Friday, September 25, 2009
i hope wish n pray i will pass!
http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_434195.htmlcheck this out! our MISS WORLD, SINGAPORE.
atrocious! tsk tsk!! sg reputation is gg down the drain!
today been gd!
had my off! went out had a reat time laughing and such!
went for driving! and its 10 times better!
he scoldings are 10 times lesser! and really in a good mood...
said i can go for my tp alr!
felt so much better... after last few nights of stress! hahaha!!!
2 more weeks! OMG!~ so scare and cant wait! (:(:(:
8:21 PM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
tp! suck!
I GOT THE WORSE NIGHTMARE LAST NIGHT!i dreamt that i FAILED my TP!!!!!!! argh!!!
i dont feel happy generally... like somethings in life aint gg the way i want it to be... wahaha!! the 'princess' me is getting into me again!!! =p
been really moody today... couldnt even decide on wad to eat for dinner had to force myself to eat something... sigh!!! think its just the nightmare la... nowadays i am very bothered by my driving more den anything else... i dont wanna fail.. i really dont want... *sobs* feel like crying when i am gg to take TP. when i am a person who had confidence in passing my tp and now i am being made to feel incompetent to go for it.
had huge huge arguement yesterday... the most amazing one... and yet again its something small! *lucky* but guess this is how we get to understand each other better... (:(: solved! why oh why??
again and again things in life jus proves me right!
when expectations increases more confilcts happens...
but its hard not to have a change of expectation... to me the level/ amount of expectation is given to that person is Equivalent to how important that person is to me...
aint it true? for example your random friend at work and your close friends, etc.
duno la... you all might beg to differ! =p
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! driving instructor, mr tan u make me feel horrible!
11:43 PM
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
happy monthsary again!!! hahaha!!!!oh wells! life been really ok...
day by day it goes...
really hate driving lessons nowadays... i dread gg seriously... i always have to force myself to look on the bright side... never been so jialat before! TSK~
work is rather normal.. the same! i guess i am getting the hang of it alr! (:
worked with best bud and milton today! really cool!
tmr will be with ka juls and vino! power pack combination~!!!
been working gg out sleeping and all... many many events gg on...
vomitted twice last week!! omg... tot some food poisoning.. haha!! diarrhoea four timeS! got scolded for eating siew mai! hahaha! too oily...
really felt cared for.. i really do... something i never felt it in the longest time.. sometimes telling my mommy or jiejie i am sick sounds and feels funny...
damn... thou i know i can tell my mommy and jiejie anything la... almost anything! wahaha!!!
today!! i seriously almost crap in my pants!! walked out of my hse and all... den tummyache.. tot i can control till heartland mall.. and apparently i cant! i ran to the lan shop nearby's toilet! omg... funny but really horrible feeling.. never want tt to happen to me ever again!!
i am a crappy person!! literally full of crap!! hahaha!!!
11:59 PM
Saturday, September 19, 2009
45 things
got this on peksy blog... quite interesting...Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio :
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
'life aint always all nice. its up to us how we perceive it to be i guess. sometimes its hard to look on the bright side. sometimes we need ppl around us to remind us!'
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
'haha.. duh duh... but sometimes you dunno whether the next step is big or small... :/ '
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
' i totally agree! waste of energy... plus! you can always forgive but NEVER forget!'
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. siblings too. so do not take these ppl for granted!
' yes yes one of my those lines i always say... treasure them before you lose them and REGRET! '
5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 'dont have them so its okay!'
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. why win an argument which ends up in unhappiness among us?
'wahaha.. i always have tt tendency'
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
' ex mama: yea boy... u really did gave me a shock. :P '
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. ' who says! '
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
' i am trying real hard for this point. '
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
' maybe... maybe not?! when i read this i was thinking how true can it be... why i shouldnt be in it or not? is there a reason behind it?? '
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
' tts really comforting to know.. really. '
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.' *nods* nods* '
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
' if we can den there will not be any ppl having depression. '
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
' i read this somewhere " WE DONT STOP PLAYING CUZ WE GROW OLD, WE GROW OLD CUZ WE STOP PLAYING" :):)'
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
' how i wish i can do that... i want to go round the world to see those wonderful things and work random jobs! '
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it
for a special occasion. Today is special. ' kinky '
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
' woooooooooo... heh! '
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. so grab whatever opportunities there are to make your life a happy one. no regrets.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
27. Always choose life. ' sometimes death is so much better!!! '
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
' its hard for me... sometimes i do not know why i try to do things to please ppl till i got really tired myself withour knowing it myself till ppl have to tell me.. :S '
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles. glad i managed to get through the tough period
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come. that's why i hvnt give up hope. in life
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
' that i am really tired of doing... '
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. so treasure everyday, every moments especially the moments you had with your loved ones including family, friends and colleagues.
