Wednesday, January 23, 2008
some things to think about
its a choice.. a decision.. everyone kept on saying that.. but its hard.. i dun dare.. i dun wan yet i wan too.. i am scared.. but..everyone says the 1st step is the hardest.. the rest will be easier..
haiz... some things i just cant put it down.. cant forget or forgive.. last yr add on one more.. and i didnt realise it till today... while talking to dillion and PEACE LOVER... @_@|||
blaming myself isnt good.. not being able to put down the past isnt good.. not having a motivation in life isnt good.. having knowledge in my brain and not in my heart isnt good.. not being serious with life isnt good.. having no courage isnt good too!
so many! i can list down more.. it will never end.. shldnt i just be contented in life? with life?? yet people are asked to strive harder for the better.. ironic huh..
now i am scare that i walk too much... Dr didnt really say i can walk.. but i am walking alr... and so on.. got a bad feeling abt it.. cant help it.. dun walk very sad wan u noe.. sometimes just felt like crying.. why.. i have so much to say yet words cant really come out..felt so much yet i just dun wanna think abt it..
i am suppose to get over it.. i am suppose to be alr over tt matter.. but its came back to me again..
this injury.. bothered my mom so much.. my dad too.. can see she feel hurt n sad to see me in this state.. haiz.. wad to do.. happen alr.. have to live with it.. i tot i got over it.. but somehow it came back today..
ppl have to learn from mistakes.. whether its the hard way or not.. i learnt it thru the hard n painful way....
BACK TO TODAY!
went to sch pretty early again!! 9am lecture.. 8.30am in sch alr.. cuz my dad fetch my niece n nephew to sch 1st.. den me.. yea!
lessons as normal.. den went home to change home clothes.. black shirt too hot alr.. will die from heat! haha!!
studied in SPI.. but slacked 2hrs later.. went for mass.. den out for dinner with dillion n joseph..
had a nice chat.. dinner at LJS.. den come home! =)
the end!
10:14 PM