Name:
Alison!!!
DOB:
080788.
Religion:
roman catholic.
Job:
missy.


memories will forever be a part of me. always...












#1 TO BE ABLE TO JUMP & WALK AGAIN

#2 CuRL my hair!

#3 a new/gd digital camera~=D

#4 go on a holiday only with my chubby...

#5 shades!

#6 u could give me one big surprise that i always wanted to get, go n do! *romantic kind*

#7 a necklace from my portable pillow!

#8 kate spade bag!

#10 clothes!! but i still wan more =(

#11 lose weight!

#12 a nice romantic date with my bibi!

#13 CAR!

life been rather the same for me...
school
eat
sleep
watch show...

lost my way.. but i am back home!
my 23rd birthday.. had surprises and different kind of celebration with friends... kinda know who are my real friends who are jus there for just a purpose... lol...

went JB with BFG and his new friends... a terrible day and a wonderful night with chubby... and a outing with chubby and close friends.. surprised me with flowers.. which really caught me off guard!
thou i quarrel with my chubby alot alot.. but i knw he loves me alot alot too! :) one guy who really tolerate my nonsense...

school been rather boring... but the stress level is getting higher each day and week...
been doing a part time job during weekends... hopefully the money i save i will get to curl my hair end of august or sept! :)

random thought... sometimes i really wonder... why can u actually tolerate so much of me? really.. even i myself couldnt believe...

cheers!


Captured The Moment @

5:00 AM


yeppie! technically i own one macbook pro now.. have to wait for delivery!

thinking of wad to buy for my macbook really hurts!! $500 a month including paying phone bills... sucks to be me! seriously! hahaha!!
was talking to phoebe.. saying i should put up a list of bdae wishes for this yr!
was cracking my head since yaoyao have been asking wad i wan for my bdae!

here so far this is wad i need.. duno if i might ended up buying for myself...

1. gadgets for my macbook pro!
2. keyboard protector!
3. a computer mouse??? i duno if i am buying! lol
4. damn good thumbdrive
5. cash!
6. haven really thought of it yet.. maybe still more cash? hahaha! super in need of them!

life so far been great.. sch started at least a month alr tgt with phoebe.. hell alot of essays due in april.. haven really started writing.. been reading articles here and there...
life with pekpek and nick is great too have been hanging out and stuff! hahaha!
me and yaoyao.. still the same... if u knw us well enough.. (:(:

officially a poor girl again! $500 a month..
transportation
phone bill
food
and outings..

how to survive! wahaha! (:

alright i shall see when i wanna update again! (:


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12:57 AM


its been almost a month since i updated my blog...

life at work is actually taking a toll on me somehow.. not the workload or the staff rotation...

its just the stupid fucking personal shit that happened that causes it...

tim told me to just do IT.. but everyone says no point... i think so too..
but seriously hating the patients i handle over there sometimes...

i couldnt care any less over there... i dont find it a rush that my work pace of things slowed down alot.. i couldnt be bothered...

fire for what i actually learn to love is dying down... how?

otherwise life is great for me... friends and all..

my motherturban of mine is slping! HE SLEPT THE FREAKING WHOLE DAY! and he tells me he is still tired.. nvm... go ahead and slp den...

always wanted to do certain things that every other couple do.. but i doubt it would happen.. would you prove me wrong and bring up to cloud 9?

i wish upon those stars i had/have seen before.


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11:23 PM


How much we try to plan and coordinate things.
We shld always rmb these meanings of these few words

Important: great significance

Effort: an earnest or strenuous attempt

Try: to attempt

Not say we don't. But more of we tend to forget the meaning of these words.
Sometimes I tend to forget it's original meaning.

Really looking forward to the important day we had tried making effort in planning it.
I want it to be my very first and amazing sweet memory we will have tgt.

Nights.


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4:22 AM


I wish I wish upon the stars moon sky clouds and sea.

May my wish come true.

Said so many. Don't know if you rmb.

Lord let me go with the flow.

Thankyew. :)


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12:39 PM


If I would just disappear, would it make any difference to you?


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9:05 PM


Finally. The day. 13 may. His freedom n mine too. Haha.
Wrking became routine. Really miss studying yet dread exams.

Alot of things been happening these few months. Had almost fornightly meetings with nick Wilmer n of cuz my ex mom.
Recee places I have never been. Some freaky some fun yet tiring. Heh.

Donated blood for the first time after my operation. Met up w Wesley.

Bought my very first online clothes from my fren.

Missed my family mother's day dinner.

Many more events coming up in the coming months.
Such as my central chalet, my AL week, my bdae, fren's bdae and the trip we might be having.

Oh oh!! And my very first anni! Opps! Haha. Bet u don't believe again. -.-""

On my way to wrk. Yet blogging. Looking forward to end of today n many days to come
Mundane indeed.

Ah wells!


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12:10 PM


After a long day at work. After war at work.
I can't find comfort from anywhere.

I rest on my bed. Yet my mind ain't getting rest.

Oh where oh where can I find comfort??


Captured The Moment @

10:47 PM


Omg!!!
I had the worse nightmare ever last night.
I dreamt that I overslept again for work.
And this time it's afternoon shift!!!
Suppose to report work at 1pm I wake up at 3pm!!
My manager at work still.
If u would to call in and say I overslept I will be really blacklisted by her.

Den I was out with ppl at a very weird place decided to take mc instead.
Trying to find the nearest clinic but couldn't find!! At it was alr 5pm!
Was afraid that only clinic is close!

LUCKY!! I woke up at that moment. That dream too stress for me. Phew!!


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11:36 AM


today today!
i got to drive my daddy's SUV out! hahaha!!
shiok ah! i drove to ecp den vivo den tampines! power rite?! ah wells!

never knew this day would come so early... hehehe!
was just trying my luck regrading driving my daddy's car out.

oh man! i wish 14th May would come instantly! faster!!!! Grrrr!!! cant wait!


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10:42 PM


UPDATED MY WANTS! (:(:

a sudden urge of wanting to curl my hair... keep my hair super uber long...
wanna change a lil bit of the clothes i have in my cupboard! hahaha!
like i wanna look better! ah wells! (some parts of me is SO lazy to dress up)
crazy me!

nothing to look forward this days... its like just doing things for the sake of doing cuz i have to and need to..

lynn called just now and told me somethings which makes me super duper pissed off!
ah screw it.. we shall see abt it tmr!

putangina!


sat in nick's NEW BENZ today! sooooooo sleek! damn nice! damn cool... imagine your dad buy you one of that! happy for him till i got excited i kept on asking qns.. like whats this for whats that for... how do you open this n that! hahahaha!!

nice! thx for the car ride.. even thou you were soo tired! (: love it so much! power la the car! damn low also... all automated!


Captured The Moment @

1:52 AM


突然想起，
有一次我们在打pool的时候我吃面包弄到嘴巴，你想也没想就用手把我的嘴擦干净。

真的很怀念那些时候。

just a sudden random memory that float in my mind.. dunno why i decided to type it in chinese.. hehe!

ok... life been just like that.. rest the whole day at hm doing nothing... feel like i wasted mt whole day but yet not really.. still annoyed n pissed.. with i duno what la! putangina!


Captured The Moment @

10:05 PM


cant wait for monday to come!
normally ppl will get monday blues, not for me!

my chippy's owner is coming back from puket! (:
miss miss miss him! wondering if i really go overseas n study i think i would die before he do...

having my night shift again tmr night.. with lynn... hope it will be fun!
colin wang is our HO passive! hehe!

life been pretty okay... and i hope it will stay this way!

cheers!


Captured The Moment @

1:08 AM


always the troublemaker... always the black sheep of the family.. always doing wrong things... always the burden...

22yrs ago why must that accident happen? den i wont be here... i wont be the troublemaker anymore...

things would be different.. (:


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9:28 AM


been to 615pm mass today with pek.. its been sucha long time! looking at my friends angel n matt it brings me back to those memories.. they once hated each other... quarrelled non-stop. now they are one happy married couple! (:

IHM just always brings back 'heaven' lot of memories.. chose to say heaven instead of hell cuz those memories are precious...
keep on telling pek geok, u knew me when i was wearing pikachu shirt with jeans and sports shoes! OMG! hahaha!!

come to think of it...

alot of things been happening around me this year.. esp BGR! omg... i dont mean me.. but my friends around me..
it gets me paranoid at times.. but luckily i had my good dose of reassurance...

it might be the tiger year hor?!
ah wells!

sigh.. everytime someone talks to me, i dont really know what to say...
i dont mean i dont exactly know what to say... its the matter of i should or should not say too much...

cuz in the midst of conversations with them, mr nah's voice will be in my head! hahahahaha!

but i am glad they did! (: hope i helped them in some way or another

been really happy with my life so far...
my parents actually paid attention to me! haha! i dont mean i want all attention or what.. or else i am really dead.. no freedom! or they dont usually care..

its just so random and sweet!
my daddy realise i look prawny = sick = not radiant... and i have been coughing at night.. weridly only at night!!! when i am slping! puktangnina! tsk! cough and sneeze till my aunt in the middle of the night ask me go see dr and dont go to work!

so they cooked bird nest for me! (:
ah wells!

really hope the best for my friends and stuff... (: of me and mr nah too! (:

going strong... haha! our daily bickers is like our 'vitamin' everyday! we used to find it damn tiring and almost got a toll on us.. almost

thanks for your random note and keychain bear! really sweet and i love it.. thou its something small but it meant alot to me~

i bring it everywhere i go! thou i dont hang the bear on my bag but it has always been inside my bag ever since u gave it to me!
the note i keep it in my wallet! (: love the phrase 'kkthxbye'! hahaha! brightens up my day everytime i look at it!


