Tuesday, April 28, 2009
calm sea
life is like a calm sea for me now...pretty cool and chill...
i am getting my posting soon... like which ward will i be in...
hopefully i get into High Dependency(HD)... or ICU...
den i will work my way up... sloowly.. and hopefully...
now i feel i have alot of responsibility...
mainly not my patients that i am caring for...
but my family members... gg to kinda rely on me when they get sick...
wad if i cant meet their expectations...
wad if things happen my mind turn blank?
wad if i duno how to deal with the situations?
i hope and will try to learn and absorb all kind of info from work...
esp medications!!
hopefully hopefully one day i will shine... not in a show off way...
but of help and i can put my skills in gd use...
(:
cheers... will update which ward i am gg to...
12:11 AM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
posting, pmsing
today is my ex mommy's bdae!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!
feeling all pms-ing mood now..
i am tired... moody... my mind is everywhere...
feel so uneasy and unsatisfied!!!
hahaha!!!! ARGH~
help me..
work started... tmr will be my fifth day wearing the SGH uniform....
now is all the courses and lectures... they are killing me...
its boring.. but more of I WANT TO KNOW WHICH WARD I AM POSTED TO!
why do they take so long to tell me....
got a feeling i wont be posted to the ward i want..
and i have to change my short term goal den.
FASTER i wanna know my posting! kill me!!!
POKER FACE!~
i just read abt the cloning of humans... omg... i pray damn hard it wont... seriously...
wads life cycle den?
raise the dead? same person with the looks and build but no memory or whatsoever!
9:46 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
1 , 2 HELL!!!
two more nights of freedom and here comes HELL!!!!this week rocks my socks really...
1st...
tues- i went kranji with qing and met jason @ surin park!!
was fun!!! cuz... i never been there in the dark before plus theres alot
of stars!!!
wed &
thurs- i spent quality time with my boyboy nua-ing around... and went swimming!!
saw jason PHELPS! hahaha!! HOT HOT!! Lei Hou MAN Wor!
fri- its was DA PARTY!!! had fun playing mahjong... den when jianye arrives..
here comes the fun!!! DRINKS! SHOTS!! PHOTOS!!!
Sat- attended ANGEL and MATHEW's CHRUCH WEDDING!!!
and chill out session with my pek geok!
had driving lesson today... was dreading it...
but it turn out real GOOD! my max speed for today was 80km/hr!
new record! hahaha... i know its only 80kn/hr.
but how many students get to do that during driving lesson?
my parking rocks today too.. no scolding from him... (: *grinz*
abt tmr! i am attending my bro-in-law's brother's wedding dinner! shiok huh... wedding after wedding! (:
and monday will be my 1st day of full-time nurse job of my life! hope its ok... hope i look cool in my uniform! many photos to come!!!
CHEERS!~
9:12 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
my goodness!!!
i am troubled...i duno how to plan my bdae party....
shld i plan it all on one day?
but den alot of factors to consider!
if plan on other days will it be hard?
i want to celebrate w everybody.. but will be it be hard?
ARGH....
i dun wan ppl to feel uncomfortable when i am calling everyone..
6:22 PM
i cant SLEEP!
due to my stupidity i slept around 7pm woke up at 10pm.. and here i am eyes BIG BIG! cant sleep!!toss and turn around my bed for like an hr? and i am still here!!! typing..
my day today was great... nice and wad i wanted for a week alr? haha!! even thou we didnt follow our initial plan (shld i say MY initial plan) i am pretty glad our plan b rocks... nua-ing around... plus the rain rocks!
later on! part2! cuz u have to go to work last min yest!!! hmpf! haha... cut short my 8 hrs till 4 hrs.. haha...
actually better den nothing la.. but since u wanna make it up to me.. i wouldnt mind at all.. in fact love it. heh!
gg swimming at his hse!! *bloop bloop* SHOW ME YOUR BUTTERFLY STYLE!! haha!!!
jason phelps?! hehe...
its gonna be a fun time.. provided it wont rain! so i hope it wont... judging by the sky now... abit cloudy leh! =S how!!!
ohwells...
anyway i must try getting on my two feet! must be focus.. cant lose focus!! *stare*
(:(:
monday monday!! start work alr!! wearing the SGH uniform! omg!!! SN alison chua!
Staff Nurse Alison Chua reporting to work!
before i dread it.... i shall look forward to tmr's PARTY!!!! PARTY!!!!
shiok!!!
the fun and crazy moments are abt to come! =p
told qing alr... i am gg to smuggle my camera into the chalet! hahaha! cuz jason say its ban from party!
video down to many crazy things alr... hahaha!!! really cant wait!!!!
CHEERS!!!
i still cant sleep!
5:30 AM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
to my dear
u wont be reading this but oh wells shall just type here!to you:
i am happy u worry and think too much.. cuz i know u cared and i am impt...
i am glad that u ask... glad u sms-ed and called me... wasnt expecting it... thats why i am uber glad...
i cant wait for wednesday.. a time of me n you.. spending time!
(:(:
felt at ease telling you i did felt it here and there... at least now u know...
BUT no worries alrite... i know you are busy with your things (work family frens) so i understand... and wont ask for any more den wad u can give... just knowing you care and think for/of me is enough! (: and the effort u put into it.
just be yourself and i will be me in front of you...
a slow and comfortable journey we are gg thru tgt... cherishing wad we have now..
making my life like a fairy tale...
fariy tale it is.. cuz its like too good to be true.. but i know one day when i really digest that u are mine, u are part of my world... it will become reality!
songs 'I DO' and ' THANK GOD I FOUND YOU' really rocks... the lyrics relates.. to me at least! haha!! you said ur fave was that too! (: i felt it.. hehe.. sweet of you!
as u said... i am sinking... and u will save me from sinking by sinking me further! haha!!
