Thursday, December 06, 2007
numb~
went for the wake.. was quite uneasy abt going to the wake.. i didnt wan to.. i was scare.. i dun dare.. i went anyways.. they were in the middle of the prayers.. joined them.. and when i was praying.. the weather made me very cold.. by seeing colin makes me feel so numb.. i didnt noe how shld i react.. i only stood there and looked at him.. i felt so empty...
paid my respect.. walked off feeling lost... stood there... char came and talked to me.. the more she talk i start to feel for her.. she rushed back to sg from hk..
i dunno if that news sets into me alr or not.. i am just not getting it.. even thou i teared.. but.. the fact i stood there feeling empty disturbs me alot..
wad if years down the road.. i will be totally immune to it.. due to my profession that i have to face so many deaths, etc.
i dun wan that to happen to me! i hope not..
tmr ACES coming to help us out in the training! so happy!! =)
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