALL!!!! OMG~!

fuming mad... yet i knew your reaction will be something along that.. yet i always wish otherwise...

the power in love is the one who care less...
i agree... totally...

den why do u use the word love when u CARE lesser?
contradicting...

CHEERS ppl!
smile smile smile... and one day we will really smile from our bottom of our hearts~


Captured The Moment @

10:44 PM


life is way much better when just overlook at those trival matters in life...
or even any matter that will make us sad...

life will be better...

i learn how to do that. (:

but its up to us to decide what is trival wad is not. HA!


i am pretty contented with life... cuz i made it to be...
or else... hahahaha!

regi... u do the stupidiest things in life...
have u tot of the consequences?

i mean i know i do not have the rights to scold you...
but now things are all alright in your life.. dun make a wave out of nothing alright! (: dun wanna see you cry like how u cried @ the chalet.. it hurts..
hurts so much that i can feel it...

i will be fine... i keep on telling myself. so must you! JIA YOU!
life/ work can be stress... but dont start on something u cant really stop...

i fell for it... and regreted at times... so dun u ever do that!


Captured The Moment @

1:29 AM


life been a routine for me now...

work eat slack sleep the cycle goes on...
never felt so lost...

not that i do not know wad i am doing.. but everything seems so unfulfilling...

i guess... the clean piece of paper someone was mentioning its kinda dirtied alr...
and the start of wad had written on ruin the looks of it.. and it has to take extra effort in beautifying again

aint easy...

everyone seems to have their own problems... be it family matters. relationships or work...

if i would to whine abt the same things over and over again i might get killed or left alone... literally alone...



went to play lan yest night.. was fun... bumped into zezhong...
really small world huh...
got to know milton was actually very close to angeline! hahaha! amazing...
small small world... everyone is link somehow or other...

if i wasnt frens with regina i might not know aaron... and not knowing aaron means i wont know jason and yao qing...

if i didnt get into sjc... i wouldnt know michelle and wont get into zj i wont get to know pek and zj ppl.. i wont get to know jerry and nick and matt and mel and juls and ryan and daryl and many more

really... i guess 'everything happens for a purpose'

come to think of it.. everything links la... and i need to get my licence FAST!
i want to drive...

drive safely... haha... u know la.. alison crazy one... can anyhow speed without knowing ones limits and skills... hurhur... have to get that into my head!

i mean ppl speed knowing how to handle if something suddenly happen... i dun think i can handle.. so i shall be a 'law abiding citizen' person! hurhur...

we shall see abt it...
but 1st i need to get my licence...
talk so much also no use!


Captured The Moment @

2:37 PM


ok..i screwed things up again...

when will i ever grow up? at least grow up at the particular area..

hello... it didnt jus happen once.. but twice.

ok... life is so screwed up i sometimes think that maybe my parents might start to regret telling God maybe without alison around i can live happily without worries and stress

i am causing them so much trouble and pain.

yes, i know some of u might think... den why am i still doing the things i did?

my ans is i do not have an answer to that question...

i need to have more self control...
i need to put tots into action...

fuck.. i screwed it so badly...
yes yes... small matter... but wad if things escalates?

i wish i can rewrite my history... and tts to rewrite the moment i broke my leg!
things will be way diff...

maybe for the better maybe for the worst.

i cant take anymore waves.. my life is like an ocean... on the surface.. all calm and still... yet beneath all the calmness... comes all the horrible currents u never expected it to be...

grrrrr....

i wish...

i wish so hard i could just disappear.. wont cause hurt to anyone i hurt b4.. my sec sch mates, my closest frens and most imptly my family...


Captured The Moment @

2:46 AM


When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ...
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...
she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest ..
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday...
she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ...
no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ...


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(:(: when it happens it happens... when its suppose to be urs it will be!

REGI! u have to decide what u really want in life...
tmr will never be a better day unless u solve the problem...
i cant help you much in this problem...
but i promise i will be there for you when u need me... loves!

u have to learn... learn from mistakes... learn how to love... (:


Captured The Moment @

12:16 AM


here goes...

SWEETIE!

can u stop laughing at my entries! aint sweet of you. do u know that? hahaha!!

love you! wahahahahahaha!!!!! :P


life aint easy for me now..

where i just started work.. the ball starts to roll
yet areas in my world aint gg smooth at all...

i will hold on for now.. cuz i still see some hope and light in it...
but till the day the light diminish... i will let it go...

i wonder...

- did you really did sit down and think : wads wrong with you?
- have you really decide on wad u want in life?
- i can pardon your confusion now... but are u gg to do something abt it and not let it hang there?
- i am trying very hard not to compare... but its hard...
- even thou i wish the end results aint something i am dreading to hear/know...

i understand how painful is to be that victim (cuz u been thru that) and yet u are doing this to me...
u indirectly warned me... but i am still willing to take the risk...

i am tired... but i am glad that there are ppl around supporting me...
just being there... or laughing at wad i am gg thru... breezers... =p
ppl knowing everything, including the 'backstage' info... yet help me improve e situation here and there...

i want to be the next mao mao... to show you that it can happen!! (:

will hang on to that rope... will struggle in the water... till i really do not have enuff oxygen i will swim up and back to shore....


Captured The Moment @

12:26 AM


just gotta know abt
that one of my fren's fren sister passed away... and she was really young...

kinda feel aching pain for her... cuz if i would to lose my sister i will cry my hearts out like no tmr! my goodness... pls dun ever let it happen.. want to die i die 1st~

was so sudden yet i still do not know the reason... i might never know wad happen...
but sometimes things happen so suddenly that we never ever see it coming...

u REALLY never know who and when they will just leave you... leave you in this world and proceed to another...

i guess its fate... i guess it happens for a reason! and i do hope that fren will find peace in GOD when she prays and get back on her two feets and carry on with her life together with the sweet memories she had with her sister....

rest in peace my dear girl... protect your family who are still on earth...
GOD BLESS


Captured The Moment @

11:30 PM


here comes air pork... the moment i got my posting....

swine flu decide to appear... and any suspected case will go to my WARD!!!! damn...
so much so for wanting a challenging job...

think i have said that line for a gazillion times....

life been pretty mundane... no more parties i have during holidays.. no more late nights on weekdays...
so whenever weekends approaching no matter how tired i am i will go out till late den i come home... to make it all worth it!

met up with qing regi aaron and melvyn for dinner... some thai buffet thingy...
wasnt all fantastic as qing said...
just maybe i was tired and sian sian like tt... but manage to walk around.. get my brows done! and didnt spend any money in town today! great achievement! =p

sat will be mj time! at regi's hse.. like weekends becomes mj training session for me! hahaha!!! hopefully jaja or qing will be there to help me...

this swine flu really getting a toll on us nurses..
as for me.. i never encounter such problem before...
so i get all worried...

thinking if my frens even mind meeting up still.. and will jason be fine with it...
somehow they said they are fine..
and its up to me to see when i shld start quarantine myself... cuz i am the professional..i shld know better...

hate it la... sobs...

wad if it turn to red phase? den how? DIE
i will be the front line solider!!! dammit............
argh... this is one vocation i chose.. i shall live with it...

just hope in future ppl wont dislike me cuz i am a nurse... i know my frens wont...
but.. oh wells.... haiz!

shall jus enjoy wad i have now... future let future decide... hahaha!!!

(: cheers!

ppl... this is the time where we all shld really pray that theres no SWINE FLU flying into sg! or anywhere near sg!


Captured The Moment @

10:47 PM


life is like a calm sea for me now...

pretty cool and chill...

i am getting my posting soon... like which ward will i be in...

hopefully i get into High Dependency(HD)... or ICU...
den i will work my way up... sloowly.. and hopefully...

now i feel i have alot of responsibility...
mainly not my patients that i am caring for...
but my family members... gg to kinda rely on me when they get sick...

wad if i cant meet their expectations...
wad if things happen my mind turn blank?
wad if i duno how to deal with the situations?

i hope and will try to learn and absorb all kind of info from work...
esp medications!!

hopefully hopefully one day i will shine... not in a show off way...
but of help and i can put my skills in gd use...

(:

cheers... will update which ward i am gg to...


Captured The Moment @

12:11 AM


today is my ex mommy's bdae!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!


feeling all pms-ing mood now..
i am tired... moody... my mind is everywhere...
feel so uneasy and unsatisfied!!!

hahaha!!!! ARGH~

help me..

work started... tmr will be my fifth day wearing the SGH uniform....
now is all the courses and lectures... they are killing me...
its boring.. but more of I WANT TO KNOW WHICH WARD I AM POSTED TO!
why do they take so long to tell me....
got a feeling i wont be posted to the ward i want..
and i have to change my short term goal den.

FASTER i wanna know my posting! kill me!!!


POKER FACE!~


i just read abt the cloning of humans... omg... i pray damn hard it wont... seriously...
wads life cycle den?
raise the dead? same person with the looks and build but no memory or whatsoever!


Captured The Moment @

9:46 PM


two more nights of freedom and here comes HELL!!!!


this week rocks my socks really...
1st...
tues- i went kranji with qing and met jason @ surin park!!
was fun!!! cuz... i never been there in the dark before plus theres alot
of stars!!!

wed &
thurs- i spent quality time with my boyboy nua-ing around... and went swimming!!
saw jason PHELPS! hahaha!! HOT HOT!! Lei Hou MAN Wor!

fri- its was DA PARTY!!! had fun playing mahjong... den when jianye arrives..
here comes the fun!!! DRINKS! SHOTS!! PHOTOS!!!

Sat- attended ANGEL and MATHEW's CHRUCH WEDDING!!!
and chill out session with my pek geok!

had driving lesson today... was dreading it...
but it turn out real GOOD! my max speed for today was 80km/hr!
new record! hahaha... i know its only 80kn/hr.
but how many students get to do that during driving lesson?
my parking rocks today too.. no scolding from him... (: *grinz*



abt tmr! i am attending my bro-in-law's brother's wedding dinner! shiok huh... wedding after wedding! (:


and monday will be my 1st day of full-time nurse job of my life! hope its ok... hope i look cool in my uniform! many photos to come!!!


CHEERS!~


Captured The Moment @

9:12 PM


i am troubled...

i duno how to plan my bdae party....
shld i plan it all on one day?
but den alot of factors to consider!

if plan on other days will it be hard?

i want to celebrate w everybody.. but will be it be hard?

ARGH....
i dun wan ppl to feel uncomfortable when i am calling everyone..


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6:22 PM


due to my stupidity i slept around 7pm woke up at 10pm.. and here i am eyes BIG BIG! cant sleep!!

toss and turn around my bed for like an hr? and i am still here!!! typing..

my day today was great... nice and wad i wanted for a week alr? haha!! even thou we didnt follow our initial plan (shld i say MY initial plan) i am pretty glad our plan b rocks... nua-ing around... plus the rain rocks!

later on! part2! cuz u have to go to work last min yest!!! hmpf! haha... cut short my 8 hrs till 4 hrs.. haha...
actually better den nothing la.. but since u wanna make it up to me.. i wouldnt mind at all.. in fact love it. heh!

gg swimming at his hse!! *bloop bloop* SHOW ME YOUR BUTTERFLY STYLE!! haha!!!
jason phelps?! hehe...

its gonna be a fun time.. provided it wont rain! so i hope it wont... judging by the sky now... abit cloudy leh! =S how!!!

ohwells...

anyway i must try getting on my two feet! must be focus.. cant lose focus!! *stare*
(:(:


monday monday!! start work alr!! wearing the SGH uniform! omg!!! SN alison chua!

Staff Nurse Alison Chua reporting to work!

before i dread it.... i shall look forward to tmr's PARTY!!!! PARTY!!!!
shiok!!!
the fun and crazy moments are abt to come! =p
told qing alr... i am gg to smuggle my camera into the chalet! hahaha! cuz jason say its ban from party!

video down to many crazy things alr... hahaha!!! really cant wait!!!!


CHEERS!!!
i still cant sleep!


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5:30 AM


u wont be reading this but oh wells shall just type here!

to you:

i am happy u worry and think too much.. cuz i know u cared and i am impt...
i am glad that u ask... glad u sms-ed and called me... wasnt expecting it... thats why i am uber glad...

i cant wait for wednesday.. a time of me n you.. spending time!
(:(:

felt at ease telling you i did felt it here and there... at least now u know...

BUT no worries alrite... i know you are busy with your things (work family frens) so i understand... and wont ask for any more den wad u can give... just knowing you care and think for/of me is enough! (: and the effort u put into it.

just be yourself and i will be me in front of you...

a slow and comfortable journey we are gg thru tgt... cherishing wad we have now..
making my life like a fairy tale...

fariy tale it is.. cuz its like too good to be true.. but i know one day when i really digest that u are mine, u are part of my world... it will become reality!

songs 'I DO' and ' THANK GOD I FOUND YOU' really rocks... the lyrics relates.. to me at least! haha!! you said ur fave was that too! (: i felt it.. hehe.. sweet of you!

as u said... i am sinking... and u will save me from sinking by sinking me further! haha!!

*smile*

feeling contented with wad i have now... my family, friends and you...


soon, i will start my work... yet another hump i must go thru... i am sure things will be alrite.. at least this is wad i hope! (:

nights dear...


' I DO '

Tell me can you feel my heart beat
Tell me as i kneel down at your feet
I knew there would come a time
When these two hearts would
entwined just put your hand in mine
Forever

For so long I have been an island
When no-one could ever
reach the shores
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there, darling this i swear

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

I'm ready to begin this journey
Well I'm with you with every step you take
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this i swear

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

Come on just take my hand oh come on
Lets make a stand for our love
But I know this is so hard to believe
So please

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

' THANK GOD I FOUND YOU '

(Mariah)
I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

(Chorus all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Joe)
I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
I don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you (I'm begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you


-Bridge- (Mariah & Joe)
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you


(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Mariah)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you


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12:37 AM


today went down to so called accompany jason during work! :)
with the help of QING!! thx my lesbian partner~

suppose to go down for mass @ CTK... but i overslept! =p
met up with regi aaron and qing for lunch...

after that we head down to RASA SENTOSA!
shiok!

me n qing practically slack there...
play water, swim, bio hot hot hot babes and hunks! they are seriously pretty and hunky! heh!

while waiting for jason to end work, around 7 plus 8pm qing and me start diving into the pool.. do stupid things tgt...

i suck at diving into the pool la! den while i was learning how to dive in, jason pushed me into the pool! thx to his push, i finally did it correctly this time!

went to watch fast n furious 4! SHIOK! vroom vroom vroooooooommmmm!!!
his muscles are SO huge! damn nice la... his sister's damn pretty.. esp the last part.. driving such a zai caR!

end of the day!!!
hugshugs!! :D


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12:59 AM


been having loads of mood swings man! hahaha!!

oh wells.. aint impt...
had real fun at kim's hse! REALLY REALLY REALLY BIG~~

my goodness... i really envy her man!

drank quite abit that day and so i fell into the pool~ TWICE!
and damn tehy say i look emo! which i think i sort of a lil sian cuz i dun really know them well to really do/talk nonsense... you all wont know how it feels thou...

however, i didnt regret gg there... manage to see some cute funny stunts of jason...
he can be actually this crazy when he is seh!!! hilarious!

i dont know wad give you the gut feeling that i was sad deep down... but i wasnt really emo-ing... more fo i didnt want to talk nonsense on that day... those gut feeling u had let me know you actually still do care and think of me!

cheers to me!!

do you know! my mommy actually ask why jason never come for ethan bday party!!! my goodness! ask me how is he and such... (: oh wells!

shocked but happy! my mom actually got interested! :D
duno if i shld tell you about it... will you get stress or uh-huh kidna reaction... or maybe u might feel slightly happy....

i duno! haha! i shall see how la...
looking forward for wed!!! yet to plan wad to do on that day... hmmmm...


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5:31 PM


feel like crap now...

accidentally drop something in sessman's car...
thx god i found out b4 anything could happen...

but the thing is that i had to wake him up to go down and check the car TWICE!
when i know he have to wake up early the next morning...

i am so so sorry to wake you up when i know you slept alr... plus u had to wake up early...

how careless can i be o.0

anyway...

i watched shinjunku today! its a nice movie... hha daniel wu's ass damn hot!! haha.
went to mac ritchie and lower pierce reservoir tonight.

nick ryan and jerry was actually alil seh after drinking @ o bar.. hahaha! sitting outside my hse stoning...

funny ppl!

monday night! which is tonight... i am gg out! so happy.. looking forward to it!


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3:30 AM


(:(:

so happy now... after the phone call...

u always make me smile to myself.. feeling all honey coated...
u always ask me why am i so excited, why so happy.. blabla...

haha!! i also duno...

feel so sweet and happy and jumping all over when i know u and aaron planning the party instead of me! and u are doing this for me, i know..

=D so looking forward to monday and tues... and the following week..

eh mr nice/anything/sess man... thank you loads! i know u wont be reading this...
still... THANK YOU!!!!

wad i am feeling now... words cant describe!
u say u are sinking... i think i am worse! haha!! cuz i duno life saving skills in water! hahahahahaha!!!


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1:42 AM


hey!!!

my fren was asking abt any new blog skin website... so i went into it and gave it a look.. like this skin... so i decided to change it... anyway, its been a long time since i change my blogskin...

got stuck to this song thanks to MR SESSMAN.. haha... he was playing it on his phone... 'I DO' by westlife!

went cycling today with tim and huifen @ ECP! and most prob i will be cycling on sunday again.. guess my ass will crack into 4!

:)


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9:59 PM


(:

i am getting back on track...
getting back to where i was before...
trying my best to return who i was b4...

i am contented with my life...

where...
my family are okay with me (as in not angry with me at least)...
my friends... pek geok and regi they all are back with me...
having mr SESS man with me...
having my career soon... (more of starting work)
having my results passed and got at least a dist* for my attachment...

everyone healthy...


i really thank god for all these...


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2:03 AM


alison is:

-so happy...
-elated...
-on cloud nine...
-flying around! hahaha!


a
day
to
rmb

feel blessed and very fortunate...
=D


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5:16 PM


it was not bad after all.. =p


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9:04 AM


i dread it now...
i was looking forward to it...
finally manage to change my mind that the trip might just be nice, enjoying n memorable.. now i think otherwise...

i know its my fault coming home late.. like 11pm.. instead of coming home early to pack...

but your comments of, 'if u dun wanna go for the trip den u can dun go... get out.'

thx ah... that gave me the urge to just say, "dont go lo.. i wasnt even looking forward to it in the first place... appreciate your effort of so called 'grad trip'.."

u can scold say why i dont think and all... but not that remark...

screw it... i can apologise for coming home late and didnt think... but....

GRRRRRRRRRR!! can someone save me? i really dread gg now... really.. see my dad's face the next 9 days EVERYDAY, HOUR, MIN, SECOND!!!!!!

i am so not gonna be all nice... just gonna react like how i wan it to be...
u can waste all the money on this trip but i wont feel happy.. serious. never at all...

i know i am being all bad n not respectful...
its not fair la... i manage to make myself look forward for the whole shit... and yet...

u know wad... i dun wan to go alr... gg will just torture me.. why not just save the money and spend it on other things...

my goodness


some of u might just laugh.. see i told u so...


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11:12 PM


its been a month or so that i have not been updating my blog..
today got a feeling of updating...

things have not been so well in my life so far.. maybe its jus a changing phrase, i hope...

close frens left me... yea i know its my fault.. trying to get back on my 2 feet again... somehow when one said she is walking away i tend to take it as all walking away from me... i get so paranoid i blocked out everything.. and i am sorry...

i do have the same thinking that why must we let a guy sour our frenship.. and i totally agree... when i find the courage to find you and talk i will... hope u can wait.. and yet again expectations are set again yea? =S
history repeating itself... and i wonder... but i know our frenship aint fragile... guess its jus a cool off peroid for us... you are still a pillar of support in my life.. always waking me up when i need to and u know how to wake me up...

i woke up.

living life as per normal... but i am being more of a family person now.. been staying home and eating my dinner at home b4 gg out... which i think its good... my mom is happy... now gg out late wont be a prob... came back super late they also never say anything.. i mean late as in 5am++ hahah! just that i only have to leave hse at 9pm++ instead of the whole day... hahaha!!!

guess growing up into young adulthood aint easy...

life is always a learning process.. true... in all aspects... learning to deal with problems that come our way... ok... sound like a psychology session... (the different stages of life)

tot i could just cover the wound up with lods of bandages it would stop bleeding... somehow or rather it didnt... i just found out yesterday at aaron's hse downstairs with jason and nah... it bled even more... it bleed profusely... tot i cant calm down... but i decided to jump down into the pool despite having my clothes on... haha!! i cool down immediately...

been mixing around with aaron's frens lately.. nice group of frens... =) some tot me how to be more homely.. and some we cheer each other on to jia you and move on with life.. its cool..

dun worry... news ones came doesnt mean i forget abt my old ones... just couldnt pick up the courage to call u all out yet.. soon soon.. b4 i start my work i will...

didnt met up with you all for movie that night not cuz i was avoiding.. but its cuz it was my grandma's bdae... have to attend...

alrite.. even thou i am still walking aimlessly down the road of life... at least now i can see abit of light coming thru the particular phrase of life i am walking now..

cheers to all!


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3:29 PM


people~ i went for my 1st driving prac...

getting all ready to have aboring lessons of teaching wad is this and that...
my instructor make me prac the gear for abt 5-10 mins... and i started driving! my goodness....

first was to learn how to start the engine but releasing the clutch to the biting point... den move forward w/o stepping on the acc..

learned reverse and forward...

half an hour later ask me to start stepping on the acc and move to the traffic light and turn left! haha... i got kan chiong and i step on the acc too hard the car went super fast for one moment i tot i gg to die! hahahaha!!!

learn how to turn left and right at junctions... round abt... turn one small round at one area... learn a lil bit of parking... thats all! till now i am not very use to looking into the mirror...

my car stall twice. instructor told me to keep it up... must rmb must skills wad he tot n all...

PHEW!! it was FUN! like arcade... but on real roads in a car! lalala! fun fun fun...
cant wait for my next prac!

tmr gg pulau ubin~!! cant wait!


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5:06 PM


jus reached home from steamboat dinner at tim's hse...

its kinda my celebration of my last day as a student!

no more STUDENT NURSE!!!!

YEA!!! HAI!!!

happy that i kinda unofficially grad as a nurse...
yet a lil scare abt the future.. as a staff nurse! =(

still kinda have not set into me that i finish my 3 yrs of diploma nursing...

this 3 yrs was like kinda fun and fast.. learned alot... alot of things happen too...
growing up... seriously into the working world!

my goodness.. force to move on into a diff world... =S

update more again! gonna slp! bb

byebye to student nurse...
byebye to ward 58...
byebye to slack life...


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2:00 AM


i went to meet carol jie for some make up demo session! fun la... had my make up done for free!!! =) shiok! bought concealer too... my goodness... she make it till my face so smooth...

and she actually say my lashes are too long!!!! creates shadow at my eye bags area when light shines from above... so will make my dark eye ring even worse...

and i have both kinds of dark eye rings!!! PANDA! hahaha! =S

carol jie... thx hor! =)

after that met up with the rest for tim to pick us up! banana leaf... a place very weird... not my kind of thing... den we went dempsey to eat ice cream! again!!!! SHIOK! laugh alot as usual.. hurhur...

tim got sun burn... whack him like no tmr... haha! PAIN~!

after ice cream... here comes the FUN!

Dbl O!!!

had so much fun there...
was near drunk... thank God i had self control this time... i stopped drinking and when to dance...

took loads of picturs... drank alot... tim treat the students! YEAH! free entry and drinks... i meant thats not the point abt its free anot... =p its jus a plus point. i did drew out money and was ready to spend...

met new frens... hey siyu! thx for last night... =)

woots!! feb! MORE MORE!


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10:14 AM


the passenger decides to alight... or shld i say the cab driver decide to kick the passenger out half way...

cuz passenger gave too many last min directions or assuming its the correct direction to the cab driver... causing the cab driver to E brake or last min sharp turn... giving the vehicle and cab driver unnecessary injury/scratches...

so therefore... it finally stop. the vehicle was spolit...
passenger have to move on, walking towards the destination.


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11:45 PM


WAD IS THE DEFINITION OF LIFE?
WAD IS THE DEFINITION OF HAVING A LIFE?

WAD IS EXPECTATIONS?
WAD IS EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED?

NO ONE IS PERFECT vs PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT

so that means??? haha!!



blardy hell..


anyway... today i very happy...


I GOT 96/100 for my major attachment!!
so happy.. haha!! and my preceptor actually said quite nice things about me ! (:

so happy... all the dark eye rings and eye bags i have now are worth it...
this result will look damn good on my cert! haha! soooo happy!!!!


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11:22 PM


read this from my fren's blog.. and i think its so true that i start to smile and shake my head while reading on...




here goes:

Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..

When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel separation from her man...

Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who are Interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his Characteristics from other guys...

Guys wishes to be her first love
Girls wishes to be his last love...





=) ironic isnt it...


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4:25 PM


tonight was a nice time... even thou we didnt do much again! haha!!
went to eat with tim and lynn... at some korean area... den went to his hse to watch DVD and drink..

we two need adrenaline pack! hahaha!! if u are reading it... u know wad i mean...

companion and bf... which one i am looking for?
companion is my ans... BUT my meaning of companion is

best fren + lover

wads your definition of companion? a company??

ARGH~!
complicated shit... tell me! why does LOVE exist... hhaha!!!

ans: something related to God/Jesus?



plus...

people with different character and values can never ever become buddies so..

I DONT THINK SO!!! hahaha!!!

cuz teh ppl i hang out with have alot of differences in character and values..
BUT we do have our similarities too...
why not look at the similarities instead of the differences.. isnt it easier...


EH! this sentence den leads to another topic... thats for me to knwo and for u to find out!!! aRGH!~@@$#@%$&^%


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12:27 AM


i am all moody these few days... i really want my break.. i want wad i want...
as usual... i want my way... my liking... and ppl have to be okay with somehow...

i have to stop my temptation! i have to be in control.. like hell yea i am gonna be in control...

come to think of it.. my attachment is ending.. and i hate it!! cuz! tt means i am seriously stepping out to the REAL world... the reality!!! how cruel and vicious the outside world (outside sch) can be...

where are you when i needed you... yet i chose it that way... who can i rely on without worrying that the person wont feel irritated? who are the YOU... hahaha!!!

MOODY~! ummmmm... PRIDE!

sometimes we have to except the fact... sometimes we have to react the way we reacted...

i wish i can drive... and go for a car ride myself.. drive to places i wanna go... sulk myself.. done and go hm...

i want the earth to rotate the way i want it to be!
i wanna have all the FUN i can get b4 lose it...


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12:27 AM


life been rather mundane other den some random outings i went...

works been rather alright i can say..
frens been cool... talked alot.. random meet ups rocks!
alot of complicated stuff thats yet to confirm yet again...

alot of things happen to ppl around me...
i am worried i might be like those ppl.. and i will be in a worse situation...

GOD bless me!

juls said i grown!! i talk more like a 21 yr old.. hurhur...


Captured The Moment @

9:09 PM


bahhh....

i was tempted...

and i gave in to it.. sigh~!

hahaha!! how in controlled am i! hahaha!

pek ah pek~ heh


Captured The Moment @

3:29 PM


yet another night shift in SGH and i am blogging..

spooky as usual.. but aint that bad compared to my first night...
tonight is my last night and i am gonna slp like a pig..

havent been sleeping alot pass 2 days.. after night shift go out.. met juls and nick for brunch..

as usual.. i ate alot.. even thou night shift ate mac and all.. haha!!

sunday morning.. went blading with my family! my leg hurts.. i cant blade so much anymore.. sad...

oh wells.. ok i gtg do trendcare alr!! =p


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11:56 PM


had fever... went to take MC...

felt better went to meet pek and nick.. after that pun's hse...

had fun... played taboo... talk abt ghost stories we encounter... i got really freaked out... toilet also need my fren to accompany me..

that night.. i dont know wad does it mean..

anyway...