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10:56 PM


i think i should not think too much!

sigh... mind over heart.. mind over heart...

trust, words, action...

security...

i dont know la...
要冷静。要冷静。


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2:58 PM


so fucking pissed off now...
that time i had an car accident... made the claims and shit thru insurance...
and he fucking send one lawyer letter now... wad cuz of negligence... i will only get to know wads gg on, on monday...

for wad fuck?! claim more money i know... but to think that his car wasnt even badly damaged!!!!!!!

did you break a leg or hand? did your fucked up pet dog got a shocked?

i am alr dying here trying to pay up my brother for it... and here you are making life worse when i tot a new year will be a better year!

duno wad to say... duno HOW to say.. how i feel.. how miserable things can be...
dunno who to call to make me feel better... cuz either they just joke it off or go oh wells... *actually i really do not know wad can they say to make me feel better; anyone knows?* and none of them are free to talk anyway... i need to breathe... go to east coast to have some fresh air!

fucked up ppl say i am rich and shit...
but in actual fact i am the poorest shit u are looking at!
the hse i stay in i can say i am lucky... but i dun fucking own it!

you say i am spoilt... sometimes LOOK at yourself in the mirror...

not in the best of mood thanks to that fucked up guy...
the day if he ever steps into my ward cuz of some terminal illness i am gg to laugh at him really hard and say serve you right!


Captured The Moment @

11:08 PM


this weekend been really long and toturing...

sigh... i dont understand why people can just life a life of a routine...
work slp eat work slp eat!!!

sigh...

the feeling of being broke sucks! haha!
blablabla...

since vern shopping for present that day...
GUYS PRESENT REALLY VERY HARD TO FIND LA! TSKTSK!

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
soooooooooooooooooooo boreddddddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!

:(:(:(:(:(


Captured The Moment @

10:44 PM


Can you sense if I am happy? Will you come and share the joy with me?
Can you sense the unhappiness I am having?? Will you come over to make me feel better or cheer me up?

Sometimes thinking abt this 2 sentences really can either make a person happy or really emo.
Oh wells, this entry is really an entry typing for myself to read.
Literally reading/ typing my mind outloud for myself to hear it loud and clear.

Yet again. Tmr I am having my morning shift and I can't slp.

One confused kid here. Vino said I should get myself admitted to imh on the 1st of Jan. Haha.
Dunno wad to really think. Don't dare to think.


Okok I know I am talking nonsense here none might understand.
Ah wells.

Ciao. I can't sleep. Cough mixture?? Haha. Nah.


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2:34 AM


its end of christmas... had count down at seletar reservoir this year instead of midnight mass.. had a great time with those 4 dudes.. morning xmas mass with my whole family, family dinner and coffee drinking with cousins on xmas day.. sherlock homles on boxing day...

time really flys...
last year xmas thinking of those times... who i was with... wad we were doing...

enjoyed those moments

the year of 2009.. i turned 21.. many many things happened..
made new friends, tried new things i never tot i would ever do.. eg, paintball...

got pretty wasted a number of times for the 1st half of the year with all the clubbings and chalets...

got my car license and drove almost all the places i wanted to drive to with a car alone or with friends...

spent quite a bit of money on myself... be it the FINE, car accident or my new iphone which is only 8 days old! hahaha! haven really treated my family to a feast yet! =p

treasured those relationships i had and have...
made new friends.. some became really close and some just turned sour... hmm, maybe just one! hahaha!!

been in and out of relationship twice this year... BROKE RECORD! not something to boast abt.. but rather reflect abt it.. :S

entered working life... been pretty hard adapting to the working hours and responsibilities... took a few mcs and such...

even thou this year had many mishaps... i still consider myself rather lucky... close frens are as close as ever... (:(: family as healthy and happy... my baby godson turned 1 year old... my nephew gab gg to pri sch next yr... etc..

turning 22!!! 2nd yr of young adulthood! hahaha! argh...

Lord, Bless my Family and Friends to have good health and be happy always...

PS: KPO.. i really wonder who are you... u seem like someone close i know.. oh wells..


Captured The Moment @

3:10 AM


tmr will consider the 1st week i started working after my one week of AL...

alot of crap happened.. esp during my off days... never felt so fucked up before...
as in never had any of my off days thinking i wasted a day...

which i did la. still damn irritated over that day..not cuz of wad happen.. is cuz time was nt spent wisely... could have treasure it...

partly my fault... ah fuck up...
these few days i couldnt sleep properly... mood never good... going out is jus to make me feel alive...

I AM FEELING MOODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG... @$#%#^$%@#$&%$


anyway, bought an iphone felt happy for a moment... hahaha! bought it an i felt... hmmmmm... time for exploring... hahaha!
finally got songs into my phone... next i will figure out pictures and applications.. with the help of my bro-in-law...

bonus spoil us... make us spend.. hahaha! all i have to tell myself... must pamper myself ah! hahaha! =p for god knows wad reason...

ciao... *still slightly moody*


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11:31 PM


i just made some pancakes!

thou its those pre-mixed ones...
i had fun doing it thou... all those spoilt ones i threw it away!
gave my mommy 3 pancakes to bring to work! (:
dunno whether nice anot! later she eat alr lao sai i duno! hehe...

ah wells! having night shift later! all the best to me!


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7:23 AM


today! 3rd dec, wilmer's bdae! happy birthday!
hope pek geok and wilmer enjoy their trip in bangkok!

anyway,
its been a long time since i had such an outing! think its been months! (:

had a great day with my BFF regi today... (:
went shopping, crazy photo taking and movie!

new moon was great! jus that the stupid ending really suck la! anti climax! tsktsk

spent alot today! bought a new dress, pair of new heels and bag! (:(: lving it.. regina bought the exact same thing as me!

my AL coming soon which i really cant wait! (:(:

life life life... hopefully everything goes on well!


ohohoh! my tagboard seems lively! hehe!

KPO: who are you la!!! TSK TSK! kuai dian xian shen!
and and !
Orang ayer batu: who are you?! :P

hahaha! interesting


Captured The Moment @

11:43 PM


你会每次见到我会让你笑或开心吗？

希望现在的你还是那么想。(:(:

wahaha!!! influence by the korean drama! =p

anyway... my blog somehow got this person call KPO! haha! KPO introduced one song to me called 'The First Time' by surface...

i love it! (:(: found another wedding song to be when i get married!
1st- From This Moment
2nd- The First Time


anyway heres the lyrics! if u have the time listen to it! (:(:


THE FIRST TIME (Surface)

You know I won't forget
The time we shared together holding hands
And walking in the park
Sometimes we'll have to do it all again
We were so happy then
I have no regret

Can you tell from the look on my face that
I love you more today

Chorus
The first time I look into your eyes I cried
Do you remember the first time
We fell in love
You look into my eyes wiped the tears away
The first time
When we fell in love

Althought sometime has passed
I still remember just like it was yesterday
The time is moving fast
The love I have for you
Time won't ever change I'll always feel the same
Now until the end

Memories we've shared will live forever
Deep inside my heart I know I'll never fall again


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10:12 PM


been thinking of this word relationship
be it friendship, kinship or love

thought of many words to describe it what we normally go thru tgt in the many months and years we been thru tgt...

a: arguements yet accomodative, awesome, action
b: bickerings, blessed, blissful, bias(at times)
c: caring, chill lex moments, confidant, comfortable, crazy
d: dissappointments, disagreements
e: emotions, endurance, expectations, envy
f: fearful to lose them, forgiving, freedom
g: grateful, greatness, gossips
h: honesty
i: irritated,
j: jolly, jealous
k: knowing
l: love, laugh
m: mental pillar, memories, meaningful
n: natural, needful, nonsensical
o: ongoing, open
p: painful at times, patient
q: quarrels, quality!
r: ranting, rely, random, relax
s: sweet, special, support, sensitive
t: treasure, thankful, tactful/less, tantrums!, tolerate, trust
u: understanding, unity
v: valuable,vent anger
w: willingness, wanting, warmth, whining! (:(:,worthy
x: =X
y: yearn
z: zany


so many many more! too many ways to describe them... too many

thou at times when there are downs, we do not know how to face it at the moment.. but i think it will come to a point we will understand and know how to deal with it...

at times we want to give up... just too tiring...
the troubles they produce...

eg, sister or brother being an idiot doing stupid things..
family not understanding and etc...

friends... quarrels and disagreements

love... endurance when we quarrel... yet whenever we see each other we feel love and being needed for...

at the very end we know they are impt and we love and treasure them still...

been really grateful for the relationships i have... i lost some and dont wanna lose anymore... i dont want them to leave their footprints in my life... but i want their feet, their physical presence...

i want to feel needful.. i want to feel useful... i want to be as impt as they are to me...

knowing family will always be there so i try not to take it for granted...
friends... i can have many many friends... but i would love to keep a few close to my heart.. and i have a few... been with me for ages... since secondary school..
love.... giving my all whenever i am in it... living with no regrets!

