Saturday, December 29, 2007
wad a trip`~
What's your love language?Acts of service
Your primary language of love is acts of service. When a loved one does a simple chore for you it speaks volumes about how much they care about you. Of course, different acts of service mean more to you - and that's up to you and your loved ones to figure out
acts of service, my love lang.. cool.. interesting! oh wells..
wahaha! so bored till i kept on playing face book and watch anime!
'I AM LEGEND' was not that bad.. i give a B-! haha! i think the dog very poor thing.. oh wells.. shant say anymore u all go watch!
u noe! cuz i fell yest.. my mom insist of my sis to bring me to movie with a wheelchair! omg! haiz! nvm..
a pregnant lady(my sis) pushing me around! siao man! haha! my bro-in-law was parking while we go up to eat dinner.. we decided to eat at thai express.. my sis cant push me up the small slope! no strength! haha! ok preg.. i think i ask the guy to help! scare my sis use too much strength.. ask server to pull me up.. ok.. later she injured worse! scare sia!
ate.. went to cinema! felt so embarrass!!! had to go buy back door! cuz Junction 8's GV got stairs! omg! anyway.. den when we reach the back door, it was cinema 6.. it was in a middle of a MOVIE!! dammit! my bro-in-law got a shock! den my sis just push me in! haha!! feel like an arse can!! wheelchair! me! being pushed from the front of cinema 6 to the back! everyone was looking at me instead of their movie!
ok.. out we go.. went in cinema 4~ no one! heng arh! den i hop in to the sit sat there, kiao ka-ing! cuz if i put my leg down too long too much blood will flow to my metals! haha!! when tt happens they fight.. den very pain.. it will swell..
den my sis say her tummy pain! when my bro-in-law alr left to the washroom! i was huh! u ok not?! she was ok la... my baby KICKING! woa!! i say i wan to feel! she let me feel lo! I FELT IT!!! cool man! haha! at that point of time i felt so much love flow in my sis! haha!! a living foetus in her! wahaha!! baby boy! =D
ok.. than movie started n end.. and i went home! haha!
ok.. now my leg aching leh.. dunno is it cuz of the fall! argh! bored~
4:54 PM
Friday, December 28, 2007
MOVIE!
today got YM bbq.. i cant go..dun think parents will allow me to go out with them..
but my sibling, sister.. going out w me! think with cousins too! haha! cool huh.. watching "I'm Legend", will blog how is it after it. looks nice..
been stoning at home as usual! haven been talking to my close frens.. haha.. cuz i too busy climbing up and down the stairs! argh~
i fell today~ SOB!
dunno my bone inside ok not leh.. later i internal bleeding till die... or my leg later one lonng one short! wa liao! haiz~ take ht must stand on the longer leg! haha!!!
thx babes for ya concern.. will contact u all soon.. when i dun need to give so much attention to my leg!
i leave my bones to heal in the care of God.. pray that after that hit when i fell down didnt cause much impact.. everything will go back normal after 3 months or so.. and when its heal.. hopefully i can jump again! JUMP!
swim, run, cycle, blading and WALK.. all these i cannot do now.. my leg.. i dunno in future will blading be a dangerous sports for me alr not.. cuz might just break it again how?
oh wells... maybe to break my leg got some reason.. chinese saying, you lose money to block diaster! but in my case.. maybe i break a leg a to block something worse than this???
my religion saying is that.. everything happens for a purpose.. someday i will see the light.. all He ask us to do is to trust in Him for we walk by faith and not my sight!
both got the same meaning thou! =D
yep pek! its a hard and quite a long road to come for the recovery of my leg! will hang on! have to hang on! haha!
JUST FOR LAUGH!
ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
____________ _________ _________
OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
____________ _________ ________
SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.
____________ _________ ________
GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
____________ _________ ________
HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
____________ _________ _________
LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
____________ _________ _________
PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
____________ _________ ________
DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
____________ _________ ________
HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.' They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.