*smile*
feeling contented with wad i have now... my family, friends and you...
soon, i will start my work... yet another hump i must go thru... i am sure things will be alrite.. at least this is wad i hope! (:
nights dear...
' I DO '
Tell me can you feel my heart beat
Tell me as i kneel down at your feet
I knew there would come a time
When these two hearts would
entwined just put your hand in mine
Forever
For so long I have been an island
When no-one could ever
reach the shores
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there, darling this i swear
So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do
I'm ready to begin this journey
Well I'm with you with every step you take
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this i swear
So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do
Come on just take my hand oh come on
Lets make a stand for our love
But I know this is so hard to believe
So please
So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do
' THANK GOD I FOUND YOU '
(Mariah)
I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life
(Chorus all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you
(Joe)
I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
I don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life
(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you (I'm begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you
-Bridge- (Mariah & Joe)
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way
(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you
(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you
(Mariah)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you
12:37 AM
Monday, April 13, 2009
fun fun at sentosa!
today went down to so called accompany jason during work! :) with the help of QING!! thx my lesbian partner~
suppose to go down for mass @ CTK... but i overslept! =p
met up with regi aaron and qing for lunch...
after that we head down to RASA SENTOSA!
shiok!
me n qing practically slack there...
play water, swim, bio hot hot hot babes and hunks! they are seriously pretty and hunky! heh!
while waiting for jason to end work, around 7 plus 8pm qing and me start diving into the pool.. do stupid things tgt...
i suck at diving into the pool la! den while i was learning how to dive in, jason pushed me into the pool! thx to his push, i finally did it correctly this time!
went to watch fast n furious 4! SHIOK! vroom vroom vroooooooommmmm!!!
his muscles are SO huge! damn nice la... his sister's damn pretty.. esp the last part.. driving such a zai caR!
end of the day!!!
hugshugs!! :D
12:59 AM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
swings!
been having loads of mood swings man! hahaha!!oh wells.. aint impt...
had real fun at kim's hse! REALLY REALLY REALLY BIG~~
my goodness... i really envy her man!
drank quite abit that day and so i fell into the pool~ TWICE!
and damn tehy say i look emo! which i think i sort of a lil sian cuz i dun really know them well to really do/talk nonsense... you all wont know how it feels thou...
however, i didnt regret gg there... manage to see some cute funny stunts of jason...
he can be actually this crazy when he is seh!!! hilarious!
i dont know wad give you the gut feeling that i was sad deep down... but i wasnt really emo-ing... more fo i didnt want to talk nonsense on that day... those gut feeling u had let me know you actually still do care and think of me!
cheers to me!!
do you know! my mommy actually ask why jason never come for ethan bday party!!! my goodness! ask me how is he and such... (: oh wells!
shocked but happy! my mom actually got interested! :D
duno if i shld tell you about it... will you get stress or uh-huh kidna reaction... or maybe u might feel slightly happy....
i duno! haha! i shall see how la...
looking forward for wed!!! yet to plan wad to do on that day... hmmmm...
5:31 PM
Monday, April 06, 2009
feels like crap
feel like crap now...accidentally drop something in sessman's car...
thx god i found out b4 anything could happen...
but the thing is that i had to wake him up to go down and check the car TWICE!
when i know he have to wake up early the next morning...
i am so so sorry to wake you up when i know you slept alr... plus u had to wake up early...
anyway...
i watched shinjunku today! its a nice movie... hha daniel wu's ass damn hot!! haha.
went to mac ritchie and lower pierce reservoir tonight.
nick ryan and jerry was actually alil seh after drinking @ o bar.. hahaha! sitting outside my hse stoning...
funny ppl!
monday night! which is tonight... i am gg out! so happy.. looking forward to it!
3:30 AM
Saturday, April 04, 2009
i am all over the place...
(:(:so happy now... after the phone call...
u always make me smile to myself.. feeling all honey coated...
u always ask me why am i so excited, why so happy.. blabla...
haha!! i also duno...
feel so sweet and happy and jumping all over when i know u and aaron planning the party instead of me! and u are doing this for me, i know..
=D so looking forward to monday and tues... and the following week..
eh mr nice/anything/sess man... thank you loads! i know u wont be reading this...
still... THANK YOU!!!!
wad i am feeling now... words cant describe!
u say u are sinking... i think i am worse! haha!! cuz i duno life saving skills in water! hahahahahaha!!!
1:42 AM
Friday, April 03, 2009
new blog skin!~
hey!!!my fren was asking abt any new blog skin website... so i went into it and gave it a look.. like this skin... so i decided to change it... anyway, its been a long time since i change my blogskin...
got stuck to this song thanks to MR SESSMAN.. haha... he was playing it on his phone... 'I DO' by westlife!
went cycling today with tim and huifen @ ECP! and most prob i will be cycling on sunday again.. guess my ass will crack into 4!
:)
9:59 PM
back on track
(:i am getting back on track...
getting back to where i was before...
trying my best to return who i was b4...
i am contented with my life...
where...
my family are okay with me (as in not angry with me at least)...
my friends... pek geok and regi they all are back with me...
having mr SESS man with me...
having my career soon... (more of starting work)
having my results passed and got at least a dist* for my attachment...
everyone healthy...
i really thank god for all these...
2:03 AM