Cheers!
God created adam and eve... always blaming him for creating them whenever i am down...
thinking cuz of adam n eve i have to suffer in this world... but come to think of it...

God created adam and eve came along... for companionship for support... (:
at least God didnt really literally leave us alone... physically God cant be here for us... He uses many other vessels aka ppl to come and help us out..


Captured The Moment @

1:09 AM


my Lbff is having a rocky peroid and i couldnt do anything to help her...
reason being i do not know wad is bothering her.. wont probe further...

but wish everything will be okay for her..

life been pretty mundane... the car is back home but i am still not allowed to drive my sis in law's car.. understandable... but my dad made an effort to let me drive his car to work with him beside me 2 days ago (:(:

other areas pretty ok.. guess the previous entries are a little moody n abit of roller coaster ride..

update again! cheers!


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12:56 AM


growing up aint easy... no one says its easy...

along the road of learning and falling we tend to get dependent on a person for support to pull thru such bumpy roads...

not cuz we choose to but for me its inevitable to be dependent at times..
knowing i dislike being weak.. i always hold my pride up high... refusing to cry in front of ppl or to show my true feelings.. i put on a mask... before i get hurt i put on a barrier before i crumble...

and whenever u pull down that mask without me knowing it, i got a shock.. cuz you touch something really sensitive that i tot ppl wont see...

we tend to get stubborn in ways cuz we dont see a eye to eye to things...
so we have to see it for our own to understand and believe to even give in or listen...

i can say i am emotional and crazy...
getting affected for the smallest things in life...
even the smallest mistake i made...

ppl say it takes time to heal and forgive oneself.. but i cant...
i tried... it can be a temporary forget instead of forgive...
and just one day, it will come flooding back that i couldnt breathe...
didnt know who to tell or how to say. afraid no one understands and find me a nuisance..


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time
expectations
promises
action
support
love

it all link dont you think?

in time we tend to expect things to happen which leads to having promises to be kept and when we made such promises we need actions to keep them or even fulfil them...

when we expect such action or promise, here comes a certain amount of love and support needed, to make them come thru/happen... or to even to start having expectations.

and to make it come thru we need to have support which is to undergo or endure, esp. with patience or submission; tolerate. most importantly to sustain a person's mind, spirit, give courage, etc. to have expectation of a love one...

i know tonight i took a wrong route... i had wrong expectation...
i cant promise it wont happen... cuz promise needs actions to prove.
but i hope i can make a point for myself to prove it...

alison dont worry... everything will be alright in time to come... cuz its all about learning and growing up... all abt getting used to it.. all abt getting the hang of it...

i always say
i dont want to be a burden and nuisance... and here am i asking for support...

how contradicting...

but i hope i will learn...
thru all the scars and wounds i will learn... with the trust and love... i will... cuz it doesnt matter how you fail.. but its how are you gg to finish... how you gonna finish strong... (:(: and u will find strength to get back up...


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2:34 AM


as tired as i am with the process of growing up...
as unforgiving as i am to myself with all the stupidest mistakes i ever made...

i never fail to rmb the video i watched in FB recently...

he said, "it doesnt matter how you fail.. but its how you gg to finish... how you gonna finish strong... (:(: and u will find strength to get back up..."

easy to say... hard to do..
but somehow this phrase gave me a bit more energy to carry with life...
i am not physically tired... and i'm just mentally tired...
alot to learn... alot of responsibility to carry...

i wonder how parents actually carry on with their duty as parents...
esp my parents with such a child like me can be really really extremely tiring..
wonder why they never gave up on me...

always... it had been always in my mind since young...
if i wasnt even born... if that sperm didnt met the egg...
i wont be around... my parents wont have to always worry and get angry...
quarrel and cried just cuz of me...

watched sister's keeper today.. thank god my sister is well and kicking...
around to kick my ass whenever needed... around to remind me to talk sense to me...
cried like crap during the movie.. used up one packet of tissue..

aiya... wad i wanna say was... if i wasnt even born... everybody's life will be much better! was never really much in need anyway...

as wad pek geok always say...
I NEED A GETAWAY TRIP... LONG HOLIDAY AWAY FROM SINGAPORE!

-you think you are not of much help.. but i beg to differ! actually that very evening i wished you were there.. cuz i know i wont be lost.-


Captured The Moment @

7:54 PM


i am so tired of living...

seriously everything hasnt been really good...
one after the other...

wished at that very moment when it happened i wish i left the world... maybe jus to be a vegetable and such... dont think to feel anything...
i know i am very selfish.. leaving ppl who love me behind without thinking for them.

i know it isnt the worse...

if i am the one consoling alison chua... i would had said that...
its a small thing... its a learning lesson... next time just be more careful...
it can be a life and death matter... i know... but to just thank god nobody is injured... be more careful next time... no matter how tired and unlucky it is...
life still have to go on... everyone been thru shit... maybe this is the shit i have to go thru... other ppl might been or going thru worse situation compared to mine.

for one monment i blame God.. why this why must it happen?!
but to think maybe God save my ass... he chose this to happen to me instead... cuz the other choice he had was a worse of thing...

rmb the cow story? if i rmb correctly...
there was a farmer who had a cow which was their only source of income...
yet the cow died...
farmer blamed God for letting it happen...
but the fact was, God chose to let the cow die... or else the person dead was the farmer's wife...

hahaha! this is wad i rmb... vaguely... something like that la... duno if it make sense u anyone who read this.. nvm... i understand can alr...


sigh! trying to look at the bright side... trying really hard...
ppl say, most importantly i am not injured...

comforting enough that the people involved ask me am i okay instead of scolding me...

seriously i wish i would die in my sleep tonight... due to complications i do not know...

selfish selfish selfish...

NVM MUST LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE!

-wish u could be here with me right now by my side... telling me its okay... telling me as long you are fine, that is wad matters-


Captured The Moment @

9:43 PM


past weekend was a blast!

drove to work myself.. parked my car... drove round sg! not literally everywhere but at least places i wanted to go with a car!

i drove to:
- work
- harbour front (includes harbour front centre and vivo)
- labador park
- east coast beach
- lower pierce
- devil's bend (i got scolded! no more gg there)
- upper seletar
- amk hub

and lastly i drove my dad to airport in the morning! 530am!
amazing! alot of small hiccups here and there! but i am still learning!

today isnt a much of a significant day but yet not insignificant. -you got it?-

been bumpy this week at least...
alot of mistakes done... i am not talking abt driving only.. i meant it in general.

which makes me feel really sucky...

its really suay! really! esp today! i almost wanted to bang my head against the wall.. lucky i didnt... cuz i know i will regret it now if i did... (talking nonsense again i know)

oh wells! as i told my friends... 破财挡灾， 以毒攻毒！
it will get better i hope! with all my might i make sure it will! hehe!

gonna starve next 4 weeks! :( not really tt bad.. just maybe i wont eat that much this 4 weeks! BUDGET! oh wells... no one to blame but myself!


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10:18 PM


today was kinda sad yet at the end very sweet!

went out to celebrate phoebe's bdae!
kushinbo so exp! duno why i ended up paying so much la!
duno la! argh!!

after tt went kbox...

as usual i got scolded and made you angry! :S
but really appreciated you came for the kbox even thou u didnt wan to...
and came down really early to meet us when u wanted to slp more!

spending more money on dinner cuz u knew i love sushi and would rather bring me to somewhere nice to eat! (:(:

was so excited when i went in... took sooooo many food la! and u all said very PS cuz like very greedy! hahaha!!! ;p

other den u being unhappy for that moment everything was damn fun!
esp when i found out u wanted to initiate something but failed!!
i was super happy at that pt of time...couldnt help it but to keep on smiling...

you knew i wanted to do that cuz i kept on whining abt it! hehe! (:(:(:

THANKS! really feel very _________! :D

thou during the outing i was whining why you like that ah.. why not like this ah! hahaha! =p being the naughty me as usual!
at the end realise how bad i was to even think that way!
you eventually did wad i wanted/wished u would do... but in your own cute ways! hehe!

um chio will tio lai shiong! hahaha! i think i did today! :)


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3:36 AM


Cancer Strength Keywords:- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive

Cancer Weakness Keywords:- Moody
- Clingy (!!!! since when?! hahaha)- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed

Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.


Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted. ( tt really depends on who i choose to hang onto!)
Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.

Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums.(SO TRUE) They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.

Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. ( no wonder i am always stuckin the past sometimes! thinking i shouldnt had done that i should have do this) They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.

Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. (true true! PEKSY!) It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. ( HAH! dont think i always play! i will be a good mommy k! )They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.


(:(:(:(: quite true la! now i know why i am so mood swingy! hahaha!!!


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3:05 AM


i am bored!!! help me!think having night shift kills ppl! haha!

did a quiz! abt what do i need most in a r/s?

You have a certain innocence about you.You want the simple things in life. You love hugs,kisses, and being in the arms of the person you love. You want to feel protected,loved, and adored. You like your lover to initiate the first move and on some occasions you like a little aggressiveness but for the most part you need physical affection in order to maintain happy relationship.


super true la!! cuddling jus makes me happy! (:(:


siannn can anybody find something for me to do?


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12:59 PM


the last night was alrite.. but was kinda sian at the end of the shift!

so didnt do my charts properly... :P
juliana helped me!

so tired that i slept la! tsk tsk!
went for health screening today.. didnt fast at all.. haha... got scolded by the idiots who took our bloods! @#@$%@#@!$%#$^%$

not happy dont take... i dun participate lo! helped to add numbers to the screening...

my BP was LOW! amazingly... 92/57! tts really low la! hahaha!
hehehe!

was fun la...

poke = blood taking!
squeeze = pimples and black heads during facial!
massage = during facial too!

slept like a pig during the mask time la! i think i heard myself snore! hahaha!
DAMN TIRED!!!!
but i am so awake now! o.0''' shall try to sleep later... to turn back my clock! (:

yea! i will only start work on thurs! dun you think DAMN cool! hahaha!


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1:46 PM


wahhhhh! my 2nd night!

really no life man! haha! went home str away sleep.. wake up intitme to eat dinner and go to work!

been driving to work these 2 nights! 1st night was kinda scary.. driving my daddy's car! so big! on expressway the very 1st time after passing my TP!
but its fun! (:(: getting use to it!! and i am loving it...

alrite! think i shall stop here!! (:(:

10 points out of 10! again and again... TRY! wahahahahA!


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2:12 AM


PEOPLE! I PASS MY DRIVING! I AM A LEGAL DRIVER! HA!


sooooooooo happy! when i knew i passed! haha! couldnt believe myself at first! (:(:
but just one hour later my mood was like crap... =p

phoebe n milton came down to my hse to slack! ate fried oyster again... thou i ate it last night with pek at chomps! haha!

chatted and all.. trying to psycho my family to let me drive for fun... car ride...
mommy knows me best la...

convinced my dad to sit with me to drive my frens back home to sengkang! haha! tgt with my mommy! (:(:

cuz apparently besides pek geok and phoebe was excited abt my new licence, everyone was really nonchalant abt it...
kinda depressing and heartaching at first... like no one to share my joy with...
seeing my mommy treating me like this, its really a very heartwarming feeling. (:(:

think no one understands how i feel... hehe... thou it may seems like a small achievement but to me is quite big...

its like another milestone in life kinda thingy...

i was so happy to the extent after getting my license... before video viewing, i went to the toilet cubicle and jump jump jump for joy! hahahahahaha!

something that i spent alot of time and money... something i really do it without saying its luck den can pass kinda test... (:

oh wells! more to come!!! jia you!!!
sometimes i think growing up is really tiring...
but come to think of it... its the small things that happens along the way help us to carry on with our life in this world too! (:(:

shake shake,
we learned something new today hor... thou the process of learning like shit... but ending of conversation was great... the nonsense we were able to talk abt, brings back memories to those times! nonsense time!


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2:39 AM


so irritating! youtube is down...

ok... work suck big time today...
esp at the ending... aiya...

everything just dont go smoothly la... last min ane called said got bgit coming up... without calling up to prep us they just send the patient up! i was like omg!!

busy like fuck...

den bed 1 have to keep on shouting for stupid reasons... like wanting to take off his clothes and go down n buy food!

shout n shout... my charts were screw up... didnt manage to do alot of things for phoebe.. she wasnt happy...

sigh... wheres my paper seagulls!!! :(
hahaha! =p this time i swear its not pms.. at least not pre... maybe post! wahaha!

fine theres one saying girls have pre, present, post menstrual symptoms... :D
EXCUSES! wahahaha!

OMG I JUST SAW ONE BIG CATERPILLAR IN MY ROOM!

yucks! lucky got my aunty... to remove it... so disgusting...
gd nights! being force to sleep!


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12:26 AM


today ended quite badly...

felt tt i am not good enough...
seriously not good enough...

you made the effort to do things tgt yet i ended up with this super sian and screwed up face while we were at it...

i so wanna blame it on my lack of sleep... but actually i dont think thats the point...

deep down i was unhappy... do not know why am i uphappy about...

just maybe i felt that i am not good enough...
i do not meet my own criteria...

one day... i might just regret.....

i want to turn back time...
everything didnt run as smooth as i plan...
help me... feel like crying when i was walking home...

wads wrong with me?
moody? lack of sleep? or just purely screw up me?


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11:59 PM


http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_434195.html

check this out! our MISS WORLD, SINGAPORE.
atrocious! tsk tsk!! sg reputation is gg down the drain!


today been gd!

had my off! went out had a reat time laughing and such!
went for driving! and its 10 times better!
he scoldings are 10 times lesser! and really in a good mood...
said i can go for my tp alr!

felt so much better... after last few nights of stress! hahaha!!!

2 more weeks! OMG!~ so scare and cant wait! (:(:(:


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8:21 PM


I GOT THE WORSE NIGHTMARE LAST NIGHT!
i dreamt that i FAILED my TP!!!!!!! argh!!!

i dont feel happy generally... like somethings in life aint gg the way i want it to be... wahaha!! the 'princess' me is getting into me again!!! =p

been really moody today... couldnt even decide on wad to eat for dinner had to force myself to eat something... sigh!!! think its just the nightmare la... nowadays i am very bothered by my driving more den anything else... i dont wanna fail.. i really dont want... *sobs* feel like crying when i am gg to take TP. when i am a person who had confidence in passing my tp and now i am being made to feel incompetent to go for it.

had huge huge arguement yesterday... the most amazing one... and yet again its something small! *lucky* but guess this is how we get to understand each other better... (:(: solved! why oh why??
again and again things in life jus proves me right!

when expectations increases more confilcts happens...

but its hard not to have a change of expectation... to me the level/ amount of expectation is given to that person is Equivalent to how important that person is to me...

aint it true? for example your random friend at work and your close friends, etc.
duno la... you all might beg to differ! =p


BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! driving instructor, mr tan u make me feel horrible!


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11:43 PM


happy monthsary again!!! hahaha!!!!


oh wells! life been really ok...
day by day it goes...
really hate driving lessons nowadays... i dread gg seriously... i always have to force myself to look on the bright side... never been so jialat before! TSK~

work is rather normal.. the same! i guess i am getting the hang of it alr! (:
worked with best bud and milton today! really cool!
tmr will be with ka juls and vino! power pack combination~!!!

been working gg out sleeping and all... many many events gg on...
vomitted twice last week!! omg... tot some food poisoning.. haha!! diarrhoea four timeS! got scolded for eating siew mai! hahaha! too oily...

really felt cared for.. i really do... something i never felt it in the longest time.. sometimes telling my mommy or jiejie i am sick sounds and feels funny...
damn... thou i know i can tell my mommy and jiejie anything la... almost anything! wahaha!!!

today!! i seriously almost crap in my pants!! walked out of my hse and all... den tummyache.. tot i can control till heartland mall.. and apparently i cant! i ran to the lan shop nearby's toilet! omg... funny but really horrible feeling.. never want tt to happen to me ever again!!

i am a crappy person!! literally full of crap!! hahaha!!!


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11:59 PM


got this on peksy blog... quite interesting...

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio :

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
'life aint always all nice. its up to us how we perceive it to be i guess. sometimes its hard to look on the bright side. sometimes we need ppl around us to remind us!'