6:27 PM
Thursday, December 27, 2007
oh wells... been home bound! haha..hopefully i dun get FAT!! eat sleep slack, eat sleep.. lie down.. barely sit up.. only for meals.. cuz need to allevate my leg.. oh wells..
so far i can kan kai alr.. not that bad.. just tt sometimes at night i feel miserable.. all immobilse and all. use crutches takes hell lot of strength! can lose calories.. best is the lost can equal my intake! hahaha!!
will be home next 3 weeks.. anyone wana come pei me? haiz!!
i have a prob beside my leg tt i cant walk.. if u noe me.. i have a emotional curves.. and all very extreme peaks.. when i am sad.. i feel like i worthless tilli think living suck... cry n feel horrible!
happy.. laugh and laugh, joke till the cow comes home =p.. den ppl anyhow disturb i also ok wan.. hahah!
siao me!
now asking my fren abt physio.. wow.. a stud nurse noe nuts man!! study abt disease disease.. wad abt bone!! kns! haha..
i noe nuts abt it... guess thats wad physiotherapy is abt!
gonna have brain dead soon! shld start stuyding!! HAHAHA!!
4:37 PM
Monday, December 24, 2007
DISCHARGED!!
I AM BACK! HOME!!admitted to tan tock seng on sat (15/12) night cuz i fractured my leg fibula n tibia! didnt noe was that bad...
injured due to wrong landing during my cheer stunt..
oh wells.. at least yijun, heng da, joey, yi ting, doudou, poh poh, maria and maybelle came and visit me.. thats from my cheerteam.. thanks! oh ya! surprisingly, i was admitted to maybelle's ward! haha!! 12B..
maybelle u must hang on there ok! =) god bless her..
from ZJ! mario, colin, ryan, joel, jason, aloy and aaron.. MY GANG! haha! juls, mel, mel bf!, matthias, jerry.. haha.. jeremy, peksy.. quite a few..! haha! i cant rmb.. most of them come twice! phew! without you all.. i will bored to death! rotting! haha! i noe some are really busy from ZJ! and mich.. have to work and all! thx for calling thou! =D wesley, aaron and regi.. 0624, melissa, amrita and janet! oh and amrita's fren! haha!
being admitted to hospital was a new experience for me.. as a student nurse.. i push pt to toilet.. i answer their call bells.. this time! i was the one calling them thru call bells.. asking help to toilet.. cuz i cant move! me being hyper, this is the worst torture for me! being semi-handicap..
now i can understand all the pt's felt when they were admitted to hospital.. I/V drip injections.. operations.. medication.. pain killers which sometimes does not help, so i have to ask for injection to have a faster effect!
stayed there for a week! but i had my operation on the 2nd last day of my discharge! had my operation on 22/12/07 12am! finish opt at 4am! was in pain! cant tahan, so asked for pain killers! injection! haha! after that, shiok arh.. i sleep all the way! sunday ask me to discharge! power sia!
staying in hospital.. was an experience i neva had.. was a horrible one.. a painful n redunant one.. i felt so crappy when i think of somethings..
but i guess i have to look on the bright side! life seems to be more dead to me.. i am lazy to entertain people.. lazy to go out.. lazy to do this, lazy to do that.. i feel so fed up.. why must this happen to me.. why?? i cant go back to normal anymore... i have to tahan all this pain.. all this uncomfortable therapy.. not for 2 weeks but for at least 2 YEARS!!!!!!
2 freaking years.. operation.. clutches for 2 months.. metals in my left leg.. 2 years later operation again to take out the metals.. like wtf!!
yet.. yet.. oh wells.. wont say everything out.. i just have to think on the bright side of life..
wad value add does it add to me.. my brother ask me.. i cant think of any.. once bitten twice shy.. now i seriously noe wad it means.. but in a very harsh way.. now i noe the pain..
i cant go for midnight mass.. i cant go for shuan's xmas party.. i am gonna miss alot of fun n sharing.. oh wells..
have to postpone my attachment.. its gonna affect my results..
have to wait till next year... haha! 2008 xmas! wow... thats long!
i cant whine.. i can get angry and all.. have to get thru it! lets test my endurance! go go go! alison! i shall mark the day i can jump with both legs again!! i will mark that day!!! haha!!
5:10 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
is all coming back to me
a dress i bought today.. looks like any other dress thou.. =)
mood relief.. got such thing? haha!
oh wells.. feeling all haiz.. but better! =)
juls intro this song to me! nice!