HI 2009... i hope this yr will be more back to track... a yr where i really start my new phase of life.. WORK! haha... bonded...

someone once said.. alison now its like a piece of blank paper... a clear slate... looking forward to the future wad it will become.. something along this line..

2008.. hectic.. totally out of wad i expected it to be... alot of things that i didnt see it coming along my way... a diff experience altogether.. gd ones and of cuz there are bad ones...

learn from it... and i grew.. i hope i did...

moving on to yr 2009... pray that everyone close to me to be happy and healthy... the earth will be healthier too.. patients in the ward to recover quickly.

BFFs... glad after the ups and downs we were still BFFs... BFF!!!

now juls is back!! more fun coming OUR way... pek.. now in malaysia... when she is back... more reunion to have.. haha~ sound like chinese new year dinner... hmm... maybe we shld have one.. hahah...

working night shift on fri to sunday... all the best to me!


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8:12 PM


EXPECTATION

this word really affects a relationship alot..

be it between:
-parent and child
-siblings
-boss and empolyee
-colleague
-husband and wife
-boyfren and girlfren
-teacher and student
-God and us
-frens
-ourselves

etc etc...

it affects alot...
when there is expectations = u bother.. means something has to be done...
when u dont expect much from a person, the burden of tt person not fulfilling it is way much lesser...

yet some expectations are left unsaid... den things will go bitter... but yet some expectations are so plain to see by each other..(again... we assume it is plain to see)

in actual fact i really dislike "expectations" some times..
when i couldnt meet up to a person's expectations.. situation b/w us will be bitter or unhappy...
but i could... its a plus pt...

for certain expectation some ppl think its plain to see.. and sometimes wonder why the other party couldnt see it.. den! relationship starts to crumble after a long period of time without settling it properly.. and just move on..

some ppl think.. if i list out my expectation alr... and yet the other party still didnt fulfil... isnt it the same.. i rather not say cuz it wont make a diff..

HUMANS ARE COMPLICATED IDIOTS! wonder how God create such creatures like us! hahaha!!!

tts why God is so amazing..cuz he is the creator...

screw the expectations... cuz it causes so much trouble to ppl.. ok.. maybe not all but most of us... is any pt of time in our life..

at least to me.. we can be real great as frens.. but as we have more expectations of the other... situations and how u react to it differs..

as a fren i expect to...
as my partner u shld...
as my employee u must..

eg. a fren was ur fren still i work under her.. she becomes ur boss.. she expect you as a employee to get this done... but u didnt manage to do it.. she'll get angry.. bla bla bla...

u see how jialat things can get to?
when relationship/status changes expectations changes..

are we able to adapt to it quick enough?


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12:29 AM


chirstmas is here again...

to think that i had my xmas last year with my crutches.


another event that God show how much he love us... by letting his son come to earth etc..
actually all other events we focus how great God/jesus is so great and good.. but in actual fact underneath those the basics was LOVE...

LOVE is a very chiem word.. haha! ppl read it differently. react to it differently... some will go out for it... some will behave weirdly infront of who they like/love at first... some are scare of it... unable to open up fully to it...

at CTK mass on sunday... father was den talking abt love.
LOVE coming in different expressions...

couples tend to complain to their peers... last time b4 we got tgt/ married they are so sweet.. now so naggy or lazy... shldnt we be happy that they are there to nag at you tt shows they care for you? shldnt we be happy that u see them at hm instead of out? if your the other half dun kiss/ hold your hands as they would last time.. den we take the initiative to kiss/hold their hands..

when i was listening to that i was like.. okay.. wad a surmmon...
of all days, of all mass...

anyway.. chirstmas was fun... went for IHM midnight mass followed by matthias hse to wait for ryan and jerry.. den we make our way to ryan's hse to slack... ate snacks.. took loads of photos... den i suggest to go marina barrage! and it wasnt a wrong choice.. cuz its really nice and windy there... took alot of photos again...

i am waiting for ryan to load the photos!!! hai! why so slow! hahaha!!

reached home @ 6am! slept for awhile and headed out to east coast with my family @ 10am! went cycling! fun fun! reach home collapse on my bed and went lala land str away... 6pm went my ah ma hse for dinner... got prezze! =)

tts all! =)
super tired now!! jus finish work.. bummed into ZJ mates..

horrible!! tmr i morning shift! have to wake up at 5am and yet i reached home today at 11pm!

life aint fair...


Captured The Moment @

11:13 PM


starting to feel it..

starting to feel how tired and draining can a working person feel..
starting to know that no matter how much u run away from things it will still be somewhere deep inside...
starting to think if i can really handle my job... (hope that in time to come i can manage)
starting to feel more occupied... =)
starting to go back on track where i was 1 yr ago!
starting of the new YEAR is coming!



TODAY! I SAW MY DR TOOT TOOT!!!! my eye candy forever!

omg! how fated can me and him be... i met him in SGH onco ward last yr... i went for my KKH posting i met him.. he recognizes me FROM FAR!
he got posted there too... was on the way to 7 eleven at KKH i met him again... =) even thou at KKH had we didnt really talk... we jus said hi and it made my day...

one fine morning on the way to my ward 58 tea room i saw him walking towards the ward.. to double confirm i turn around and looked again and IT WAS HIM!!! he say HI! haha!! yet again! sooo happy!!!

today today... walked into the MO room to file in old notes.. looked at him and i was like EH! DR TOOT! i said hi! =) asking where is he now... now hes in ortho discipline!

haha! now i know.. so happy la.. knowing that we are working in the same hospital again rock.. knowing that i might bump into him again rocks even more!

he looks shag btw.. oh wells.. hope he comes to my ward to use the computer more often! and MO room got no one.. den i shall go in and file all my old notes! =p

CHEERS~


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10:45 PM


WOA!

my week have been good.. as least for last monday till now! hahaha!!

had a meeting with jeremy!!!! like finally... ONE YEAR! i didnt meet him for one year... i miss those times... till when i think back i feel like crying and yet a smile in my heart...

we went to pasir ris as usual that day. to star gaze.. he came and pick me up! and it was drizzling.. so of cuz no stars... but we end up walking round the park... haha!! into vegetation area to a horse stable! hahaha!!

even thou we didnt talk much... but i am glad we met... i am glad we both made the effort... hope things will continue to improve... =)

also i had all sorts of outings... from movies with cousin to movies with my ward mates!!!

i watched twilight today!! omg! he is sooo hot i so wanna grab him out of the screen and wan him to be all mine... getting all noisy in the cinema! AHHHH!!! everytime he appear i go OMG! haha!!!! zarinah and su also!!! haha! i sit in the middle of them i almost died!! both of them kept pushing me when he appear! haha!! got me all so ARGH!










i love his eyes... i love him when he smirk.. i love him when he get all possesive with his girl saying how impt and she is needed in his life.. cant live without her and such!!! i love his hairdo to the max!! damn damn damn damn HOT!! plus his face shape! hahaha!! and the hse he live in.. hahha!

you shld jus watch it and u will know why i am so omg!

i am so gonna buy the DVD! crazy alison!!

robert robert robert!! my future boyfren will be like him!!! give u the 'you're needed' feeling!! have the hairdo den jus makes u melt whenever u see him! hahaha..

like it will ever come thru... getting a guy like him as my bf..
no need to be so hot.. but at least... character like him can alr... felt so love jus by watching that...

i will continue to dream and hope it will come thru... i think watch too much anime and drama series alr.. but still!!! i will DREAM!

need not say the 'i love you' or 'i miss you' that often yet that character in the movie can convey to the girl he loves how much he cherishes her... how much love and effort he is willingly to go thru... jus to make her feel safe... make her feel that she could trust that guy! haha!! sweet~!

this show!!! 6/5 popcorn! hahaha!! over-rated la!

HYPER!!!!!


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10:46 PM


yo yo!!!

now using computer during shift work.. never expect myself to do this... anyway... 1st night shift aint that bad YET! hahaha!!

wanted to sms someone to to kill my boredom.. but i couldnt think of any who is awake to entertain me.. or even be free...

ate chicken cutlet jus now... ordered in! haha.. hiong hor! pt's are all soundly asleep!

my 1st night i am doing junior work... tmr (2nd night) wont be that gd alr! i will be doing in charge.. taking all 6 cases to handle! wont be blogging like i am now! hahaha!!!

zzzZZ-ing alr!! had to listen to music, swing my chair around, walk here n there... do all sorts of nonsense to keep me awake. how i wish japelin or su was here.. at least can talk nonsense.. hahaha!!! our joke haven end yet! my goodness...

i came back from my 2 days off the joke was still on! haha!! ward 58 staff are nice when u get to know them!

life will still go on... learn to be who i was 7 months ago! out for a hunt! or wait to be preyed! hahaha!! LAME ASS!! too tired alr la!!!

i didnt sleep in the day at all today... thats why abit off! hurhur!!


CHEERS~!


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3:17 AM


julie bdae at hard rock was a blast! haha... ok maybe i am exaggerating..

theres alot of unglam photos taken and posted on julianna's FB! my goodness.. me and my knife!

dont piss me of or i will kill you... dont screw around with me cuz i will kill...
i do not know when will i lose control... '.'







oh wells... glad she enjoy herself...

tonight will be my 1st night shift of my nursing attachment!!! huh~!

julie asked me to update... but theres nothing much to update.. been working and working!

oh did i tell u i manage to set plug for my fren, haikel! haha! and while i ask my preceptor to take my photo he DROPPED my phone!! i whacked him like crazy.. but still he is nice la... lend me his hand to set plug for him... (wanted to tell u that day. was so excited but i didnt manage to)

here are the pictures!!!








and yest! on the way to meet julie for prata and drink... this is wad i saw!!!






my goodness! so poor thing.. and i had to jus take a photo of it.. =p


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6:32 PM


http://buzz.yahoo.com/article/1:y_featured:03be3b064a656eb32e239fac567449a5;_ylt=AkJWYUAYlI8AYAjGaaTZ490azJV4

my goodness... i teared la.. so sweet!


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1:06 AM


wtf, wake up your idea...

$1500 (one major reason)

can you help me AGAIN...

i am sorry girl.. beautiful henna beautiful hand! (fuck it)

its not that simple as u think... (of cuz its not... it will never be.. yea?)

suffocating you... (i didnt meant it)

couldnt be bothered...



i guess we had enough... i guess i have decided... thanks.. and i am sorry boy~!
u pissed me off...


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1:36 PM


i hate my hormones sometimes!

it brings my mood really down or sensitve...
@#$@#%$%$&^(*$#$@~`??:>"

haiz! i shall blame my sensitivity and mood swings on my hormones! dont care~

____________________________________________________


Let's all remember to take the time to LIVE!!!!

A friend of mine opened his wife's underwear drawer and picked up a silk paper wrapped package:

'This, - he said - isn't any ordinary package.'

He unwrapped the box and stared at both the silk paper and the box.

'She got this the first time we went to New York , 8 or 9 years ago. She has never put it on , was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this i s it. He got near the bed and placed the gift box next to the other clothing he was taking to the funeral house, his wife had just died. He turned to me and said:


'Never save something for a special occasion. Every day in your life is a special occasion'.

I still think those words changed my life.

Now I read more and clean less.

I sit on the porch without worrying about anything.

I spend more time with my family, and less at work.

I understood that life should be a source of experience to be lived up to, not survived through. I no longer keep anything.. I use crystal glasses every day.... I'll wear new clothes to go to the supermarket, if I feel like it.

I don't save my special perfume for special occasions, I use it whenever I want to. The words 'Someday...' and ' One Day...' are fading away from my dictionary. If it's worth seeing, listening or doing, I want to see, listen or do it now. I don't know what my friend's wife would have done if she knew she wouldn't be there the next morning, this nobody can tell. I think she might have called her relatives and closest friends.

She might call old friends to make peace over past quarrels. I'd like to think she would go out for Chinese, her favorite food. It's these small things that I would regret not doing, if I knew my time had come. < will it>

Each day, each hour, each minute, is special. Live for today, for tomorrow is promised to no-one


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8:36 PM


sometimes my entries are RANDOM!!

phrases that jus came across my mind while spacing out... o.0 ALSO sentences when i am watching a certain SHOW...

julianna sent 24/11/2008 10:19 PM:
why is your bloody blog so morbid about love and failure
julianna sent 24/11/2008 10:19 PM:
chsk... emo kid


not emo... haha! no morbid... love and failure diff topic.. thats why i put a line... DOTS


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10:57 PM


"Dont let failures in life hold you back or affect your confidence and drive. instead take those failures as a learning lesson and a stepping stone."

its so easy to say those words.. so easy to type it out... but its difficult to follow. =p

_______________________________________________


the show "HOT SHOT part 3"!

one of the episode says:

失恋并不是结束， 而是一个过程。
是一个完整的爱情故事中必经的过程
真正的爱情是不管自己付出多少
也不管对方有没有回报
基本上是独立纯在的 -i know i use the wrong chun-

真正的爱是不求回报的

fell out of love is not a conclusion but a process for a complete love story
real love is not how much you gave up
its not whether the other party would appreciate it
its actually an independent existence

no matter how your heart hurt you wont regret it?

real love doesnt strive for repayment


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6:11 PM






alone






let it be...
learn to be ___________
learn how to __________


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10:34 PM


leaving my house in tem mins time!

and in ten mins time i will start the journey of the ongoing process to learning how to be a real staff nurse. to be trained by my preceptor in any ways he think its good for me to learn. =)

the hell begins...

actually i am glad i have such a strict preceptor -this is wad i heard from my staffs-. cuz i will be push to learn and absorb faster... but hopefully i dont get to fail my posting cuz i am not competent enough! =p

"the choices we make today has repercussions in the future. like the old saying it either make or break us,so today, make this your day to see the bigger picture, the glory day that you want at the the end of the hard work, effort and pain. even if it means to smile, to nod, to tolerate, to have patience, you know it will be for just this while coz at the end of the road, you'll see and busk in the greatness U WANT. today is the day you write YOUR future. "

this msg was sent to me from julianna! thx! once in awhile i will open and read it to remind myself...


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11:47 AM


was watching grey's anatomy today.

and in grey's anatomy season 5 ep 4, izzy stevens said this," people are terrible/mean to the ones they love sometimes, being mean doesnt make the person horrible, they just made a mistake. "

i totally get it. sometimes... cuz i know i do that all the time. esp on my mom tt i feel so bad... it use to jeremy thou... now.. dennis...

i jus couldnt control anger or not lashing out. cuz if i did intentionally threw my temper at ppl who are jus frens or ppl who are not close they wont understand...they will just take it to heart cuz they do not know me well enuff why i reacted tt way...

anyone... it happens to anyone.. they normally lash out at their love ones... ppl closes to them..

to me this whole thing is a grey area... i do not know if it is right or wrong. wad do u think?


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6:58 PM


i soooo blur!!!

do you know all along i tot i was going to ward 58 B2 side... and was saying heng ah... not High Dependency ward (HD)...

on the day i report to ward 58 i den realise i was being posted to high dependency ward...

so far i didnt get to do alot of work.. mostly junior work.. cuz my preceptor is on night shift! so on monday will be my very 1st day meeting my preceptor.. which means HELL is gonna start.. but i would be happy to have him cuz he will push me to learn stuff... he is very strict with medications effects and side effects... so i have to know them at my finger tips! die!!!!

which my medication knowledge is like yr 1 level! haha!! been memorising them and returning them back to teacher once each semester is over!

guess look at the bright side... i think God is training me...

God love me so much that he wants me to learn as much as i can b4 i grad as a student nurse!

all the best!!!!


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6:55 PM


Name 20 people you can think of right now:
1) julianna
2) dennis
3) pek geok
4) mich chen
5) nick t
6) jeremy
7) melissa netto
8) ryan neo
9) matthais
10) jerry
11) wesley
12) regina
13) aaron tan
14) nizz
15) maria
16) melissa ling
17) norin
18) nabil
19) daryl
20) justine (NYP)

How did you meet #4 (mich chen)?
SJC, my senior!

What would you be if u never met #1(julianna)?

i guess i wont have someone to go to when i am sad and happy...
wouldnt know how picky i am with certain things. esp frens and how we as a clique have hell alot of similarities.. plus our clique wont have a french guru... (guess ans will never end!!!!)

What if #9(matthais) and #20(justine) dated?

nope it wont happen... cuz justine is attached alr!

Describe #3(pek geok)
a person who i have known for 7 years... very stubborn in her ways... perfectionist.. my best/ close fren ever... very simple.. best wife to have... very responsible... a person who had been thru alot with me.. tahan me... and see me grow up!

Is #8(ryan neo) attractive?
hahaha!!! i guess... his stomach which is like a wall!

Describe #7 (melissa netto)

gaming, loud, sensitive, a close fren, who have a family that goes clubbing tgt, a sister who is hazel netto.. knew her thru zj... alot more!

What would you do if #18(nabil) confesses to you that he likes you?

WOW!!! that wont ever happen man! hahahahhaha!!! diff religion... and i belong to someone else.

What language does #15(maria) speak?

english... thats all i know..

Who is #9(matthais) going out with?

No one i think

How old is #16(melissa ling)?

19 this yr

When is the last time you spoke to #13(aaron tan)?

face to face is a month ago i think... if is sms is today...

Who is #2(dennis)'s fav. band/singer?
alot! to many to name!

Would you ever date #4(mich chen)?
nah! my mommy... no incest pls.. =p

Would you date #1(julianna)?
she want i also dun want! hahaha!!

Is #19(daryl) single?
yes

What is #10(jerry) last name?
fong

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11(wesley)?
haha... he got gf alr... wad a qn...

School of #3(pek geok)?
the most recent one will be NYP

Where does #6(jeremy) live?
dunno the name of the street.. but u wan to know where i bring you there! =)

What is your favourite thing about #5(nick t)?
a loyal and trustworthy fren i will ever have... =)

Would you think of killing #14(nizz)?
nah... i wont want to kill my mate...

5 people I would like to tag....
1) pek geok
2) norin
3) nickt
4) regina
5) mich chen


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10:40 PM







my face sometimes look like this~

my goodness... alot of medications!!!! alot to take note...
still dunno who is the 'jo' on my tag board...

going to a next phase of life.. trying to get used to it...

juls, thanks for your msg...
and one of my fren actually commented on my hair without me asking for comments! =)
1st time without me asking! miracle!

during my orientation for PRCP, when i saw my classmates! i was so happy... miss them alot...

actually, i miss that moment on 08072007 alot... =( how i wish tt day would never end at all.. and thank god for cameras cuz i did capture that moment! =)







its been a very long time i had real fun... as in give my soul a good laugh till it hyperventilate... its been a long time i had no worries when i go out...

i am tired... mentally...
i am very tired... gg holidays with parents to japan might not be as fun too cuz my parents gg with their frenz and kids...
i am tired till sometimes waking up to a new day is a chore... nothing to look forward to...
i am tired till walking from bus stop to home seems so far...
i am so tired till crying out loud doesnt help anymore...

i dont want to block myself out again which i did one yr ago... i learnt my lesson.

i really wish i am voted out of the survival game... real soon.


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6:58 PM








dont know how to react...
dont know wad i should do...

what is right what is wrong... hah! ppl define it so differently... wads my definition den?


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9:53 PM


i am gonna start my major attachment officially tmr!
my weekends gonna be burnt! i have to even work on sat and sun like a normal nurse alr! follow my staff nurse's roster.. =(

taking case was fun thou! haha... follow up with dr's orders and just update... however i am still not very use to picking up calls to talk or taking a msg( cuz i will forget to ask for their name!)


i'll be at ward 58... hopefully i will not be in the ICU and hopefully i will be at the B2 area. will my luck help me out this time?

ok.. gonna keep my hair long alr... no more short hair.. even thou it looks alright... cuz! ppl say i look more mature in long hair den short... =)

had a girls night out with peksy and juls! a last min outing...










XMAS IS COMING!!!!







Captured The Moment @

10:53 AM


BARACK OBAMA won the elections. =)


today's shift was nice... took 2 cases today! =)


Captured The Moment @

10:39 PM


我刚刚读了你的BLOG。

觉得你因该大概知道为什么我的不听你们的话。因为我觉得如果‘事情发生，有这一段幸福的日子就满足’。
那也是你说的！！我有放手一博！而这样我就不会后悔！=）

我没有后悔当初的选择。我现在很开心。

你也加油吧! 不要放弃！我会用远在这里，有什么事要我，竟管打电话！i will forever be your listening ear and be there for you! even if 伤害的程度可能会很深。

hahaha!!! half chinese and english sentence. sucha typical singaporean way of speaking


really glad.. life been good recently... even thou my mood sometimes its rotten... sorry dear...

major attachemnt coming up the following week! very excited and scare... i am gonna be really lost! hopefully everything will turn out well!

wish me luck!


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7:26 PM


i just put up a voting section...
vote pls...
long hair or short hair...

=)

cuz i love my short hair now but i miss my long hair alot!

oh wells today went window shopping with julie today.
i never succeed in window shopping b4. this is my first time succeeding! hahaha!

went MANGO to try out clothes too... this time its a leather jacket with a top tt i tot i'll never ever wear... hahaha!






tried on a leather vest too.. damn nice la! but $100++ =(
why all so exp! wish money will jus drop from the sky...

went BEBE to try out clothes! they are damn exp! $100++ - $200++!!
but nice la.. i admit!











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1:25 AM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENNIS!!!

we went to BOBBY'S to eat...
the place and the food there was nice.. esp their service! hahaha!!

the best part was when we were there eating the whole time the indoor's of BOBBY'S only had both of us as their customer!
make it seems that i booked the whole place just for us! hahaha!!! (maybe i did! dennis dun believe! hahahhaa!!!)
























supposed to bring him to fish spa... but he REFUSED~ tsk tsk! angry!

oh wells, his second present is not ready...


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10:37 PM


the word UNDERSTANDING and EXPECTATIONS can make your life wonderful or fucked up...

when u expect something to be done or happen and when it dont u feel like shit. ruin your mood or even affect your life...

when it happen the way you expected it lift your spirits high that u can be on cloud nine.



understanding... this word is so simple yet carries loads of emotions in it.


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4:08 PM


DEEEEE PARRR VALLL LIIIII

haha!!!

woke up early today even thou its public holiday... guess my body clock is kinda fixed already...

anyway, i went to escape theme park today... haiz! singapore is so boring i had to surf the net to see where is nice to have a fun day... o.0'''

went there... sat 2 rides... when its suddenly rain when we were queueing up for our 3rd ride, Gold Cart...

we went there when the weather was SOOO hot my mood was soooo shitty that dennis also kill me... hahaha!!!

at the end i spent my whole day from 1pm++ till 8pm++ to take the rides. @_@ cuz we had to wait for the rain to stop and such...

got all wet at the end cuz we played some water game... had headache on the way home cuz to cold! clothes were wet yet took bus home from pasir ris... haha!!!





weather SOOO blardy HOT!



end of our theme park day! =)





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9:44 PM































sentosa was HOT!!! but didnt dare to tan long cuz i am afraid of getting sun burnt! i need to work!

went home after buying tickets! SAW 5~ midnight show..

sleep till evening 8 plus... ate dinner, teochew porridge! shiok!
headed down to vivo again! sat and nua for awhile and movie here we go!

BROKE!


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2:11 PM


sometimes,
the truth weights heavier den the unknown cuz we dont want to get hurt...
maybe we are happy living like this slight misery...


but some people said that even thou the truth hurts, its the fact...
the sooner we know the faster we can get past the pain...
you can run from it now but not forever...


but i think it will still linger on...
cuz for me i might know the truth but not wanting to accept it...

bahhhhhh!!!


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2:05 PM


sometimes staying in the unknown is way better den knowing the truth even thou you are in misery and you feel lost..

cuz you will never know the truth might bear a heavier weight den the unknown...

but why do some ppl still search for the truth?


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1:08 AM


WOA~

3 days had past.
9 days more in the ward and i will be gg for my PRE-REGISTRATION CONSOLIDATION PLACEMENT (PRCP).

and it will end next yr 31 jan 2009!!! SO LONG~

anyway, i will be at ward 58. so if really wanna avoid me avoid there! haha!
its a surgical ward. hopefully everything will go well.

hopefully i can pick up my skills fast and good.
be able to rmb the medications indications and side effects! (i dread this alot!)

要长大了。要出去当一位护士了。每个人对我都会有一定的标准！希望能达到那些标准。


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10:30 PM


我刚刚到家不久。好累！！ 做工真的很累！走了很多，做了很多。
心情好多了。做工真的可以把你不开心的事给忘掉。

我的脚真的很痛，可能是不习惯站着样久吧！！

okok!! thurs and fri i will be gg home visiting aka home visiting.
friday dennis will be back from tekong...

oh wells! tmr i am gg to remove my stitches (STO) and wednesday i am gonna go for my follow up appt!

alright! thats all! i am gg to rest!


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10:36 PM


想用华语来写

今天我要上班了。好闷！！ 希望我的老师很好不会那么凶。希望一翻风顺！！

okok!! chinese is really hard to type! speaking is much easier!
i had a hard time pin-ing up my fringe. pin it in a way that i dun look toot!


alrite! time to leave and go for work before i am late!

ciao!


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11:50 AM


i cut my hair~!

very short!! i like! haha! now i look damn young! oh wells!
check out the difference man!

original length!




the view from behind






view from the front





i like! dun need to tie my hair when i go to work!


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6:12 PM


alot of things happened...

Do not know how much longer can it hold before the fire burn real big!
Do not know what will happen in future or at least in one month to come!

Tsk... all these dun need to happen...

ASAP isnt a time/date.
i need a date...

it can be solved if you really want it to be solve.
thats what i think...
u dun wan so many ppl around you to get involve...
but u getting ppl around me involve!


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11:48 AM


had a nice chat with pek geok yest night.
she decided to come down to my area.

talked abt ____________ happy can alr..
ya-dah ya-dah... =)

realised the present alison cant really hold a simple conversation with ppl generally..
maybe i just didnt want to or i lost it.

ppl my age or ppl who are grad from poly are gg to a diff phase of live..
a CHANGE in their speed... gg to work!~
get drown in all the stress and fast working pace...
learning new skills and procedure accompanied with loads of scoldings.

i am gonna start work on monday... and there will be no break till 31 jan.. at least not a long break. the most day off or weekends. thats if my shifts dun fall on weekends. 0.o

wanna write an email to you.
asking how are you and such... update each other..
but at the end i chose not to. will wait for you to approach me.
it would be much better.


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10:43 AM


aiyoo...

i feel so blardy poor...

i seriously need to start saving money when i start working next yr.
(okok.. i know some of you reading might be thinking why dun start now?)

for example:
save at least $1000 a month...
in that case, in 1 yr i'll have $12,000..

(but knowing my siblings will be able to take less den half a year to save $12,000!)

really need to study more to earn more... when will my head understand that...

for now,

i will start to work first after i grad from NYP.
in the midst of my work i will go for my advance diploma or my degree...

woa!! thats long way more to complete all! by the time i am in my late 20's! 0.o
ok.. one step at a time..

SIGH

just by thinking of it i feel like fainting. sometimes i thank God that i am in nursing line.but that means more ppl to compete with...

come to think of that, all job scopes are the same. alot of competition to be able to climb to the top or be the best.


