Saturday, November 29, 2008
lions are man's bestfren!
http://buzz.yahoo.com/article/1:y_featured:03be3b064a656eb32e239fac567449a5;_ylt=AkJWYUAYlI8AYAjGaaTZ490azJV4my goodness... i teared la.. so sweet!
1:06 AM
Friday, November 28, 2008
suffocating
wtf, wake up your idea...$1500 (one major reason)
can you help me AGAIN...
i am sorry girl.. beautiful henna beautiful hand! (fuck it)
its not that simple as u think... (of cuz its not... it will never be.. yea?)
suffocating you... (i didnt meant it)
couldnt be bothered...
i guess we had enough... i guess i have decided... thanks.. and i am sorry boy~!
u pissed me off...
1:36 PM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
hormones, no one day
i hate my hormones sometimes!it brings my mood really down or sensitve...
@#$@#%$%$&^(*$#$@~`??:>"
haiz! i shall blame my sensitivity and mood swings on my hormones! dont care~
Let's all remember to take the time to LIVE!!!!
A friend of mine opened his wife's underwear drawer and picked up a silk paper wrapped package:
'This, - he said - isn't any ordinary package.'
He unwrapped the box and stared at both the silk paper and the box.
'She got this the first time we went to New York , 8 or 9 years ago. She has never put it on , was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this i s it. He got near the bed and placed the gift box next to the other clothing he was taking to the funeral house, his wife had just died. He turned to me and said:
'Never save something for a special occasion. Every day in your life is a special occasion'.
I still think those words changed my life.
Now I read more and clean less.
I sit on the porch without worrying about anything.
I spend more time with my family, and less at work.
I understood that life should be a source of experience to be lived up to, not survived through. I no longer keep anything.. I use crystal glasses every day.... I'll wear new clothes to go to the supermarket, if I feel like it.
I don't save my special perfume for special occasions, I use it whenever I want to. The words 'Someday...' and ' One Day...' are fading away from my dictionary. If it's worth seeing, listening or doing, I want to see, listen or do it now. I don't know what my friend's wife would have done if she knew she wouldn't be there the next morning, this nobody can tell. I think she might have called her relatives and closest friends.
She might call old friends to make peace over past quarrels. I'd like to think she would go out for Chinese, her favorite food. It's these small things that I would regret not doing, if I knew my time had come. < will it>
Each day, each hour, each minute, is special. Live for today, for tomorrow is promised to no-one
8:36 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
0.o
sometimes my entries are RANDOM!!phrases that jus came across my mind while spacing out... o.0 ALSO sentences when i am watching a certain SHOW...
julianna sent 24/11/2008 10:19 PM:
why is your bloody blog so morbid about love and failure
julianna sent 24/11/2008 10:19 PM:
chsk... emo kid
not emo... haha! no morbid... love and failure diff topic.. thats why i put a line... DOTS
10:57 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2008
phrases~
"Dont let failures in life hold you back or affect your confidence and drive. instead take those failures as a learning lesson and a stepping stone."its so easy to say those words.. so easy to type it out... but its difficult to follow. =p
the show "HOT SHOT part 3"!
one of the episode says:
失恋并不是结束， 而是一个过程。
是一个完整的爱情故事中必经的过程
真正的爱情是不管自己付出多少
也不管对方有没有回报
基本上是独立纯在的 -i know i use the wrong chun-
真正的爱是不求回报的
fell out of love is not a conclusion but a process for a complete love story
real love is not how much you gave up
its not whether the other party would appreciate it
its actually an independent existence
no matter how your heart hurt you wont regret it?
real love doesnt strive for repayment
6:11 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
let it be...
learn to be ___________
learn how to __________
10:34 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
to the next phase!
leaving my house in tem mins time!and in ten mins time i will start the journey of the ongoing process to learning how to be a real staff nurse. to be trained by my preceptor in any ways he think its good for me to learn. =)
the hell begins...
actually i am glad i have such a strict preceptor -this is wad i heard from my staffs-. cuz i will be push to learn and absorb faster... but hopefully i dont get to fail my posting cuz i am not competent enough! =p
"the choices we make today has repercussions in the future. like the old saying it either make or break us,so today, make this your day to see the bigger picture, the glory day that you want at the the end of the hard work, effort and pain. even if it means to smile, to nod, to tolerate, to have patience, you know it will be for just this while coz at the end of the road, you'll see and busk in the greatness U WANT. today is the day you write YOUR future. "
this msg was sent to me from julianna! thx! once in awhile i will open and read it to remind myself...