-Is all coming back to me-
There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window
There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made
But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any one in love
Baby Baby
If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back
But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then
But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any lovers in love
Baby, Baby, Baby
When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we...
8:56 PM
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
slightly better
today woke up early for lesson! actually didnt wan to go for lessons.. dun feel like going..but wad the heck.. just stop sulking n all.. i got up and went for lecture~
today training was cancelled.. came back home early! on the way home i some what felt better for no reason..
wondering.. when i need you u are always not around.. maybe not always.. at least this time u are not around..
if i lose you.. i guess i will be very lonely.. therefore i think... is best i will have to keep things this way.. i will not go and disturb the peace b/w us..
and i will carry on with my bubbly life! with my other friends and family..
seriously.. wo xiang tong le! feeling less moody!!
melissa ling! haha.. thx for the sms u sent me.. very touching.. it went str to my heart! even thou i noe u wun be reading this..
nabil.. i think u dunno.. haha! thx for cheering me up in your own ways.. and abt tt results.. ALISON DUN SAD.. i noe.. haha! genopathy!
juls.. thx babe.. for the concern too
nick too...
peksy n mich.. meet up soon k! xoxo
pics took during elective..
3:18 PM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
feeling terrible
got back my bio prac results.. i am so not happy with it..my day was already terrible enough.. add on to my results..
i pass.. but i didnt get the A i use to get.. so fucked.. B+ is all i get!
feeling are annoyed by it.. i wan to go to the beach.. why cant u be the one?!
i have to figure out things..
wad shld i do abt it.. how do i go abt doing it.. when shld i.. shld i even go n do it? troubled.. can i tahan for long? shld i find other alternatives? will i regret?
tmr there will be training again.. hope i can improve.. will try my best in doing it.. even thou i am not the best.. and the rest shld train more den me... i will try..
abt studies.. i need to start to study soon..
8:09 PM
i am done.. =)
after a day of thinking.. i think i shall dun care abt it and continue with my life.. who can i really rely on?
who can tahan my nonsense for life?
why things are not going the way i would love to?
often things happen the way totally diff from the way we want.. i wonder why...
i have to go my own way.. to find my own meaning in life all by myself.. i hate being treated like a small kid.. someone to look after.. i sometimes dislike it..
monkey.. thx for the email.. is nice of you.. dunno if u will read this.. have fun and all the bonding u can have! =)
juls.. i got it.. i think i will let it be this way.. think i will be opening more doors! haha!
nick.. thx for being honest.. i dunno wad else to say.. hope we continue the way we are now.. the effort we have been putting in our friendship till the way it is now!
melissa NETTO! thurs ah! u say wan! go out!
peksy... we shld go out one to one soon! =D
mich! how ya doing?
xmas is coming~~
12:21 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
now i know how you felt~
haiz.. shld i or shld i not? i was thinking abt something yest... talked to peksy abt it.. she say go ahead.. i said i call her back while i think aboutit.. while i was thinking i felt sleepy.. so decided to give it a miss.. i dunno wad to say.. i dunno how to say... i dun dare to know the response..i shall wait and see how things go..
kinda had a long chat with monkey.. hopefully he felt better and think that everything is solved for him.. at least b/w us..
communication is very impt for any kind of relationship.. be it family.. friends.. gf/bf.. or spouse ...
by communicating we can solve alot of things.. noe how each other think.. can work it out.. however, depends on how we talk it out.. in a harsh manner will make it worse..
oh wells.. now my head is only filled with that question.. shld i or shld i not..
having night class later! till 8pm! so screwed up! den got training.. so tired!
jeremy went off to malaysia for family holiday.. friday den will be back.. everyone seems to be busy with life..
peksy.. mich.. haha!
who am i to you? how impt is impt?
4:10 PM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
emotions overload!!!!
i have emotions overload.. -sad
-happy
-shocked
-nervous
-curious!
-afraid
alot.. this weekend was certainly emotions filled.. i attended colin's funeral mass and cremation.. den i met wesley for a drama play and dinner at CHIJMES...
today i had mass with juls.. den went to watch movie n ate lunch with peksy, jeremy and louis.. watched 'Golden Compass'..
