Saturday, July 29, 2006
hello..now just have a sudden tot of typing all these.. read ppl blogs and stuff.. was kinda cool reading their dreams and stuff.. interesting.. like fairy tale.. kinda like a nice story to read and would like that kinda thing to happen to yea? but u see hor.. i think everyone like it too! haha.. dun think rubbish.. just like the dream.. nothing else.. ** most of u all might think i am crazy.. but heck!**
hmmm.. had a great chat with my fren today.. but i sudden felt that my second home is in danger.. on a verge on happening alot of things which is was not that bad b4.. and i felt sad.. i felt hurt.. i dun wan this to happen again.. kinda of thing... my second family to me.. the pillar of my support since i was sec 2.. since five years to fours years.. from the very start till now.. till now...
no matter how much i wanna leave my second home.. i end up staying.. cuz for me not to go there weekly.. is a toture for me.. haha.. it becomes part of my life.. like.. die also must sleep or not u will get sick or kinda thing.. yea.. and since i was young no matter wad prob i face.. i noe my that second home will give me the love and peace i can find... the belonging.. but u noe wad.. it seems that it is changing.. its changing.. i dun wan.. its no longer the home i noe.. the home it begin with.. not the current new team is no good.. they are excellent.. i love it.. but the community is kinda not there alr... but my new leader we have is trying to get it back to the same track.. the same family lovin track..
so i will try to give all my support to my leader.. to help him! to help him along his way.. cuz i noe.. being alone, new to this and having the zeal at the start, to face all this prob now.. at the very beginning.. is tiring.. its toturing.. its painful... so leader.. i will be here all the way!! jia you! jia you!! i will help u keep the fire burning.. i will try my best till i am tired.. den i make sure ppl will take over.. den i will return again..
we must have hope!!!! haha.. *smiles*
p/s: to the girl, i will be there whenever u need me.. even now.. i understand how u feel... everything.. from the prob to the sms.. i understand.. and i noe why areu reacting this way.. go ahead and rest ok.. but make sure to come back.. =)
my fren wrote this wonderful poem:
especially for that friend, my brother
I remember.
The chillax hours we had
And how I was the little sister
Tugging by your side
Holding and clinging onto you tightly
Not wanting to get lost
And how you were like that older brother
that held me close to your side.
I swear how i feel so secure
that now without you, i'm incomplete.
I remember.
The time you sent me breakfast
The time you grab hold of me in the sea
The time when I cried you held me in your arms
The time we were made to say sorry
You apologised for every wrong you speak
The time we had that void deck chat
Oh, how we were so very close back than
And I thought it was the world.
I remember.
Everyday we attended the six-fifteen
We even had specific pews to seat
And everytime we wanted to proceed in
All I remember is that smile and that finger pointing in
Everytime we embraced I remember calling you "brother bear"
I remember that immense love
That would make me melt immediately
The love that burns
And that smile that I knew would hardly comeby.
Well, well, all's gone now.
Let's declare the cold war now
the screw driver that unscrews this bond.
Mass seems different now
You seat the left side of church
I take the right alone.
Again, God seems silent
Possibly not wanting to hear
My sad cries and whines.
Love seems a lie that is made true
With the brush, the world was painted as a beauty
Everything seemed picture perfect
Everytime we love
We give one part of our heart away
What's left of it is a jagged pieceYou kindly left.
Oh brother, I'm tired of this war
I'm upset with this war.
So let's make peace
For this revival of Love to grow.
But I guess its going to be history now.
So Goodbye for now.
11:00 PM