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2:16 PM


got all excited before the operation...
to the extend of when they were inducing me with the drug i was fighting with the drug.. trying not to be sedated.. (just for the fun of it. even thou i know i wont win)

when i woke up.. everything was still okay... a lil of pain here and there...
the pain can be tolerated... but yet the pain was damn irritating.. haha...

the pek chek part comes when i am suppose to get up my dad's car and go home.. got prob gg up.. den i wish why my dad's car SO big and HIGH... o.0

anyway, now i cant walk.. cuz it hurts.. =( so back to square one...
dec 14 2007... a day i will never forget...

tmr gg for the wounding dressing... clean it up... cuz this current dressing is quite soaked with blood.. and the dried blood tugs to my stitches whenever i try to move my ankle...

why am i forever not satisfied with their dressing after i discharge?

the feeling of handicap-ness irritates the shit outta me...
finding a thermometer for dennis drain most my energy away... i am super pek chek abt that... not abt the finding the thermometer.. its the part when its a simple job and yet i need so much energy to get it and no one helped till i get my niece to bring it up for me...

HANDICAP suck!

pek chek pek chek pek chek!


Captured The Moment @

11:13 PM


time flys!!

its been 6 months alr...
alot of things happen ah!

alot more to come!!

HAPPY 6TH MONTH!

tmr i am gg to meet julie at her sch for lunch...
so interesting!!!

oh oh!! btw, i am having my operation on thurs!!
so excited.. cant wait to enter the operating room... not as a nurse but a patient!

i know wad medication they are gg to induce me with. exactly wad they are gg to do..

even how they will cut open my leg and remove the screws and metal plates!
hopefully i can keep it!

think i sound crazy! wooooHOOO~!

lets take a look at my wounds and bruise 9 months ago!

















wonder how will it turn out after my 2nd operation...
hopefully not so swollen! 0.o'''


Captured The Moment @

10:25 PM


i am so happy today... everything turn out good today!

met aaron and regi for 1130 mass today @ CTK... which i felt so weird... cuz dennis lum was sitting behind me... never been to mass @ CTK with other ppl instead of dennis...

after mass we three head off to town for a movie and shop... ate and chatted at KFC, watch movie 'connected', bought eye liner and dennis present part 1~, met juls for coffee... den met dennis for dinner!

all planned just nice! =)

had a nice time talking to juls... like our conversation can never stop! my goodness... and i am glad you wore SPECS! haha!! u noe wad i mean right?

i feel so loved...

glad.. it was practical and u liked it...






haha!!! i think u didnt expect me to get this for you!!
okok.. i am gg to continue my beauty sleep!!!


Captured The Moment @

4:08 AM


you know...

u make my mood swing... haha...

u cant be contacted now... which makes me worry... cuz not only one person is looking for you...

but your fren too...

i wonder if u are doing fine... safe... and not getting angry at one place... cuz things didnt go your way... or something happen... and i wasnt there for you...

hope you are having fun instead den something bad would happen to you...




my first time worried abt someone whether they are in danger anot.. normally i would go aiya... 'such' things wont happen.. not so suay...


Captured The Moment @

10:49 PM


happy hari raya!!!


alrite!! my day started GREAT!!!

cuz i went to expo for robinson's GREAT sale!! haha!!!

in total my parents and i spent abt $792++

WOA! but i think i spent the most!! cuz i bought the most... haha!!!
bought clothes, perfume, lip gloss, box (for my tibits), 2 bags and lastly loads of lingerie!!!

oh oh! pillow and bed sheets... yea yea.. bed sheets again! orange colour too! =)

spend alot alot alot...


later next i will be gg to watch movie with juls and gang...
and maybe meet up with dennis for awhile if can!


Captured The Moment @

1:22 PM


everything had been going great...

so far this 2 days of my OT posting, i manage to help out in recovery room (PACU) and in EOT (emergency operating room).

scrub into one case.. which not really considered really done one... practically didnt touch any equipments that i can hand over to surgeon... =S =`(
but at least i helped out in tie-ing their gown! haha!!!

tsk.. i dunno why sometimes i feel so unhappy when everything seems to be going fine..

watch 'house bunny' with the 'hero' today... hahaha!!!!! =) yea? dennis?
he find it nice... i find it alright... ending can be predicted.. other den that quite funny and sweet...

alright...

juls later all cdropping by my house later... tata!


Captured The Moment @

10:43 PM


had sooo much fun this few days...

just came back from amk~

bought my OT shoes! i am sooo happy...
cuz i got the colour (black) and size (size 37.
i bought it at a cheap cheap price!!

venue: near amk polyclinic! 0624 mates! u all can go and get it from there~
price: $6.90 only








cute rite!!

i love the starfish! got really excited choosing them... ok... small girl i know! =p

=D cant wait to go OT posting!!

oh oh!! met bianca today! cool huh! =)


Captured The Moment @

10:53 PM


today is my first day at ED~ emergency dept..

had almost 3hrs worth of orientation!!

was really lost in the beginning.. do this or that also not ok...
so we wander around in the AnE dept for 1st hr after our break...

all i did was ECG for patients! help Dr translate lang! tts all!
even thou i was attached to resuscitation room today!!!

no one collapse... duno i shld be happy or sad that no one collaspe!

my feet aches like no one's business.. =S

life is full of exciting things! =) esp mine at this phase of life...


Captured The Moment @

4:06 PM


i got CUTS on my face!

thanks to my nails! arghhh.. ugly!

the movie 'mirror' wasnt really scary... but more of the shocking la.. SIGH...

i bought two new set of bed sheets!
one orange, one purple! =D








somehow my these days wont come back to me anymore... it was one of my best days ever... i lost it...

will it ever come back?






did i? will i?
i dont want it to happen...
let God decide...
the hope... tt faith...
how?


Captured The Moment @

2:19 PM


i really dont believe our frenship is that fragile...

i know you, juls and monkey know me the best...
i know u are tired of my nonsense...

i know wad i am going into...
trust me? can?
i know you wont support me, but can i dont lose you?
i know u said no promises... but i will pray hard.

julianna(: counting two sundays says:
take it as me walking with you just like you walk with me back then (:

thx for that sentence... it help me alot


HOPE

clinging onto that lil bit of hope...
reminds me of that session i attend during ZJ...


Captured The Moment @

2:19 PM


BOOOOM!

juls blog got this quote

"find the people who respect you, not make you feel good."
- robin's words of wisdom

btw juls, who the hell is robin? haha!!!

aiya... life suck...

and

'a lifetime of lies eventually becomes the truth.'
- nicholas tay's words of wisdom!

hahahahahahahaha!!! WADEVER!




anyway...
i am looking forward for friday! my WHOLE gang will be present! my goodness.. the last time everyone was present was last yr @ changi airport, fish n co.

NICK! drive la.. make my wish come true! u driving us the whole gang out for a fun fun night! alright???? =)


Captured The Moment @

11:42 PM


suay suay suay....

went for check up this afternoon to see if i am fit for surgery..
went in... the anathetist look not bad! haha!!!
ask me questions...
listen to my lungs, ask if i smoke and any loose teeth...

den say alright you may go! HUH?!

duno why i jus walk out... den walk n walk... i start to think too much...
was wondering anything wrong with my lungs... suddenly no blood test all..

aiya heck la!

took the train... decided to alight at toa payoh to walk around... NOTHING TO SEE~ so i went NTUC to "shop"... while queueing up to pay... the guy behind kept on dropping his cereal box! 4 times!!! my goodness! o.0

took bus 153..

this is when i say i am damn suay! that bus broke down at risen chirst area! eh!! i jus board the bus not even one stop it brokedown! tsk!!!

walked to the other bus stop lo... neva so suay...

go check up.. waste my time to go all the way to ttsh to let that cute anathetist to listen to my lungs den go home.. queue up to pay stuff ppl kept on dropping their stuff and hit when the box drop... board the bus and it broke down! haihai!

so suay ah! haha!!


Captured The Moment @

6:20 PM


woooooooooohoooooooooooo!!!


okok.. i am seriously graduating next year!



i pass my exams!!


yea!!


now focus on my attachments! and i am done with NYP for now!


do you know this time round for my exams i only studied one or two days before it! my goodness... last time at least one month b4!

guess God really bless me abundantly!
cuz even i have to handle other stuff during my exam period and i still manage to pass!

*grinz*

still like this phrase... cuz very very very true... plus its the 2 shows i like the most!


house says "everyone lies " and greys says "practice makes perfect"



Captured The Moment @

11:26 AM


went facial today... was not as bad...
rented new set of VCDs to watch! haha!



no more option C... turns out to be option A...



the word wadever was like a bang at my face...


one more week to my start of attachments! its gonna be hell..
thinking of attachments, reminds me of my previous attachment beginning of the year...


Captured The Moment @

12:29 AM


that chapter seriously ended officially yesterday...

we both chose an option.
we know its an option to choose but not a solution...

had a hard time deciding... how? wad to do??

i went there having a certain kind of answer...
but knowing that i might change the answer depends on wad the other party chose.

3 options were lay out...
tough.. very hard..

at least i knew it for myself...
i know its hard but i decided to follow my brain instead...

my mom's opinion played a major role in it... i admit.

and i am glad u respected it... =)

things had certainly changed...
and i am contented with the last option.

didnt want to but i had to...

glad things turn out well.. didnt expect us to settle it that nicely


Captured The Moment @

2:26 PM


i am stuck... very stuck...

shocked and digesting...



which part will eat me up first??


Captured The Moment @

2:30 PM


pictures we took at hard rock...




















eh!!! juls... who is that guy behind me?! SHAAAM


Captured The Moment @

11:56 PM


ok...

i admit i got shaken from all the contacts these few days...

me moving a few metres away from that spot...
i step backwards at least at 1/2 metre...

you've to contact me when i am having fun... making me feel 'sigh'...
have to jus call when i tot you werent gonna contact anymore...
have to msg me tt sms...

oh wells... plus the show i am watching aint helping too.. haha!!




juls juls pek pek nick nick....

wow... all update their blog... good good.. we shld have more fun.. but just maybe we spend lesser money! haha!

is there anything happening this fri? i cant rmb...
think sat suppose to go somewhere... but cant rmb...

oppsy doopsy!



house says "everyone lies " and greys says "practice makes perfect"


Captured The Moment @

7:38 PM


i was ok...

you just have to piss me off!

just by your sms...

thx.. if thats your main motive.. congrats you have successfully did it!


Captured The Moment @

1:24 AM


seriously..

i think everyone had fun! juls had real fun at Hard Rocks...

pek geok had loads of fun at chalet...

i had loads of fun the whole week since i had sooo much time with me now...
since 1st sept!!!


i had alot alot of fun at chalet on monday.. which ends on tuesday!

played cards... laugh sooo much my tummy hurts... our legs become a drawing board...
while playing i wish the rest were around... including jeremy...

took 200++ photos during our chalet.. shall update once i get all the photos!

yest...

Why does the virus always come back

when i tot its been eradicated...
when i tot i am on recovery...
when i tot i am getting over the torturing process...

the virus have to attack again... so i will be in that state thinking "why is it back to haunt me?"

no worries... i guess i knew how to handle such illness alr.. since i been thru b4...
hopefully... my immune bodies can fight over it...

seriously....




anyway.. on the side note!

i am having my operation on 9 of oct! dammit...
kinda dread the pain that will come after it...


the DR surprisingly can rmb me...



not my name, not what happen to me...

BUT

i am THE NURSE~ 0.o

wth la! haha! dunno whether to laugh or cry! haiz! =D


Captured The Moment @

8:44 PM


my goodness... today super slack...

miss home when i was out w daryl n juls after mass for lunch at amk hub...
the moment i reached home... half an hour later i regret coming back...
spending my night alone in my room makes it damn intolerable...

finish my HOUSE (S4) thats why...

ok... bored.. bored... bored...
so gonna do my crunches!

sudden tot...

i have a bunch of frens i noe for more den half a decade...

knowing our habits... our likes our dislikes.. our tots.. where to hang out w/o fear tt someone might get bored.. our certain actions means something..

sometimes... i do not know, if time place tt impt role... i dun mean frenship alone...

joseph pt out something which i agreee too... aiyo... wadeva la...

gonna set myself rite w goals or things tt i can achieve... which means focus in life!


Captured The Moment @

10:19 PM


its 07 sept 08 alr......... this suck

went to my jie hse early in the morning!!

ethan sooo cute!!

headed down for zj... den hard rocks with juls again.. u all might think no life ah...
but its just that the band not bad... yea...


your msg shocked me in the morning...
i didnt know how to react...

tempted to type wad i wanna say, but didnt dare to.. cuz no point...
how i wish but it wont come thru...

What Your Name Says About You

Your name says that you are mostly: Ambitious but stubborn Your name also says you are: Thoughtful but slow Artistic but extreme Charismatic but impulsive

but for you...

Your name says that you are mostly:

-Shrewd but overbearing

Your name also says you are:

-Passionate but flighty
-Unconventional but unstable
-Artistic but extreme


Captured The Moment @

1:28 AM


SHIOK!

this week duno spend out much alr~ my goodness... think near $800 bucks altogether...
i think actually more la.. plus the chalet...

OK...

today i went cycling with my babe n dude! peksy and nick!

from ECP till Changi beach! my goodness.. think... one trip to changi beach is about 10km+++
so altogether cycle for 20km++!! wow.. cycling is way better den running i tell u... took alot of pics... =)


peek-tures!

our first break after cycling... nice weather! nice clouds!

















ok! now... we've reached our changi airport check point! at the rd side..







our 2nd break! haha! took loads more photos! tried taking photos.. endless road!







after... we were near changi beach alr... decided to stop and jus take some nonsense pic.. cuz the tree look nice?! haha! lame!







alrite! manage to snap a shot of an areoplane... as if i neva see one... pek and nick too shag.. as usual.. i was the only one super hyped up!







evidence! i cycled all the way here! i actually cycle pass my mom work place! @_@


end of taking a sunset pic!

nice?




and a la lang photo! haha!! we called it the la lang place!





after cycling we three went joo chiat to eat wanton noodles and rojak!

met juls later for dessert.. our so called dessert is PRAWN-ing!!! my goodness... we caught 2 prawns in an hour... miserable... BUT!!!

when we are abt to leave.. when nick was transfering the prawns into a plastic bag.. one manage to jump back into the pond! haha! wasted... den we got so sian cuz is only one prawn.. we decided to throw the other ONE back into the pond...

like tt also happy! haha!


okok!!! my 1st prawn!! HAHA! either i super pro or lucky... i caught my first prawn within 10 mins! sooo happy... making hell alot of noise.. cuz scare of prawn... @_@













peksy! wads with tt smile! damn funny! wahaha!!!



in this pic.. juls say me n nick like shaking hands with e prawn... in actual fact... i was trying to hold the legs down!





that miserable prawn left... haha!







everyone were all so tired.. so nick fetch us all home! yea yea!

Zzzzzz

while prawning... i tot...

need to find someone who can take my nonsense...
take my craziness and my mood...
someone who can compromise and not think about solely themselves.. however i know love is always selfish...

actually.. i did found tt someone but i guess i let e chance slipped off.. tt chance..

DUMB AND DUMBER!


i might sound i am still lingering on wad had happen.. but in actual fact, not really.. i'm jus wondering abt my long term goal... thinking will it ever happen! haha!

from juls blog...

"Just got back from prawning which I swear is boring! We pathetically caught 2 in an hour for $15 and our dear nick just had to drop one, so we left with THE ONE prawn that Alison will always dream of. HAHHAA."

wadeva la juls!


Captured The Moment @

12:24 AM


i just got home...

hard rock! i went today!

first we head down to cafe iguana, it wasnt great...

later head down to hard rock! damn i have been missing out so much lately...
hard rock was good.. esp the band... the MAN!!! haha... yea juls?
the band tt will be there singing for thurs fri and sat... think sunday also.. cant rmb...

drank 2 cups of alcohol... not bad la... not much of a kick... but the brownie was GOOD! shiok...

the lead singer was known as mark... but intro to juls as MAN! haha!!! saw tt he smiled at her jus now... haha! damn funny!

laughed our way home...

i wish... i have seriously... i want to... why...

laughed n laughed non stop... my parents were so compromising tt is so hurting... be that strict parents i knew... den i know nothing much change...

peek-tures!!

first stop!!! cafe iguana!!!












ook!!! its hard ROCK time!

















thats our first round!!! brownie top w ice cream & nachos! w i think gin n tonic? suppose to be that... but duno wad they serve us instead... =)

























that was our second round! ok.. tts it for the night!





you really cracked me up juls... made me laugh so much in the taxi... *smile*
you are soooo seh.... tt u react as siao as me... which the siao for me is normal.. cuz i am always 24/7 crazy!


Captured The Moment @

1:29 AM


its amazing...

everyone saw the same thing... everyone knew wads happening..

i was the one not knowing it... was oblivious to it...

my mom came up to talk to me.. didnt really say wad happen... didnt really mention anything much... but she told me some stuff...

wad she saw, i didnt realise till she mention it... and which i rmb wad other people say so too...

guess i was really goon goon... =)


Captured The Moment @

7:56 PM


yea yea... i am glad i had improvements!!

from last night till now i guess i bounce back a lil alr! my goodness! shiok...
plus plus i am finding a new hobby... still cant really think of one tt i can take it as a hobby!

alison is so cool... when she walk pass everyone they freeze!

okok... its lame... =D

dammit... back to where i was... who i was... not exactly the me 10 mths ago thou.. but is at least better!


way to go ALLY



ohoh.. btw, i forget to update! i watch WALL E. alr!!! my goodness... sooooo sweet and cute... damn funny... laugh out loud once or twice when the cinema was quiet! hah!

and and... i got a book to read.. and a yoga mat! and shopped hell alot on monday! got a new HP! bought stuff from diva which i duno why last time i could find any... plus plus... i bought a new dress and 2 green tops! hehe! nice.... duno wads w me n green!







tadah! nice? hehe... touchscreen one.. recommended by my Godbro! heh! so... BE JEALOUS! =p


Captured The Moment @

2:18 PM


i am glad that i had friends around to fall on for cushioning of impact...

i know they care... keeping me accompany from sat till now...

checking on me... even i did neglect them in some ways before...

fri...
i had michelle and pek geok... to chill out for the night...

sat...
i had my family... went sister's place to play with ethan...

sun...
i had daryl and mel to accompany me thru the day from the min i wake up... and julie meeting me up after the tiring Nike run..

monday was scary... but i had nick and pek geok... accompanying me.. accommodating my stupid implusive ideas... controlling my spending power...

today...
i had my alone time... and soon, time with God, daryl and ah pun... felt sooo bad i didnt dare to go for confession to confess my sins... i dont dare to face God...

at heartland when we are walking around, daryl had to say i was seeing things... which i know by doing all these... he cared... which shock me...


i am fine.. thanks for the concern... i took it quite ok... cuz i was prep for it! =p
and i am the alison..


i jus need the focus.. i need some motivation and drive... i need to get back on track where i was 10 months ago... before i broke my leg... i guess i actually didnt move on from there...

i was floating and passing by my days...


my goodness... my mother trigger the switch... so overwhelming... i cant take it...


__________________________________________________________

got this passage from an email sent by my fren... wad a time to receive such a mail.. i got it... it took a huGe load away after reading thou

i am trying... to do wad the passage said... trying very hard! =) wish me luck ppl!


There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe i n good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can' t treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you! u have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship........

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ...........

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying 'take your hands off of it,' then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!'


Captured The Moment @

11:56 PM


everything seems so slow... so empty... everything feels so heavy...

wad kinda of reason... rubbish...
this is call not trying hard enuff...

told you.. cab driver... passenger... it shldnt have started... the journey was too expensive to pay... pocket burn a big hole... ur heart felt the pinch...

u prove me right... time and communication is important...

even time isnt a big issue.. but communication does... u said it yourself...

but u didnt even communicate... you expect me to know w/o u communicating... ironic.. contradicting... to read.. n take note...

the more i think the more i dont get it...


can i still believe that one day my long term goal... my dream will ever happen?


Captured The Moment @

2:47 PM


things arent going well.. i meant not going well cuz...

my fucking phone choose to die on me... when i need it the most now to settle stuff.. nvmm got a new phone.. DEN the fucking SIM card die on me cuz of some PUK shit..

now i lost all my contacts! way to go alison!


i cant take it... can all of you stop asking me questions... why why why...



ARGH FUCK!!! why my phone plus sim card is so fucking irritating!


Captured The Moment @

1:46 AM


at the end... a continuation of the previous episode...

Pt page the hell out of the Dr... Dr finally told the pt the diagnosis... the pt was sooooo damn bloody angry, so damn worked up, he/she gave a lecturing to the Dr...

the pt had stomach cancer.. everyone had been telling me... that they knew it would happen is just a matter of when.. since he/she haven been eating correctly...

after he/she had cool down, he/she den again say thank you for the Dr wonderful help... wonderful care in the ward...

pt wonder, did the Dr short change him/her? did or didnt he? dunno...

ok... pt got well after treatment... will get well.. maybe a bit of infection here and there.. but will get well!

normally, pt will go thru denial stage for awhile... as information didnt really sink in...





GET WELL SOON ALLY!


Captured The Moment @

10:07 AM


pt = patient Dr = doctor

a new episode for the HOUSE production to consider.... hahaha!!!! tell if its interesting yea?

this pt is waiting for the diagnosis from the Dr..

while waiting, this pt got all the bad emotions he/she can ever get... later in the day the broad spectrum medication that the Dr gave, pt got slightly better.. which leads to thinking that maybe this is just a false alarm...

he/she got all glad...

but as he/she start seeing a new symptom appearing... he/she got confused... got all the bad emotions back again...

the pt starts to query... if things are getting any better or not...

yet the pt assumes that the Dr was trying very hard to find the diagnosis... thinking the Dr might be having great difficulty too... he/she starts to think... if the Dr is really thinking or......

suddenly, the pt starts to get the seizures... which got him/her even more paranoid...

the pt kept on paging the Dr.. non-stop.. page n page... kept on asking what does the symptoms presented imply... wad is happening... he/she didnt want to be kept in the dark.. as days gone by.. the pt had acute pain in his/her chest... pt wanted sedation.. wanted morphine to numb/relief the pain for e time being... cuz the Dr didnt even answer the page nor visit the pt for consultation.. so he/she wanted the pain killer...

medication is given to him/her for the gd night rest... yet the pt is worrying whats wrong...

he/she wish this was all in his/her mind... is psychological... wishing everything was actually okay...

the pt wants to think that there might be still hope...

but yet, the pt thinks if he/she were to be diagnose... he/she will accept it...

HE/SHE WANTS TO KNOW THE DIAGNOSIS ASAP... HE/SHE DONT WANT TO BE HOLDING ON TO DEAR LIFE THINKING NONSENSICAL ANSWERS WHERE THE DR CAN GIVE... HOW LONG MORE DOES THE DR NEEDS?


p/s: do u think this story has a twist in it?


Captured The Moment @

1:27 AM


i




am




tired...







You are Everything To Somebody
Right now at this very minute-----------

someone
is very proud of you

someone
is thinking of you

someone
cares about you

someone
misses you

someone
wants to talk to you

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hopes you aren't in trouble

someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided

someone
wants to hold your hand

someone
hopes everything turns out all right

someone
wants you to be happy

someone
wants you to find them

someone
is celebrating your successes

someone
wants to give you a gift

someone
think you ARE a gift

someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

someone
wants to hug you

someone
loves you

someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts

someone
admires your strength

someone
is thinking of you and smiling

someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on

someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

someone
thinks the world of you

someone
wants to protect you

someone
would do anything for you

someone
wants to be forgiven

someone
is grateful for your forgiveness

someone
wants to laugh with you about old times

someone
remembers you and wishes you were there

someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional

somebody
values your advice

someone
wants to tell you how much they care

someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with
you

someone
wants to share their dreams with you

someone
wants to hold you in their arms

someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms

someone
treasures your spirit

someone
wishes they could STOP time because of you

someone
can't wait to see you

someone
wishes that things didn't have to change

someone
loves you for who you are

someone
loves the way you make them feel

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hears a song that reminds them of you

someone
wants you to know they are there for you

someone
is glad that you're their friend

someone
wants to be your friend

someone
stayed up all night thinking about you

someone
is alive because of you

someone
is wishing that you would notice them

someone
wants to get to know you better

someone
believes that you are their soul mate

someone
wants to be near you

someone
misses your guidance and advice

someone
values your guidance and advice

someone
has faith in you

someone
trusts you

someone
needs you to send them this letter

someone
needs your support

someone
needs you to have faith in them

someone
needs you to let them be your friend

someone
will cry when they read this



who is that someone? i can think of one... but... i cried.. when i read this.. this suck!

i step back one step alr.. i will wait for you to step forward...


Captured The Moment @

8:06 PM


finished my exams on thurs!

dennis manage to get out of camp that night.. =D
such a coincidence... hmmm...

den fri met up with melissa for a swim den to eat at Hougang mall...

sat... overslept.. but manage to make it for the sharing followed by a movie at AMK hub with daryl, "hunting party".. not bad..
had dinner with my gang at the airport.. we had fish n co... too alot of funny photos..

YESTERDAY!

BBQ with my classmates... was fun.. seriously... even thou it was raining the whole day! my goodness.. manage to BBQ chicken and stuff.. played games... cycle till my knee hurts last night... neck hurts too..

today went for facial n bought dennis something.. =)

cant wait for tmr...

p/s: realise alot of ppl gg for the vocational thingy this weekend.. wow!



ok... another passage u all can read!

To All Married Couples and To All Future Couples!!!!

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.

I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:
'I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart'

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage.

Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.

We teach some by what we say
We teach some more by what we do

But we teach most by what we are
- Unknown

You don't get to choose how you are going to die, or when, but, you can decide how you are going to live, here and now.


Captured The Moment @

10:01 PM


its the end...

end of exams... finish my last paper.. but aint happy about it... dunno how the results will be.. so sian till i just take cab home...

MY MAID WASH MY BLANKET!
thats my smelly blanket... *argh*

i am upset.. seriously.. i duno man..

am i thinking too much?


Captured The Moment @

2:56 PM


i wish...

i just wish hard enough...

pls dont let it crumble... will i bang the wall that hard till i bleed... like wad julie says?




what if the Dr is looking for something.. assuming that pt has this certain illness.. but yet dunno if it is even there in the first place? is the Dr using too much brain on unnecessary things?

Dr or the team will know if the symptoms ever appear in time to come... the pt look pale btw... feeling hypoxic...


Captured The Moment @

1:23 PM


i give up..

when it will happen it happens...

i am not gonna fear... i will be the alison julie and nick they all know...


i am gonna be the way i was before...


Captured The Moment @

11:35 PM


i hope my 6 sense is wrong...
i hope i am thinking too much...
i hope it wont happen to me...

or is it really just my mind's wire are alil haywire?
i am scared...
things aren't the same.. i look back months ago... its diff from now...
emotions are running chaotic in me..
is it the dormant stress swimming around me? or am i right..
when the time is right.. it will happen.......


can u assure me? can you?

wad if my 6 sense was right... how am i gonna handle it? wad am i gonna do?
am i rest assured tt the "crumbled" pillar will appear??


Captured The Moment @

1:14 PM


its not the lungs.. not the liver nor the GI tract...

its the heart and the brain...
lack of oxygen... lack of blood flow...

finally the antibiotics works..
or shld i say it cure by itself... is all in the mind...
psychologically not really sane.. mental status a bit off.. =p

however, certain things came to consensus... super happy... the cells in the body start to multiply as normal.. the bacteria/virus are being eradicated... hurhurhur...

yea! stop the procedure... no more medical therapy...
this infection can be cured... it will be cured... its curing...

COOL!
does it sound interesting? its a case! wad case? DUNCH TELL YOU!!
damn... i am like HOUSE for this case.. happy that i solved the puzzle! wont you be happy too?? wahaha...


Captured The Moment @

11:15 PM


ok... got the answer...

answer to who made e error...

exams adds up to everything... even thou seems to be ladida.. half the time behind my head feeling all tensed up...