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a line for you since you are reading!!!
theres no one in this whole wide world exactly just like me. i'm me and you are you. we're special dont you see? (:(:
12:21 AM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
sometimes i really wonder wads gg on in your brain? how do you form things in your head? how do you actually function... wad is your actual character!? hahaha! sometimes i find it really amusing how you react to the smallest things around you... O-M-G!
been away from work for 6 full days! and is SO SO SHIOK!
nurse one patient who broke his leg and had to amputate his left leg due to industrial accident... how sad and sudden can it be?!
i really sayang his leg la... cuz i been thru leg operation too! and i know how pain and fustrating it can be... OPPS! bias!!! =p=p
so happy one of our PR patient actually went back to bed by herself! i wonder how she did that... which is really amazing la! she is as cute as ever... hahaha!!!
she was once our most irritating patient... now.. one of our cutest patient! (:(:
vroom vroom... started driving this few days! really shiok! but sometimes my instructor just spoils my day by keep on nagging at me! TSK!!! hahahaha!!!
my poor ethan boy is sick again! he actually had seizure! omg... is provoked seizures cuz by virus! SCARY MAN! even if i was a nurse i wouldnt know how to react to it la!
GOD BLESS HIM!!!
11:43 PM
Saturday, September 12, 2009
movies and crap
watched 'ugly truth' today!was really amazing! hahaha! and when i was watching the whole show, i thought of that someone all along... haha! and yes pek guessed it right! (:
gamer was good... really nice! yao qing styled his hair! for the 2nd time in my life i ever saw him in that hair style... i must say it looks good.. (:(:
told him he shld style it more often.. and yes yes... the same old answer...
'that 10 mins of styling my hair i can use to to sleep..'
something along tt line.. blablabla...
okok! something crop up at work and between me n kimmi...
all i know was ppl at work said i shldnt be too hyper at work... i shld tone down alil.. :/
i duno la... it sucks... i do not know who said tt... not angry or anything.. just wanna know who said tt... den i would know how to react to that person whenever i work with them...
regarding kimmi.. i seriously do not know WTF she is angry abt! how the hell would i know she have all the trainings in the world and she was tired... not happy cuz i just teased her being a wet blanket and pang seh kia for not joining us for movie?! WTF!!! such small thing u can be tt fucking pissed abt? omg! and yet i tot wad BIG GRAVE MISTAKE I MADE TO MADE HER TT PISSED OFF... i do not know if i shld just take it as she is tired, tts why all her nonsense appear... who the fuck knows you are training for some Marathon... when you do not even explain yourself for it... acting all cool in front of me when i am teasing you? pls la... TEASING!!! I AINT ANGRY WITH YOU!!! OMG!
obivously i DO NOT understand that u are tired cuz you have been training EVERYDAY for tt... CUZ I DONT EVEN KNOW THE HIDDEN MEANING BEHIND IT!
do i know u fucking busted your training session just to go out with us? NO!
do i fucking know you wanted to train so hard for your own achievements? NO!
so who the fuck are you to get angry with me!?
talk abt commitment... if you do not TELL us wad the fuck you are thinking who the FUCK knows?!
yes yes! I DONT TRAIN, I DONT RUN, I DONT DO CRUNCHES like you DO... tt doesnt mean i dont understand how bloody tiring it is! i been thru trainings too.. i been thru times where i lie on my bed i said yes i finally did it...
sheesh.. sometimes i wonder.. maybe i shld just treat my colleagues and colleagues and nothing else... :S #$#^@#@!#!%#$^%
ah screw it... if she still wanna be tt pissed off abt it... go ahead.. cuz i wont stoop so low to continue to fight with you for such matters!
BAHHHH!!!!
2:02 AM
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
sigh
was looking thru pictures in FB... esp some of my secondary sch frens pictures...everybody seems to be dressing up more and etc...
and here am i wearing shorts t shirt and slippers where ever i go! hahahaha!
sigh... ppl slimming down but i dont... wonder why do they even go to an extend of dieting! when u can eat better eat!
sometimes i feel butt ugly when i look at them! hahaha! and always wanted to buy new clothes... BUT such feelings die down very fast! hahaha! i am happy the way i am... i have ppl who love me can alr! (:
my dad and i are STILL in bad terms... like we seldom talk and staff... like totally no communication... and if we ever talk, it sounded as if he is scolding me! TSK!
heartaching to think about it...
sigh... we have been very tired this few days... which kinda lead to flaring up at each other sometimes... something i think everyone will go thru such stage... yet again thank god its all small matters... (:(:
2 more days to my off day!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait! loves!
9:46 PM
Friday, September 04, 2009
WAD COMES AROUND GOES AROUND
today i happen to bump into my fren on the way hmhe said he was gg to church to prac PNW
i said ok.. i drop by!
there goes.... 7 yrs active in church.. wad i have always know...
just came back when they start praying and prac... i totally miss those times...
guess i lost track of time... felt so familiar yet felt damn foreign...
oh wells!!!
that brewha... really gets onto my nerves...
sometimes i think if she got stab alive and bleed i might just stand there & laugh!
okok.. i know i am mean! =p i just couldnt help it la! tsk sian!
WAD COMES AROUND GOES AROUND
other den that works fine... life's fine! hahaha!
10:22 PM