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
'haha.. duh duh... but sometimes you dunno whether the next step is big or small... :/ '

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
' i totally agree! waste of energy... plus! you can always forgive but NEVER forget!'

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. siblings too. so do not take these ppl for granted!
' yes yes one of my those lines i always say... treasure them before you lose them and REGRET! '

5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 'dont have them so its okay!'

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. why win an argument which ends up in unhappiness among us?
'wahaha.. i always have tt tendency'

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
' ex mama: yea boy... u really did gave me a shock. :P '

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. ' who says! '

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
' i am trying real hard for this point. '

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
' maybe... maybe not?! when i read this i was thinking how true can it be... why i shouldnt be in it or not? is there a reason behind it?? '

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
' tts really comforting to know.. really. '

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.' *nods* nods* '

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
' if we can den there will not be any ppl having depression. '

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
' i read this somewhere " WE DONT STOP PLAYING CUZ WE GROW OLD, WE GROW OLD CUZ WE STOP PLAYING" :):)'

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
' how i wish i can do that... i want to go round the world to see those wonderful things and work random jobs! '

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it
for a special occasion. Today is special. ' kinky '

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
' woooooooooo... heh! '

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. so grab whatever opportunities there are to make your life a happy one. no regrets.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".

27. Always choose life. ' sometimes death is so much better!!! '

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
' its hard for me... sometimes i do not know why i try to do things to please ppl till i got really tired myself withour knowing it myself till ppl have to tell me.. :S '

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles. glad i managed to get through the tough period

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come. that's why i hvnt give up hope. in life

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
' that i am really tired of doing... '

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. so treasure everyday, every moments especially the moments you had with your loved ones including family, friends and colleagues.


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a line for you since you are reading!!!

theres no one in this whole wide world exactly just like me. i'm me and you are you. we're special dont you see? (:(:


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12:21 AM


sometimes i really wonder wads gg on in your brain? how do you form things in your head? how do you actually function...

wad is your actual character!? hahaha! sometimes i find it really amusing how you react to the smallest things around you... O-M-G!

been away from work for 6 full days! and is SO SO SHIOK!

nurse one patient who broke his leg and had to amputate his left leg due to industrial accident... how sad and sudden can it be?!
i really sayang his leg la... cuz i been thru leg operation too! and i know how pain and fustrating it can be... OPPS! bias!!! =p=p

so happy one of our PR patient actually went back to bed by herself! i wonder how she did that... which is really amazing la! she is as cute as ever... hahaha!!!
she was once our most irritating patient... now.. one of our cutest patient! (:(:

vroom vroom... started driving this few days! really shiok! but sometimes my instructor just spoils my day by keep on nagging at me! TSK!!! hahahaha!!!

my poor ethan boy is sick again! he actually had seizure! omg... is provoked seizures cuz by virus! SCARY MAN! even if i was a nurse i wouldnt know how to react to it la!

GOD BLESS HIM!!!


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11:43 PM


watched 'ugly truth' today!
was really amazing! hahaha! and when i was watching the whole show, i thought of that someone all along... haha! and yes pek guessed it right! (:

gamer was good... really nice! yao qing styled his hair! for the 2nd time in my life i ever saw him in that hair style... i must say it looks good.. (:(:
told him he shld style it more often.. and yes yes... the same old answer...

'that 10 mins of styling my hair i can use to to sleep..'

something along tt line.. blablabla...

okok! something crop up at work and between me n kimmi...
all i know was ppl at work said i shldnt be too hyper at work... i shld tone down alil.. :/

i duno la... it sucks... i do not know who said tt... not angry or anything.. just wanna know who said tt... den i would know how to react to that person whenever i work with them...

regarding kimmi.. i seriously do not know WTF she is angry abt! how the hell would i know she have all the trainings in the world and she was tired... not happy cuz i just teased her being a wet blanket and pang seh kia for not joining us for movie?! WTF!!! such small thing u can be tt fucking pissed abt? omg! and yet i tot wad BIG GRAVE MISTAKE I MADE TO MADE HER TT PISSED OFF... i do not know if i shld just take it as she is tired, tts why all her nonsense appear... who the fuck knows you are training for some Marathon... when you do not even explain yourself for it... acting all cool in front of me when i am teasing you? pls la... TEASING!!! I AINT ANGRY WITH YOU!!! OMG!

obivously i DO NOT understand that u are tired cuz you have been training EVERYDAY for tt... CUZ I DONT EVEN KNOW THE HIDDEN MEANING BEHIND IT!

do i know u fucking busted your training session just to go out with us? NO!
do i fucking know you wanted to train so hard for your own achievements? NO!

so who the fuck are you to get angry with me!?

talk abt commitment... if you do not TELL us wad the fuck you are thinking who the FUCK knows?!
yes yes! I DONT TRAIN, I DONT RUN, I DONT DO CRUNCHES like you DO... tt doesnt mean i dont understand how bloody tiring it is! i been thru trainings too.. i been thru times where i lie on my bed i said yes i finally did it...

sheesh.. sometimes i wonder.. maybe i shld just treat my colleagues and colleagues and nothing else... :S #$#^@#@!#!%#$^%

ah screw it... if she still wanna be tt pissed off abt it... go ahead.. cuz i wont stoop so low to continue to fight with you for such matters!

BAHHHH!!!!


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2:02 AM


was looking thru pictures in FB... esp some of my secondary sch frens pictures...
everybody seems to be dressing up more and etc...
and here am i wearing shorts t shirt and slippers where ever i go! hahahaha!
sigh... ppl slimming down but i dont... wonder why do they even go to an extend of dieting! when u can eat better eat!

sometimes i feel butt ugly when i look at them! hahaha! and always wanted to buy new clothes... BUT such feelings die down very fast! hahaha! i am happy the way i am... i have ppl who love me can alr! (:

my dad and i are STILL in bad terms... like we seldom talk and staff... like totally no communication... and if we ever talk, it sounded as if he is scolding me! TSK!
heartaching to think about it...

sigh... we have been very tired this few days... which kinda lead to flaring up at each other sometimes... something i think everyone will go thru such stage... yet again thank god its all small matters... (:(:

2 more days to my off day!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait! loves!


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9:46 PM


today i happen to bump into my fren on the way hm
he said he was gg to church to prac PNW
i said ok.. i drop by!
there goes.... 7 yrs active in church.. wad i have always know...
just came back when they start praying and prac... i totally miss those times...

guess i lost track of time... felt so familiar yet felt damn foreign...

oh wells!!!

that brewha... really gets onto my nerves...
sometimes i think if she got stab alive and bleed i might just stand there & laugh!
okok.. i know i am mean! =p i just couldnt help it la! tsk sian!
WAD COMES AROUND GOES AROUND

other den that works fine... life's fine! hahaha!


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10:22 PM


haha!!!
here am i blogging in jason's and aaron's hostel...
playing cards with regi qing jian ye aaron n jason... okok... jason is studying...
lost alot yesterday! 50 bucks! today jianye is helping me play! hah!


my week been really crazy.. heh... today is my only off day of the week! omg... working 6 days str sure die one...


bla... just read my fren's blog... felt her pain... oh wells... wad to do... if its meant to be....
think sooner is better den later... or else the hurt will be more...

bahbahbah...

i guess u cant really expect to be all nice all the time....

last night was the first time we ever got irritated at the same time... and at each other.. interesting... that feeling suck big time...
but oh wells lucky was it a small matter! (:(:(:(:

CHEERS!!!


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6:50 PM


hello hello!

life been great for me! (:
watched ALOT of movies this 2 weeks! O-M-G!
but its all worth it! cuz the movies i've watched were really nice & funny!
just maybe except BRUNO!!!! its damn funny but really VERY VERY traumatic! O.0
do not know wad i am talking abt? go watch it and u will know! :P

many other events happened this 2 weeks too!

met up with pek and mich! like FINALLY! ate our usual steamboat... followed by chit chat at TCC!
sweetie came and pick me up tgt with regi and calvin.. wanted to go changi beach but we ended up at east coast. we sat and chilled... laughed non-stop with regi's slow frequency etc. heh... a day to rmb... (: 21st aug n 22nd aug :D

oh oh! and it was jason's bdae too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SESSMAN! thou i know you wont be reading this.. as usual! hahaha! tts the whole point!

met up with my dear preceptor timothy tgt with phoebe and kimmi last week... had another great chat... all the laughters and nonsense we always do tgt as a grp!
went west coast... wanted fries but it was SOLD OUT.. so we bought hash brows...
wahaha! shiok la... have you ever buy hash brows late in the night from macs?
WE DID! (:

random random... been pms-ing this few days... haha! bad bad bad...

