Friday, June 23, 2006
hello! back here again! are u gonna continue reading this boring entry? haha...was talkin to nick abt my frens. how they will step out of my life when they find one part of me that they dun like. den come back to my life when they think i am ok again.. wad great frens i have with me yea? when i tot they were really literally great frens in my life.. i dunno wad to say or to do.. all i can say is to carry on with my life.. haha..
to see ya dear frens leavin you, thinking they should understand you. yet they left me.. step in my life.. den out of my life den in again.. u think u who?! u all might nt noe who. cuz the person dunno i knew about this rubbish! haha.. yea.
i should be not thinkin about it.. since they are back why bother about it again rite? haha.. but at a point i suddenly doubt the frens around me.. are they like that.. are they the ppl i tot will go thru thick and thin with me as i would wan to do for them? or will they one day all of a sudden *pow* disappear out of my life.. would they.. will they.. ask them they will say wont.. but when time comes, the answer wont be the same..
i neva find a fren long enough for me to trust them inside out.. haha.. i will neva! not like u all.. got buddy all.. ask u write an essay about ya buddy.. u can write one long list.. haha.. will anyone be able to write abt me one long list.. haha..
den again.. THIS LIFE IS A JOURNEY WE HAVE TO GO THRU, b4 meeting GOD. amazing hor.. a test or lesson on how to LOVE. haha.. i will try to learn and pass this exam.. heh.. okok.. i love this songs to bits! haha.
heres a song for u all:
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you..to you
ALISON OUT X)
3:54 AM