Tuesday, June 02, 2009
ocean, waves and currents
ok..i screwed things up again...when will i ever grow up? at least grow up at the particular area..
hello... it didnt jus happen once.. but twice.
ok... life is so screwed up i sometimes think that maybe my parents might start to regret telling God maybe without alison around i can live happily without worries and stress
i am causing them so much trouble and pain.
yes, i know some of u might think... den why am i still doing the things i did?
my ans is i do not have an answer to that question...
i need to have more self control...
i need to put tots into action...
fuck.. i screwed it so badly...
yes yes... small matter... but wad if things escalates?
i wish i can rewrite my history... and tts to rewrite the moment i broke my leg!
things will be way diff...
maybe for the better maybe for the worst.
i cant take anymore waves.. my life is like an ocean... on the surface.. all calm and still... yet beneath all the calmness... comes all the horrible currents u never expected it to be...
grrrrr....
i wish...
i wish so hard i could just disappear.. wont cause hurt to anyone i hurt b4.. my sec sch mates, my closest frens and most imptly my family...
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