today, overslept again for mass. so went for evening mass!! haha.. afternoon bro n his family and i went to marine parade there to shop.. ate our breakfast there, bought my nephew n niece a pair of slippers each for their xmas! den i walked pass a shop! and they sell goong sound track! haha.. n u noe hw much.. its onli $7! when all other shops sell $20++.. cool rite! i str away buy arh! den we made our way home after shopping for my nephew n niece tops!
my cca training and school projects are getting into my nerves!
on thurs everything was fine.. i forget why i reach home late also! oh yah! i rmb alr! i went to joe fu's hse to do proj!~ we did some fun stuff!! hahaha.. den i went to compass point to eat dinner with norin! haha... had quite a lot of fun!
ok, from here n below, wadeva i say is how i felt. n i didnt voice out on fri itself is tt i dunno where to start. dunno hw to end. cuz imight get emotional. so i chose to blogged it here. now i ok with everyone. but this is hw i felt at that pt of time. i might sound sarcastic. but this is really hw i felt. i was told to voice out, i hestiate actually to even type abt wad i feel cuz even u said we can voice out thru blog, ppl still judge. cuz its normal human instincts. but think think, i think be truthful den to be hypocrite.
here goes:
fri was horrible! things was not going the correct way when maybelle start to get impatient cuz things cant be done in her time frame or expectation i think. she was not happy tt we didnt run as a team. instead running away in diff cliques. but maybelle, have you even at the start of the whole training in april, making it a point, set ya stand tt we must run as a team. you always let us run on our own. u might say thats common sense. but we didnt tot of that, cuz u didnt mention.
u say we didnt make our effort to check out about cheerleading, but i think some of did.. mayb not looking up wad diff kind of stunts there is, but at least some of us did went up to you tube to see.. ok, i am not sure abt the rest, but i know i did... we might noe the stunt name. but for u to rmb hw is like, damn good alr.. u are in cheerleading for hw long and we have been in cheer in how long? u can do many things, we cant. u got gym background, we dun. u been thru three yrs of training, we been thru training for less den a yr.
u ask us to train basic. jumps, we can learn at hm lah. but u see if u say basics, look at the performace wad i am suppose to do. i am doing onli doing left herky. rite? so if i can roughly do correctly, i would love to train on others like shoulder stand. and of cuz, in the routine, the only shoulder stand base i am gonna stand on is yong shen. so i would like to train with him also rite. i can train on other base. but all base, base diff. den he is taken up den i did try others. like learn how to tumble. yup.
u say we are not serious, but sometimes u are not very serious too u noe.. haha.. u make us laugh so much.. =D
we might have fears and everything, u cant expect us with little knowledge and totally newbies to be at your standard u wan. we try our best to do it. and hor, the 221 stunt arh, the fear nt very easy to overcome. mayb this is not wad i am suppose to say cuz i am not the top flyer.
you see we are not our seniors. wad u can do does not mean we can do. why can u do it and i cant? mayb i do not have enough background in it. u have. others have. i dun. mayb to you i did not put in effort. but i think i did. mayb my results dun show.. but everyday i did my strenching.. haha.. my mom even say, why do all this for wad, later hurt yaself n all.. but i still like it..
but all i can say is tt, is not tat we do not like cheerleading.. we do like, not what for we join? wad for after sch stay back for training, even we are damn tired. i seriously dunno wad happen on fri, why we didnt have much motivation. but tt kinda of ''no motivation'' start when u start to get irritated. actually, we are all very enthu in cheerleading lo. so u dun worry k.
abt the captain to pass on, u can always pass on to maria! haha.. think she is not bad..
and hor, is not we dun respect you as captian. we do ok! we are always proud to say that maybelle is our captain! haha.. we all noe u put in effort. we try our best not to disappoint u. like tt time, yi xun, ken n me we rush to get the key back to train on time. yi jun try her best to get everyone down for training on wed, even thou its damn hard to make ppl listen to her. yi jun cried n blame herself for getting injured when the performance is near. brenda is afraid if she injure herself too, tt will be bad. so she worried.
and brenda arh, thanks for being str forward on fri. but u see arh, is not tt i kept on saying you. i tot u might nt noe wad is ya mistake, so i tell u lo. and jor, i meant when my face turn black when u accidentally pull ppl when you fall tt time is cuz i felt a pain in my neck. and natural reaction for me is tt my face turn black. cuz damn pain lah. mayb other ppl reaction nt like tt. but onli me. i apologise for that. and i noe its also a natural reaction to pull ppl. cuz if i was u i will too. if u are not happy if i keep on saying, den i wun not comment on anything in future. yup.anything else u are not happy with me let me know lah. we clear things out.
nizz! dun keep on thinking we got nothing to do. mayb its just this performance we got nothing much.. in future, we might be able to do more stuff! hang in there!
too all cheermates, i might be damn str forward at times in cheerleading.. sorry. cuz since young my attitude was like tt. i will try my best to change. anything not happy just let me noe str, no need to scare i will get angry or wad. i will get angry, but that will be onli for awhile, after tt i will reflect upon it. if i disagree i let u noe again.
think i shall end here. i hope on monday, training will be ok..
n yi jun arh. u take care of ya hand k! =)
sorry if i gave attitude on wed. cuz i dunno the reason behind it. i can see the effort being made.
vespers! we must continue to shine k!
alison out x)
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