Friday, July 25, 2008
i passed my skills exam... it was my last skill exam i am gonna have...
soon my exams are coming... damn sian!!
dennis in brunei.. its the 2nd day alr...
projects slides to do...
sat i got ZJ bbq~ cant wait!
5:30 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
feelings happy...
as wad daryl said in the note he wrote on my present.. " be happy that actually ppl gives a shit about you..."
even thou he put it in sucha manner i felt it.. i felt the care and concerns my friends have been showering me...
no need to be in the in-grp to feel good.. ETC..
thx for everything...
my life aint that bad...
my cross aint that heavy if i see it in another way...
guess i kinda lost focus.. i lost myself for awhile... being all lalala.. haha-ing around as usual.. i realise i was an empty shell for awhile..
now my brain got cleared up.. able to see wad is happening around me...
thurs,
dennis celebrated my birthday with me.. went novena area to eat.. he got me a bag!
i bought cotton on clothes...
friday,
i am down with flu and cough.. even thou it was den's few days of free days b4 back to jungle for training... he accompanied me thru.. went gardens to have out desert.. he said it was nice.. but i cant taste! haha!!!
saturday!
morning... he brought me breakfast! wanton noodles, bean curd and ceuh queh.. i ate it all up.. nua around cuz i feeling very duhhh.. both of us felt sian cuz i was sick and he had to go back camp... but after eating our toast and mochi at HK cafe... we felt more hyped up! heh!! yea...
evening i went for ZJ den out to vivo's Hog's breath to have my birthday celebration with my gang.. nice! =) i dress like as if it was winter! haha!!! scarf and all!
i love the presents they give me...
body shop kit and most impt-ly the handmade board of pics of us with special notes from everyone..
i love that to bits.. i felt sooo love.. =)
thx!!
den!! when are u giving me the model? hehe! cant wait!
today!!!
met up with aaron and regina for lunch and movie.. watched ''its a boy girl thing''.. not bad la.. but the plot is predictable..
after that i met daryl and nick to watch ''hancock'' nice! funny!! woa.. if ever got such ppl on this planet it would be gd!!
thx for the present aaron n regi..
u let go and everything will be alrite ok!!
learn from it.. will be there for u!
anyways...
i will upload the pics one day.. not today cuz i am still sick!!!!
story for you all to read!
A man found a cocoon of an emperor moth. He took it home so that he
could watch the moth come out of the cocoon. On the day a small
opening appeared, he sat and watched the moth for several hours as the
moth
struggled to force it body through that little hole. Then it seemed to
stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it
could and it could go no farther. It just seemed to be stuck. Then the
man, in his kindness, decided to help the moth, so he took a pair of
scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The moth
then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled
wings. The man continued to watch the moth because he expected that,
at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to
support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened! In
fact, the little moth spent the rest of its life crawling around with
a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly. What the
man in his kindness and haste did not understand was the restricting
cocoon and the struggle required for the moth to get through the tiny
opening were
God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the moth into its wings so
that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from
the cocoon. Freedom and flight would only come after the struggle. By
depriving the
moth of a struggle, he deprived the moth of health.
Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If God
allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles. He would
cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. How
true this is! How many times have we wanted to take the quick way out
of struggles and difficulties, to take those scissors and snip off the
remaining bits in an attempt to be free. We need to remember that our
loving Father will never give us more that we can bear and through our
trials and struggles we are strengthened as gold is refined in the
fire.
"May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or
shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can
have." Don't focus on the things you DON'T have, enjoy each moment of
every day God has given you. This is the day that the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it. So let's take today, even with its
struggles and make it a good day ... our loving Father God has given
this day to me to use as best as I can. The struggles of life won't go
away, but remember that God is allowing us to go through it for a
reason.
Disturb us, O Lord when we are too well pleased with ourselves, when
our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little, when we
arrived in safely because we sailed too close to the shore. Disturb
us, O. Lord when with the abundance of the things we possess we have
lost our thirst for the water of Life; when having fallen in love with
time we have ceased to dream of Eternity; and in our efforts to build
the new earth have allowed our vision for the New Heaven to grow dim.
Stir us, O Lord
to dare more boldly, to venture on wider seas, where storms shall show
Thy mastery, where losing sight of land we shall find the stars. In
the name of Him who pushed back the horizons of our hopes and invited
the brave to follow Him.
11:17 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
stop
stop asking.. stop thinking that way..
self-fulfilling prophecy...
i try...
making me very cautious, very tensed.. sometimes...
dennis! thx for today's belated celebration and present.. love it! =)
have to wake up soo early tmr! =S 6am!!