Captured The Moment @

1:04 AM


uneasy...
worried...
sensitive...

i am reflecting... lost...

wondering...

whose error?? wad can and did it go wrong that cause this infection for this case?


Captured The Moment @

9:50 PM


i seriously have no mood...

u kill the mood...
u affect me...
but u had your reasons...i know... but still...

i am pissed... very pissed... very unhappy... i have no choice but to be okay with it cuz of the reason you gave...

contradicting huh?

tsk here n there... get irritable easily... cuz u are tired.. cuz medication affects you... your flu n cough affects you..

but you didnt put in the effort to solve or improve the cough and flu so you wont be irritable..

fine... i learnt how to handle it.. no choice...


Captured The Moment @

11:47 PM


very nice! i like the way he put things... makes sense too... =)


Life and How to Survive It

Below is a speech to the graduating class of 2008 at NTU convocation ceremony last week by Adrian Tan, a litigation lawyer and the author of The Teenage Textbook. Read it! It's hilarious but very meaningful.

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan "Arbeit macht frei" was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You’re going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there’s no life expectancy.


Captured The Moment @

11:35 AM


alot of things happened... no more lessons in NYP for the near future...
exams are nearing...

went zouk with maria and nizz.. to celebrate maria's belated bdae! =)











































































dennis is back from brunei... finally...

had bdae dinner for my ah gong.. cut the cake and all...

anyway, i am so not in the mood for anything else.. for now..


Captured The Moment @

10:13 PM









this cartoon i found it while doing my slides!

ok.. yesterday was zj 5th anniversary!

had a video... almost quite a few pics i am inside! i felt old.. from dunno when till now!! OLD!! since fits.. 7 years alr.. tsk tsk! haha..

after that went for mass.. theres a new priest.. visiting our church for a few days! he very cute.. he said.. in his country a priest who only give a 15 mins surmon is a very lazy priest!! cuz in singapore.. our surmons can only last 12 mins or so.. haha!

after mass i went to amk hub with melissa, jerry, nick and ryan.. watched "dark knight"








the show damn nice! heh! the joker damn cute la! his acting damn real.. i like the part where he wears the nurses uniform.. damn funny the way he walked and all..

oh wells...

later will be ethan's baptism! =)

p/s: i updated my bdae photos! below... my bdae entry..


Captured The Moment @

12:42 PM


i need money.. i need it badly..

MONEY

dammit...


Captured The Moment @

3:46 PM


kinda relieve that they knew about certain things and yet say its modern and was ok la.. kinda thing.. slowly la..

but certain ppl knew some other stuff and cant accept it.. dont approve of it.. this making me very sandwich-ed.. my fault its a duh! reaction...

i want both.. i want the best of both worlds.. i want the both worlds to become one.. even thou it seems like everything is ok now.. but i know deep down we are not really ok..

i still have good frens.. but i kinda think i lost my closes friends in my life that i've found... it will neva be the same.. i was dependent and vice versa.. but maybe not so.. maybe.. i dun wan to think about the maybes..

can it be the same? i felt the awkwardness just that i dun really show it? or we dun show it. i felt the dull pain at the back of my head and chest.. telling me.. ''hey! you think u can forget about wad happen.. you wont..''

how ironic... life on the surface.. on the everyday life, it seems damn fucking gd.. going thru day by day laughing and going thru lessons.. yet how suffocating when my internal things starts to float up once in a while and den i choose to push it back down to stay sinked at the bottom...

my family is doing great.. ethan is going to get baptise on sunday.. today is my mom's bdae.. just an update i wanna update myself too.. to keep myself in check.. sometimes i lost my way of life...

went swimming on wed and today! SHAG! tired! muscle aching.. but SHIOK!
neva swim so much in my life... trying so hard not to eat so much after swim.. i managed to not eat that much.. jus a packet of milo at least.. and a proper meal.. lunch or dinner..

tanning tmr.. study tmr? hopefully..

exams coming! focus!!!

8 more days till you are back from brunei.. cant wait..

soteimmes i feel lkie i hvae fnres yet no fnres. tts the wrsoe


Captured The Moment @

11:32 PM


i passed my skills exam...

it was my last skill exam i am gonna have...
soon my exams are coming... damn sian!!

dennis in brunei.. its the 2nd day alr...

projects slides to do...

sat i got ZJ bbq~ cant wait!


Captured The Moment @

5:30 PM


as wad daryl said in the note he wrote on my present..

" be happy that actually ppl gives a shit about you..."

even thou he put it in sucha manner i felt it.. i felt the care and concerns my friends have been showering me...

no need to be in the in-grp to feel good.. ETC..

thx for everything...
my life aint that bad...
my cross aint that heavy if i see it in another way...

guess i kinda lost focus.. i lost myself for awhile... being all lalala.. haha-ing around as usual.. i realise i was an empty shell for awhile..

now my brain got cleared up.. able to see wad is happening around me...


thurs,

dennis celebrated my birthday with me.. went novena area to eat.. he got me a bag!
i bought cotton on clothes...

friday,

i am down with flu and cough.. even thou it was den's few days of free days b4 back to jungle for training... he accompanied me thru.. went gardens to have out desert.. he said it was nice.. but i cant taste! haha!!!

saturday!

morning... he brought me breakfast! wanton noodles, bean curd and ceuh queh.. i ate it all up.. nua around cuz i feeling very duhhh.. both of us felt sian cuz i was sick and he had to go back camp... but after eating our toast and mochi at HK cafe... we felt more hyped up! heh!! yea...

evening i went for ZJ den out to vivo's Hog's breath to have my birthday celebration with my gang.. nice! =) i dress like as if it was winter! haha!!! scarf and all!

i love the presents they give me...
body shop kit and most impt-ly the handmade board of pics of us with special notes from everyone..

i love that to bits.. i felt sooo love.. =)

thx!!

den!! when are u giving me the model? hehe! cant wait!


today!!!

met up with aaron and regina for lunch and movie.. watched ''its a boy girl thing''.. not bad la.. but the plot is predictable..

after that i met daryl and nick to watch ''hancock'' nice! funny!! woa.. if ever got such ppl on this planet it would be gd!!

thx for the present aaron n regi..
u let go and everything will be alrite ok!!
learn from it.. will be there for u!

anyways...
i will upload the pics one day.. not today cuz i am still sick!!!!








story for you all to read!

A man found a cocoon of an emperor moth. He took it home so that he
could watch the moth come out of the cocoon. On the day a small
opening appeared, he sat and watched the moth for several hours as the
moth
struggled to force it body through that little hole. Then it seemed to
stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it
could and it could go no farther. It just seemed to be stuck. Then the
man, in his kindness, decided to help the moth, so he took a pair of
scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The moth
then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled
wings. The man continued to watch the moth because he expected that,
at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to
support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened! In
fact, the little moth spent the rest of its life crawling around with
a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly. What the
man in his kindness and haste did not understand was the restricting
cocoon and the struggle required for the moth to get through the tiny
opening were
God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the moth into its wings so
that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from
the cocoon. Freedom and flight would only come after the struggle. By
depriving the
moth of a struggle, he deprived the moth of health.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If God
allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles. He would
cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. How
true this is! How many times have we wanted to take the quick way out
of struggles and difficulties, to take those scissors and snip off the
remaining bits in an attempt to be free. We need to remember that our
loving Father will never give us more that we can bear and through our
trials and struggles we are strengthened as gold is refined in the
fire.

"May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or
shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can
have." Don't focus on the things you DON'T have, enjoy each moment of
every day God has given you. This is the day that the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it. So let's take today, even with its
struggles and make it a good day ... our loving Father God has given
this day to me to use as best as I can. The struggles of life won't go
away, but remember that God is allowing us to go through it for a
reason.

Disturb us, O Lord when we are too well pleased with ourselves, when
our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little, when we
arrived in safely because we sailed too close to the shore. Disturb
us, O. Lord when with the abundance of the things we possess we have
lost our thirst for the water of Life; when having fallen in love with
time we have ceased to dream of Eternity; and in our efforts to build
the new earth have allowed our vision for the New Heaven to grow dim.
Stir us, O Lord

to dare more boldly, to venture on wider seas, where storms shall show
Thy mastery, where losing sight of land we shall find the stars. In
the name of Him who pushed back the horizons of our hopes and invited
the brave to follow Him.


Captured The Moment @

11:17 PM


stop asking..
stop thinking that way..

self-fulfilling prophecy...

i try...

making me very cautious, very tensed.. sometimes...


dennis! thx for today's belated celebration and present.. love it! =)

have to wake up soo early tmr! =S 6am!!


Captured The Moment @

12:04 AM


after watching "wanted" with dennis today..

this question irriates my mind soo much...

am i in control of my life? str away my ans was NO

can think of a few examples.. which i really hate myself for..
the feeling that i couldn't control my life.. is not that ppl want to control my life.. is i let them control mine.. or rather i give them the impression that i can be easily controlled, easily influence and swayed..

i kinda let them control me.. me, giving in at the end... me not having my own strong vaules, stands and decisions..

respect...

this word came into my mind...


Captured The Moment @

11:24 PM


happy 20th bdae to me...

thx everyone for your msg and wishes...

dear! u are sweet la! when u appear in my room without me knowing with a cheesecake!
even thou u are so tired... thx...

cut my hair too! other den that my day was pretty normal!

pics!


























i look like i just came back from a country having winter! heh!


Captured The Moment @

11:22 PM


2 hrs and 15 mins left to end of my teen!! my nineTEEN!!!

hahaha!! i am so looking forward to it! dunno why.. maybe felt better when juls say she is coming for the dinner on sat... peksy actually reply my msg somehow..

yea! you all are lovely...

ate sooooooo much at jap restaurant!!

cha soba
chicken
tofu
jellyfish
3 plates of sushi
crab balls
3 plates of mochi ( 6 pieces )
sashimi
hot green tea
mango classic

almost died! sooo full!! tmr! out with melissa to cut hair!! shiok!!
guess hair style about the same! haha!!



























Captured The Moment @

9:43 PM


one more day to the end of my teen days! oh wells...

i have to say BYE 19 and HI 20!!

damn!!! i heard from ppl that time flies super fast when you hit the number 2!!
its ok.. ppl always say i look younger den my age.. so...

when i am 30 next time.. ppl will think i am 22-25 yrs old! HAH!

went crystal jade to eat la mian and xiao long bao with dennis... shopped again! bought scarf and a pair of shoe.. its not shoe shoe.. but its a plum shoe? covered toe shoe? its damn cheap! $14.90 only! haha!

den rush home just on time.. 6pm... when swissotel to have buffet.. its a hotel near clarke quey! nice food.. i ate alot of sashimi! woa woa woa...

dennis came and slack with me till 12plus..

HAPPY 3rd MONTH dennis!

even thou you will be working in camp! @_@ nvm.. law of bo pian-ness!! haha!!!

juls and jerry cant make it for my bdae...
i treasured that night.. 08/07/07... but i wish it could happen again.. when every single one was there... able to make it.. laughing and enjoying the moments...

now...

all scattered... jeremy in cambodia.. juls and jerry cant make it on sat.. pek geok and mich neva reply my sms...

did i lose it? did i lost ppl??

i just have to have faith...


Captured The Moment @

1:08 AM


days move on..

fun.. blur.. cuz i jus go with the flow.. i am suppose to react this way i will react this way... and day by day it pass..

i watched quite a few movies.. zohan.. get smart.. 10 promises you made to the dog..

the last movie i watched was really very very very sad~ i cried from the beginning till the end.. even thou i knew how the movie is gonna end.. blablabla..

nearer to my bday!!

plans!

monday: grp mates...
tuesday: sadly its my bdae itself, i do not have plans
wednesday: either with aaron regi they all
thursday: out w dennis
friday: free...
saturday: my lovely gang...
sunday: zj ppl??

wonder when peksy n mich are free to meet up for a meal too!! lovelove.. i am glad our frenship still exist.. ok.. we will give each other time.. just let me know when you all are free to meet up...

today i went to ASTON's to eat.. head home to slack and change.. watched quite a few funny video clips w dennis... den we made our way down to HK cafe to eat desert.. my mom actually knew dennis was around and she kinda okay with it.. =) still let me out to have a drink w dennis

ate strawberry snow ice! thick bread with peanut butter & condensed milk!! bean curd with tang yuan!!!

shiok shiok shiok shiok!!!
DAMN SWEET!! everything was very very sweet!

















Captured The Moment @

11:29 PM


lost of hope...
yet i see light...

things kinda got some action done... soon it will maintain and follow by termination..

pre comtemplation
comtemplation
action
maintanence
termination



happy 19th birthday melissa!!!

happy 23rd birthday jeremy!!!

my cramps are bad.. for the first day at least..

i suppose to be looking forward like i do every year... i suppose to feel how i felt last yr at changi airport... i guess it will neva be the same..

i believe everything happen for a purpose.. i didnt regret.. i learnt from it...

maomao..
-thx for being understanding..
-thx for even thou i didnt handled it properly somehow..

ex-mama...
i lost one wont want to lose another


Captured The Moment @

10:19 PM


i am not looking forward to my birthday at all this year...

i am not looking forward...


decided to stand by my principle again.. even thou i did broke it... i dedided to "restart" that principle..

if you get wad i meant...





.


Captured The Moment @

10:21 PM


had fun today!!! did the surveys with melissa.. thx for helping.. you're the best!!

after that dennis came to my sch.. ate lunch.. talked.. went to my hse.. slack.. wrestling!!

went chinatown to eat with his godma and godpa! walked around chinatown.. bought belt.. and dennis bought me earrings!

we ate tutu kueh and muah chee tgt.. he bought his fave posters..

LOVE it!


Captured The Moment @

11:31 PM


i lost...
you got the voucher.. but u decided to give it to me.. how sweet of you dear! =D

pics tt i took at walas!!!








































email for u to read!!

Subject: What love is

These are so great!

WHAT LOVE MEANS TO AGE 4 TO 8YEAR OLD CHILDREN

What does Love mean?

A Group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to8 year-olds,'What does love mean?'The answers they got were broader and deeper thanAnyone could have imagined.

See what you think:
________________________________

'When my Grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and painther toenailsAnymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his Handsgot arthritis too. That's love.'

Rebecca- age 8
________________________________

'WhenSomeone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just knowThat your name is safe in their mouth.'

Billy - age 4
________________________________

'Love isWhen a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go outAnd smell each other.'

Karl - age 5
________________________________

'Love isWhen you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries withoutMaking them give you any of theirs.'

Chrissy - age 6
________________________________

'Love isWhat makes you smile when you're tired.'

Terri - age 4
________________________________

'Love isWhen my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it toHim, to make sure the taste is OK.'

Danny - age 7
________________________________

'Love isWhen you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still wantTo be together and you talk more.My Mommy and Daddy are like that. TheyLook gross when they kiss'

Emily - age 8
________________________________

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents andListen.'

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
________________________________

'If youWant to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'

Nikka - age 6(we need a few millionMore Nikka's on this planet)________________________________

'Love isWhen you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'

Noelle - age 7
________________________________

'Love is Like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even afterThey know each other so well.'

Tommy - age 6
________________________________

'During My piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the peopleWatching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only oneDoing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'

Cindy - age 8
________________________________

'My mommyLoves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleepAt night.'

Clare - age 6
________________________________

'Love isWhen Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'

Elaine-age 5
________________________________

'Love iswhen Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer thanRobert Redford.'

Chris - age 7
________________________________

'Love iswhen your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day'

Mary Ann - age 4
________________________________

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to goout and buy new ones.'

Lauren - age 4
________________________________

'When youlove somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.'

(what an image)Karen - age 7
________________________________

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'

Mark - age 6
________________________________

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if youmean it, youshould say it a lot. People forget.'

Jessica - age 8
________________________________

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest hewas asked to judge.

The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderl gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and justsat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, thelittle boy said,'Nothing, I just helped him cry'



what is love to you?

love is..

when you give in to the person you love to make things better..
when you do not mind their flaws but learnt how to get use to them..
when....

alison - 20


Captured The Moment @

7:56 PM


today's launching of my final year project..

u all must be wondering wads tt.. my grp collaborate w the NEA for a training kits to teach trainers on how to educate the elderly in ways of preventing dengue and so on..

was a long day for me!!

okay.. i am gonna create a nonsense entry in some other ppl blog!! hehe!!!

yeayea! i gonna have fun!

2 more days

I WANT TO GO HOLIDAY!
I WANT TO SHOP TILL I DROP DEAD!
I WANT TO HAVE FUN WITH NO RESTRICTIONS!

I WANT RETAIL THERAPY!!!


Captured The Moment @

8:18 PM


last weekday of my holiday! i spent it well..

me n daryl met up we went to cine to watch "the hulk" and ate at BBQ chicken. food was not bad... gd.. show was good.. went HMV with him to check out CDs..

met aaron, jane and regi after daryl around 545pm.. went to eat HAN's.. actually, they ate..not me.. was quite full.. after that we walked around.. shopped!!! bought new dress, belts and heels!

and i am all dressed up for walas!






went down those three to meet aaron's army frens.. anti social... so only the girls talked among ourselves.. took photos.. (shall post it the next time round)

came home around 11.15pm.. EARLY!! normally walas... i come home late late! hehe!!

oh wells.. he is coming out soon!! cant wait.. we got a list of things to do when u get out yah! loves!!


Captured The Moment @

11:26 PM


3 more days till dennis is done with his standby..
argh...

the journey starts to have butterflys fluttering around..
ever since.. i guess the people inside the cab got more details on the how the journey is.

holiday ending..

my sunday burnt! NEA thingy..
my saturday!! ZJ
my friday (tmr)!! out w daryl n aaron...
my monday presentation..
my tuesday till sunday with dennis!!


Captured The Moment @

3:14 AM


one more week of holiday left..

alot of things happen!! good things and bad thing.

spent my 1st week of holiday at my sister's place.. sponging off her $$$~~
eat n eat.. slp n slp.. shop n shop with her.. realise it was my 1st shopping with my sister! was nice.. hehe!

but mainly i was doing night shift for my sister.. meaning i help to feed the baby at night so she can have a better rest.. here and there la.. yep!

sat nua-ing with daryl was gd... but also bad.. haha!!
was asked to use my brain more.. @_@||| stress.. pray hard, pray hard.. thanks.. for making things work for the better.. for everything..

today is father's day!

Happy Papa Day, DADDY!!

even thou i know he wont be reading my blog.. wahaha!

a phrase i read in the email!

Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear
but to listen, not to let go but to HOLD ON !!!!

and this too...

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'


Captured The Moment @

2:43 PM


yea!! today, great day!!

okay, if your all didnt realise.. i was at my sis place last night..

woke up just in time by my sis for school. =D she still rmbs that i need 1hr to prep and 1 hr to go sch.. so sweet of her! haha!!

went for proj meeting on time. had lessons.. after school i went to my sis place to get my stuff back! she drove me home.. on the way home she actually did ask about dennis.. =D felt weird sharing with my sister about him.. i guess its the 1st time i am seriously talking about a guy infront of her.. esp abt my bf.. we chatted.. gave her views and all.. is nice when we talk nicely! *grinz*

she kinda made my day even better.. as i grow older we can actually talk more..felt, well i can actually talk to my siblings/sister about such things.. like my other frens always do.

things are going pretty well for me now.. all going smoothly as for now..

next week is holiday for me.. i am so gonna shop, tan and swim! is kinda sian sometimes when dennis work have to clash with my break.. he will be on standby for 2 weeks.. i think.. all mixed up with his work stuff. =p

okay! gtg meet him for dinner! ciao!


Captured The Moment @

7:50 PM


today went town to watch NARNIA..

even thou was a simple movie and walking around town with dennis.. laughing at things i use to do when i was young.. was nice..

walking in town.. from building to building! hah..

realise.. how long we spend our time tgt, it seems never enough! haha!

anyway.. NARNIA was not bad.. guess i irritate dennis to the max.! heh.. kept saying lame stuff to him during the movie.. hehe!

singapore is seriously boring! town.. sentosa.. parks.. where else? esp when u got time limit..

i am old enough to estimate my time.. can my dad stop being so irritating.. coming home around 9.45pm and pack my stuff to go over my sis place also considered late? considered irresponsible?? is not as if sister cant handle the baby.. dont wanna fetch so be it.. tsk so much for?

ARGH!!! not even listening to what i have to say and always shutting me up..

okay.. i know is for my good and all.. but sometimes soft approach can be used rite?

oh wells... just fed teh baby not long.. ethan is asleep now.. next feed at 2am!
night~!


Captured The Moment @

11:14 PM


sat was a slack day for me! shiok!! literally nua n rot at home.. just like those days when i broke my leg..

woke up around 11 plus in the morning.. watch anime!!! haha!! all the way till feast day mass itself..

mass was okay.. somehow i realise i neva had the time to talk to joseph! i talked to char n jason at least.. oh wells.. nice chat! manage to talk nicely without much suan-ing..

after mass... we had our feast day dinner.. we were like queueing up for rations! haha!! alot of people... not much tables.. oh wells!

we had:

- popiah!
- mee siam
- satay
- kueh
- hotdog
- nachos w cheese
- popcorn
- ice cream!!
- candy floss

alot!! for just $5!! amazing huh.. we youths.. we ZJ ppl.. saw that there were no seats at the bell tower.. we sat infront of the koi pond at the carpark to eat! shiok place!! hilda ask me.. why sooooo morbit! eating infront of the columborium! hahaha~

congrats corde! 1st runner up!

today!! out w dennis! dunno where yet!


Captured The Moment @

9:23 AM


i am glad things turn out great this week..

even thou there are some hiccups during the week..

triduum was okay.. guess the prayers i said were TOOO soft... and i am very irrtated w it!!! very! super duper!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!

now i am grounded! haha.. not really grounded, just that i am restricted..
i must be home by 9pm everyday!!!

glad we did settle certain things.. =) glad we talked it thru!

spend my day w dennis today nua-ing...

tmr is sat! yeppie!


Captured The Moment @

10:02 PM


so far..

the journey.. this cabby route..

had bumps.. quite a big hump.. somehow the cab managed to drive properly.. able to maintain its stability..

even thou it irritates the passenger and driver inside when they encounter the humps..

had rain and shine..

as the journey continues.. i get more familiarise on how things goes.. getting used to having this journey.. somehow this journey is slowly blending in with the surroundings.. which if it ever stop driving.. i think the environment will be missing something.. no longer adding the additonal colours to the rainbow with orange as the dominant colour.

loving it.. and i still think!!!! time n communication is very impt! =p


Captured The Moment @

11:40 PM


jealous! saw my fren's blog!! they went sky dining!! wa lao.. damn gd la..
jealous jealous!!!!

sobs

today was crazy! went wheellock to have my brows trim! den met joel and daryl.. shopped around.. joel bought 2 tops.. exp!!!

we den head down to bugis.. i bought 2 tops, one inner tube and a belt for $32 altogether! shiok!
wanted to buy the top at top shop.. realise i do not have the cash! saving up for some other things at the end of the yr!! nt for chirstmas thou..

lala..

wad can we do after you are out from that training..
always wondering wad can we do..
always wondering wad you would love to do..

ahhhhh!!!! cant wait till end of next week!!


Captured The Moment @

10:52 PM


this coming week will be very packed! woa!! sian..
however, its nicely planned..

monday i will go to sch.. after school i will go mediacorp to support louis..

tuesday go to sch after sch got pnw prac..

wednesday go to school after school facial!!

thursday triduum!! this is the day... omg..

friday darling finish his training and having one day off.. shiok!!

all nicely planned huh.. haha!!

hang out with jeremy and pek last fri.. was a nice dinner.. chatted and joked alot..
yest night.. met up with my gang.. even thou was a simple dinner, i guess its very nice!! went to mel hse downstairs to talk..

mel!! do smthing about it.. stop using hair pins!! use proper things.


Captured The Moment @

11:10 AM


today i dont have school!!

cuz is e-learning day.. which is study from net..
however, my sister called last night and said she had fever so i said i can volunteer to help my sis..

came to her hse within half an hour.. brought all my barang barang.. i even brought my maggi mee.. haha!!

okay.. now dennis have to be in army for one whole week!! some thingy.. will neva know how to explain.. haha.. all i know is there is village, kopitiam and blue force.. haha!

a sense of gulit is always there since vesak day..
i hate this feeling...

wads over is over... i think..

ah fcuk! i feel fcuk.. sometimes.. my fault anyway..

okay.. i gtg! check out on my work n ethan and baby!


Captured The Moment @

11:47 AM


guess both of us are having fun individually...

i had zj retreat from fri night till sunday afternoon..
just got home not long ago..

actually on fri, after sch.. i didnt go home str at the end.. i went to dye my hair! now is red... kinda find it okay.. not that bad.. yea! new colour..

hmmm. went retreat hse get someone to carry the amp back.. packed my bag and went to buy the sausages..

camp was kinda fun, learnt a lil.. manage to quiet down for prayers.. got affirmation by my friends.. =) cuz we had to exchange candles either by reconciling or saying peace with each other..

=) had to draw pics that represents me.. drew alot of funny pics.. was very colourful.. also learnt not to expect anything.. cuz when there are expectations and when things do not go the way u expect it to be u will be disappointed. =)

maybe going out later.. see how! tired!

p/s: retreat hse got alot of mozzy!!! bite me alot of times!


Captured The Moment @

5:14 PM


post no. 365!

okay i am super duper bored now.. but yet very hyper..

after all the pia-ing for projects now i have more time i feel funny.. hahaha! humans are weird!

okay.. i just realise i dont end sch at 5pm! i end ay 2pm! woa! shiok.. got even more time to myself.. wahhhhh.. sorry..

can go home pack my bag for camp.. buy the sausages.. and maybe meet up with den.. see wad time he is ending his work..

realise i really miss running.. once i forget to take something from home so i ran all the way back home and back to retreat hse area.. felt so fresh.. how nice yea?

everyone in my class having napfa on week 8.. which is 3 weeks from now.. i am still thinking if i shld just go run for fun..

okay.. ciao! going to find other things to do now!


Captured The Moment @

11:33 AM


finally!! its thurs!!

3 projects down.. 3 more to go..

-final year project
-sociology project
-community nursing project

tmr there is zj retreat! shiok!
cant wait..

triduum practices felt damn good.. i learnt alot and am getting back on track..
haven have time to catch up with my mates..

my dude and babes, gang and clan! haha!!

today, was suppose to super great.. but end up being great only.. i was looking forward to it.. looking forward.. waiting and waiting cuz i finally finish my presentation for now.. but..

cant help it but i have to accept it.. no choice.. cuz it was impt. i know.. my brain understands... but heart was fighting..

feeling better now.. much more better...


Captured The Moment @

8:57 PM


woa!

finally my practical is over.. i pass!! shiok!

i got 10 more slides or so to edit... i neva edit so many slides before in my entire 3 yrs in poly..

realise how impt time is.. time indeed is money, yet you cant really buy time with money.

i am very stretched..
i dunno how am i gonna handle my job in future..

no time for this.. no time for that.. yet i have to do this and that by this date..
year 3 in poly really no joke.. i dunno how my seniors in cheer handled it last time.. trainings and all..

my godson will be staying in with us for one week. my bro-in-law went germany to work..

now i begin to wonder how my frens/ mother juggle their time.. worry about their kids, worry about their husbands, worry about work, worry about home matters... damn..

i cant wait for this coming fri!!! omg!!
end of my crazy week..

when friday comes..

i would have finish:

-presenting 2 presentations
-handing up my journal review
-2 pnw with joel for triduum


when friday comes.. i can attend zj camp!!! i cant wait.. i really cant wait.. @_@|||

i miss you...


