Monday, December 29, 2008
EXPECTATION
EXPECTATIONthis word really affects a relationship alot..
be it between:
-parent and child
-siblings
-boss and empolyee
-colleague
-husband and wife
-boyfren and girlfren
-teacher and student
-God and us
-frens
-ourselves
etc etc...
it affects alot...
when there is expectations = u bother.. means something has to be done...
when u dont expect much from a person, the burden of tt person not fulfilling it is way much lesser...
yet some expectations are left unsaid... den things will go bitter... but yet some expectations are so plain to see by each other..(again... we assume it is plain to see)
in actual fact i really dislike "expectations" some times..
when i couldnt meet up to a person's expectations.. situation b/w us will be bitter or unhappy...
but i could... its a plus pt...
for certain expectation some ppl think its plain to see.. and sometimes wonder why the other party couldnt see it.. den! relationship starts to crumble after a long period of time without settling it properly.. and just move on..
some ppl think.. if i list out my expectation alr... and yet the other party still didnt fulfil... isnt it the same.. i rather not say cuz it wont make a diff..
HUMANS ARE COMPLICATED IDIOTS! wonder how God create such creatures like us! hahaha!!!
tts why God is so amazing..cuz he is the creator...
screw the expectations... cuz it causes so much trouble to ppl.. ok.. maybe not all but most of us... is any pt of time in our life..
at least to me.. we can be real great as frens.. but as we have more expectations of the other... situations and how u react to it differs..
as a fren i expect to...
as my partner u shld...
as my employee u must..
eg. a fren was ur fren still i work under her.. she becomes ur boss.. she expect you as a employee to get this done... but u didnt manage to do it.. she'll get angry.. bla bla bla...
u see how jialat things can get to?
when relationship/status changes expectations changes..
are we able to adapt to it quick enough?
12:29 AM
Friday, December 26, 2008
merry xmas
chirstmas is here again...to think that i had my xmas last year with my crutches.
another event that God show how much he love us... by letting his son come to earth etc..
actually all other events we focus how great God/jesus is so great and good.. but in actual fact underneath those the basics was LOVE...
LOVE is a very chiem word.. haha! ppl read it differently. react to it differently... some will go out for it... some will behave weirdly infront of who they like/love at first... some are scare of it... unable to open up fully to it...
at CTK mass on sunday... father was den talking abt love.
LOVE coming in different expressions...
couples tend to complain to their peers... last time b4 we got tgt/ married they are so sweet.. now so naggy or lazy... shldnt we be happy that they are there to nag at you tt shows they care for you? shldnt we be happy that u see them at hm instead of out? if your the other half dun kiss/ hold your hands as they would last time.. den we take the initiative to kiss/hold their hands..
when i was listening to that i was like.. okay.. wad a surmmon...
of all days, of all mass...
anyway.. chirstmas was fun... went for IHM midnight mass followed by matthias hse to wait for ryan and jerry.. den we make our way to ryan's hse to slack... ate snacks.. took loads of photos... den i suggest to go marina barrage! and it wasnt a wrong choice.. cuz its really nice and windy there... took alot of photos again...
i am waiting for ryan to load the photos!!! hai! why so slow! hahaha!!
reached home @ 6am! slept for awhile and headed out to east coast with my family @ 10am! went cycling! fun fun! reach home collapse on my bed and went lala land str away... 6pm went my ah ma hse for dinner... got prezze! =)
tts all! =)
super tired now!! jus finish work.. bummed into ZJ mates..
horrible!! tmr i morning shift! have to wake up at 5am and yet i reached home today at 11pm!
life aint fair...
11:13 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
starting ; DR TOOT TOOT
starting to feel it..starting to feel how tired and draining can a working person feel..
starting to know that no matter how much u run away from things it will still be somewhere deep inside...
starting to think if i can really handle my job... (hope that in time to come i can manage)
starting to feel more occupied... =)
starting to go back on track where i was 1 yr ago!
starting of the new YEAR is coming!
TODAY! I SAW MY DR TOOT TOOT!!!! my eye candy forever!
omg! how fated can me and him be... i met him in SGH onco ward last yr... i went for my KKH posting i met him.. he recognizes me FROM FAR!
he got posted there too... was on the way to 7 eleven at KKH i met him again... =) even thou at KKH had we didnt really talk... we jus said hi and it made my day...
one fine morning on the way to my ward 58 tea room i saw him walking towards the ward.. to double confirm i turn around and looked again and IT WAS HIM!!! he say HI! haha!! yet again! sooo happy!!!
today today... walked into the MO room to file in old notes.. looked at him and i was like EH! DR TOOT! i said hi! =) asking where is he now... now hes in ortho discipline!
haha! now i know.. so happy la.. knowing that we are working in the same hospital again rock.. knowing that i might bump into him again rocks even more!
he looks shag btw.. oh wells.. hope he comes to my ward to use the computer more often! and MO room got no one.. den i shall go in and file all my old notes! =p
CHEERS~
10:45 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
robert pattinson!