12:04 AM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
am i in control of my life?
after watching "wanted" with dennis today..this question irriates my mind soo much...
am i in control of my life? str away my ans was NO
can think of a few examples.. which i really hate myself for..
the feeling that i couldn't control my life.. is not that ppl want to control my life.. is i let them control mine.. or rather i give them the impression that i can be easily controlled, easily influence and swayed..
i kinda let them control me.. me, giving in at the end... me not having my own strong vaules, stands and decisions..
respect...
this word came into my mind...
11:24 PM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
happy bdae!
happy 20th bdae to me...thx everyone for your msg and wishes...
dear! u are sweet la! when u appear in my room without me knowing with a cheesecake!
even thou u are so tired... thx...
cut my hair too! other den that my day was pretty normal!
pics!
i look like i just came back from a country having winter! heh!
11:22 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008
tmr tmr~!
2 hrs and 15 mins left to end of my teen!! my nineTEEN!!!hahaha!! i am so looking forward to it! dunno why.. maybe felt better when juls say she is coming for the dinner on sat... peksy actually reply my msg somehow..
yea! you all are lovely...
ate sooooooo much at jap restaurant!!
cha soba
chicken
tofu
jellyfish
3 plates of sushi
crab balls
3 plates of mochi ( 6 pieces )
sashimi
hot green tea
mango classic
almost died! sooo full!! tmr! out with melissa to cut hair!! shiok!!
guess hair style about the same! haha!!
9:43 PM
one more day to end of my TEEN!
one more day to the end of my teen days! oh wells...i have to say BYE 19 and HI 20!!
damn!!! i heard from ppl that time flies super fast when you hit the number 2!!
its ok.. ppl always say i look younger den my age.. so...
when i am 30 next time.. ppl will think i am 22-25 yrs old! HAH!
went crystal jade to eat la mian and xiao long bao with dennis... shopped again! bought scarf and a pair of shoe.. its not shoe shoe.. but its a plum shoe? covered toe shoe? its damn cheap! $14.90 only! haha!
den rush home just on time.. 6pm... when swissotel to have buffet.. its a hotel near clarke quey! nice food.. i ate alot of sashimi! woa woa woa...
dennis came and slack with me till 12plus..
HAPPY 3rd MONTH dennis!
even thou you will be working in camp! @_@ nvm.. law of bo pian-ness!! haha!!!
juls and jerry cant make it for my bdae...
i treasured that night.. 08/07/07... but i wish it could happen again.. when every single one was there... able to make it.. laughing and enjoying the moments...
now...
all scattered... jeremy in cambodia.. juls and jerry cant make it on sat.. pek geok and mich neva reply my sms...
did i lose it? did i lost ppl??
i just have to have faith...
1:08 AM
Friday, July 04, 2008
Go with the flow
days move on.. fun.. blur.. cuz i jus go with the flow.. i am suppose to react this way i will react this way... and day by day it pass..
i watched quite a few movies.. zohan.. get smart.. 10 promises you made to the dog..
the last movie i watched was really very very very sad~ i cried from the beginning till the end.. even thou i knew how the movie is gonna end.. blablabla..
nearer to my bday!!
plans!
monday: grp mates...
tuesday: sadly its my bdae itself, i do not have plans
wednesday: either with aaron regi they all
thursday: out w dennis
friday: free...
saturday: my lovely gang...
sunday: zj ppl??
wonder when peksy n mich are free to meet up for a meal too!! lovelove.. i am glad our frenship still exist.. ok.. we will give each other time.. just let me know when you all are free to meet up...
today i went to ASTON's to eat.. head home to slack and change.. watched quite a few funny video clips w dennis... den we made our way down to HK cafe to eat desert.. my mom actually knew dennis was around and she kinda okay with it.. =) still let me out to have a drink w dennis
ate strawberry snow ice! thick bread with peanut butter & condensed milk!! bean curd with tang yuan!!!
shiok shiok shiok shiok!!!
DAMN SWEET!! everything was very very sweet!
11:29 PM
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
i will be happy...
lost of hope...yet i see light...
things kinda got some action done... soon it will maintain and follow by termination..
pre comtemplation
comtemplation
action
maintanence
termination
happy 19th birthday melissa!!!
happy 23rd birthday jeremy!!!
my cramps are bad.. for the first day at least..
i suppose to be looking forward like i do every year... i suppose to feel how i felt last yr at changi airport... i guess it will neva be the same..
i believe everything happen for a purpose.. i didnt regret.. i learnt from it...
maomao..
-thx for being understanding..
-thx for even thou i didnt handled it properly somehow..
ex-mama...
i lost one wont want to lose another
10:19 PM