Sunday, March 09, 2008
knowing the limits
today woke up to meet samuel and spencer for breakfast den head down to SPI for outreach meeting after meeting we went it fair! damn crowded.. dinner was ok.. but i ate with my dear family! love them to bits! hehe!!sat had a fun day at jason hse.. he celebrated his 21st birthday at his house...
hope he like the presents.. =)
today had good weather. with loads of stars.. made me think and miss those times..
knowing ones limits are very impt..
i reach my limit that day.. too much to close one eye or to not take it to heart.
when u know sometimes i take things to heart which might just spoils my mood.
as screwed up as i can be.. as low my general knowledge is.. i am trying my best..
start reading newspapers.. thats my 1st step to my plan, to become better.
it might seems something 'duh' to do. but reading newspaper daily isnt my habit..
cultivating it will be hard..
that day my confidence level drop rapidly.. words stab into me.. and i am dead serious..
at that point i couldn't take it.. i just lash out..
trying so hard to be different.. trying to be better.. but you all aint helping..
not a single bit. how to improve when one side i am pushing and u pulling?
i end up at the same spot or worse..
sometimes i hate being me.. who i am. what few strengths do i have?
why god put me here in this world? what he want me to do? what plans he has for me?
whining doesnt solve problems.. change takes time.. noticing the change in a person takes a longer time..
bye world
9:14 PM