Captured The Moment @

6:56 PM


i met you today...
i was so looking forward to meet you today...

i was glad that i met you..
i was glad but not as elated as i tot i would be...

i tot i would jump for joy..
i tot i would kill you out of anger..

but i didnt. it went all normal. i felt a sense of familarity but theres a distance.

great... at least we communicate face to face.. one to one.. its been sooo long since i have talked to you like that.. and i am glad. i am glad i did.

its just how far you went.. not about you walking away..






extra bit! juls gave me another web for grey's anatomy videos to watch.. i like how the describe this show...the last paragraph of it,



Grey's Anatomy is a drama about the intensity of medical training mixed with the funny, sexy, and sometimes painful lives of people who are about to discover that neither medicine nor relationships can be defined in black and white. Real life only comes in shades of grey.


Captured The Moment @

11:14 PM


My life is now equivalent to the taste of

-a dark chocolate
-a pomelo

something bitter yet sweet..
something i enjoy.. happens that i love pomelo and certain brands of dark choc..

bitter sweet.. *grinz* is that how u describe it? haha!!! wadeva. go ahead and laugh! =p

next week is really pack!

- one practical exam
- 2 presentations
- triduum pnw pracs

WOA! alot~

bye! gtg do my slides!

btw, i want to run my hearts out.. run till i drop dead.. i wan to rest.. i wan to have fun.. i wan to relax.. seriously relax and have fun..

i miss the times i go laughing out loud without thinking of smthing else, without worrying..


Captured The Moment @

3:13 PM


we show up for each other
inspite of our differences
is reason enough to keep believing


Captured The Moment @

2:12 AM


happy 1st month dennis!

today was a nua day for me n den.. haha!!
later got theory paper.. oh wells!

all the best to myself! =)









Captured The Moment @

12:09 AM


everything is great now! haha

i pass my gowning prac! yea! just one go~
this month is really packed!

i got triduum to do with joel,
i got practicals to clear,
i got theory test to study!

woa!

life is getting really exciting!
=)

i am starting to talk things out alr.. instead of the writing and all..
interesting~!

YEA!!! thurs i meeting peksy n jeremy.. and and fri sharing grp.. maybe walas after that..


and besides! TMR is a special day.. =)



i skipped 2 lectures today! how naughty! lala!
juls, thanks for your grey's anatomy! love you to bits!


Captured The Moment @

8:51 AM


i seriously dont get your point..
i dont think what i repeated unintentionally was wrong..
i was just surprise. but if u see it that way..

i do not know.


Captured The Moment @

3:08 PM


went to new timbre at clarke quay..
met wesley..

that night after talking to frens.. listening to people's life..
i start to think about mine..
had a lot of things going in my head..

i dunno how to handle..
i dunno what to do..

ok..

i know what i shld do but i dunno how to go about doing it..
am i not using to brains?
am i in a losing game?

or

am i thinking too much?

peksy, jeremy, mich...
oh wells.. i really miss you all..
miss those talks! soon yea?!

ciao world!


Captured The Moment @

10:34 AM


today was crazy happy!!! i went to zoo, mass @ ctk and dinner w dennis aunt at sushi tei..

i woke up at 6.30am to prep.. met dennis at 9am for breakfast at amk..
took a bus to Zoo!!! weather was freaking hot!






the queue to buy the tickets was long..

walked in took pics here and there...
1st was the kangeroos... saw it scratching it's tummy! haha! damn cute.. but didnt manage to take a shot..
after that stop.. we walked out i saw this lizard on the road side.. decided to disturb it.. i run after it.. it tries to run away from me.. if u are a stranger looking at wad i am doing, you might find it damn retarded!






on the way dennis saw this statues.. ran and posed in between them.. =) hilarious
we walked on.. and we saw monkeys! damn.. one of them, their ass are damn red and big! and the other monkey was checking out another monkey's asshole!















we saw an no entry sign.. and i saw a wild blue-fured thingy behind that sign!! hahahaha!!








the hand of the orang utan is damn big! check out the difference!






weather soooo hot.. cant withstand the heat anymore.. so i went to buy ben 'n' jerry's ice cream! shiok!! cooling..







continue to walk and walk.. finding where the elephants are.. finally found them.. but nothing much.. walked till there.. no show.. elephant wasnt doing much so we walked off.. dennis saw this figuring..






walked down.. saw the rhinos! caught it pee-ing in public!! haha!!!
tried to take the pic as if i am biting the zebra, but i failed! b4 th camera could snap, it walked away!








rest at KFC area.. drank mountain dew! shiok! after drinking... walked to fragile forest.. before that we saw some monkey statue w its *ahem* out! so....
i manage to pat/ touch an animal!! check this out.. sooo cute!!!!

















after that.. while making our way out to go back.. saw alot of statues.. so we took them along the way..




























after zoo, we went for mass at ctk.. den met dennis' aunt for dinner at sushi tei..

after that we bought a sketchbook to pen down our memories..







random pics:































end of day!







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11:52 PM


humans are ironic.. never will be happy with things..

i admit i am ironic.. haha!
love and hate..
want this den at the end rather have that...

but now even thou there is love n hate.. theres always a constant want..
i know.. you know..

lalala....
random-ness!~

alot to say... but damn lazy to type!!!

ciao!!


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11:08 PM


feeling: moody.. but blessed

mood swing! i feel freaking 'argh'!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

anyway...

sat, pek bdae dinner was great. dennis and i bought her a gift card.. cuz i seriously dunno what to get her that she will like... i dun wan her to end up giving my present away! @_@

sunday was great.. met up with samuel and spencer for breakfast!! den watch pic.. not nice!!! lame movie!

walked around town.. went to my sister house.. things happen.. at night it happened again.. thank god everythings ok now..

the passenger will try her very best to pay attention on how to direct driver to drive..

realise how bad alison can get.. cuz i dont look into the nitty gritty stuff.. which are actually very impt if you come to think of it.. i always just live life like this without thinking much.. without using my brain..

being myself but yet not myself.. i love it and hate it.. haha! hate it cuz is a change, an effort to make.. i love it.. cuz... its for a good purpose... yea! to be a better..


today was great.. sigh.. my mood swing spoils everything at the last part.. i really like the top.. thanks dear..

life goes on.... as usual.. FUCK!! got alot of projects to do!


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10:11 PM


OT skills lesson rocks! pics! i look cool huh! "surgeon"!!! hehe! wad case is there for me? =S





































the flower i made for him!! =) nice nice?! hehe!!


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8:13 PM


its been 15 days since we got together!

its seems like we got tgt for very long alr.. u agreed too yea?
dunno if he is suay anot~ cuz he kena from me alot..

things happen in pastamania.. when we are watching movie..
things that normally i wont do and wont happen all happened on you!

lets fill our boxes and glass with love! =)

learning how to juggle my time.. and so far i doing it ok! great! =)
yeppie!

the speed of the taxi is going great.. feeling cool about it.. even thou theres no aircon.. but theres enough wind to make me feel "yea!"

dunno how else to describe.. XOXO

humpty lumpy!! hahahahahahhaha!!

today den bought a ginomous colouring book for my niece n nephew! damn nice.. i liked it too! heh!


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10:34 PM


jus felt like blogging.. but dunno wad to blog about..

hmmm..

lifes great for me now...
peksy bdae coming!
yea yea! meeting up w mich too! yea yea!


ciao!


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9:31 AM


You And I Both


Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of

and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.


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9:14 PM


again! very long never blog alr.. been really busy this week..

on fri (11/04),

my godson!! is out! out to this world.. and i am gg to be his godma! haha!!!

ethan tang rui han


woke up @ 6.30am to get ready to go to hospital to visit my sis n the baby! slack there till time for work.. around 12pm..

'dd' came down to meet me for dinner in sgh.. that day was crazy!! oh man.. was really tired.. you gave me a box.. as u said u will.. and i forget to bring urs.. hehe..

"thanks for the effort.. i really like the box very much.. very very very sweet of you.." xoxo


anyway.. after work.. met him and we ate at coffee club.. walked down to ps watch movie! the show was stupid, lame, gross, funny and sad.. after movie we went for supper with freddy and ivan.. was funny.. had a great time disturbing him..

i really love that period when we were waiting for freddy to come down from his house.. heh!



sat!!! woke up around 7.30am, my bro-in-law came n pick me up to go visit my sis! slack the whole day there.. looking after the baby.. stoning.. sleeping.. forever eating! haha!

after that i went to meet my gang at gardens! ate chomps den went nick's hse to watch vcd.. "harold n kumar" stupid lame gross show too..! heh!

after that went homen sleep..


today

overslept! suppose to wake up @645am.. i woke up @8.30am! haha! help out in church canteen to help raise funds for people who are gg for the world youth day.. oh wells.. i cant go thanks to sch!!!! argh!!

photos for u to see!!

my nephew/godson is saying hi to the world!! hello~~~~~
















this pictures i took today! he got discharge by the dr.. his 1st day at home.. =)
after feeding him milk.. he look so so contented!! oh my..






















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9:45 PM


on wed,

i had morning shift for work.. went back home after work to change and meet maria to get nizz prezze ready.. met at vivo.. bought my stuff i am suppose to buy.

made nizz's birthday card and ate at hong kong kim gary.. had fun laughing our ass off.. haha!

shopped around vivo..

came home around 10++ 11pm i think i didnt take note of timing.. anyways.. 1 day more to end of attachment!


Captured The Moment @

11:44 AM


when the picture paints a thousand words..











Captured The Moment @

10:33 PM


wow its been so long since i update my blog..
alot of things happen this week! next week my last day of attachment den year 3 comes!! damn... scared!

one of the days this week, yana made a fool out of herself! hah!!!
there was this person that will fix the empty beds to make sure everything goes on well.. his name was desmond.. shanti went to ask! haha!

the thing was that.. yana said bed 24/1 is spoilt ask me to get him and fix it..! i walked all the way to him and tell him. he walked to the bed checked alil.. den he realise the switch is not switch on!! of cuz the bed cant work.. i stood there laughing my ass off.. desmond got so ps, walked off giggling to himself.. before he think that i am the stupid one i say yana.. " its your fault.. faster go switch off the rest den call him!" haha!!!!


april fool day..

i manage to trick 2 people at least! heh! nabil and dennis! damn funny! lalala!!

thurs

i met him after my work to hang around.. we went town.. walked around.. as usual we watch movie n had toast box!! we watched three kingdom..

fri

he came and pick me up from work to get ready for sg powerhouse! i was looking forward to it.. he was suppose to come but last min he had something to attend to. so he didnt come.. the sg powerhouse was nice.. but too short... its ok! wil said may got zj annual retreat! shiok!!!

sat!

finish the camp ate lunch and sleep all the way till sunday.. 3pm till next mornig 9am!!


today (sun)

today was nice.. very warm and different.. =)

met up with pek and him for mass.. brought back something from mass.. which is mass is the highest form of worship and stuff.. and mass isnt an obligation.. is not a have to go but is a want to go.. yea!
after mass we had lunch together at thai express... den pek have to leave to run some errands.. we walked around.. check out what movie is there to watch.. enough time to catch "shutter" english version.. after watching i realise thai one is better.. much more scary!
bought my dad chocs for his bdae! my mom was jealous.. saying we forget her bdae last yr.. den i actually bought my dad chocs! haha!!

monday! when monday comes.. it means


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9:39 PM


woke up in time to meet pek n him for mass at CTK.. finally pek is free to go for mass! now i will attend with her..

what i have picked up from mass, or rather i remembered was asap*2..
it means : always say a prayer, as soon as possible

we went to amk hub to hang around for awhile.. den went to buy stuff to cook.. at the end i chose spag. was stoning cuz i used up quite alot of energy with pek! haha.. so we didnt buy alot of ingredients..

pasta turn out miserable.. haha!! prego sauce and sausages with spag..!
cook for two of us still ok.. ya aunt also!!! omg.. i felt crappy when my 1st impression isnt good.. be it strangers or fren's family members.. oh wells..
u laugh.. kept on laughing.. dammit! wanted to skin u alive! seriously!

made our way down to town to watch movie and walked around.. we watched "the orphanage" it was at 9.25pm so we walked around town.. window shop and all.. went zara!! try out the super high heels!! i love them soooo much! *sobs* i cant wear them!! shit! as in can wear but i cant buy or wear for long.. my left leg will hurt.. i hate it! argh!!

we were watching 'tv' while eating at taka.. damn funny! oh wells.. stoned around.. and it was time for movie!

it was at preview cinema.. separated from the other cinemas.. was cool..

the movie rocks!

damn.. wow! ah! omg! shit! aww!

yea.. u get it? haha! half the time i was closing my ears so i wont hear the sound effect..

took a cab back..


Captured The Moment @

11:59 PM


my first week of this attachment pass very fun. had alot of fun with my classmates! you all rock la!

learnt alot. example colours of tube.. yea!

now i only look forward to weekends!! shiok!! its sat!!! haha!~!



yest (28/3/08) it was nick's bdae.. it was suppose to be a surprise! but jerry told nick we all coming down and all.. as usual i smash cake on his face when i asked him to remove the candle thingy from the cake... haha!!

decided to go and eat prata.. made our way to jalan kayu. me n mel shared our supper.. prata bom, maggi goreng, plain prata and milo dinosaur..

went for car ride to lower pierce! damn nice.. the stars and it was cooling..

now back home! going to sleep soon..


Captured The Moment @

2:48 AM


i am feeling very heavy hearted.. a lil cranky yet irritated.

i know why am i so cranky.. but somehow i know there is more to it. just that i do not know wad is it..

my fren told me what have been happening since i broke my leg.. alot of stuff happen.
i realise how fuck up that person can be.. you can say i dont wan to fly properly and lock thats why you didnt wanna catch me?

somehow i do not know how to react to it.. to wad i just heard.. now that the shock have wear off, start to feel sour.. wanting someone to be there to hear me rant..

you can do this to one team u can always do the same to the other..

ah!!!!!!

god give me the heart to be not bothered by such stuff..


Captured The Moment @

10:34 PM


this morning was crazy.. neva blog at such timing before.. so early!!

anyway..

i did:
- wound dressing
- injection!!

and all the usual stuff! damn interesting.. for injection..

on the way back i got 'cheated' by a man! old man.. he was asking me if i speak english and all..he say he need to go and top up his card to make his way to old folks home in sengkang but he got no money and all.. talk so much just to ask me for money.. i cant dont give rite? so i said i have $6.. so i gave him that amt..

i am not complaining cuz i gave $6. but he is obviously lying to me.. cuz he is aint walking to the bus stop.. instead he walked the opp direction. oh wells.. i shall take it as donation!

what i do unto my sisters and brothers, you do unto me..

going vivo later with maria n nizz~!

shall update again!


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4:14 PM


everytime i always have to remind me to be myself.

dont care how people think of me.. dont care..
but sometimes people's thinking make me very unstable..

just be me..

wake up too early alr! am suppose to go work? now 5.37am and i am online viewing stuff..

bye world..

getting familiarise around it means getting to know.. dunno why i am explaining it..

lyrics

the quiz

You look nice alright
And I like the way you nod after everything I say
Like it actually means something to you

And I like your record collection
Townes and Jens with a hint of Rickie Lee
And you've cleaned up the bathroom, made a really nice soup
but a bit too much sci-fi in your shelf with DVD's

But there are things you need to know about me
I'm weak right now, so weak right now
I need proof before I dare to open this heart
So I've prepared a quiz for you

Would you freak out if I said I liked you?
Do you walk the line?
Is your IQ higher than your neighbours?
And is it very much higher than mine ?

Can you sleep when I grind my teeth?
Do you look away if I slob when I eat?
Will you let me be myself?
Can you at all times wear socks? Because I'm still scared of feet

And if I'd fall, would you pick me up?
If I'd fall, would you pick me up?

Do you talk in the middle of Seinfeld?
Do you read more than two books a month?
Do you get racist or sexist when you've had a few?
Is it fine if I make more money than you?

Have you slept with any people I work with?
Is there anyone you'd rather wish I'd be?
Do you still keep pictures of old girlfriends?
Are they prettier than me?

And if I'd fall, would you pick me up?
If I'd fall, would you pick me up?


Captured The Moment @

5:41 AM


today is my second day of posting in SGH, ward 58.. today!!!! its my first time shaving a guy's groin area for some procedure.. damn ps..

almost need to sponge a patient which is in his 20s! but he was shy too, so say he change himself. haha! but i did his wound dressing..

off one urinary catheter for a man.. 1st time doing it for a man.. longer route! wahaha! oh wells..

suppose to give injection today but yana did it.. heh

should i embark on a journey that is totally new to me.. i need to explore it and search around to get familiarise with it..
or should i just wait..

why wont u just choose the one u feel better.. the lane that wont make you so tired?

13 days to end of attachment! =)


Captured The Moment @

4:06 PM


ok.. seriously i cant really rmb wad i did on fri..

but was one confused night i think.. now all settled thou.. =) no longer confused.

sat, i woke up around 12pm++ .. called pek said i will be alil late..
met her at her hse area to take bus to junction 8 tgt.. talked and all.. ate thai express, walked around to digest and ate hagen daz.. before i head home!

went home start prep-ing for easter vigil mass! decided to wear a dress.. wore mismatch earrings with head band.. oh ya! finally get to wear my new heels!

my cousin was getting baptise that night.. her baptise name was gloria elena tan.. gloria sounds very choir-ish.. elena sounds much better! hehe...

was hyper in the later part of mass.. after mass we head down to chomps.. all the usual stalls close early.. i dunno why.. maybe they are christians! haha.. they wan to celebrate too..

got to know JUDE! n talked to daryl (older).. they made fun of me la! as usual.. but they are nice ppl.. next time can talk to them alr! ah huh! jude is very nice.. yea..

went home with my mind everywhere.. scattered..

talk to him till 7am! sunday! cleared stuff.. ask loads of questions.. was nice.. felt that communication is going somewhere.. finally..

slept for 4hrs..

woke up.. met aaron and regi for a movie! ate at long john w aaron den window shop at far east before i met him.

walked around waiting.. went pan pacific to listen to music den to isetan scotts..

met up with him went wheellock's borders.. goof around.. laugh laugh.. and we decide to go...

...arab street to walk around and settle our dinner!

was a nice place to eat..wanted to walked to the ferris wheel.. we so called took the short cut.. but we ended up at a dead end.. so we had to walk back.. so funny...

after that we made our way to starbucks at bugis to stone..

and i am home..

work tmr! argh!! oh wells! nite!


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11:05 PM


Daryl send me this song! damn hyper melody! haha.. nice!










click on the pic to have a clearer view!

after i post my previous post.. i check wil email!! now i love him to bits!!! he manage to capture this sight.. the stars!

that was just part of it! u cant imagine how nice it was! it was like god telling us.. well done.. thank you for the walk.. for carrying those cross for the people.. thanking us a in way i felt so wow...

even thou at certain parts of the walk we lose our aim of the walk.. but still we walked thru together!


Captured The Moment @

9:39 PM


church walk was tiring, mainly at the end..

we walked from IHM to nativity to st anne's to SVDP to SFX den back to IHM..

when i first saw the plan i felt like cancelling my name out of the paper..
cuz i was sick not feeling very good.. slight feverish and still coughing like mad!
secondly, seriously walk so much will die!

anyway i gave it a shot.. the walk to nativity was not that bad.. was an hr walk or so! damn jialat.. i was concentrating on breathing in as much oxygen as possible.. reached nativity.. we did the station of the cross... kneel stand kneel stand on grass.. wet grass! bug bite me!i got five on each leg!! damn itchy..

after that fr luke made us walked to st anne's solo. no longer in groups of three alr.. 5m apart from each other.. as wil said.. its a good distance.. its far enough to have our own privacy yet close enuff to feel the community with you. i agreee!
that solo walk was suppose to feel that sin actually breaks us away from community, from bond.. but i didnt really realise that.. i was looking and focusing on nature..
the cool breeze and all.. damn shiok!

reached st anne's, we did the rosary! walked to SVDP.. damn! its a 3-4km walk! but kelly me hilda and prak, we laughed like mad till i teared! shld i say only we girls! haha! we were making fun of prak.. whenever he speaks, words beginning when 'h' that 'h' will be a slient 'h'.. example hair becomes air! head becomes ead! haha! so wadeva we see words beginning with 'h' we will help him pronounce it without the 'h'..

damn funny! even 'hahaha' we tried laughing without the 'h'.. that was kelly's idea.. damn random!

i laughed and cough n laughed again..

reached SVDP.. we did taize! *is that hoe u sepll it?* damn.. i think 3/4 of them were sleeping alr la! damn funny.. i try damn hard not to fall asleep!

after that we walked to SFX! that was the best! not because its the last stop, its because of the stars we saw! DAMN nice!! hell alot.. more den i saw it in pasir ris park on dec 14~ when the day i broke my leg..

that point of time i was like how i wish i can capture this moment in the camera.. some shared how they felt during the walk!

that point of time i had blisters on my feet alr! damn.. but i refuse to take the car.. but still cuz i was holding up everyone they kick me in the car! dammit..

i hate that thou.. i wanted to finish the walk.. finish it with my leg.. but i couldn't!!



guess things change alil during the walk.. some change till i dont know that tiny bit wad they are thinking.. caught me hanging there.. making me start to think what shld i do next..

i am caught in a situation.. what shld i do.. how?


that is how i spent my maundy thursday!


Captured The Moment @

5:28 PM


in life we have many decisions to make..

oh wells.. i hate it sometimes! do you? * yes! asking you! the one reading it!* =p

later on going for the church walk with everyone. i think it will be damn fun la!
talk and joke.. hopefully i will be hyper enough! =)

meeting pek on sat thou! yeppie! damn long neva see her.. shall update each other. talk about lame stuff.. gossip.. do wad we normally do!
she wanted to eat thai express! shiok! or usual hang out place if we meet!

mich.. guess we have to plan another day to meet up with u den.. oh wells..

i realise i ask too much whys.. haha! should learn how to ask at the correct time..
not everyone can tahan my why! haha!

ok now i am in a very mixed + sian mood.. very haiz.. lazy to do this n that kinda mood. wan someone to actually crack me up!

now my blog song suits my mood.. make it even worse.. as days pass.. my holiday is getting shorter..

now viewing this website that is "life 4 sale" http://www.alife4sale.com/

Schedule of Walking A-Cross With Jesus

Thursday (20th March) 6.15pm to 7.15pm: Mass in IHM Main Church
Thursday (20th March) 7.15pm to 8.15pm: Adoration in IHM Main Church
Thursday (20th March) 8.15pm to 9.00pm: Briefing by Father Luke in IHM Main Church
Thursday (20th March) 9.00pm to Friday 7am latest: IHM YM Pilgrimage to Serangoon District Churches

Friday (21st March - Optional) 7am to 9.30am: Bathe/Nap/Rest in 2nd floor of IHM Classroom Block
Friday (21st March - Optional) 10.00am: Good Friday Service

On Thursday (20th March), please have a heavy dinner before you come for Mass at 6.15pm. There will be no dinner break after Mass. Bread and water will be provided at each Church.


this is my church walk programme... yup!


add new songs!!!!
bye world


Captured The Moment @

4:07 PM


today i am suppose to go sentosa!!! and it rained!

so i ended up watching movie.. spiderwick.

was ok.. jus how the monster died was stupid!!! didnt expect that to happen..
walked around vivo.. tried diff kind clothes.. i look weird anyway..

he asked if i wan to go out with his frens.. i tot mayb i shld give it a try, but i decided to come home n rest instead.. waS really tired..

bought him mint sweet he got the wrong idea! haiz...

now i am home.. with no dinner. damn!!

btw the flower bloom! =)







Captured The Moment @

7:48 PM


i love the so called, back up plan he had.. pretty normal but i had alot of fun..
if he didnt had the called back from army we would have gone to night safari?
thats wad he said..

ate my fave cake @ big o! named after me too! ally's new york cheese cake. heh..
took along time to figure out why he gave me that piece of paper! hah!
end up he was trying to say he had bought 2 movie tickets. =)


watched the show.. was cute.. funny.. walked around isetan for awhile..

he gave me four choices: geisha, oriental, Pirates and jet lee. i chose pirates.
he took me to the place called 'the ship' to eat for dinner.. was a nice place to talk and eat.. joke and all.. make a fool out of myself by going out of the way for toilet, when the place itself had toilets!

walked down to taka to shop of my sis 1st baby which is due in late march, early april! end up buying stuff for my nephew n niece. =) strawberry shortcake shampoo for germaine and gab, thomas the train bowl and fork n spoon!

the place was closing.. so we walked to paragon to sit down and drink.. he said he wanted to go to the washroom so i waited at starbucks.

he appeared with an orange rose. how sweet of him.. thanks!






tts how my day went! =)

bye world!


Captured The Moment @

11:33 PM


one week of break!!


just watched movie with aaron today at junction 8.. "step up 2"

it rocks as usual.. esp the final dance!
the main lead actor is cute hot! haha! =p
the main lead actress look damn sweet in the dress and damn hot in rain! =p

i love the part when the guy is like pulling the girl.. sucking her soul out kinda action! they rock!




ah ma bdae dinner was great.. the hang out with cousin was great too.. went hong kong cafe.. ate mango ice and tang yuan..









this one is step up 1 final dance!



tmr! out for a surprise! i wonder.. will update again... nite


Captured The Moment @

11:17 PM


i am happy cuz

-tmr is my last day of work at KKH! there goes dr toot!
-i managed to pass all my subjects even i studied very last min
-my week becoming a routine i am getting used to it
-sat is coming...
-many birthdays to celebrate!


i am tired cuz

- i am sick!!!
flu
cough
slight bit of fever
- having the horrible shifts (wed end at 9pm. thurs starts at 7am!)



other den that.. nothing much.. life goes on! gonna have my early dinner den sleep! my eyes are popping out!


Captured The Moment @

4:13 PM


what kinda girl am i?

You are: The Lovable Eyes
She is Spontaneous, Smooth, and Loving. She is what most guys want to find, date, and marry. That simple. She’s adorable, cute, sexy, innocent, easy-going, friendly, and fun to be around. Pretty much the perfect companion. She’s delicate and needs to be handled with loving hands, and there won’t be any shortage of guys willing to handle her. In a relationship, there is only one rule with the Lovable Eyes- Don’t Fuck Up. That’s it. Don’t cheat on her, don’t lie to her, don’t mistreat or abuse her, and she will be yours for a lifetime.



hahaha! quite true.. certain parts only...

4days to end of paeds attachments!


Captured The Moment @

12:02 AM


waiting for my fren to sms me to get outta my house..

one more week till my miserable one week break.. oh wells..

slept at 2am yest.. but surprising i dun feel that tired as i tot i would be.
its been sucha long time since my laugh i talked so much on phone alr.. 3mths? if i rmb it correctly.. was talking to a "kangaroo"! haha!

went for it fair yest @ suntec.. couldnt see corde leh.. ppl step on my toes all.. i was so tired while waiting for my fren to pay for his stuff i decided to sit on a box! guess wad.. i tot it was filled.. haha! i sat on it.. and the box jus when beng-ko! haha! cuz it was empty! i am not that heavy!

joseph have to just laugh that loud! and he took a photo of the beng-ko box!

my bro went for the fair too! but i didnt get to see him.. they bought camera and lappy! damn i am jealous! haha. how i wish i can use my bond money! dammit!

now having attachments i always look forward to fri, sat and sun! motivation!

outreach meeting was ok.. talked about who is in charge of what on that sat.. i wanted to be the smiler! haha! okok.. is greeter.. haha!!! but i think everyone is supoose to do that!