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AND finally! i got my pay.. but i can foresee the amt getting lesser just within days! SIGH! bills and etc

work been pretty alrite... just maybe my junior job suck... okok! its not maybe.. it is... and i hate it! :( when will i ever stop making silly mistakes...
dun wan timothy to shake his head and go 'sigh'
other den that.. work is really fun... jus maybe except one person making everyone very miserable feeling, sometimes.

when will the plant grow? grow to be very healthy and good to harvest?
reap wad you sow.

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i have started on a journey slowly getting to familiarise to its surroundings and the smallest details. something not easy but having real fun doing it! :)feeling the warmth and happiness while journeying thru!


tts abt it! darn lazy to type anymore! (:


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9:30 PM


jason's chalet was kinda alrite... but i feel like i went for a getaway trip... 3 days of no parents no work.. just sleep slack and eat... hahaha...
even thou we didnt get this monkey of the day drunk and gone... hope he enjoyed his bdae party and the present i/we gave him!

felt that my money and effort didnt go to waste... at least he will wear it everyday and it is wad he needs! (: a Guess watch.

think my brain cells are dying... the things we do! hahaha!! joke!


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7:00 PM


happy 5th month! (:

i actually rmb! hahaha!

was gg thru NDP songs... cuz pek geok told me abt mr brown 'NDP' version song...
heard it and i find it damn funny...

hahaha!

he had H1N1 song too...
anyway, was browsing thru the other songs... and realise as years gone by NDP songs are getting more and more commercialise! OMG! hahaha! O-M-G.. hehe

went all the way back to like 2000 NDP theme song... it still sound like a national song... read the comments and stuff.. think yr 2000 NDP song quite nice!
to think our current 2009 NDP song dont sound like a NDP song... duno if its gd or not... as in its gd cuz ppl will listen to it more often and find it nice.. hmmm... wad abt e bad part? maybe its doesnt have much impact? hahaha!

haiz... as time goes by... we start to lose the meaning in alot of things..
maybe its jus me... i feel that we take alot of things for granted?

miss national stadium!! oh wells!

blablabla.. random tots!

anyway.. tmr i will be in charge! its been a long time since i am being assigned as IC!

all the best to me!

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINAGPORE!


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11:45 PM


its been a long time since i blogged...

alot of things happened...

i celebrated my 21st birthday at aranda country club with my family and friends!
had loads of fun...

esp the 2nd night! hahaha...
thou i failed my driving practical.. which TILL NOW i still cant forgive myself for that stupidest mistake i made...

watching harry potter with my frens tmr! i cant wait!
in the mean time today was morning shift followed by an off day tmr!

SHIOK! sweetie got his car so we went to marina barrage to slack...
push him and he got into MUD! i felt so bad thou.. but damn funny la...
his hands were all GREY in colour...
couldnt help but kept laughing... hehe!

went to eat supper at thomson.. PRATA! after that head to lower pierce to slack...
played songs... did some cheer jumps! hahaha! and played a game that made my hand real RED!!

sweetiw gave in! he took us for a fun ride thru upper pierce! hahaha! tt was shiok man!

sweetie, thanks for everything tonight! hahaha! i know you are very tired... cuz u had to wake me up for work and stuff! hahaha! when i get my license which i hope i do i drive u around la! but not the upper pierce rd.. i think i WILL end up killing anyone who is in the car! hahaha!

alrite! gg to slp now! looking forward for my movie...

harry potter is like a world i would like to be in..
a place full of magic!


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2:41 AM


i am alrite... i feel alrite...

but sometimes i just yearn for the love i deserve and the hugs and kisses...
something i that i wan to feel belong to... someone i know will love me when i love him...

at the mean time i shall enjoy my singlehood...

some guys shld really have 3 ghosts in their life... (:


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11:18 PM


i think its better this way...
WE think...

we can actually talk and converse better as friends.. amazingly...
i didnt regret.. as u said we tried...

i wish u all the best.. finding the right one at the right time...
i wish myself all the best too~

it finally offically ended...
even thou i hope for the better...

maybe this ending is for the better! (:

we will move on with our busy life... focusing on journeying thru our next phase of life!

jia you!

one day...
one day we will really find the one...

is there really the one...
or we make make that one our 'the one'

hahaha! oh wells...
lets see what had God install for us!

u all no need to worry...
i will be fine... (:


It'll all get better in time
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

(: <3


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1:25 AM


had a ok shift today...

went Rebel next...
for a drink and a night of fun...

apparently, wad i've told regina b4.. 'u cant really have fun till you solve your problems!'

i dance and drank and laugh.. many photos taken...

AMAZING!

all the smile and laughter... it wasnt something deep down...
my best bud could see... could just see that i was bored...

u wanted to talk thru the phone... i was ok... but we didnt manage to talk tonight.
but i rather meet up and talk face to face...

i assume everything burst and ended... but apparently not... oh wells...

do not know wads the ultimate results/ ending..
i am gonna just take it well, take it with a smile and move on with life...
things will be different... but it is something we learn after each mistake.

i did try my best.. put in very single effort i think shld have put in...
if things are meant to be it will be...
i hope for the best thou...

and wads for the best? tts the question. nobody knows... only God knows...

life aint easy... but somehow... God will guide us thru all the waves that comes our way...

and here am i talking abt God when things goes wrong and i start putting my faith and hope on Him... haha!
God will forever be a part of us... esp we christians... tts my opinion...

anyway, i pass my IV test! so SWEETIE when are u going to treat me to a meal? (:
u gonna be away for these few days in malaysia! take care yea?
think by the time you read this u are alr back from all the fun...

its been a long time since we meet up and just talk rubbish tgt...
everyone is jus too busy...
ESP ME! with all the shift work...

oh wells... a few days of nothing to do or no one to disturb.. =p
take care!

a phrase u gave me -> 'In my weakness He is my strength, in my lack He is my supply, in my sickness He is my health!'

a passage.. which i think is nice.

I ask You to minister to their spirit.
Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy.
Where there is self doubting, release a renewed confidence to work through them...
Where there is tiredness or exhaustion, I ask You to give them understanding, guidance, and strength.
Where there isfear, reveal Your love and release to them Your courage.
(:


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4:36 AM


yes yes.. i am back to this blogskin...
cuz the other one gave me problem...

the bubble burst...
the fairytale ended...
my optimism failed me...


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12:19 AM


random random...

i duno why i had such a tot while watching drama series...

i duno why but even we dont meet up often.. we dont contact often...
i have that great amt of trust deep within in sessman and everything...

is like...

we both are actually tgt hand in hand working towards our goals in future, focusing on impt things in life...

you are busy with your work and family.. busy catching up with your sleep so u are able to wake up and have enough energy to work!

me... busy working... learning... and catching up with my friends!

on the surface it might seem why our relationship seems weird weird...
but deep down i actually had that amt of trust.. which amazed me...

tts why i sent you tt sms randomly telling you how i think! hahaha...

oh wells! ;)


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3:33 AM


loving someone is hard but trying not to love the one you are already loving is harder.


BAH!!! I CANT BELIEVE THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY REACTIONS AT ALL!!!! OMG~!

fuming mad... yet i knew your reaction will be something along that.. yet i always wish otherwise...

the power in love is the one who care less...
i agree... totally...

den why do u use the word love when u CARE lesser?
contradicting...

CHEERS ppl!
smile smile smile... and one day we will really smile from our bottom of our hearts~


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10:44 PM


life is way much better when just overlook at those trival matters in life...
or even any matter that will make us sad...

life will be better...

i learn how to do that. (:

but its up to us to decide what is trival wad is not. HA!


i am pretty contented with life... cuz i made it to be...
or else... hahahaha!

regi... u do the stupidiest things in life...
have u tot of the consequences?

i mean i know i do not have the rights to scold you...
but now things are all alright in your life.. dun make a wave out of nothing alright! (: dun wanna see you cry like how u cried @ the chalet.. it hurts..
hurts so much that i can feel it...

i will be fine... i keep on telling myself. so must you! JIA YOU!
life/ work can be stress... but dont start on something u cant really stop...

i fell for it... and regreted at times... so dun u ever do that!


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1:29 AM


life been a routine for me now...

work eat slack sleep the cycle goes on...
never felt so lost...

not that i do not know wad i am doing.. but everything seems so unfulfilling...

i guess... the clean piece of paper someone was mentioning its kinda dirtied alr...
and the start of wad had written on ruin the looks of it.. and it has to take extra effort in beautifying again

aint easy...

everyone seems to have their own problems... be it family matters. relationships or work...

if i would to whine abt the same things over and over again i might get killed or left alone... literally alone...



went to play lan yest night.. was fun... bumped into zezhong...
really small world huh...
got to know milton was actually very close to angeline! hahaha! amazing...
small small world... everyone is link somehow or other...

if i wasnt frens with regina i might not know aaron... and not knowing aaron means i wont know jason and yao qing...

if i didnt get into sjc... i wouldnt know michelle and wont get into zj i wont get to know pek and zj ppl.. i wont get to know jerry and nick and matt and mel and juls and ryan and daryl and many more

really... i guess 'everything happens for a purpose'

come to think of it.. everything links la... and i need to get my licence FAST!
i want to drive...

drive safely... haha... u know la.. alison crazy one... can anyhow speed without knowing ones limits and skills... hurhur... have to get that into my head!

i mean ppl speed knowing how to handle if something suddenly happen... i dun think i can handle.. so i shall be a 'law abiding citizen' person! hurhur...

we shall see abt it...
but 1st i need to get my licence...
talk so much also no use!


