Saturday, January 26, 2008
heavy heart
ok.. i jus got into trouble again..went wala yesterday night..
drank 3 shots, hoegarden, martini, long island tea.
things didnt turn out well..
i didnt meant that to happen.. i noe i was feeling horrible.. i knew wad i was doing.. but my head and body was alr gone..
thx for helping me! clement, kelly, joel, dan, jason, daryl, julianna and so on.. dun even noe who was there.. yea.. but thx...
after that i still feel crappy... it didnt help at all.. in fact in got the matter worse.. who can understand?
to be in control... i must be.. this 1st week of sch suck.. so tiring.. so drained.. so helpless.. so slow..
zj today was fun.. session.. sharing session.. dinner at ah seah.. they went to play pool again.. i sat there n stone.. feeling heavy! haha!
i am tired.. can i give up.. i cant.. poly left one more year.. i have to get thru my exams..
god pls help me.. why am i always making my parents unhappy? can i turn back the clock?!
ok.. i have to be sane.. get hold of myself.. wake up!!
k box tmr! yea!!
10:03 PM