WOA!my week have been good.. as least for last monday till now! hahaha!!
had a meeting with jeremy!!!! like finally... ONE YEAR! i didnt meet him for one year... i miss those times... till when i think back i feel like crying and yet a smile in my heart...
we went to pasir ris as usual that day. to star gaze.. he came and pick me up! and it was drizzling.. so of cuz no stars... but we end up walking round the park... haha!! into vegetation area to a horse stable! hahaha!!
even thou we didnt talk much... but i am glad we met... i am glad we both made the effort... hope things will continue to improve... =)
also i had all sorts of outings... from movies with cousin to movies with my ward mates!!!
i watched twilight today!! omg! he is sooo hot i so wanna grab him out of the screen and wan him to be all mine... getting all noisy in the cinema! AHHHH!!! everytime he appear i go OMG! haha!!!! zarinah and su also!!! haha! i sit in the middle of them i almost died!! both of them kept pushing me when he appear! haha!! got me all so ARGH!
i love his eyes... i love him when he smirk.. i love him when he get all possesive with his girl saying how impt and she is needed in his life.. cant live without her and such!!! i love his hairdo to the max!! damn damn damn damn HOT!! plus his face shape! hahaha!! and the hse he live in.. hahha!
you shld jus watch it and u will know why i am so omg!
i am so gonna buy the DVD! crazy alison!!
robert robert robert!! my future boyfren will be like him!!! give u the 'you're needed' feeling!! have the hairdo den jus makes u melt whenever u see him! hahaha..
like it will ever come thru... getting a guy like him as my bf..
no need to be so hot.. but at least... character like him can alr... felt so love jus by watching that...
i will continue to dream and hope it will come thru... i think watch too much anime and drama series alr.. but still!!! i will DREAM!
need not say the 'i love you' or 'i miss you' that often yet that character in the movie can convey to the girl he loves how much he cherishes her... how much love and effort he is willingly to go thru... jus to make her feel safe... make her feel that she could trust that guy! haha!! sweet~!
this show!!! 6/5 popcorn! hahaha!! over-rated la!
HYPER!!!!!
10:46 PM
Friday, December 05, 2008
during night shift~!
yo yo!!!now using computer during shift work.. never expect myself to do this... anyway... 1st night shift aint that bad YET! hahaha!!
wanted to sms someone to to kill my boredom.. but i couldnt think of any who is awake to entertain me.. or even be free...
ate chicken cutlet jus now... ordered in! haha.. hiong hor! pt's are all soundly asleep!
my 1st night i am doing junior work... tmr (2nd night) wont be that gd alr! i will be doing in charge.. taking all 6 cases to handle! wont be blogging like i am now! hahaha!!!
zzzZZ-ing alr!! had to listen to music, swing my chair around, walk here n there... do all sorts of nonsense to keep me awake. how i wish japelin or su was here.. at least can talk nonsense.. hahaha!!! our joke haven end yet! my goodness...
i came back from my 2 days off the joke was still on! haha!! ward 58 staff are nice when u get to know them!
life will still go on... learn to be who i was 7 months ago! out for a hunt! or wait to be preyed! hahaha!! LAME ASS!! too tired alr la!!!
i didnt sleep in the day at all today... thats why abit off! hurhur!!
CHEERS~!
3:17 AM
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
HRC; Work ; random
julie bdae at hard rock was a blast! haha... ok maybe i am exaggerating..theres alot of unglam photos taken and posted on julianna's FB! my goodness.. me and my knife!
dont piss me of or i will kill you... dont screw around with me cuz i will kill...
i do not know when will i lose control... '.'
oh wells... glad she enjoy herself...
tonight will be my 1st night shift of my nursing attachment!!! huh~!
julie asked me to update... but theres nothing much to update.. been working and working!
oh did i tell u i manage to set plug for my fren, haikel! haha! and while i ask my preceptor to take my photo he DROPPED my phone!! i whacked him like crazy.. but still he is nice la... lend me his hand to set plug for him... (wanted to tell u that day. was so excited but i didnt manage to)
here are the pictures!!!
and yest! on the way to meet julie for prata and drink... this is wad i saw!!!
my goodness! so poor thing.. and i had to jus take a photo of it.. =p
6:32 PM