Wednesday, March 11, 2009
update~
its been a month or so that i have not been updating my blog..today got a feeling of updating...
things have not been so well in my life so far.. maybe its jus a changing phrase, i hope...
close frens left me... yea i know its my fault.. trying to get back on my 2 feet again... somehow when one said she is walking away i tend to take it as all walking away from me... i get so paranoid i blocked out everything.. and i am sorry...
i do have the same thinking that why must we let a guy sour our frenship.. and i totally agree... when i find the courage to find you and talk i will... hope u can wait.. and yet again expectations are set again yea? =S
history repeating itself... and i wonder... but i know our frenship aint fragile... guess its jus a cool off peroid for us... you are still a pillar of support in my life.. always waking me up when i need to and u know how to wake me up...
i woke up.
living life as per normal... but i am being more of a family person now.. been staying home and eating my dinner at home b4 gg out... which i think its good... my mom is happy... now gg out late wont be a prob... came back super late they also never say anything.. i mean late as in 5am++ hahah! just that i only have to leave hse at 9pm++ instead of the whole day... hahaha!!!
guess growing up into young adulthood aint easy...
life is always a learning process.. true... in all aspects... learning to deal with problems that come our way... ok... sound like a psychology session... (the different stages of life)
tot i could just cover the wound up with lods of bandages it would stop bleeding... somehow or rather it didnt... i just found out yesterday at aaron's hse downstairs with jason and nah... it bled even more... it bleed profusely... tot i cant calm down... but i decided to jump down into the pool despite having my clothes on... haha!! i cool down immediately...
been mixing around with aaron's frens lately.. nice group of frens... =) some tot me how to be more homely.. and some we cheer each other on to jia you and move on with life.. its cool..
dun worry... news ones came doesnt mean i forget abt my old ones... just couldnt pick up the courage to call u all out yet.. soon soon.. b4 i start my work i will...
didnt met up with you all for movie that night not cuz i was avoiding.. but its cuz it was my grandma's bdae... have to attend...
alrite.. even thou i am still walking aimlessly down the road of life... at least now i can see abit of light coming thru the particular phrase of life i am walking now..
cheers to all!
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