11:47 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
grey's anatomy season 5 ep 4
was watching grey's anatomy today.and in grey's anatomy season 5 ep 4, izzy stevens said this," people are terrible/mean to the ones they love sometimes, being mean doesnt make the person horrible, they just made a mistake. "
i totally get it. sometimes... cuz i know i do that all the time. esp on my mom tt i feel so bad... it use to jeremy thou... now.. dennis...
i jus couldnt control anger or not lashing out. cuz if i did intentionally threw my temper at ppl who are jus frens or ppl who are not close they wont understand...they will just take it to heart cuz they do not know me well enuff why i reacted tt way...
anyone... it happens to anyone.. they normally lash out at their love ones... ppl closes to them..
to me this whole thing is a grey area... i do not know if it is right or wrong. wad do u think?
6:58 PM
Friday, November 14, 2008
high dependency ward
i soooo blur!!!do you know all along i tot i was going to ward 58 B2 side... and was saying heng ah... not High Dependency ward (HD)...
on the day i report to ward 58 i den realise i was being posted to high dependency ward...
so far i didnt get to do alot of work.. mostly junior work.. cuz my preceptor is on night shift! so on monday will be my very 1st day meeting my preceptor.. which means HELL is gonna start.. but i would be happy to have him cuz he will push me to learn stuff... he is very strict with medications effects and side effects... so i have to know them at my finger tips! die!!!!
which my medication knowledge is like yr 1 level! haha!! been memorising them and returning them back to teacher once each semester is over!
guess look at the bright side... i think God is training me...
God love me so much that he wants me to learn as much as i can b4 i grad as a student nurse!
all the best!!!!
6:55 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
got tagged
Name 20 people you can think of right now:1) julianna
2) dennis
3) pek geok
4) mich chen
5) nick t
6) jeremy
7) melissa netto
8) ryan neo
9) matthais
10) jerry
11) wesley
12) regina
13) aaron tan
14) nizz
15) maria
16) melissa ling
17) norin
18) nabil
19) daryl
20) justine (NYP)
How did you meet #4 (mich chen)?
SJC, my senior!
What would you be if u never met #1(julianna)?
i guess i wont have someone to go to when i am sad and happy...
wouldnt know how picky i am with certain things. esp frens and how we as a clique have hell alot of similarities.. plus our clique wont have a french guru... (guess ans will never end!!!!)
What if #9(matthais) and #20(justine) dated?
nope it wont happen... cuz justine is attached alr!
Describe #3(pek geok)
a person who i have known for 7 years... very stubborn in her ways... perfectionist.. my best/ close fren ever... very simple.. best wife to have... very responsible... a person who had been thru alot with me.. tahan me... and see me grow up!
Is #8(ryan neo) attractive?
hahaha!!! i guess... his stomach which is like a wall!
Describe #7 (melissa netto)
gaming, loud, sensitive, a close fren, who have a family that goes clubbing tgt, a sister who is hazel netto.. knew her thru zj... alot more!
What would you do if #18(nabil) confesses to you that he likes you?
WOW!!! that wont ever happen man! hahahahhaha!!! diff religion... and i belong to someone else.
What language does #15(maria) speak?
english... thats all i know..
Who is #9(matthais) going out with?
No one i think
How old is #16(melissa ling)?
19 this yr
When is the last time you spoke to #13(aaron tan)?
face to face is a month ago i think... if is sms is today...
Who is #2(dennis)'s fav. band/singer?
alot! to many to name!
Would you ever date #4(mich chen)?
nah! my mommy... no incest pls.. =p
Would you date #1(julianna)?
she want i also dun want! hahaha!!