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2:37 PM


ok..i screwed things up again...

when will i ever grow up? at least grow up at the particular area..

hello... it didnt jus happen once.. but twice.

ok... life is so screwed up i sometimes think that maybe my parents might start to regret telling God maybe without alison around i can live happily without worries and stress

i am causing them so much trouble and pain.

yes, i know some of u might think... den why am i still doing the things i did?

my ans is i do not have an answer to that question...

i need to have more self control...
i need to put tots into action...

fuck.. i screwed it so badly...
yes yes... small matter... but wad if things escalates?

i wish i can rewrite my history... and tts to rewrite the moment i broke my leg!
things will be way diff...

maybe for the better maybe for the worst.

i cant take anymore waves.. my life is like an ocean... on the surface.. all calm and still... yet beneath all the calmness... comes all the horrible currents u never expected it to be...

grrrrr....

i wish...

i wish so hard i could just disappear.. wont cause hurt to anyone i hurt b4.. my sec sch mates, my closest frens and most imptly my family...


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2:46 AM


When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ...
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...
she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest ..
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday...
she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ...
no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ...


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(:(: when it happens it happens... when its suppose to be urs it will be!

REGI! u have to decide what u really want in life...
tmr will never be a better day unless u solve the problem...
i cant help you much in this problem...
but i promise i will be there for you when u need me... loves!

u have to learn... learn from mistakes... learn how to love... (:


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12:16 AM


here goes...

SWEETIE!

can u stop laughing at my entries! aint sweet of you. do u know that? hahaha!!

love you! wahahahahahaha!!!!! :P


life aint easy for me now..

where i just started work.. the ball starts to roll
yet areas in my world aint gg smooth at all...

i will hold on for now.. cuz i still see some hope and light in it...
but till the day the light diminish... i will let it go...

i wonder...

- did you really did sit down and think : wads wrong with you?
- have you really decide on wad u want in life?
- i can pardon your confusion now... but are u gg to do something abt it and not let it hang there?
- i am trying very hard not to compare... but its hard...
- even thou i wish the end results aint something i am dreading to hear/know...

i understand how painful is to be that victim (cuz u been thru that) and yet u are doing this to me...
u indirectly warned me... but i am still willing to take the risk...

i am tired... but i am glad that there are ppl around supporting me...
just being there... or laughing at wad i am gg thru... breezers... =p
ppl knowing everything, including the 'backstage' info... yet help me improve e situation here and there...

i want to be the next mao mao... to show you that it can happen!! (:

will hang on to that rope... will struggle in the water... till i really do not have enuff oxygen i will swim up and back to shore....


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12:26 AM


just gotta know abt
that one of my fren's fren sister passed away... and she was really young...

kinda feel aching pain for her... cuz if i would to lose my sister i will cry my hearts out like no tmr! my goodness... pls dun ever let it happen.. want to die i die 1st~

was so sudden yet i still do not know the reason... i might never know wad happen...
but sometimes things happen so suddenly that we never ever see it coming...

u REALLY never know who and when they will just leave you... leave you in this world and proceed to another...

i guess its fate... i guess it happens for a reason! and i do hope that fren will find peace in GOD when she prays and get back on her two feets and carry on with her life together with the sweet memories she had with her sister....

rest in peace my dear girl... protect your family who are still on earth...
GOD BLESS


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11:30 PM


here comes air pork... the moment i got my posting....

swine flu decide to appear... and any suspected case will go to my WARD!!!! damn...
so much so for wanting a challenging job...

think i have said that line for a gazillion times....

life been pretty mundane... no more parties i have during holidays.. no more late nights on weekdays...
so whenever weekends approaching no matter how tired i am i will go out till late den i come home... to make it all worth it!

met up with qing regi aaron and melvyn for dinner... some thai buffet thingy...
wasnt all fantastic as qing said...
just maybe i was tired and sian sian like tt... but manage to walk around.. get my brows done! and didnt spend any money in town today! great achievement! =p

sat will be mj time! at regi's hse.. like weekends becomes mj training session for me! hahaha!!! hopefully jaja or qing will be there to help me...

this swine flu really getting a toll on us nurses..
as for me.. i never encounter such problem before...
so i get all worried...

thinking if my frens even mind meeting up still.. and will jason be fine with it...
somehow they said they are fine..
and its up to me to see when i shld start quarantine myself... cuz i am the professional..i shld know better...

hate it la... sobs...

wad if it turn to red phase? den how? DIE
i will be the front line solider!!! dammit............
argh... this is one vocation i chose.. i shall live with it...

just hope in future ppl wont dislike me cuz i am a nurse... i know my frens wont...
but.. oh wells.... haiz!

shall jus enjoy wad i have now... future let future decide... hahaha!!!

(: cheers!

ppl... this is the time where we all shld really pray that theres no SWINE FLU flying into sg! or anywhere near sg!


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10:47 PM


life is like a calm sea for me now...

pretty cool and chill...

i am getting my posting soon... like which ward will i be in...

hopefully i get into High Dependency(HD)... or ICU...
den i will work my way up... sloowly.. and hopefully...

now i feel i have alot of responsibility...
mainly not my patients that i am caring for...
but my family members... gg to kinda rely on me when they get sick...

wad if i cant meet their expectations...
wad if things happen my mind turn blank?
wad if i duno how to deal with the situations?

i hope and will try to learn and absorb all kind of info from work...
esp medications!!

hopefully hopefully one day i will shine... not in a show off way...
but of help and i can put my skills in gd use...

(:

cheers... will update which ward i am gg to...


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12:11 AM


today is my ex mommy's bdae!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!


feeling all pms-ing mood now..
i am tired... moody... my mind is everywhere...
feel so uneasy and unsatisfied!!!

hahaha!!!! ARGH~

help me..

work started... tmr will be my fifth day wearing the SGH uniform....
now is all the courses and lectures... they are killing me...
its boring.. but more of I WANT TO KNOW WHICH WARD I AM POSTED TO!
why do they take so long to tell me....
got a feeling i wont be posted to the ward i want..
and i have to change my short term goal den.

FASTER i wanna know my posting! kill me!!!


POKER FACE!~


i just read abt the cloning of humans... omg... i pray damn hard it wont... seriously...
wads life cycle den?
raise the dead? same person with the looks and build but no memory or whatsoever!


Captured The Moment @

9:46 PM


two more nights of freedom and here comes HELL!!!!


this week rocks my socks really...
1st...
tues- i went kranji with qing and met jason @ surin park!!
was fun!!! cuz... i never been there in the dark before plus theres alot
of stars!!!

wed &
thurs- i spent quality time with my boyboy nua-ing around... and went swimming!!
saw jason PHELPS! hahaha!! HOT HOT!! Lei Hou MAN Wor!

fri- its was DA PARTY!!! had fun playing mahjong... den when jianye arrives..
here comes the fun!!! DRINKS! SHOTS!! PHOTOS!!!

Sat- attended ANGEL and MATHEW's CHRUCH WEDDING!!!
and chill out session with my pek geok!

had driving lesson today... was dreading it...
but it turn out real GOOD! my max speed for today was 80km/hr!
new record! hahaha... i know its only 80kn/hr.
but how many students get to do that during driving lesson?
my parking rocks today too.. no scolding from him... (: *grinz*



abt tmr! i am attending my bro-in-law's brother's wedding dinner! shiok huh... wedding after wedding! (:


and monday will be my 1st day of full-time nurse job of my life! hope its ok... hope i look cool in my uniform! many photos to come!!!


CHEERS!~


Captured The Moment @

9:12 PM


i am troubled...

i duno how to plan my bdae party....
shld i plan it all on one day?
but den alot of factors to consider!

if plan on other days will it be hard?

i want to celebrate w everybody.. but will be it be hard?

ARGH....
i dun wan ppl to feel uncomfortable when i am calling everyone..