Captured The Moment @

11:38 AM


today woke up to meet samuel and spencer for breakfast den head down to SPI for outreach meeting after meeting we went it fair! damn crowded.. dinner was ok.. but i ate with my dear family! love them to bits! hehe!!



sat had a fun day at jason hse.. he celebrated his 21st birthday at his house...
hope he like the presents.. =)

today had good weather. with loads of stars.. made me think and miss those times..

knowing ones limits are very impt..
i reach my limit that day.. too much to close one eye or to not take it to heart.
when u know sometimes i take things to heart which might just spoils my mood.

as screwed up as i can be.. as low my general knowledge is.. i am trying my best..
start reading newspapers.. thats my 1st step to my plan, to become better.
it might seems something 'duh' to do. but reading newspaper daily isnt my habit..
cultivating it will be hard..

that day my confidence level drop rapidly.. words stab into me.. and i am dead serious..
at that point i couldn't take it.. i just lash out..

trying so hard to be different.. trying to be better.. but you all aint helping..
not a single bit. how to improve when one side i am pushing and u pulling?
i end up at the same spot or worse..

sometimes i hate being me.. who i am. what few strengths do i have?
why god put me here in this world? what he want me to do? what plans he has for me?

whining doesnt solve problems.. change takes time.. noticing the change in a person takes a longer time..


bye world


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9:14 PM


today is a screw up day...

just the stupidest things i forget to do that might create prob..
looking at the clock and read it wrongly..
resulting to late for work...

screwed screwed.. many more! now now now!! i wish n hope everything will be ok..

pls pls pls...


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11:15 PM


kelly: toot? my eye candy in my previous attachments.. hehe.. a small motivation to work.. or not i can jus dread going to work everyday! haha!


this month is crazy! haha! i got 6 people i know having bdae. all of them are close friends! haha! gonna spend n plan like crazy! =)


its fun and should be done! hehe!


attachment so far is damn boring! worse den obs!
got one child very poor thing.. she got alot of disease! from swallowing problem to heart problem.. many more! oh wells..

tt JI leader is an ass.. still not caught. i think not much chance of fidning him alr.. as papers said, he might alr disguise himself into someone else to hide and all..

this morning very fruitful! like housewife.. heh.. woke up early to wash my uniform hang it.. steam some buns and cook tang yuan.. eat it for breakfast.. boil water cuz my hse on solar system.. it has been raining for a few days.. no hot water to bath! iron my uniform for today cuz not very dry!

tsk tsk.. i left mopping and sweeping floor man! haha! i am so not gonna do it.. or not i will be late..

saw callix 2 times in a row.. 1st time at bugis.. 2nd at far east! such coincidence.. =)

yest some of us send aloy off to beijing.. brenda was so sad.. den she made me think of my close friends.. if they were ever go.. esp those few.. 6 yrs of friendship.. i think i will be worse den her! haha!! but was still making fun of her..

mich sms me about alan..

hey even thou i met u a few times only.. ate a meal with you once.. rest in peace ok.. even thou its sudden.. you will be taken care 'upstairs'...

mich sms me.. felt like smsing you too.. cuz u ride bike too.. peksy u quite save la.. take bus.. however, you must be careful of your health also! so overwork ok! you all are the friends i wont wanna lose.. and such friendships are hard to come by.. i wan to you to be with me til my deathbed! haha! rmb to wear the colour shirt i always remind u! hehe!

so many accident in sg.. jam at checkpts also.. thx to tt idiot! one police died too.. cuz got one driver drove opp direction from the traffic.. causing explosion of cars and all.. should jail him longer and dont allow him to drive at all.. not only no driving for 3 yrs! he got away too easy! dammit..

ciao! off to work again!


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12:00 PM


ok walked slowly to work today and i saw TOOT! cool!! love him to bits! heh.. *eye candy only*

but was wearing retainers! so decided not to look at him at all.. later must say hi when i look horrible.. what i know is he is working in children tower! higher chance of meeting him again! hehe..

lalala.. toot toot.. toot toot... he is so cute and hardworking.. haha..


ok.. being posted to paeds as i have said many times already.. people there are quite ok.. but the thing is, one of the kid who is alr 1 yr old refuse to hold the bottle himself when is milk time.. insist of asking someone to hold for him.. or not he will cry and throw tantrums!! omg.. if i have a kid, i will never ever pamper to such a extend!

saw two cute lil babies.. big eyes, long lashes.. PRETTY! envy them. ok i got long lashes. but i wan bigger eyes! human will never be happy with life.. oh wells.. i shall accept it. =)

on the way back decided to sms pek to ask about her new job.. finally! after years or whining and complaining why the hell is she so busy.. she got a slightly fixed working hours.. for now.. in future i think as projects comes in it will be different yea?

i will try! oh ya! did i say? my previous ward which is the nursery ward.. the instructor praise me!! hehe.. she say i am one of those she gave an 'A' for this attachment. i shall try my best for this one too.. hopefully things goes on well! lalala!

love this song to bits too! damn nice.. saw it on lynnette's blog!

the voice within

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

looking at a brighter side. since you are focus on your work.. so, i think i should too! try to make the best out of everything yea? my 1st step of having a plan. shall settle everything when both of us are free. =)


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5:01 PM


watched leap years today! was a nice show.. cried as usual.. many thing came into my mind when i watched it thou..

went for sam party.. was ok.. manage to talk to paul.. was nice talking to him! at least he knows what he want to do.. aint like me.. i am trying to work things out.. slowly and steadily i will!

in the movie.. alot of quotes are damn nice.. got one it roughly says, three words that can describe life: it goes on.

and one was, Coincidence is just God's way of staying anonymous.. WOW!

its better to love and lost than never to have love at all.. something like that.. wait till i get all the quotes den i blog it down.. i so gonna get this shows VCD..
the movie aint fantastic.. as in everyone will say its a ok show can predict and all.. but to me is nice enuff! =)


thank god for many things.. from bad to good.

-pnw went well..
felt very different from last time.. dunno if wad wilfred said was correct about sounding convicted.. it might be what i have gone thru.. lead me closer to god.. but i hope.. i will continue to grow closer. and not a one off moment..

-met up w my sis n cousins

-went for samuel 21st bdae party

-for attachments to fill my time
so i wont think so much.. but this is running away.. i have to face it.. that harsh and cruel truth.. solve it.. and stop sweeping things under the fucking carpet.. if is tt impt.. try my best to solve it.. trust, courage and faith..

-where i take things in via my five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. however tt have cons too! wadeva! i gonna take it is good!

-my frens i can rely on!
you are still one that i would love to have to rely on sometimes. i understand u are busy thou. just dont feel sian cuz i rather u feel angry. i will call you my very impt fren! =p

-giving me new day each time i wake up! same to the people who are close to my heart!

nite!


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11:21 PM


1st time in 2 mths since i wore heels!

adjusting to it thou..

woke up to go for pnw prac.. had lunch came over my place for awhile.. den last prac before session starts..

to me was quite spirit filled.. after singing my hands all got the numb tingling sensation.. since i step up to be a outreach head i didnt do.. 1 yr alr! now i am a member, much more time.. i guess? not much pressure put on me.

outreach wanna change our name to SOS.. =)

suppose to go for rally.. but thank god i didnt go.. heard was damn bad.. screaming and all.. i went airport with my cousins n sis they all for dinner n drink instead! gossip and chatted..

tmr mass, shop for sam's prezze den movie den sam party!

monday paeds attachment!
ji leader nt yet found.. a topic to talk about everywhere now.. =p

oh wells!

as hours passed.. days passed..
kinda sometimes forget about you..
too busy with life..
but when settle down at night,
checked my acc.. hoping you did reply..

you didnt...



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12:20 AM


today in the ward got a baby born on 29 feb! so sad! every four years than it will be her bdae..

i wanna watch that show thou.. The leaps years..

last day at nursery! today fed 20 babies! feed them till i was so tired! my tummy wasnt feeling well too.. vomitted after i ate.

thank god for attachments.. at least my time is occupied.. i wont have the time to think so much..

tmr will be jam pack! 10 am prac for pnw. 430pm ZJ.. 7+pm got rally..
sunday buy stuff.. den to sam's bdae!
monday new ward i will be going! paeds! =)


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10:21 PM


i pass my BTT! shiok.. next is 6 may for my final theory.. didnt know can do the PDL on the spot also.. waste my time.. must go down again..

hmmm.. today at nursery.. isnt as fun as i tot.. even thou i get to change diapers and feed them milk.. cuddle them! take photos with them! haha!

one last day at OBS.. it was the first day i saw toot.. and i never get to see him again... oh wells..

leg hurts! haha!

got one baby got diff facial expression!
a smile with a wink, frown and angry face! =) he got BIG eyes!

the one i am feeding! he is damn handsome! got sharp nose!





















i waited...
you didnt reply.
i wonder
if you're busy or
you dont wan to reply or
you dont know how to..

i wonder...

a one sentence reply i am also happy..

will you? i will wait..


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10:37 PM


i emailed u last night..
not wanting to lose it..
trying to salvage things..

i wonder will you ever reply me or nt..
or maybe you jus do not know how to reply..

some how i need to prep myself for the worst..
but i think i will still be sad..

can i have the faith in you?
wonder to you is it impt?

i wonder..

we been thru ups n downs..
this small matter wont really be at detrimental

can i put my faith to it.. i wonder..

i treasure it..


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12:11 AM


today i got assess by my instructor!

infant bathing and i was the first one.. first i had difficulty hearing tt infant's heart beat cuz she kept on crying..

i am suay la.. she gave me one tt always cry even her mom says so! so is not i cant bath the girl! haha!

had fun doing it.. fed a baby girl too! very cute! change diapers.. cuddle them...

the last hr before our teacher let us go.. she show us some placenta! haha! look alien-ish! one lump of 'thing', bloody and slippery.. however i had fun touching it.. i just cant imagine how labour is like! omg.. saw a few young single mothers.. younger den me!

gonna have pnw prac later.. ok.. i am tired! gonna slp! night!


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4:01 PM


did you know?

the muscles in your heart have the strength to shoot your blood 10m in the air?

that elephants are the only animals that cannot jump!

the body's strongest muscles is our tongue

statistically, people are more afraid of spiders than they are of dying?

polar bears are left handed! =p

crocodiles cannot stick out their tongue

butterflies tase withe their feet

a cockroach can live 9 days without it's head. it only dies because it cannot eat

humans and dolphins are the only animals that have sex for pleasure

a duck's quack has no echo, and nobody knows why

each kind on the playing cards represent a king in real history:
- spades: king david
- clubs: alexander the great
- hearts: charlemagne
- diamonds: julius cesar

it is impossible to sneeze with your eye's open

startfish have no brains

origin of FUCK is 'fornication under consent of the king'


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10:01 PM


ok! today was a great day i suppose.. ok.. mayb one thing tt made my day!
although my day didnt start right..

my maid was being sent home this morning.. cuz she got caught doing something wrong.
last night around 11pm ++ her fren called to inform us she is actually not at home and asked us to check it to confirm.. my dad checked.. and she was right..i dunno how my parents waited for her.. but they told me she only came back home at
6am! tts like madness!

my parents sent her str home. breach the trust between us.. trusted her so much yet like tt.. she said she went out with her BF! haha! its been one week since she have been doing that.. oh wells!

walked to ward.. oriented us around.. saw alot on infant.. carried one of them.. so cute!!

around 1.15pm.. my CI told us to meet her at staff lounge! went there and sat down..

GUESS WAD?! i saw DR TOOT TOOT!! and he actually remember me!! he said hello! =) cool huh! ok.. my eye candy from ward 48.. onco ward.. he is soooo cute!hehe!

the last time i worked with him was in SGH.. now i am at KKH i also see him! yippy! yea-ness!

but my ward.. i am now working with the other Dr.. we call him the china man.. cuz he look like one.. amrita n all shld noe who.. hehe! poke needles into____? haha! oh wells..

so.. that made my day! toot toot is such a nice person.. very hardworking n toot! heh!

had a nice movie after blood donation drive with elena daryl and ryan..we watched jumper.. damn nice la! if i am tt jumper's gf.. i can suggest going paris for breakfast.. alaska for snow ski.. den lunch at hawai.. and dinner at london! meet up with harry potter.. hehe! met joel n his brothers 4! haha.. they also going to watch jumper.. but tt was when we alr finish watching it.. ate pasta mania.. talked.. elena spoke. everyone kept saying the same thing to me.. but its up to me to plan n change n be focus..


ok i did on personality quiz daryl asked me to take..
after taking the quiz.. got a picture of me.. but yet still quite confused..
seriously.. sigh..


Portrait of an ESFP - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

The Performer

As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.

ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently. Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.

ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.

For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.

ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.

The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it.

ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".

ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.

The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.

ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.

The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.

http://www.personalitypage.com/ESFP.html

do the quiz!
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

and get results from
http://www.personalitypage.com/portraits.html


do u all think its accurate about mine.. wad abt u? try it!


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11:09 PM


RETAIL THERAPY

i bought alot of stuff!! total cost : $180

alot alot! the wallet was suppose to be $93.. but was on sale..
so i bought it at $63! save $30. my 1st long wallet.. =D

went out with pek geok..

1. find out how to get to KKH

took a shuttle bus down to...

2. bugis
- ate aijisen
- bought pimple cream
- bought necklace n earring

3.withdraw money at OG!
- bought 2 tops! (white n green one)

4. shopped at bugis street
- white watch
- black cardigan
- skirt

5. raffles city

robinsons
- pierre cardin wallet

top shop
- orange top
- purple top
- necklace

mos burger again! slacked drink and took photos!
went home put my stuff.. it rain.. went out to meet char, joseph and aaron for dinner before we head to st anne's for a charismatic grp session.. was nice..
FR JAMES was there! his short talk was as usual.. damn good.. they gave us each a small ang bao! spiritual ang bao! inside was a card for everyone!

for mine it says:

Joy is the result of walking with God.
"take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves." Matthew 11:29

i can relate to it..

after session went to watch movie w jason! joseph drove us to junction 8. watched Fool's Gold.. not bad.. its jus that the BIMBO spoils the movie alil... other den tt the show was not bad! 3.5/5!

ended like 2am! haha! which is an hr ago! haha! okok.. this are the pics i took.. the stuff i bought!

this dress i bought it online.. nt yet got it thou.. =D














































colours! this time i try to buy more colour shirts.. i have alot of black n white!
next target! get a bag.. brown bag! =)










did a quiz

Your Element Is Air
You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!


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2:29 AM


finally i can shop till i drop dead.. however.. i must manage my spending.. cuz i am gonna shop today and monday!

WAH! my pocket is gonna have a big hole!

shopping list for today

-skirts!
-belts
-pimple cream! haha!
-necklace!

hopefully my eyes isnt "spoilt".. imagine.. wad i see i find it nice i buy! omg!

CIAO!


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11:48 AM


today was my last paper.. PHEW!

went in and walked out in 40 mins.. got so sick of exams! haha!

went to meet pek geok! ate mos.. walked around and bought 3 pairs of new earrings..
watch PS I Love You.. wasnt that fantastic.. but i can say the guy damn sweet.. if i am her.. i will neva ever forget him.. how they met was amazing.. he is cute.. hot! haha! not the body la... face! =)

cry a few parts.. cuz he is jus too sweet! haiz...


had dinner with the whole family.. was great.. super full.. woa!

Singapore won the bid! YOG 2010!! yea!! somehow cant imagine it coming! its gonna be the biggest event held in sg so far rite??? haha! as in international event.. olymics..

now feel so lethargic... not all relaxed! haiz'


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9:01 PM


burst this bubble!

i seriously need to do that.. make an effort to step oiut if comfort zone and start getting things done..

always saying.. complaining but yet not getting it done..

knowing but not doing..

regi ask me to go for the air show.. didnt know wad was it.. so i checked it out.. haha! see i am in my own world.. i cant make it even thou i would love to go.. =) yea!

den char was like ALISON U READ NEWSPAPER! made me so ps.. i read news online.. ok.. its aint boring afterall.. haha! youth olympics.. hmmm.. will it be us?? slowly having the habit to pray every night even thou i am dead tired and with so much info.. from today will try to read the newspaper everyday! @_@ haha! start bursting the bubble!

LAST PAPER TMR!! paeds paper!

can u imagine.. there are so many health probs for infants and children! dun wan to see them suffering.. giving their mommy or daddy those tearing eyes.. saying i dun wan all these pain and suffering.. why do i have to go thru all these.. ='(

anyway.. hopefully i can get to watch my PS I LOVE YOU tmr! peks geok!! haha! we are going to watch rite?! shall bring in packets of tissue! so far the comments from everyone who watched it were.. very sad.. i cried.. etc..

after movie.. will be going home for 15th day cny..! gonna see my sis! ok.. i do miss her sometimes.. amazingly! its like missing something if sunday or saturday i do not see her.. will ask mom why isnt she here.. haha.. WE ARE GONNA HAVE STEAMBOAT! shiok! eat till drop dead again!

den rush down to macs for a church meeting.. why macS!!!! cant it be church! ARGH!! nvm.. can eat icecream! heh!

shall update on how horrible the paper i going to sit for tmr.. and... how nice the movie is! hehe!!

FREEDOM! for 3 days? cuz monday i have attachment! have to make up for it.. miss it cuz i was recovering from my operation tt time... oh wells.. doing it without classmates sucks.. i'm so gonna drag myself there.. haiz..


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10:20 PM


done with my checkup.. and cutting of hair!

went down to ttsh to meet up with mom.. on the way to kopitiam i saw eng keat and his fren! sas shocked to see them.. chatted for awhile den went off for my consultation.. doctor say everything looks fine.. and i am walking very well.. can remove my metals end of oct! omg! haiz!

again!! operation end of this yr.. was thinking better do it before xmas! i so wanna celebrate it! haha! n countdown.. and my grad! wahaha! wear heels!!

oh wells!! life gonna be a bullet train next year! alot of things to do.. my next yr meaning year 3..

my attachment starts next week!! argh!!


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5:59 PM


ONE PAPER LEFT!!!! ONE!

ok! so far for today.. woke up having slight headache! i neva in my life get headache for exams! as in study till head damn heavy! haha!

bio paper was stupid! i can do la.. can pass.. but results will be like crap.. haiz! SAQ 15 marks per question i only can answer part A.. part b i dunno how to answer.. lucky part b only 5 marks.. but still!

MCQ! hell alot of quesions.. 90 mcq~~ dunno how the teacher can set so many! haha! questions.. haiz.. no comments!

later going for my check up! for my leg! duno shld i tell the dr my leg hurts a lil now.. maybe its jus walking too much hor... oh wells.. x ray den see hw! haha! mayb the screw out of place? wire bend? OR!! nothing wrong!

gonna make my mom pay for my hair cut later! n buy stuff from supermarket! hah! =)


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11:20 AM


had a great dinner! satisfied! wanted to eat kway chap for damn long.. but didnt have the chance to eat it! shiok!

suggested to eat kway chap.. my mom crazy ON today.. so we went macpherson there to eat! was nice! great! went there.. order wad we wanted! FRIED large intestines, duck meat.. and all.. haha! food came within 5 to 10 mins! shiok! finish everything within 15 - 20 mins! all stood up rubbing our tummy and started walking back to our cars!

fast huh! like vultures! haha! mayb we are all hungry n its nice! i eat n say shiok at the same time! =D

yea! study time! today my tummy think eat too much.. i always run for the toilet! opps! shall spare u all the details! =p


When you were 8 years
old, your mom handed you an ice
cream. You thanked her by dripping it
all over your lap.


When you were 9 years old, she paid for
piano lessons. You thanked her by
never even bothering to practice.


When you were 10 years old she drove
you all day, from soccer to football
to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the
car and never looking back.


When you were 11 years old, she took
you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a
different row.


When you were 12 years old, she warned
you not to watch certain TV shows. You
thanked her by waiting until she left
the house.


Wh en you were 13, she suggested a
haircut that was becoming. You thanked
her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14, she paid for a month
away at summer camp. You thanked her by
forgetting to write a single letter.


W hen you were 15, she came home from
work, looking for a hug. You thanked
her by having your bedroom door locked.


W hen you were 16, she taught you how
to drive her car. You thanked her by
taking it every chance you could.


Wh en you were 17, she was expecting
an important call. You thanked her by
being on the phone all night.


Wh en you were 18, she cried at your
high school graduation . You thanked
her by staying out partying until dawn.


Whe n you were 19, she paid for your
college tuition, drove you to campus
carried your bags. You thanked her by
saying good-bye outside the dorm so you
wouldn't be embarrassed in front of
your friends.


When you were 25, she helped to pay
for your wedding, and she cried and
told you how deeply she loved you. You
thanked her by moving halfway across
the country.


When you were 50, she fell ill and
needed you to take care of her. You
thanked her by reading about the
burden parents become to their
children.An d then, one day, she
quietly
died.
And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on YOUR
HEART..


go thx ya mom now! haha! if nt ya dad!

sometimes very true.. she ask us wad we doing.. how are we doing in school.. being concern trying to create conversation.. we end it with a few short sentences jus cuz we are tired, bad mood or jus at the wrong time..

oh wells.. i feel bad too!


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6:22 PM


fri night was great!

met up w char, joel, joseph, jason, mich and myra! ryan came later..
ate at grapevine.. pool at bistro.. and had a drink at hup seng..

played pool with them.. paired up w joseph 1st.. vs mich n ryan! WE WON! haha! i end the game! =p tt day damn lucky.. played w jason also.. i WON too!! once only thou! heh!

sat was ok.. woke up.. prep.. talk online alil.. walked to church canteen to study! shiok! nowadays, i like doing things alone.. its fun! ok.. den around 330pm sian alr.. but dun wan carry my bag hm n back to upper room.. so i walked up to upper room to put my bag and walked home! haha..

zj session was interesting.. edwina rocks! i love her to bits! her activites are very suitable for the session.. always hit on the spot! as in sometimes speakers come for session.. some expectations werent met.. ok.. or was nt very interesting.. yea!

after zj down to ah seah to eat! den to heartland to meet juls to study for awhile.. daryl accompanied me while waiting for her.. thx! decided to be healthier.. i went to buy corn flakes and muesli bars!

studied till around 11pm++ den head home! quite shiok!

now bio! got reproductive system.. blood.. endocrine.. immune system.. ! ARGH! my brain is clogged up! =p


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4:02 PM


arghhhh!!

today very productive.. or shld i say, i spent my entire day studying n revising! neva in my life i feel so stress! so crap! haha.. i cant sleep last nite.. i felt horrible if u read my previous entry!

i woke up at 9am.. get ready.. jus nice my dad is at home.. drove me to school.. reach sch around 10am.. studied at macs till 1pm.. drank milo n ate has brow for breakfast and lunch! =D

walked to e-plaza to do my e-lectures.. realise i cant even open! anyhow click... saw the consolidation paper.. did it.. correct my answers.. print it out.. walked to library to sit down n read again.. revise...... got seriously hungry! bought hotdog! hehe! walked out of cafe.. saw my classmate.. den we revise till exam time!

so fast 330pm! WOA! time to go in for paper! =) walked feeling all weird.. not the usual feeling... dunno how to say also.. oh wells, i shade my name all.. look thru the SAQ.. mostly noe how to do.. but somehow i dun feel good.. did my SAQ and MCQ~!

my teacher jus threw off some marks! questions in MCQ some are from the consolidation paper i did hrs b4 paper! =D shiok! but still felt "haiz".. weird!


walked out of exam hall early.. took a bus... and i dunno why i rush for mass.. ! wah! got alot of ppl! dunno if its lent.. the first level was filled!

now home blogging! haha! feeling slightly better.. but still being bothered by stuff.. i dunno wad.. haha! oh wells! guess the stress ate my brain up.. now recovering! haha!

screw it! gonna have fun later! den study for BIO!


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7:06 PM


i feel all stressed up.. i cant cramp anymore.. but i have to..

i have many things to think about.. need to find answers to it.. but now i cant.. no time.. but its bugging the hell out of me..

i dunno where the hell i can get my answers.. from who? who can really answer me? who can i rely on.. everyone got their own problems..

i cant even put my tots into words.. who the hell can help me?

WWJD?? emotionally crazy now.. too much! i start to think if i am for nursing.. so much to know.. so much to rmb.. so much to apply.. expect so much cuz we are dealing with life.. can i?

life isnt always fair.. but now i jus need someone who really noes me.. i dun even need to explain.. and they noe wad i am thinking abt... one person came to my mind.. but den.. i cant ask tt one person.. cuz i will be bothering tt person... my fren have more den enuff to handle.. jus adding on weight.. i rather not.. i miss those times! *sobs* the moments we relax at the beach.. talk non-stop! car rides!

ok.. i think stress is eating into me.. its bad! who can i talk to?


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12:55 AM


i can say! medical surgical nursing SUCK! haha! damn hard! loads of diseases!

why!! dun u all love yourself.. so we nurses dun need to study sooo much! haha!

do i noe! heart failure got different kind and type! right-sided heart failure, left-sided heart failure.. acute and chronic.. forward and backward.. systolic and diastolic heart failure! lastly got high output and low output!! WAH! 5 types! dammit! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! save me! i am going to have heart failure! all five of them!

today mug the whole day again! gonna mug somemore!! diabetes is also one hell of a disease! ok.. chronic illness! omg!! pls ppl!! eat healthy!! TSK!! exercise!! u dun wan to spend your entire life using ya money for medical reasons instead on hoilday trips! wahaha!

how i wish my exams ends now! but when exams end.. attachments start.. when attachment ends.. sch starts! the cycle goes on!

when grad! ME.. shall work like mad to get my skills and documentations and protocols rite! wahaha! when will i ever settle down!

end of my nonsense! CIAO!

happy early valentine day! =D


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8:14 PM


listen to it! damn funny!

http://www.mrbrownshow.com/2008/02/04/the-mrbrown-show-2-many-2-count-erp-drift/

The lyrics are embedded in the mp3. If you’re using iTunes it should be a breeze. For those who can’t view, here it is:

2 Many 2 Count - ERP Drift

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Ang Mo Kio
Go to city many gantry
Can’t afford your speed too low
Fast and furious! (Kena!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Slow is dangerous (Aiyah!) (beep! beep! beep!)

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Toa Payoh
Please lah tolong, only Lorong
Not Expressway also tio!
Fast and furious! (Kena!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Spread like virius! (Aiyah!) (beep! beep! beep!)

Many many taxes danglin
ERP now is randomin
Keep your speed ‘bove 45
Or everybody Cashcard won’t survive!
Suka suka ERP on
Happy happy gantry can born
16 new ways to gope your lui
See already want to pui!

Gahmen say take MRT
Cos car is only luxury
Build the road for Fellari
Normal car will up lorry
Ji Pa Ban (uh!), Ichiban (uh)
No million dollars you Lan Lan
CTE is the place to be
Singapore road for VIP

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Ang Mo Kio
Reach work early, at 5.30
Spend three hours drink teh-o
Can’t be seraious! (wah lau!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Live like vampires (ouch!) (beep! beep! beep!)

I wonder if you know,
Where the gantry never grow
Where the lorry Never worry
Travel freely where you go
Pulau Bukom! (Don’t have!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Pulau Tekong (Huat ah!) (beep! beep! beep!)



SOUR show me this link! was asked to put his name down! wahaha! =p


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12:43 AM


new songs added to my blog!! 1st off is BUBBLY! 2nd TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR!

char told me she got a song stuck in her head.. she said: 1st the song melody was nice.. den saw the lyrics, liked it even more.. after listening somemore.. she find it sad~ the lyrics is below. its TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR

today!! studied! went spi.. around 11++ studied till 3pm.. walked home.. cooked lunch... slept.. studied for another hr or so! going to study later again!! WOOOHHOO~

as jason was saying.. after exams CHIONG AH! go and slack! but den need the money to slack..

when i was studying yesterday with melissa i was thinking .. sometimes.. think too much about life.. it will make me think life suck big time! so! i have decided! i gonna jus live life day by day.. ehhh... u all get wad i mean? as in not heck care kinda attitude... but the "not thinking so much" kinda attitude?

ok.. getting lame! damn will i pass my exams! ciao!!





TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR

Drew looks at me.
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be.

I'll bet she's beautiful,
That girl he talks about.
And she's got everything
That I have to live without.