Is #19(daryl) single?
yes
What is #10(jerry) last name?
fong
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11(wesley)?
haha... he got gf alr... wad a qn...
School of #3(pek geok)?
the most recent one will be NYP
Where does #6(jeremy) live?
dunno the name of the street.. but u wan to know where i bring you there! =)
What is your favourite thing about #5(nick t)?
a loyal and trustworthy fren i will ever have... =)
Would you think of killing #14(nizz)?
nah... i wont want to kill my mate...
5 people I would like to tag....
1) pek geok
2) norin
3) nickt
4) regina
5) mich chen
10:40 PM
-_-'''
my face sometimes look like this~
my goodness... alot of medications!!!! alot to take note...
still dunno who is the 'jo' on my tag board...
going to a next phase of life.. trying to get used to it...
juls, thanks for your msg...
and one of my fren actually commented on my hair without me asking for comments! =)
1st time without me asking! miracle!
during my orientation for PRCP, when i saw my classmates! i was so happy... miss them alot...
actually, i miss that moment on 08072007 alot... =( how i wish tt day would never end at all.. and thank god for cameras cuz i did capture that moment! =)
its been a very long time i had real fun... as in give my soul a good laugh till it hyperventilate... its been a long time i had no worries when i go out...
i am tired... mentally...
i am very tired... gg holidays with parents to japan might not be as fun too cuz my parents gg with their frenz and kids...
i am tired till sometimes waking up to a new day is a chore... nothing to look forward to...
i am tired till walking from bus stop to home seems so far...
i am so tired till crying out loud doesnt help anymore...
i dont want to block myself out again which i did one yr ago... i learnt my lesson.
i really wish i am voted out of the survival game... real soon.
6:58 PM
Sunday, November 09, 2008
-
dont know how to react...
dont know wad i should do...
what is right what is wrong... hah! ppl define it so differently... wads my definition den?
9:53 PM
burnt weekends!
i am gonna start my major attachment officially tmr!my weekends gonna be burnt! i have to even work on sat and sun like a normal nurse alr! follow my staff nurse's roster.. =(
taking case was fun thou! haha... follow up with dr's orders and just update... however i am still not very use to picking up calls to talk or taking a msg( cuz i will forget to ask for their name!)
i'll be at ward 58... hopefully i will not be in the ICU and hopefully i will be at the B2 area. will my luck help me out this time?
ok.. gonna keep my hair long alr... no more short hair.. even thou it looks alright... cuz! ppl say i look more mature in long hair den short... =)
had a girls night out with peksy and juls! a last min outing...
XMAS IS COMING!!!!
10:53 AM
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
he won
BARACK OBAMA won the elections. =)today's shift was nice... took 2 cases today! =)
10:39 PM
Sunday, November 02, 2008
开心
我刚刚读了你的BLOG。觉得你因该大概知道为什么我的不听你们的话。因为我觉得如果‘事情发生，有这一段幸福的日子就满足’。
那也是你说的！！我有放手一博！而这样我就不会后悔！=）
我没有后悔当初的选择。我现在很开心。
你也加油吧! 不要放弃！我会用远在这里，有什么事要我，竟管打电话！i will forever be your listening ear and be there for you! even if 伤害的程度可能会很深。
hahaha!!! half chinese and english sentence. sucha typical singaporean way of speaking
really glad.. life been good recently... even thou my mood sometimes its rotten... sorry dear...
major attachemnt coming up the following week! very excited and scare... i am gonna be really lost! hopefully everything will turn out well!
wish me luck!
7:26 PM
H A I R
i just put up a voting section...vote pls...
long hair or short hair...
=)
cuz i love my short hair now but i miss my long hair alot!
oh wells today went window shopping with julie today.
i never succeed in window shopping b4. this is my first time succeeding! hahaha!
went MANGO to try out clothes too... this time its a leather jacket with a top tt i tot i'll never ever wear... hahaha!
tried on a leather vest too.. damn nice la! but $100++ =(
why all so exp! wish money will jus drop from the sky...
went BEBE to try out clothes! they are damn exp! $100++ - $200++!!
but nice la.. i admit!
1:25 AM