Saturday, July 29, 2006
hello..now just have a sudden tot of typing all these.. read ppl blogs and stuff.. was kinda cool reading their dreams and stuff.. interesting.. like fairy tale.. kinda like a nice story to read and would like that kinda thing to happen to yea? but u see hor.. i think everyone like it too! haha.. dun think rubbish.. just like the dream.. nothing else.. ** most of u all might think i am crazy.. but heck!**
hmmm.. had a great chat with my fren today.. but i sudden felt that my second home is in danger.. on a verge on happening alot of things which is was not that bad b4.. and i felt sad.. i felt hurt.. i dun wan this to happen again.. kinda of thing... my second family to me.. the pillar of my support since i was sec 2.. since five years to fours years.. from the very start till now.. till now...
no matter how much i wanna leave my second home.. i end up staying.. cuz for me not to go there weekly.. is a toture for me.. haha.. it becomes part of my life.. like.. die also must sleep or not u will get sick or kinda thing.. yea.. and since i was young no matter wad prob i face.. i noe my that second home will give me the love and peace i can find... the belonging.. but u noe wad.. it seems that it is changing.. its changing.. i dun wan.. its no longer the home i noe.. the home it begin with.. not the current new team is no good.. they are excellent.. i love it.. but the community is kinda not there alr... but my new leader we have is trying to get it back to the same track.. the same family lovin track..
so i will try to give all my support to my leader.. to help him! to help him along his way.. cuz i noe.. being alone, new to this and having the zeal at the start, to face all this prob now.. at the very beginning.. is tiring.. its toturing.. its painful... so leader.. i will be here all the way!! jia you! jia you!! i will help u keep the fire burning.. i will try my best till i am tired.. den i make sure ppl will take over.. den i will return again..
we must have hope!!!! haha.. *smiles*
p/s: to the girl, i will be there whenever u need me.. even now.. i understand how u feel... everything.. from the prob to the sms.. i understand.. and i noe why areu reacting this way.. go ahead and rest ok.. but make sure to come back.. =)
my fren wrote this wonderful poem:
especially for that friend, my brother
I remember.
The chillax hours we had
And how I was the little sister
Tugging by your side
Holding and clinging onto you tightly
Not wanting to get lost
And how you were like that older brother
that held me close to your side.
I swear how i feel so secure
that now without you, i'm incomplete.
I remember.
The time you sent me breakfast
The time you grab hold of me in the sea
The time when I cried you held me in your arms
The time we were made to say sorry
You apologised for every wrong you speak
The time we had that void deck chat
Oh, how we were so very close back than
And I thought it was the world.
I remember.
Everyday we attended the six-fifteen
We even had specific pews to seat
And everytime we wanted to proceed in
All I remember is that smile and that finger pointing in
Everytime we embraced I remember calling you "brother bear"
I remember that immense love
That would make me melt immediately
The love that burns
And that smile that I knew would hardly comeby.
Well, well, all's gone now.
Let's declare the cold war now
the screw driver that unscrews this bond.
Mass seems different now
You seat the left side of church
I take the right alone.
Again, God seems silent
Possibly not wanting to hear
My sad cries and whines.
Love seems a lie that is made true
With the brush, the world was painted as a beauty
Everything seemed picture perfect
Everytime we love
We give one part of our heart away
What's left of it is a jagged pieceYou kindly left.
Oh brother, I'm tired of this war
I'm upset with this war.
So let's make peace
For this revival of Love to grow.
But I guess its going to be history now.
So Goodbye for now.
11:00 PM
Friday, July 28, 2006
hello...sigh.. ppl kept on saying my blog so dead all.. fine! i shall write some stuff!!
ok.. since the day i took out my braces on tuseday, i always find it damn weird! haha.. suddenly my teeth so so smooth and i was totally not used to the braces-less teeth.. i look in the mirror, i always find myself looking weird! haha.. my dentist say i must brush properly from now on! dun let my gum bleed all.. haha..
was polishing up my teeth and all... suddenly i had a tot! dentist do scaling and polishing for u.. the feeling is like scraping one layer of ur teeth... haha!! so horrible..
after taking out a few days.. now i look at my pic with me having braces.. is like.. Eeeee... so ugly kinda thing.. compared to now! wahaha.. still kinda find it amazing.. how much i love my braces four days ago! haha.. see all my neo prints and stuff.. my smiles are all so wide! haha.. literally showing off my metals! hahaha....
sigh.. three more weeks to exam.. and i have nt started! argh! help!