Drew talks to me.
I laugh, cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see
Anyone, when he's with me.

He says he's so in love.
He's finally got it right.
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night!

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

Drew walks by me.
Can he tell that I cant breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly.

The kind of flawless I wish I could be.

She better hold him tight,
Give him all her love,
Look in those beautiful eyes,
And know she's lucky, cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star,
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

So I drive home alone.
As I turn out the light,
I'll put his picture down,
And maybe get some sleep tonight.

Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart,
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

He's the time taken up,
But there's never enough.
And he's all that I need to fall into.

Drew looks at me.
I fake a smile so he won't see.


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9:21 PM


post number : 300 spartans!



SAT WAS GREAT!

we had loads of fun!! met everyone at ryan's hse! weather was damn hot! ate n talked.. i was the target of the day! wahaha! suan n suan!

made our way to char hse! wil took a photo of us in the car! reach char hse.. we had bbq chatted and all.. got fed up cancelled the movie thingy.. den felt much better! took a walk in the park.. was fun.. maybe not a walk.. but doing nonsense stuff! wahaha... played swings.. turning plate.. that i flew out of it.. cuz too fast alr! haha!!! den see saw... took loads of photos! i love it! =D

den we made our way to wil house.. by the time it was quite kate alr.. 10++ 11 alr.. played cards.. its been sometime since i gambled.. ended everything @ 2am+++ den shuan fetch me back!






































TODAY!

11am mass! lunch at heartland, KFC.. rush down to meet 0624 at serangoon mrt to go ms joelle's hse! visiting! had fun eating pizza and taking loads of photos.. after tat melissa joe fu and me made our way to J8 to watch AH LONG PTE LTD! wahaha... was hilarious! laughed alot! =)

ok! end of entry! tmr gg NYP to study!


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1:18 AM


random tots













took from : http://stickgal.blogspot.com/

jus for laugh! she draw damn nice!

i am jus bored.. seriously bored!

i was been left at home! my parents went to gamble at uncle place.. my bro they all head to KL... my sis w bro-in-law! i?? at home w the dogs and my computer! @_@|||

tmr!!! tmr!!! ZJ ZJ ZJ ZJ!!

oh wells!


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2:49 AM


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone!

my plans for CNY..

eve:

reunion dinner at carlton hotel... which was quite sucky.. i only like the abalone.. shark fins wasnt really gd.. service was horrible.. like rushing for train.. cousins was ok.. but my jie wasnt there.. so was like.. SIAN! all of us misses her.. =D



1st day:

- 830 mass @ IHM

- all my aunties, uncles and cousin gather at my hse! =) as usual.. they gave us ang bao.. den we kneel to pay respect for OUR GRANDPARENTS! i love them! XOXO

- off to hse visitings!! think got 4 cars! VROOM!! visited 4 places i think.. including carmelite! our grand aunt is there.. nice lady! =D u noe!!! she said i look like hilary clinton!!! can u believe it! wahaha!! joke of the day! sooo funny!! i dun even dun like her! LOL

-back home.. ate till damn full!! den rest for 2-3 hrs..

- go my mom's sister place.. ate steamboat.. and came back!


2nd: yet to confirm! wahaha.. but think gonna be damn sian!!!

3rd: which is SAT!! ZJ TIME!! my 2nd family!! gonna go to ryan's and char's hse.. dunno.. wad will we be doing after tt! waha!!

4th:

going to ms joelle hse to eat! our clinical teacher invited us!! she rocks la.. she damn cute! hehe!! can call her " LITTLE MISS GIGGLE"


so far.. tts the only few plans! boring!!!


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10:32 PM


i was lost track in direction for awhile.. finally got back on track.. starting to swim back to shore..

it seems life been rather mundane this few days.. and days to come.. CNY, dun feel like CNY...

exams.. focus.. i need to be focus.. thx god i starting to be more focus..

my cousin say "wadeva" is a diva word.. interesting.. didnt noe...
CNY.. renuion dinner n ang baos tt i am looking forward.. seeing my cousin and all.. other den that.. boring! dead boring..

after exams wad shld i do?

random feeling i am having now...

happy are those who are poor in spirit.. the kingdom of heaven belongs to them.. (matt 5:3)

later got test.. all the best to me! =D i will swim back to shore.. i will....


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12:21 AM


today was kinda boring in the beginning..

stuck at home the whole day with no one at home at all! manage to make myself study in the afternoon for an hour or so.. my dining room is quite a gd place to study..

chatted online and lost track of time alil.. rushed to get ready for evening rally.. had dinner at hupseng.. its suck.. the beef hor fun its so exp! wth! exp nvm.. portion was freaking lil! argh...

after that joseph drove us to CJC for the rally.. the beginning and the end of the rally wasnt really good for me.. didnt felt the presence for the beginning PnW.. only the last song of it den i could felt it.. den the testimonies from 2 ppl was gd.. as in they had a lot of courage to actually came out n share n all.. praying over and all.. den pnw again.. which ended quite not the way i think it shld be.. i say ah.. i think....

yea.. one thing came out in my mind was.. heart of worship.... yea..

had supper with the rest after rally at chomps! had fun disturbing char! wahaha! damn shiok i am not the target! =p

reach back home.. joseph almost drove pass my feet.. wahaha.. daniel was so gan chiong! den i was all blur
wahaha..

ok tired!!! damn sian! test on tues! @_@


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12:52 AM


thurs suck.. had my individual presentation.. the laptop i wanted to use cant be detected by the projector.. @_@|||

had so much problems w it.. made all so irritated! but.. felt so much better after presenting!

today! wala wala again! this time i came home early and sober! super sober tt i felt so bored.. wahaha... as in.. i didnt had much fun.. as in the crowd was everywhere.. two tables apart.. very hard to talk..

met a cute guy.. oh wells.. forget wads his name again.. but his from france.. woooo... but didnt felt comfortable there, so i went to the other table.. chairs were few.. sat on the stage.. felt weird.. but heck la.. cant stand long.. leg was in pain actually.. wahaha... and daryl getting on my nerves! @_@ i had to say him.. but den.. stop for a few secs and start saying me again.. haiz.. wad to do.. get used to it can alr.. =D was alil "argh" when i asked to him STOP.. but i realise he wont.. so i had to play along..

took pics with them!! brought my camera.. den took my last photo w mich phipps.. and everyone was saying BYEEEE!! so loud even the band lead singer said bye to US! damn paiseh! had to go home early.. told my mom to be home by that time i better be home..

learning.. how to control.. i was limit to 2 glasses of vodka! damn! haha.. but was ok eventually.. thinking.. its not abtthe drinking.. is abt having fun w frens.. yea! SORRY to those i kept on pinching! wahaha! i abit out of my mind..

ZJ rocks.. my gang rocks.. my Close frens rocks!

ending my dead boring w no link ENTRY...




















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12:19 AM


this week so far..

monday had project presentation for andy's.. our last grp project for yr 2

tuesday had BCLS practical.. which means CPR practical.. i passed all.. infant CPR n choking.. one man CPR and choking.. two man CPR.. adult choking from concious to unconcious scenerio... I PASSED! so happy..

btw! i decided to go for weekday mass.. walked in early.. stare at the confession box for a gd 10 mins.. didnt dare to go in.. but when i decided to walk to the room.. father walked out of the room.... haiz! guess i have to go another time.. will pluck up my courage again! soon~!

wed! which is today.. went school for lect.. i reached sch super early! 1st one to reach lect hall.. i go and on the lights! hehe! sat in there all alone for abt 20 mins! bio tut.. followed by bio lect.. den BCLS theory paper.. questions asked were quite str forward! yea! =) went SPI to do abit of proj and joseph was studying..
went for mass.. den walked home..

wore my squirrel shirt today~ i like the pic tts why!

deciding to go wala this fri.. 60% says no.. 40% says go.. this is how i feel thou..
my scar.. one part got exudates! eeewww.. i dunno infected not.. i got scare.. took normal saline to wash thru.. hopefully ok la.. pray hard man!

tmr my individual proj presentation... and i am heck care abt it! haha!

cheers!


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11:33 PM


A lil bit messy! haha!! u wan the email let me noe i forward to u! but do read it! its gd.. it whack me in the face! but i need time to digest!~



HANDY LITTLE CHART
God has a positive answer for everything

YOU SAY GOD SAYS BIBLE VERSES
You say: "It's impossible" God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired" God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me" God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34 )

You say: "I can't go on" God says: My grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out" God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5- 6)

You say: "I can't do it" God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able" God says: I am able (2 Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it" God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )

You say: "I can't forgive myself" God says: I Forgive you (1 John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage" God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid" God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (2 Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated" God says: Cast all your cares on ME (1 Peter 5:7)

You say: "I'm not smart enough" God says: I give you wisdom (1 Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone" God says: I will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)


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10:36 PM


ok.. i jus got into trouble again..

went wala yesterday night..
drank 3 shots, hoegarden, martini, long island tea.
things didnt turn out well..

i didnt meant that to happen.. i noe i was feeling horrible.. i knew wad i was doing.. but my head and body was alr gone..

thx for helping me! clement, kelly, joel, dan, jason, daryl, julianna and so on.. dun even noe who was there.. yea.. but thx...

after that i still feel crappy... it didnt help at all.. in fact in got the matter worse.. who can understand?

to be in control... i must be.. this 1st week of sch suck.. so tiring.. so drained.. so helpless.. so slow..

zj today was fun.. session.. sharing session.. dinner at ah seah.. they went to play pool again.. i sat there n stone.. feeling heavy! haha!

i am tired.. can i give up.. i cant.. poly left one more year.. i have to get thru my exams..

god pls help me.. why am i always making my parents unhappy? can i turn back the clock?!

ok.. i have to be sane.. get hold of myself.. wake up!!
k box tmr! yea!!


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10:03 PM


yest nite was great!!

i met up with my gang.. but mel, jerry and matthias was not around!
nick drove. ryan, juls and me went out.. i decided to go east coast there to eat! den sat there and enjoy the wind.. talked and joke.. sang stupid songs.. all thos cartoon we watched when we were young.. basically spending gd time tgt!

after that i suggest come my hse and drink.. haha.. they say ok lo.. we played dice game.. eg, throw 5 den drink whole cup and all.. and before the game i alr drank quite alot.. everyone except nick were a lil tippsy! haha! cuz i sabo till very bad.. haha.. i was alil too.. but still good...

nick ya van damn shiok!

wad a nite.. laughed so much.. haha!! was super hyper tt nite.. really love my gang! ahaha!

tonight walas.. not sure to so of not.. but daryl say take cab go.. hmmm.. shld be gg! heh! sat zj.. den sunday k box.. woa.. PACKED! CNY around the corner! cool!!

back home early.. cuz i no need to do my elective anymore! wahaha!! so now everyone running 2.4km.. i am at home blowing aircon! haha!

proj! here i come!


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3:08 PM


felt like blogging.. but i dunno wad to blog about...

hmmmm, yesterday night when i was online was the worse night ever.. anyway... my sister very strong.. i and i must how to be strong too!

fri if can i wan go wala.. den sat will be zj.. den sunday will be mass.. n maybe k box.. no one confirm with me..

was not even told it was an outreach thingy!!! tsk.. maybe they didnt noe i am in outreach.. or am i in?? i also dunno.. how?

ahhhh.. i am bored.. skipped 2 bio lessons.. really tired n dead stone.. i feel very heavy.. i am not talking about my weight here thou.. haha!!

reason being.. NOT KNOWN.. not really known.. finally.. this few days i felt hyper back again.. going out n laughing till jaw drop.. during CPR lessons or out with zj mates! haha!

jason.. thx for those words thou.. even thou it didnt had an impact on me last night.. but i understood it now.. i feel bless.. but sometimes i just couldnt help it..

i miss those times we go to the beach and stone to feel the wind and watch the waves.. monkey... haha! who ask me la! we go when we can again.. and i will drag ppl to go w me if u are not free! haha!

today was tiring! everyday 9am start sch leh! tmr also! den in between got such long breaks.. and tmr i have elective.. means napfa! haha.. i run? 2.4km?? do shuttle run?? sit ups maybe can.. haha! think i will be exempted from it! =) gd huh!

if i can get exempted from it.. see can dun need go lessons.. if need den need to stay back.. till evening.. den make me think abt cheer.. dunno if i will go down to see them.. i see how lo..

saw maria n brenda yest at mac area.. was great seeing them.. maria! prac ya eyeliner drawing! haha!

hopefully i can lose more weight!! yea!

ok.. ciao.. shall see wad i can blog more abt later..


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2:54 PM


its a choice.. a decision.. everyone kept on saying that.. but its hard.. i dun dare.. i dun wan yet i wan too.. i am scared.. but..

everyone says the 1st step is the hardest.. the rest will be easier..

haiz... some things i just cant put it down.. cant forget or forgive.. last yr add on one more.. and i didnt realise it till today... while talking to dillion and PEACE LOVER... @_@|||

blaming myself isnt good.. not being able to put down the past isnt good.. not having a motivation in life isnt good.. having knowledge in my brain and not in my heart isnt good.. not being serious with life isnt good.. having no courage isnt good too!

so many! i can list down more.. it will never end.. shldnt i just be contented in life? with life?? yet people are asked to strive harder for the better.. ironic huh..

now i am scare that i walk too much... Dr didnt really say i can walk.. but i am walking alr... and so on.. got a bad feeling abt it.. cant help it.. dun walk very sad wan u noe.. sometimes just felt like crying.. why.. i have so much to say yet words cant really come out..felt so much yet i just dun wanna think abt it..

i am suppose to get over it.. i am suppose to be alr over tt matter.. but its came back to me again..

this injury.. bothered my mom so much.. my dad too.. can see she feel hurt n sad to see me in this state.. haiz.. wad to do.. happen alr.. have to live with it.. i tot i got over it.. but somehow it came back today..

ppl have to learn from mistakes.. whether its the hard way or not.. i learnt it thru the hard n painful way....


BACK TO TODAY!

went to sch pretty early again!! 9am lecture.. 8.30am in sch alr.. cuz my dad fetch my niece n nephew to sch 1st.. den me.. yea!

lessons as normal.. den went home to change home clothes.. black shirt too hot alr.. will die from heat! haha!!

studied in SPI.. but slacked 2hrs later.. went for mass.. den out for dinner with dillion n joseph..

had a nice chat.. dinner at LJS.. den come home! =)

the end!


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10:14 PM


last night i asked nabil when is my week of presentation for pt education.. 1st he said was wk 16 (nxt wk) den last night he smsed this fri present.. i was damn shocked la!

i tot i this time die alr.. proj haven even really start doing... stayed up for awhile to do.. did till 2am plus again.. damn tired lo! and i had to report at 9am this morning for a grp proj meeting.. make me stress.. went sch around 8.30am to find books in library for my individual use.. tired~!

had CPR lessons today again.. i had a trial test today.. learnt how to print the paper out to see.. not bad! was quite ok.. my teacher say not bad.. just that i pump too much.. den the 2 breaths too long.. i was like.. tot must wait for chest to deflate 1st? she say aiya! dummy mah.. human diff.. haha..

she said she will fail me thou! haha.. but the instructor will pass me.. i was like quite happy.. at least she say my ventilation was gd.. enough air.. compression deep enough.. =D

found out one of my lect mates also fracture her leg! her fracture was worse.. open fracture! tibia was badly broken.. ankle bones gone... eeyer.. she say the blood was everywhere and the bone damn white! WAHAHA! lame.. bone not white den pink? haha!

suddenly i felt so lucky.. even thou my injury can be prevented.. if.. so many ifs.. tsk!

jason was asking me why i always laugh laugh smile smile.. i suddenly tot of the golden path show.. laugh also one day.. cry also one day.. why not we choose to laugh instead of cry..

say is say la.. but sometimes when is time to feel sad n cry den no choice.. jason! i not only laugh all the time... i had sad moments too u noe! =D

tmr! 9am start sch again!!!!!! got lect! haiz.. super not used to sch clock.. now must always wake up so early.. den at night still cant sleep.. lie on my bed dunno waiting for wad.. haha! cows to come home? example.. 1.45am i lie on my bed.. 2.20am still lying on my bed! haha!!

die! hopefully my eye cream will help fight with my eye bags n dark rings. heh!

must study alr! must must!


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7:11 PM


its been 5 weeks.. no sch.. no stress.. but loads of pain, unhappiness, uncomfortable feelings and lessons learnt..

its a hard way to learnt thou.. even thou its hard i experienced alot.. how patients feel when they go thru I/V inserted, operation and being pushed around by commode n wheelchair..

learnt tt my family was really there for me.. ZJ was actually the second family i have been neglecting and the close frens tt accompanied me thru this process.. thru this i can see who actually cared for me.. felt loved!

i pray my ah gong will be forever in gd health.. at least God bless him that he dun need to go thru much pain.. results will be out this week.. i hope everything will be ok.. i cant bear anything to happen to him.. he such a nice person..

oh wells..

today was my 1st day of sch.. 1 hr lesson only! was andy's tut and it was presentation! sian! see nabil they all present den end of lesson! lucky got BCLS training.. so when to prac CPR.. blow n pump.. look listen n feel.. hellohello! see my frens do so many times.. i did a few... but gave up alr.. damn sian.. stone all the way..

NABIL! ya ass damn perky! haha! shant put up the pic we took thou! hahah!!

after lessons went home by cab.. took my books and met joseph n charmaine for "study" session.. they studied la.. i manage to read some lecture notes.. slowly but fast.. (irony) i need to get up my studying pace.. exams are soon! after CNY!

ok.. back to wad happened.. went for mass den evening prayer.. neva do all these in ages! joseph was scared of Fr Luke! hahaha! suan suan suan!

den went to play pool w elena ryan joseph n joel! mich p played a few games den left alr..

super hungry today lo! neva eat!! whole day drink one bottle of green tea and >10 sweets.. tahan until dinner which was 10pm like tt! haha! siao! my tummy today like very weird.. neva "complain" much! hahahaha!!!

tmr! 9 am got meeting alr!! den end sch at 6pm! sian!


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11:03 PM


we had that outing on fri den sat was zj.. i said i had stiff neck yea? i decided to get some cheapo pillow to sleep on for 2 hrs b4 ZJ.. amazing man.. my neck was better... my neck damn cheapo!

sat zj was nice.. chatted alot! was the getting to know session.. Emmaus Walk session.. den talked n shared somethings over an over again.. cuz we sat in circles... den the inner circles move outer circle stays den we chat we each other for 4 mins or so.. was interesting..

as usual.. beg everyone to go out.. haha.. got elena, mich, dillion, ryan, john, joseph and ah pun for dinner.. went ah seah.. after that went bowling.. i didnt play thou.. my leg... hahaha! waited for quite sometime for our turn.. den went to eat prata b4 we had our lanes to play.. by that time mich, dillion and ah pun left alr..

took a cab home.. so tired but i cant sleep! damn! my dogs are barking i cant sleep due to no reason @_@.. woke up at 7 am just to give ryan wake up call.. met char ryan n joseph for mass.. but apparently the core came too..

had breakfast den help out in the blood donation drive booth.. on the way home got caught in the RAIN! thank god i was half way home so not tt drench!

damn tired now.. but i am trying not to sleep! or not at night cant sleep! haha!

TMR START SCHOOL ALR.. damn happy but damn sian.. movement partially impaired! haha!!! oh wells..


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1:23 PM


ahhh.. i slept side ways for too long last night!!! den now i got stiff neck.. damn pain.. haiz...

rotate or turn head also pain.. haha.. sian...
pillow think too high alr.. cuz i filp the other side of the pillow w/o the curve den was higher... den was very bad.. haiz!

alrite! ZJ later! cool huh!

cheers!


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11:49 AM


now i treasures all the outing i have now.. one week only step out of the house the most 2 to 3 times a week!

so for now.. all outings are good!

today jason asked everyone out! for dinner.. jason, joel n me went out first to bishan to eat sushi! had fun talking.. miss the times talking rubbish.. random chats..

on the way up saw my sis n my bro in law.. so funny! they like got shocked! why my bai ka sister doing outside.. haha! so funny...

went grapevine next.. dillion n mich phipps came.. talked all sorts of topic.. from likes.. to phipps stuff... to personal problems.. jokes... talking abt.. somehow all ZJ girls all very on n garang.. but somehow we got the girl side! haha!!!!


after that walked home.. saw raymond n the rest! so so paiseh!! tts why i hate gg hup seng.. u see ppl randomly.. somemore in my horrible state!

tmr! SAT!! here i go! heavy rain also i heck arh! haha!! here i go people!! =)


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12:18 AM


today

woke up the wrong side of bed.. was furious mad when my dad made me walk from home to hupseng to eat breakfast at 8am.. cuz i have to go for physio at 9.30am..

leg not walking well alr still make me walk so much.. den walk also pain cuz got small slopes when i was walking there..

haiz!

went to hospital.. waited for quite sometime.. had physiotherapist assess.. teach some exercises to do.. den over heard say to satisfy me put me one a sationary bicycle to cycle! cuz if i were to come and let her assess and not do anything den she think i will be mad..

was a lil irritated.. cant tt that furious w her cuz i might jus interpret it wrongly.. btw! the ang moh physiotherapist was there too! haha! not bad! SIAN! not my physio.. or not i damn gd girl wan ok! haha..

after tt went hougang mall to get my facial stuff.. finally got the cleanser and toner n moisturizer from body shop.. got a temp body shop member.. =D also bought eye cream! for my darl eye rings! haha!! my mommy pay! gd huh!

ok.. tts abt it.. so bored! sat faster come! can go out again.. think tmr night can go slack w frens alr! haha!! =)


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10:57 PM


had sooo much fun today!!

ZJ open hse! got 6 new ppl came for the open hse.. and angel n matthew came! great!
its a very nice sat even was raining very heavily!

had PnW.. sharing.. testimony.. so many! wow!

i actually manage to talk with 2 new people and we had quite a gd conversation! went vivo city after session! ate at spizza.. den i suggest to them we go chomp chomp!

haha! this is the fun part lo! we really did broke out our comfort zone! it ISN'T a clique outing or a guys/ girls outing.. but just an outing randomly.. mario, dillon, mich p, ryan, daryl, jason, aaron, aloy, jerome, joseph, elena and me! random rite! haha!

BUT we had loads of fun! esp the car ride.. joked and talked.. i suggested vivo they went.. say wan go eat at chomp? they damn ON! haha! ate sooo much.. pizza.. sting ray.. hokkien mee.. tang yuan with bean curd.. FRIED oyster! sugar cane!

LOVELY! i simply love today.. even i got all angry with myself cuz the crutches made me all tired and sian! haha! but everyone was very understanding! yep!

i love today!


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1:45 AM






wahaha!! damn funny! must watch! FARTS! wahaha!!

theres many more but i think this 2 v funny! stupid pig..


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5:46 PM


hospitalisation pics! nice! the dog is cute! we had loads of fun tt night.. mel n jason was hilarious! =D cute! juls wanna bite my toe! joker!




























that much food was at the bed side tt night! haha! i had loads of food getting fat!


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12:29 AM


lala!

just came back from Dr Mathew Cheng check up! yea!

say i shld be able to start walking soon!! how soon u all might ask.. is 6 WEEKS time.. haha! sad!

going for my physiotheraphy.. dates are set! hah! i will do it! and my mommy say i must love myself leh.. ah! say sleep early all.. haha! siao!

i must prac my ankle.. its kinda stiff! no have to bend it using slight force! push! everyday must do it.. or not cant walk! haha!

no more bandages need to be pasted on my wound alr! hmm, can bathe normally.. no need wrap plastic bag on it anymore!

so stress to let them noe i am a student nurse! expect me to noe stuff! which i SHLD NOE! haha!

when will i stop being so playful and start getting serious about my life! oh man!

anyways, my that Dr was not bad.. friendly and all.. but some how i feel the pressure! heh!

soon! i can walk! so soon! *sobs* so happy! haha!

ok! end of it! so excited! =p


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7:42 PM



the swell before i even went to AnE =)




wound bandage after the first wound dressing! 2nd post operation day!




compare of both legs!




the brusies! eeyer! ugly!




wound! my operation wound! =S both sides of my leg~!










finally got the USB port to upload the photos i got in my camera! haha!find it interesting to show u all my leg now! haha! =p

abit sad la.. now my calf muscles are one big one small! haiz!

most recent pics of my leg! =D










eh! i didnt noe! my front of tt leg also got blue black! haha! ok! yah! the end of pics of my interesting metal leg! haha!

all screwed n wired! haha! damn! i am tt bored! TSK!


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3:15 PM


ok! blogging time.. lazy to blog the past few days!

i felt alive! tt night when i went for the count down.. suppose to meet them around 9 plus at retreat house.. but i got so excited i got ready by around 7.45pm.. hah!

i hop n move around with crutches.. had PnW b4 mass... so happy!!! damn long no PnW.. felt recharged!

from retreat hse to church was damn tiring for me! now i noe crutches suck! haha! so tiring.. i tot my heart gonna stop..

had the mass.. back to retreat hse for the party.. had so much fun there.. many other youth groups step out from their comfort zone and came for our mini party! we had fun.. ice breakers.. intro-ing each other..

we played till like 6am! took a grp photo! den go home!

one of it they ask wad is one thing that happened in 2007 that is memorable.. or interesting.. i said its my 1st time going for an operation in Dec.. haha.. but as it move round the grp.. i rmb much more things tt happen in 2007.. somehow or rather its an interesting year..

i was able to experience of helping to clean of 2 patients that passed away.. i went night trekking with wilfred n the rest.. 1st time leading outreach team in ZJ (didnt do that well thou).. had my bdae celebration at changi airport with my wonderful frens.. went to club and it was gay night.. visited eplanade so many times.. had peformance for cheer at raffles place area.. new juniors to add to the joy of it.. my 1st admission to hospital.. bla bla bla... alot.. haha! oh wells..


felt so loved n heng i still got them! everyone kept on saying community n all.. somehow.. this injury, my broken leg.. that word community sank down into my heart..

one day i hope the knowledge of God will sink down to my heart.. now.. its still in my head! haha.. some of u might understand wad i am saying..

even ZJ was always there.. not very close but yet not very far away from me.. we dun really share all our problems tgt.. but, theres always an amazing link n bond between us.. maybe its only me who think that way now.. cuz i am in the situation..

fracturing this leg might be a small case to certain people.. but to me its my first time experiencing it.. its something very hard for me to get use to.. not being able to move around as freely as it is.. it might be temp for 2 months.. but tt was enuff for me..

oh wells.. all in all i just felt heng n thankful i have ZJ n my other close frens to keep in going on.. loves!

imaginary hugs to my ZJ n beloved close frens! haha!


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1:26 PM


What's your love language?

Acts of service
Your primary language of love is acts of service. When a loved one does a simple chore for you it speaks volumes about how much they care about you. Of course, different acts of service mean more to you - and that's up to you and your loved ones to figure out

acts of service, my love lang.. cool.. interesting! oh wells..
wahaha! so bored till i kept on playing face book and watch anime!