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6:22 PM


due to my stupidity i slept around 7pm woke up at 10pm.. and here i am eyes BIG BIG! cant sleep!!

toss and turn around my bed for like an hr? and i am still here!!! typing..

my day today was great... nice and wad i wanted for a week alr? haha!! even thou we didnt follow our initial plan (shld i say MY initial plan) i am pretty glad our plan b rocks... nua-ing around... plus the rain rocks!

later on! part2! cuz u have to go to work last min yest!!! hmpf! haha... cut short my 8 hrs till 4 hrs.. haha...
actually better den nothing la.. but since u wanna make it up to me.. i wouldnt mind at all.. in fact love it. heh!

gg swimming at his hse!! *bloop bloop* SHOW ME YOUR BUTTERFLY STYLE!! haha!!!
jason phelps?! hehe...

its gonna be a fun time.. provided it wont rain! so i hope it wont... judging by the sky now... abit cloudy leh! =S how!!!

ohwells...

anyway i must try getting on my two feet! must be focus.. cant lose focus!! *stare*
(:(:


monday monday!! start work alr!! wearing the SGH uniform! omg!!! SN alison chua!

Staff Nurse Alison Chua reporting to work!

before i dread it.... i shall look forward to tmr's PARTY!!!! PARTY!!!!
shiok!!!
the fun and crazy moments are abt to come! =p
told qing alr... i am gg to smuggle my camera into the chalet! hahaha! cuz jason say its ban from party!

video down to many crazy things alr... hahaha!!! really cant wait!!!!


CHEERS!!!
i still cant sleep!


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5:30 AM


u wont be reading this but oh wells shall just type here!

to you:

i am happy u worry and think too much.. cuz i know u cared and i am impt...
i am glad that u ask... glad u sms-ed and called me... wasnt expecting it... thats why i am uber glad...

i cant wait for wednesday.. a time of me n you.. spending time!
(:(:

felt at ease telling you i did felt it here and there... at least now u know...

BUT no worries alrite... i know you are busy with your things (work family frens) so i understand... and wont ask for any more den wad u can give... just knowing you care and think for/of me is enough! (: and the effort u put into it.

just be yourself and i will be me in front of you...

a slow and comfortable journey we are gg thru tgt... cherishing wad we have now..
making my life like a fairy tale...

fariy tale it is.. cuz its like too good to be true.. but i know one day when i really digest that u are mine, u are part of my world... it will become reality!

songs 'I DO' and ' THANK GOD I FOUND YOU' really rocks... the lyrics relates.. to me at least! haha!! you said ur fave was that too! (: i felt it.. hehe.. sweet of you!

as u said... i am sinking... and u will save me from sinking by sinking me further! haha!!

*smile*

feeling contented with wad i have now... my family, friends and you...


soon, i will start my work... yet another hump i must go thru... i am sure things will be alrite.. at least this is wad i hope! (:

nights dear...


' I DO '

Tell me can you feel my heart beat
Tell me as i kneel down at your feet
I knew there would come a time
When these two hearts would
entwined just put your hand in mine
Forever

For so long I have been an island
When no-one could ever
reach the shores
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there, darling this i swear

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

I'm ready to begin this journey
Well I'm with you with every step you take
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this i swear

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

Come on just take my hand oh come on
Lets make a stand for our love
But I know this is so hard to believe
So please

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

' THANK GOD I FOUND YOU '

(Mariah)
I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

(Chorus all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Joe)
I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
I don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you (I'm begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you


-Bridge- (Mariah & Joe)
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you


(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Mariah)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you


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12:37 AM


today went down to so called accompany jason during work! :)
with the help of QING!! thx my lesbian partner~

suppose to go down for mass @ CTK... but i overslept! =p
met up with regi aaron and qing for lunch...

after that we head down to RASA SENTOSA!
shiok!

me n qing practically slack there...
play water, swim, bio hot hot hot babes and hunks! they are seriously pretty and hunky! heh!

while waiting for jason to end work, around 7 plus 8pm qing and me start diving into the pool.. do stupid things tgt...

i suck at diving into the pool la! den while i was learning how to dive in, jason pushed me into the pool! thx to his push, i finally did it correctly this time!

went to watch fast n furious 4! SHIOK! vroom vroom vroooooooommmmm!!!
his muscles are SO huge! damn nice la... his sister's damn pretty.. esp the last part.. driving such a zai caR!

end of the day!!!
hugshugs!! :D


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12:59 AM


been having loads of mood swings man! hahaha!!

oh wells.. aint impt...
had real fun at kim's hse! REALLY REALLY REALLY BIG~~

my goodness... i really envy her man!

drank quite abit that day and so i fell into the pool~ TWICE!
and damn tehy say i look emo! which i think i sort of a lil sian cuz i dun really know them well to really do/talk nonsense... you all wont know how it feels thou...

however, i didnt regret gg there... manage to see some cute funny stunts of jason...
he can be actually this crazy when he is seh!!! hilarious!

i dont know wad give you the gut feeling that i was sad deep down... but i wasnt really emo-ing... more fo i didnt want to talk nonsense on that day... those gut feeling u had let me know you actually still do care and think of me!

cheers to me!!

do you know! my mommy actually ask why jason never come for ethan bday party!!! my goodness! ask me how is he and such... (: oh wells!

shocked but happy! my mom actually got interested! :D
duno if i shld tell you about it... will you get stress or uh-huh kidna reaction... or maybe u might feel slightly happy....

i duno! haha! i shall see how la...
looking forward for wed!!! yet to plan wad to do on that day... hmmmm...


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5:31 PM


feel like crap now...

accidentally drop something in sessman's car...
thx god i found out b4 anything could happen...

but the thing is that i had to wake him up to go down and check the car TWICE!
when i know he have to wake up early the next morning...

i am so so sorry to wake you up when i know you slept alr... plus u had to wake up early...

how careless can i be o.0

anyway...

i watched shinjunku today! its a nice movie... hha daniel wu's ass damn hot!! haha.
went to mac ritchie and lower pierce reservoir tonight.

nick ryan and jerry was actually alil seh after drinking @ o bar.. hahaha! sitting outside my hse stoning...

funny ppl!

monday night! which is tonight... i am gg out! so happy.. looking forward to it!


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3:30 AM


(:(:

so happy now... after the phone call...

u always make me smile to myself.. feeling all honey coated...
u always ask me why am i so excited, why so happy.. blabla...

haha!! i also duno...

feel so sweet and happy and jumping all over when i know u and aaron planning the party instead of me! and u are doing this for me, i know..

=D so looking forward to monday and tues... and the following week..

eh mr nice/anything/sess man... thank you loads! i know u wont be reading this...
still... THANK YOU!!!!

wad i am feeling now... words cant describe!
u say u are sinking... i think i am worse! haha!! cuz i duno life saving skills in water! hahahahahaha!!!


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1:42 AM


hey!!!

my fren was asking abt any new blog skin website... so i went into it and gave it a look.. like this skin... so i decided to change it... anyway, its been a long time since i change my blogskin...

got stuck to this song thanks to MR SESSMAN.. haha... he was playing it on his phone... 'I DO' by westlife!

went cycling today with tim and huifen @ ECP! and most prob i will be cycling on sunday again.. guess my ass will crack into 4!

:)


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9:59 PM


(:

i am getting back on track...
getting back to where i was before...
trying my best to return who i was b4...

i am contented with my life...

where...
my family are okay with me (as in not angry with me at least)...
my friends... pek geok and regi they all are back with me...
having mr SESS man with me...
having my career soon... (more of starting work)
having my results passed and got at least a dist* for my attachment...

everyone healthy...


i really thank god for all these...


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2:03 AM


alison is:

-so happy...
-elated...
-on cloud nine...
-flying around! hahaha!


a
day
to
rmb

feel blessed and very fortunate...
=D


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5:16 PM


it was not bad after all.. =p


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9:04 AM


i dread it now...
i was looking forward to it...
finally manage to change my mind that the trip might just be nice, enjoying n memorable.. now i think otherwise...

i know its my fault coming home late.. like 11pm.. instead of coming home early to pack...

but your comments of, 'if u dun wanna go for the trip den u can dun go... get out.'

thx ah... that gave me the urge to just say, "dont go lo.. i wasnt even looking forward to it in the first place... appreciate your effort of so called 'grad trip'.."

u can scold say why i dont think and all... but not that remark...

screw it... i can apologise for coming home late and didnt think... but....

GRRRRRRRRRR!! can someone save me? i really dread gg now... really.. see my dad's face the next 9 days EVERYDAY, HOUR, MIN, SECOND!!!!!!

i am so not gonna be all nice... just gonna react like how i wan it to be...
u can waste all the money on this trip but i wont feel happy.. serious. never at all...

i know i am being all bad n not respectful...
its not fair la... i manage to make myself look forward for the whole shit... and yet...

u know wad... i dun wan to go alr... gg will just torture me.. why not just save the money and spend it on other things...

my goodness


some of u might just laugh.. see i told u so...


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11:12 PM