1st part was very draggy -dunno if its correct spelling- subsequently was alrite..
had our meal at cafe cartel! was fun! talked and eat alot! st louis pork ribs.. carbonara.. drumplets.. mushroom soup.. bread.. chicken n fish set meal.. ice peach tea.. all these for 4 person! haha!
went to eat laksa at heartland.. den head to jeremy house for louis cake n drink! haha! WADEVER! rite?
tmr sch again! =(
9:41 PM
Saturday, December 08, 2007
FUN! bruises, tired~~
tired day!! so tired la!! yest i went for the wake.. had my supper.. camn home and slept quite late..today i had to rush to sch by 9am for presentation..lect.. proj meetings.. elective!!!
i got muscle cramp! omg!! stupid me.. run fast w/o stretching! goon!
but i finish the distance and continue later on for another lap..
leg still cramp.. went for training.. the lesson ended earlier.. so was at the club room sleeping! damn shiok! den training! everyone was here in time n early.. dragged everyone down for warm up!
stretch and all.. start training! fun! ACES came down.. wei chen.. shao ming.. neville, xing wei and star flyer, xue wei!! i think.. i cant really rmb all their names.. i noe they are damn famous but... cant rmb all the chinese names.
so fun.. learnt alot.. fly alot.. bruises alot! my fault! basics like crap!
we really need ppl to teach us.. our bases are good.. flyers are gd too.. but just no one to teach.. haiz!
tmr need to report to upper room by 9am.. prac for choir.. i miss colin.. the bubbly him.. just his presence.. oh wells.. funeral at 3pm..
nights!!
12:53 AM
Thursday, December 06, 2007
numb~
went for the wake.. was quite uneasy abt going to the wake.. i didnt wan to.. i was scare.. i dun dare.. i went anyways.. they were in the middle of the prayers.. joined them.. and when i was praying.. the weather made me very cold.. by seeing colin makes me feel so numb.. i didnt noe how shld i react.. i only stood there and looked at him.. i felt so empty...
paid my respect.. walked off feeling lost... stood there... char came and talked to me.. the more she talk i start to feel for her.. she rushed back to sg from hk..
i dunno if that news sets into me alr or not.. i am just not getting it.. even thou i teared.. but.. the fact i stood there feeling empty disturbs me alot..
wad if years down the road.. i will be totally immune to it.. due to my profession that i have to face so many deaths, etc.
i dun wan that to happen to me! i hope not..
tmr ACES coming to help us out in the training! so happy!! =)
11:47 PM
last email sent
this was his last email i ever recieved from colin.. it was about us being busy.. going for his wake later..
Satan's Meeting
Hi, here's something for us to ponder about why less and less people are
going to Church, attending prayer meetings, etc.
Dear All,
(Read even if you're busy. Very well written)
Satan called a worldwide convention of demons.
In his opening address he said,
'We can't keep people from going to pray.'
'We can't keep them from reading their holy books and knowing the truth.'
'We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their
GOD.'
'Once they gain that connection with GOD, our power over them is broken.'
'So let them go to their prayers; let them have their covered dish dinners,
BUT steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relations with GOD..'
'This is what I want you to do,' said the devil:
'Distract them from gaining hold of their GOD and maintaining that vital
connection throughout their day!'
'How shall we do this?' his demons shouted.
'Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to
occupy their minds,' he answered.
'Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow, borrow, borrow.'
'Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours and the husbands to work
6-7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their empty
lifestyles.'
'keep them from spending time with their children.'
'As their families fragment, soon, their homes will offer no escape from
the pressures of work!'
'Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still, small
voice.'
'Entice them to play the radio or cassette player whenever they drive.' To
keep the TV, VCR, CDs and their PCs going constantly in their home and see
to it that every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music
constantly.'
'This will jam their minds and break that union with God.'
'Fill the coffee tables with mag azines and newspapers.'
'Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day.'
'Invade their driving moments with billboards.'
'Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, mail order catalogs, sweepstakes,
and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products,>
services and false hopes..'
'Keep skinny, beautiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands
will believe that outward beauty is what's important, and they'll become
dissatisfied with their wives. '
'Keep the wives too tired to love their husbands at night.'>
'Give them headaches too! '
'If they don't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look elsewhere.'
'That will fragment their families quickly!'
'Give them disatractions to distract them from teaching their children the real meaning of life.'
'Even in their recreation, let them be excessive.'