'I AM LEGEND' was not that bad.. i give a B-! haha! i think the dog very poor thing.. oh wells.. shant say anymore u all go watch!

u noe! cuz i fell yest.. my mom insist of my sis to bring me to movie with a wheelchair! omg! haiz! nvm..

a pregnant lady(my sis) pushing me around! siao man! haha! my bro-in-law was parking while we go up to eat dinner.. we decided to eat at thai express.. my sis cant push me up the small slope! no strength! haha! ok preg.. i think i ask the guy to help! scare my sis use too much strength.. ask server to pull me up.. ok.. later she injured worse! scare sia!

ate.. went to cinema! felt so embarrass!!! had to go buy back door! cuz Junction 8's GV got stairs! omg! anyway.. den when we reach the back door, it was cinema 6.. it was in a middle of a MOVIE!! dammit! my bro-in-law got a shock! den my sis just push me in! haha!! feel like an arse can!! wheelchair! me! being pushed from the front of cinema 6 to the back! everyone was looking at me instead of their movie!

ok.. out we go.. went in cinema 4~ no one! heng arh! den i hop in to the sit sat there, kiao ka-ing! cuz if i put my leg down too long too much blood will flow to my metals! haha!! when tt happens they fight.. den very pain.. it will swell..

den my sis say her tummy pain! when my bro-in-law alr left to the washroom! i was huh! u ok not?! she was ok la... my baby KICKING! woa!! i say i wan to feel! she let me feel lo! I FELT IT!!! cool man! haha! at that point of time i felt so much love flow in my sis! haha!! a living foetus in her! wahaha!! baby boy! =D

ok.. than movie started n end.. and i went home! haha!

ok.. now my leg aching leh.. dunno is it cuz of the fall! argh! bored~


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4:54 PM


today got YM bbq.. i cant go..

dun think parents will allow me to go out with them..

but my sibling, sister.. going out w me! think with cousins too! haha! cool huh.. watching "I'm Legend", will blog how is it after it. looks nice..

been stoning at home as usual! haven been talking to my close frens.. haha.. cuz i too busy climbing up and down the stairs! argh~


i fell today~ SOB!


dunno my bone inside ok not leh.. later i internal bleeding till die... or my leg later one lonng one short! wa liao! haiz~ take ht must stand on the longer leg! haha!!!

thx babes for ya concern.. will contact u all soon.. when i dun need to give so much attention to my leg!

i leave my bones to heal in the care of God.. pray that after that hit when i fell down didnt cause much impact.. everything will go back normal after 3 months or so.. and when its heal.. hopefully i can jump again! JUMP!

swim, run, cycle, blading and WALK.. all these i cannot do now.. my leg.. i dunno in future will blading be a dangerous sports for me alr not.. cuz might just break it again how?

oh wells... maybe to break my leg got some reason.. chinese saying, you lose money to block diaster! but in my case.. maybe i break a leg a to block something worse than this???

my religion saying is that.. everything happens for a purpose.. someday i will see the light.. all He ask us to do is to trust in Him for we walk by faith and not my sight!

both got the same meaning thou! =D

yep pek! its a hard and quite a long road to come for the recovery of my leg! will hang on! have to hang on! haha!


JUST FOR LAUGH!
ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
____________ _________ _________


OFFICE ARITHMETIC



Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
____________ _________ ________


SHOPPING MATH



A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.
____________ _________ ________


GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS



A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
____________ _________ ________
HAPPINESS



To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
____________ _________ _________


LONGEVITY



Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
____________ _________ _________


PROPENSITY TO CHANGE



A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
____________ _________ ________


DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE



A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
____________ _________ ________

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.' They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.


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6:27 PM


oh wells... been home bound! haha..

hopefully i dun get FAT!! eat sleep slack, eat sleep.. lie down.. barely sit up.. only for meals.. cuz need to allevate my leg.. oh wells..

so far i can kan kai alr.. not that bad.. just tt sometimes at night i feel miserable.. all immobilse and all. use crutches takes hell lot of strength! can lose calories.. best is the lost can equal my intake! hahaha!!

will be home next 3 weeks.. anyone wana come pei me? haiz!!

i have a prob beside my leg tt i cant walk.. if u noe me.. i have a emotional curves.. and all very extreme peaks.. when i am sad.. i feel like i worthless tilli think living suck... cry n feel horrible!

happy.. laugh and laugh, joke till the cow comes home =p.. den ppl anyhow disturb i also ok wan.. hahah!

siao me!

now asking my fren abt physio.. wow.. a stud nurse noe nuts man!! study abt disease disease.. wad abt bone!! kns! haha..

i noe nuts abt it... guess thats wad physiotherapy is abt!

gonna have brain dead soon! shld start stuyding!! HAHAHA!!


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4:37 PM


I AM BACK! HOME!!

admitted to tan tock seng on sat (15/12) night cuz i fractured my leg fibula n tibia! didnt noe was that bad...

injured due to wrong landing during my cheer stunt..

oh wells.. at least yijun, heng da, joey, yi ting, doudou, poh poh, maria and maybelle came and visit me.. thats from my cheerteam.. thanks! oh ya! surprisingly, i was admitted to maybelle's ward! haha!! 12B..

maybelle u must hang on there ok! =) god bless her..

from ZJ! mario, colin, ryan, joel, jason, aloy and aaron.. MY GANG! haha! juls, mel, mel bf!, matthias, jerry.. haha.. jeremy, peksy.. quite a few..! haha! i cant rmb.. most of them come twice! phew! without you all.. i will bored to death! rotting! haha! i noe some are really busy from ZJ! and mich.. have to work and all! thx for calling thou! =D wesley, aaron and regi.. 0624, melissa, amrita and janet! oh and amrita's fren! haha!


being admitted to hospital was a new experience for me.. as a student nurse.. i push pt to toilet.. i answer their call bells.. this time! i was the one calling them thru call bells.. asking help to toilet.. cuz i cant move! me being hyper, this is the worst torture for me! being semi-handicap..

now i can understand all the pt's felt when they were admitted to hospital.. I/V drip injections.. operations.. medication.. pain killers which sometimes does not help, so i have to ask for injection to have a faster effect!

stayed there for a week! but i had my operation on the 2nd last day of my discharge! had my operation on 22/12/07 12am! finish opt at 4am! was in pain! cant tahan, so asked for pain killers! injection! haha! after that, shiok arh.. i sleep all the way! sunday ask me to discharge! power sia!

staying in hospital.. was an experience i neva had.. was a horrible one.. a painful n redunant one.. i felt so crappy when i think of somethings..

but i guess i have to look on the bright side! life seems to be more dead to me.. i am lazy to entertain people.. lazy to go out.. lazy to do this, lazy to do that.. i feel so fed up.. why must this happen to me.. why?? i cant go back to normal anymore... i have to tahan all this pain.. all this uncomfortable therapy.. not for 2 weeks but for at least 2 YEARS!!!!!!

2 freaking years.. operation.. clutches for 2 months.. metals in my left leg.. 2 years later operation again to take out the metals.. like wtf!!

yet.. yet.. oh wells.. wont say everything out.. i just have to think on the bright side of life..

wad value add does it add to me.. my brother ask me.. i cant think of any.. once bitten twice shy.. now i seriously noe wad it means.. but in a very harsh way.. now i noe the pain..

i cant go for midnight mass.. i cant go for shuan's xmas party.. i am gonna miss alot of fun n sharing.. oh wells..

have to postpone my attachment.. its gonna affect my results..

have to wait till next year... haha! 2008 xmas! wow... thats long!

i cant whine.. i can get angry and all.. have to get thru it! lets test my endurance! go go go! alison! i shall mark the day i can jump with both legs again!! i will mark that day!!! haha!!


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5:10 PM







a dress i bought today.. looks like any other dress thou.. =)

mood relief.. got such thing? haha!

oh wells.. feeling all haiz.. but better! =)

juls intro this song to me! nice!



-Is all coming back to me-

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any one in love
Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any lovers in love
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me

(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we...


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8:56 PM


today woke up early for lesson! actually didnt wan to go for lessons.. dun feel like going..

but wad the heck.. just stop sulking n all.. i got up and went for lecture~

today training was cancelled.. came back home early! on the way home i some what felt better for no reason..

wondering.. when i need you u are always not around.. maybe not always.. at least this time u are not around..

if i lose you.. i guess i will be very lonely.. therefore i think... is best i will have to keep things this way.. i will not go and disturb the peace b/w us..

and i will carry on with my bubbly life! with my other friends and family..

seriously.. wo xiang tong le! feeling less moody!!

melissa ling! haha.. thx for the sms u sent me.. very touching.. it went str to my heart! even thou i noe u wun be reading this..

nabil.. i think u dunno.. haha! thx for cheering me up in your own ways.. and abt tt results.. ALISON DUN SAD.. i noe.. haha! genopathy!

juls.. thx babe.. for the concern too

nick too...

peksy n mich.. meet up soon k! xoxo

pics took during elective..











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3:18 PM


got back my bio prac results.. i am so not happy with it..
my day was already terrible enough.. add on to my results..
i pass.. but i didnt get the A i use to get.. so fucked.. B+ is all i get!

feeling are annoyed by it.. i wan to go to the beach.. why cant u be the one?!
i have to figure out things..

wad shld i do abt it.. how do i go abt doing it.. when shld i.. shld i even go n do it? troubled.. can i tahan for long? shld i find other alternatives? will i regret?

tmr there will be training again.. hope i can improve.. will try my best in doing it.. even thou i am not the best.. and the rest shld train more den me... i will try..

abt studies.. i need to start to study soon..


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8:09 PM


after a day of thinking.. i think i shall dun care abt it and continue with my life..

who can i really rely on?
who can tahan my nonsense for life?
why things are not going the way i would love to?

often things happen the way totally diff from the way we want.. i wonder why...

i have to go my own way.. to find my own meaning in life all by myself.. i hate being treated like a small kid.. someone to look after.. i sometimes dislike it..


monkey.. thx for the email.. is nice of you.. dunno if u will read this.. have fun and all the bonding u can have! =)

juls.. i got it.. i think i will let it be this way.. think i will be opening more doors! haha!

nick.. thx for being honest.. i dunno wad else to say.. hope we continue the way we are now.. the effort we have been putting in our friendship till the way it is now!

melissa NETTO! thurs ah! u say wan! go out!

peksy... we shld go out one to one soon! =D

mich! how ya doing?

xmas is coming~~


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12:21 AM


haiz.. shld i or shld i not? i was thinking abt something yest... talked to peksy abt it.. she say go ahead.. i said i call her back while i think aboutit.. while i was thinking i felt sleepy.. so decided to give it a miss.. i dunno wad to say.. i dunno how to say... i dun dare to know the response..

i shall wait and see how things go..

kinda had a long chat with monkey.. hopefully he felt better and think that everything is solved for him.. at least b/w us..

communication is very impt for any kind of relationship.. be it family.. friends.. gf/bf.. or spouse ...

by communicating we can solve alot of things.. noe how each other think.. can work it out.. however, depends on how we talk it out.. in a harsh manner will make it worse..

oh wells.. now my head is only filled with that question.. shld i or shld i not..

having night class later! till 8pm! so screwed up! den got training.. so tired!

jeremy went off to malaysia for family holiday.. friday den will be back.. everyone seems to be busy with life..

peksy.. mich.. haha!

who am i to you? how impt is impt?


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4:10 PM


i have emotions overload..

-sad
-happy
-shocked
-nervous
-curious!
-afraid

alot.. this weekend was certainly emotions filled.. i attended colin's funeral mass and cremation.. den i met wesley for a drama play and dinner at CHIJMES...

today i had mass with juls.. den went to watch movie n ate lunch with peksy, jeremy and louis.. watched 'Golden Compass'..

1st part was very draggy -dunno if its correct spelling- subsequently was alrite..

had our meal at cafe cartel! was fun! talked and eat alot! st louis pork ribs.. carbonara.. drumplets.. mushroom soup.. bread.. chicken n fish set meal.. ice peach tea.. all these for 4 person! haha!

went to eat laksa at heartland.. den head to jeremy house for louis cake n drink! haha! WADEVER! rite?


tmr sch again! =(


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9:41 PM


tired day!! so tired la!! yest i went for the wake.. had my supper.. camn home and slept quite late..

today i had to rush to sch by 9am for presentation..lect.. proj meetings.. elective!!!


i got muscle cramp! omg!! stupid me.. run fast w/o stretching! goon!

but i finish the distance and continue later on for another lap..

leg still cramp.. went for training.. the lesson ended earlier.. so was at the club room sleeping! damn shiok! den training! everyone was here in time n early.. dragged everyone down for warm up!

stretch and all.. start training! fun! ACES came down.. wei chen.. shao ming.. neville, xing wei and star flyer, xue wei!! i think.. i cant really rmb all their names.. i noe they are damn famous but... cant rmb all the chinese names.

so fun.. learnt alot.. fly alot.. bruises alot! my fault! basics like crap!

we really need ppl to teach us.. our bases are good.. flyers are gd too.. but just no one to teach.. haiz!

tmr need to report to upper room by 9am.. prac for choir.. i miss colin.. the bubbly him.. just his presence.. oh wells.. funeral at 3pm..

nights!!


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12:53 AM


went for the wake..

was quite uneasy abt going to the wake.. i didnt wan to.. i was scare.. i dun dare.. i went anyways.. they were in the middle of the prayers.. joined them.. and when i was praying.. the weather made me very cold.. by seeing colin makes me feel so numb.. i didnt noe how shld i react.. i only stood there and looked at him.. i felt so empty...

paid my respect.. walked off feeling lost... stood there... char came and talked to me.. the more she talk i start to feel for her.. she rushed back to sg from hk..

i dunno if that news sets into me alr or not.. i am just not getting it.. even thou i teared.. but.. the fact i stood there feeling empty disturbs me alot..

wad if years down the road.. i will be totally immune to it.. due to my profession that i have to face so many deaths, etc.

i dun wan that to happen to me! i hope not..

tmr ACES coming to help us out in the training! so happy!! =)


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11:47 PM


this was his last email i ever recieved from colin.. it was about us being busy..
going for his wake later..


Satan's Meeting


Hi, here's something for us to ponder about why less and less people are
going to Church, attending prayer meetings, etc.


Dear All,

(Read even if you're busy. Very well written)


Satan called a worldwide convention of demons.

In his opening address he said,

'We can't keep people from going to pray.'

'We can't keep them from reading their holy books and knowing the truth.'

'We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their
GOD.'

'Once they gain that connection with GOD, our power over them is broken.'

'So let them go to their prayers; let them have their covered dish dinners,

BUT steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relations with GOD..'


'This is what I want you to do,' said the devil:

'Distract them from gaining hold of their GOD and maintaining that vital
connection throughout their day!'

'How shall we do this?' his demons shouted.

'Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to
occupy their minds,' he answered.

'Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow, borrow, borrow.'

'Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours and the husbands to work
6-7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their empty
lifestyles.'

'keep them from spending time with their children.'



'As their families fragment, soon, their homes will offer no escape from
the pressures of work!'

'Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still, small
voice.'

'Entice them to play the radio or cassette player whenever they drive.' To
keep the TV, VCR, CDs and their PCs going constantly in their home and see
to it that every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music
constantly.'

'This will jam their minds and break that union with God.'

'Fill the coffee tables with mag azines and newspapers.'
'Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day.'

'Invade their driving moments with billboards.'

'Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, mail order catalogs, sweepstakes,
and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products,>
services and false hopes..'

'Keep skinny, beautiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands
will believe that outward beauty is what's important, and they'll become
dissatisfied with their wives. '

'Keep the wives too tired to love their husbands at night.'>
'Give them headaches too! '

'If they don't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look elsewhere.'

'That will fragment their families quickly!'

'Give them disatractions to distract them from teaching their children the real meaning of life.'

'Even in their recreation, let them be excessive.'

'Have them return from their recreation exhausted.'

'Keep them too busy to go out in nature and reflect on God's creation.
Send
them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies
instead.'



'Keep them busy, busy, busy!'

'And when they meet for spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and
small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences. '

'Crowd their lives with so many good causes they have no time to seek
power
from GOD.'

'Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause.'

'It will work!'

'It will work!'

It was quite a plan!

The demons went eagerly to their assignments causing people everywhere to get busier and more rushed, going here and there.

Having little time for their God or their families.

Having no time to tell others about the power of GOD to change lives.

I guess the question is, has the devil been successful in his schemes?

Does 'BUSY' mean: B -eing U-nder S-atan's Y-oke?

You be the judge!!!!!


Please pass this on, if you aren't too BUSY!


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7:44 PM


my day was cold and shocking... it was raining heavily.. non-stop.. had lessons and tut.. proj meetings and training..

tried walked in single base.. dunno wad is the real name for it.. friday ACES will be coming down to help us again.. so gd..

b4 training.. got a call from juls that colin passed away suddenly.. i was so shocked and i didnt noe how to react.. first thing that came into my mind was, why him? so sudden.. yet again another death.. just like this.. so sudden.. why him.. why them...

anyways,

TO: Colin Kang =)

it was so sudden that you left us..

it was really a good race you had ran.. helping out in church.. touching lifes you have met.. helping everyone.. being friendly and cheerful whenever i see you.. having such a perserverance in fighting your sickness, as your health wasnt that good alr..

years ago, i rmb once i ever ate lunch with you after session.. we had so much fun talking to each other.. you neva liked people to call you uncle.. but when we do.. u just laughed it off and tease other people..

you were our role model.. u worked hard, prayed hard.. and now u are with the Lord.. you no longer need to suffer.. you will be able to see Him everyday.. do continue to bless everyone of us..

you will always be rmb in my/our heart.. UNCLE colin who is a person who made us feel so welcome.. felt wanted at times.. =)

you can finally rest in peace and no more worries.. take care.

everything and anything happens for a purpose..
someday we will see the light..
all God ask is to trust in Him,
for we walk by FAITH n not by sight.


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10:54 PM


today! met melissa in the bus!

both of us watching the mobile tv show till we didnt wan to alight! haha! den after that we decided to watch it till we reached interchange..

had lessons.. meeting.. lessons.. meeting..

den i waited for JULS!!! take so freaking long.. to go and register our driving!

finally! basic theory.. haiz! so long more to my prac! argh!!

random-ness!

videos for u all to watch!

walter~





achmed!!! haha!!




tell me if its funny!


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9:39 PM


went to sch had tut.. my frens present their proj.. had loads of fun! with melissa and talk loads of rubbish...

crash course for bio prac.. helped alot! hmmm...

brought my dog to the vet! chey got skin infection only.. so not that bad..

i must feed him med and bathe him! he is gonna be my new patient! cool huh!!


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10:02 PM


hmmm.. alot of things happen.. haha..

fri had training! was great!! cuz ACES from NTU came down to check us out.. see wad they can help. =) they helped alot thou.. even thou there is only 2 bases who came! they taught alot.. we did alot..

they are super stable. haha..

sat.. juls bdae dinner.. advance dinner.. met daryl n nick 1st to get her the prezze.. walked around.. saw ah pun.. say will check out his booth.. bought a cap from his booth.. nice! personalise cap! JULES~

bought her a shirt too.. treated her to sushi tei.. den go daryl hse to slack.. den went east coast to sit for fun.. den.. go hm.. by the timei reached home was 4am!

woke up at 7.30am! slept at 4++am wake up at 7.30! oh wells..

dress up.. go for their tea ceremony alr! den come back.. studied a lil for my bio prac! =( slept for 2hrs more.. prep for the night buffet dinner at raffles..took photos!

i must be thankful.. i feel L......

oh wells.. i dun have the guts.. i dun dare to.. argh! how i wish for.. i miss... i am only thinking of....

tmr got bio prac! argh!

my dogs head got slight wound/rot! haha! vet tmr or tues! poor boy!

tired!


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10:14 PM


now i am feeling all sad and so heart aching for them, their family members and people who were close to them.. just a sigh.. whenever i hear about the news or seeing other NYP members writing messages to them!

reuben kee.. the one that composes music and all.. so much talent and passion.. and there he goes.. just that few mins.. that sudden over turn of the boat and he is gone.. i dunno how his love ones handle this situation.. if i was them, it will be hard to believe that he just left that way...

went into some person's blog.. heard his music.. nt bad.. so decided to load it up here too!


one of his music! nice.. he compose it himself.. i think!


this song is the final fantasy thingy? haha!



life is so short. so fragile.. i understood as knowledge in my brain. but now, it sank into my heart.. sudden and unpredictable things can happen.. just like this..

here in singapore, we are trying to groom talents.. there we lost 5 of them in less than an hour.. being a stud nurse.. i always wonder how their bodies looked like when they were found. i guess it would be very heartbreaking and shocking.. omg!

why cant it be me that drown? example, in cambodia he dropped in but was save in exchange of my life.. when i get knocked down or something in sg? i mean they had so much talents.. so much passion.. and i am sure they know wad they wanted to do in future.. their future is so bright n shining... not like mine...

and i meant it... i just wonder why God took them away? why? is so sad. to hear the news, read the papers to follow up with the news.. when i read 5 were missing i really wish they got save.. by being stranded on the other side of the river.. and alive.. surviving..

deepest condolences for all 5 of them!


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8:46 PM


ok! now everyone is busying prac their clinical and i help them here and there..

now i am bored.. i went to frens blogs to read and see.. and realise some of them talk about stuff they think.. some talk abt their daily life...

mine? complains, what i was thinking at that moments.. events that happen in my life.. so i think my blog isnt that interesting! but who cares!

tsk tsk~ actually can go home early today.. but there is NE lesson today! 3-6pm! argh! but heard from norin last semester was some handsome guy giving the talk.. hahaha!! so not that bad.. hopefully is the same person! =)

i think sometimes, i find myself all absorbed into worldly matter and events..
after watching BRATZ made me think! sometimes i am like them.. feeling to dress up with the nicest clothes and being an ass.. haha! (not as if damn nice.. cuz got other prettier ppl)

today was sitting in the bus.. stoning.. staring at ppl walking up and down the bus.. some wearing all nice n trendy.. some simple but glowing! haha!

guess being simple but with confident of who you are is very impt! sometimes.. i think i am influence by ppl who were used to be around me.. trying to fit into their grp all..haiz.. i shldn't be doing that.. oh wells..

sometimes i just be simple.. telling myself that being simple n being myself is the best.. i go into the phase where i maintain that tot but i will fall back into the old thinking again a few days/weeks later!

but i think i will constantly remind myself! =D with the help of my frens around me.. my "gang" and my classmates now that i am with!

i always have the impulse to buy things.. the hand "itchy" problem! hahaha! but i got no $$ to buy.. heh!


oh wells.. life being fine for me.. i just need to study a lil harder.. dun be so relax! more efficient!

be contented with everything! look at things at a more +ve way!

gtg for the NE lessons alr!


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2:40 PM


today was a long day.. suppose to feel dam stress and all.. but presentation and project preview was a breeze! haha...

the only stress part was clinical exam.. i start to panic after lessons! haha! thx GOD nicole fren helped! and my assessor was a great one.. very relax one! power! wahaha... but i forget one point! oh wells.. she prompt me alot.. and all.. was nervous!! my needle was shaking.. tremble so much more den i prac at hm! @_@

look like a retard holding a needle! hehe! happy happy i pass!!

up next! BIO PRAC! nxt monday! when monkey is free n all! haiz!

wadeva! still gonna have fun! bio prac nia! haha! theory i hate most! =p


cheerobics? i am struggling...

i love cheer.. get all excited and all.. yet sometimes i just dun have the mood to train.. i wan to but dun wan.. IRONIC! i scare i pull my team down cuz i cant do much.. no scorpion.. flexibility not really there.. no determination. wad kind of cheerlead girl am i! i love my team.. i always wan to be part of them.. i see wad i can do about it.. i will think..


i must have high SELF EFFICACY!! i need it! badly in my life! help!


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11:19 PM


bahhhhh...

tmr hectic day! oh wells! tmr tmr tmr tmr!

1 presentation
1 projection preview by teacher
1 clinical exam!


wow~

my weekends were quite fun but ya...

watched enchanted n bratz alr..

my gang cant stand the bratz! too girl n all! hahaha!! i guess i am not that bad.. i still can tahan i sometimes have such reactions! =p

had fish n co on sat.. pastamania today.. fat fat!! got 2 more donuts with me now! suppose to be for someone.. didnt pass it to someone..

i am scare.. i dunno.. not really me but still me! haha!

argh~!

missy missy... in 1 yr time! omg! die!


I am LITTLE MISS RANDOM! agree?


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10:53 PM


back home!! soo early!! soooo happy!

but was so hot and sunny today! ok.. i noe when is sunny its hot.. so no need to put 2 together rite? dun CARE! =p

open my mails.. 1st mail talked abt horoscope! opened it.. and check wad they say abt cancer! so hilarious!

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer's Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most's are artists and insane respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare
Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to!


cool huh! like as if it is like this!


today was a ok day.. i am having PMS! kinda moody! oh wells.. my elective was e learning! cool huh! so i had the lect w/o the running! woohooo!!

tmr gonna have fun! with steph for movie.. mayb pics to take.. den gonna buy my clips.. den meet the rest of my cousins at changi for fish n co! nice place to eat.. ambiance is gdddd... its gonna be my 3rd time eating there!~


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3:44 PM


this few days of this week been really interesting..

i had diff kinds of weird dreams.. dreamt i died and came back to life and appear in three diff places.. the other i couldnt rmb wad was it abt.. only knew it was weird...

had my clinical theory test yest.. was alright..

next monday will be a hell of a hectic day! i got 1 presentation, 1 proj review and lastly my skills exam! crap rite! how interesting huh!

and i was once trying to prac my injection on the dummy! nabil made so much stupid noise i could stop laughing! that was damn funny.. ok.. supre scare i forget my steps leh! haiz! help!!! our part time lecturer damn fierce.. but funny.. she was saying nabil and all. and she said A---H stress alr la! haha.. cuz nabil could do the injection thingy at first! wahaha!! so funny!

anyways...

went back for training...

dou flew! haha!! double base.. yea! hell yea tt he fly!haha! but was so funny i could stop laughing! damn! and nizz n berry... oh wells.. see nizz my musketeer.. i dun disturb so much! hahaha!!!

tmr got elective again.. gonna run? oh man! sigh!! and den got national education! damn fun! haha.. i like that teacher.. very funny guy! very interesting lesson to have!

sat i gonna watch enchanted!!! and i am going for cousin gathering! yea! hah!

today i spent so much money.. i overslept! took cab.. which cost $9!!! crap arse exp! haiz.. ordering food.. i lost $2.. i dunno i dropped it or wad la..

stupid lousy day i have today!

hopefully tmr will be a better day!


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9:58 PM


so bored that i did all some of the quizzes... kinda interesting answer.. i myself didnt know!

going to celebrate my niece's birthday!

had fun with pek yest night.. just a simple dinner and home.. met louis at compass point~ went home together! oh wells! lovely!

bye!





What is my Ideal Lover?

You need "The Guru"!
You need someone who knows their way around the bedroom. And the living room floor. And the backseat of a Volkswagon. The point is that you are looking for an experienced lover to take you to the next level. Most importantly, you don't want someone you have to teach. Though with the level of experience in the room, some teacher-student role-playing wouldn't be out of the question.

What Kind of Lover Are You?

You are "The Care Bear"!
Aww, aren't you sweet. You are the sensitive lover, in tune with your partner's needs and perhaps the Lifetime Channel. You care more about pleasing your lover than you do yourself, which is ironic because pleasing your partner is the only way you can please yourself. You probably own a stuffed animal.


my so called "Picture Personality test"

Temperament

Cosmopolitan
When you wake up in the morning, you set out to impress and to make a lasting impression on those who you encounter. You surround yourself with all the right people and right things - making you a real trendsetter. Others admire and want to be just like you. Second best will not do - it's the best (and only the best) for you. You are attentive to detail in yourself, your surroundings and your social circle.


Interests

Fashionable
Sophisticated, glamorous and experienced. You love everything that is new, fashionable and in vogue. Others admire you, but can't always relate to you since you are a real diamond in the ruff. You like to be two steps ahead of everyone else when it comes to the latest and greatest trends. It could take your counterparts years to adopt your current trends. You just seem to know what's "hot" before everyone else does.
Amusement


Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.

Passion

Emotional
For you passion is less about romance and sex - it's more about friendship and family. Strong emotional bonds and connections are your passion and your pleasure. You always let your loved ones know how much you love, respect and admire them. You do this through kind words, loving actions and simple gestures. You count your blessings each day and exp


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3:24 PM


finally my paediatric nursing presentation have ended..

having to adapt to diff group worki