11:38 PM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
yo!! ppl!! i REMOVE MY BRACES ALR!!..thats all i wanna say! wahaha.. smile always!
** dun look at my pimples, dun tell me u dun have at all! hahaha..**
10:22 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006
hello ppl!nowadays very busy with school work.. got clinical exam all!! and i pass! wahaha,, even thou i noe my theory gone case alr..
anyway.. thanks everyone for the celebration with me for my bdae!! it will be in my memories foreva!! wahaha.. love u all to bits!!! smile!!! *big hugs*
exams in four weeks time.. argh!! stress!! wahaha.. life been great for me i guess.. even thou.. sometimes i get confused with things!! somethings.. wah! i tell its damn weird! wahaha..
cheerleading is as fun as ever.. my seniors are great ppl.. nice to bully too! wahaha... yea.. dunno when will i be flying.. i dun wan!! argh.. scary. later i fall hit ppl.. or injured myself den thats it!! wahaha..
went east coast last week.. cycle all the way to changi again!! finally this time can see the plane b4 i leave!! wahaha.. damn nice.. den i found out places nice to hang out.. windy yet not so many ppl there!! wahaha.. i got a lil tan!! and i settled some things that had been in my heart for dman long! haha.. the feeling was great!!!
zj handing over to new core team!! hope everything turn out well.. i will be there to support them!! smile.. ppl.. u alll must jiayou!!
to ppl out there.. treat everyday like tmr! can you? i cant! but still must try ok! smile dearies!
ALISON OUT!!
8:15 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
harlow!
first thing first!! i got posted to TTSH for attachment on 28 aug onwards for two weekS!!
den worse thingy is that.. the whole of that ward.. none of my classmates are with me!! i am left alone. the rest another ward.. i am group with ppl i dunno!! OMG!! @_@ help!!
sigh sigh.. have to learn to be independent!! wahahaha... show confidence! hehehe!! sigh.. mati la! die! but good thing is that my 7 weeks of holiday..
1st and 2nd week: hospital
3rd and 4th week: vacation
5th week: polyclinic
6th and 7th week: vacation
haha.. like that i got rest in between! yeppie! but still hate it!! hahaha...
today went to watch JUST MY LUCK.. haha.. its a nice show.. very nice show.. yea! hahaha.. den took some neoprint with norin and melissa!! yea!! haha.. damn nice!!
mood quite ok bah.. cuz bio sci ICA over le! yeppie! haha!!
alison out X)
10:02 PM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
sbacK! oh ya.. abt e previous blog.. i hope some of u all dun get offended.. its just my thinking.. cant helped it..from SYDR gathering.. we had bbq session! wow~ fun!!
TODAE JEREMY'S BDAE... 21ST BIRTHDAY! HAHAHA.. SO B4 I SAY MUCH. i shall wish him...
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY JEREMY!!!
MY BRO!!!!
b4 that we had a followed up session.. had talks and pnw.. run back and forth my hse to put things.. take things... and stuff.. damn funny! haha.. had fun in the hot hot hot lorry.. went to SFX for the SYDR gathering.. ate and talk and laugh... den went to watch our video! haha.. anyway! theres alot of things happening in my life!! alot.. shld i say.. i neva really realise.. neva really got and see with my eyes! haha.. however, if u come ask me u ok not.. i will say yes.. cuz my conscious mind dunno anything about it.. haha.. only my unconscious mind noe!! haha.. yea.. now i can type all this.. cuz now i reflecting.. later.. after that.. it will be under my carpet! wahaha!!! cool yea.. i am good in doing housework!! haha..
anyway!! life sucks.. feeling sucks.. esp when ya conscious mind do nt noe most of it.. and u are kept in the dark! haha.. den when u realise it.. the feeling really suck! alison wad happen to you! is it my up bringing thats why i am like this? haha.. mayb.. dun blame it also! GOd wans me to be like that.. den like that lo.. its my cross to carry! wahaha..
okok.. gtg.. bye bye! i miss my ipod nano! *sobsob*
ALISON OUT X)
11:46 PM