'Have them return from their recreation exhausted.'
'Keep them too busy to go out in nature and reflect on God's creation.
Send
them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies
instead.'
'Keep them busy, busy, busy!'
'And when they meet for spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and
small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences. '
'Crowd their lives with so many good causes they have no time to seek
power
from GOD.'
'Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause.'
'It will work!'
'It will work!'
It was quite a plan!
The demons went eagerly to their assignments causing people everywhere to get busier and more rushed, going here and there.
Having little time for their God or their families.
Having no time to tell others about the power of GOD to change lives.
I guess the question is, has the devil been successful in his schemes?
Does 'BUSY' mean: B -eing U-nder S-atan's Y-oke?
You be the judge!!!!!
Please pass this on, if you aren't too BUSY!
7:44 PM
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
why must things happen in such a way!
my day was cold and shocking... it was raining heavily.. non-stop.. had lessons and tut.. proj meetings and training.. tried walked in single base.. dunno wad is the real name for it.. friday ACES will be coming down to help us again.. so gd..
b4 training.. got a call from juls that colin passed away suddenly.. i was so shocked and i didnt noe how to react.. first thing that came into my mind was, why him? so sudden.. yet again another death.. just like this.. so sudden.. why him.. why them...
anyways,
TO: Colin Kang =)
it was so sudden that you left us..
it was really a good race you had ran.. helping out in church.. touching lifes you have met.. helping everyone.. being friendly and cheerful whenever i see you.. having such a perserverance in fighting your sickness, as your health wasnt that good alr..
years ago, i rmb once i ever ate lunch with you after session.. we had so much fun talking to each other.. you neva liked people to call you uncle.. but when we do.. u just laughed it off and tease other people..
you were our role model.. u worked hard, prayed hard.. and now u are with the Lord.. you no longer need to suffer.. you will be able to see Him everyday.. do continue to bless everyone of us..
you will always be rmb in my/our heart.. UNCLE colin who is a person who made us feel so welcome.. felt wanted at times.. =)
you can finally rest in peace and no more worries.. take care.
everything and anything happens for a purpose..
someday we will see the light..
all God ask is to trust in Him,
for we walk by FAITH n not by sight.
10:54 PM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
registered!
today! met melissa in the bus! both of us watching the mobile tv show till we didnt wan to alight! haha! den after that we decided to watch it till we reached interchange..
had lessons.. meeting.. lessons.. meeting..
den i waited for JULS!!! take so freaking long.. to go and register our driving!
finally! basic theory.. haiz! so long more to my prac! argh!!
random-ness!
videos for u all to watch!
walter~
achmed!!! haha!!
tell me if its funny!
9:39 PM
Monday, December 03, 2007
went to sch had tut.. my frens present their proj.. had loads of fun! with melissa and talk loads of rubbish...crash course for bio prac.. helped alot! hmmm...
brought my dog to the vet! chey got skin infection only.. so not that bad..
i must feed him med and bathe him! he is gonna be my new patient! cool huh!!
10:02 PM
Sunday, December 02, 2007
i feel so Lo........
hmmm.. alot of things happen.. haha..fri had training! was great!! cuz ACES from NTU came down to check us out.. see wad they can help. =) they helped alot thou.. even thou there is only 2 bases who came! they taught alot.. we did alot..
they are super stable. haha..
sat.. juls bdae dinner.. advance dinner.. met daryl n nick 1st to get her the prezze.. walked around.. saw ah pun.. say will check out his booth.. bought a cap from his booth.. nice! personalise cap! JULES~
bought her a shirt too.. treated her to sushi tei.. den go daryl hse to slack.. den went east coast to sit for fun.. den.. go hm.. by the timei reached home was 4am!
woke up at 7.30am! slept at 4++am wake up at 7.30! oh wells..
dress up.. go for their tea ceremony alr! den come back.. studied a lil for my bio prac! =( slept for 2hrs more.. prep for the night buffet dinner at raffles..took photos!
i must be thankful.. i feel L......
oh wells.. i dun have the guts.. i dun dare to.. argh! how i wish for.. i miss... i am only thinking of....
tmr got bio prac! argh!
my dogs head got slight wound/rot! haha! vet tmr or tues! poor boy!
tired!
10:14 PM