Friday, October 30, 2009
mentally shagged!
as tired as i am with the process of growing up...as unforgiving as i am to myself with all the stupidest mistakes i ever made...
i never fail to rmb the video i watched in FB recently...
he said, "it doesnt matter how you fail.. but its how you gg to finish... how you gonna finish strong... (:(: and u will find strength to get back up..."
easy to say... hard to do..
but somehow this phrase gave me a bit more energy to carry with life...
i am not physically tired... and i'm just mentally tired...
alot to learn... alot of responsibility to carry...
i wonder how parents actually carry on with their duty as parents...
esp my parents with such a child like me can be really really extremely tiring..
wonder why they never gave up on me...
always... it had been always in my mind since young...
if i wasnt even born... if that sperm didnt met the egg...
i wont be around... my parents wont have to always worry and get angry...
quarrel and cried just cuz of me...
watched sister's keeper today.. thank god my sister is well and kicking...
around to kick my ass whenever needed... around to remind me to talk sense to me...
cried like crap during the movie.. used up one packet of tissue..
aiya... wad i wanna say was... if i wasnt even born... everybody's life will be much better! was never really much in need anyway...
as wad pek geok always say...
I NEED A GETAWAY TRIP... LONG HOLIDAY AWAY FROM SINGAPORE!
-you think you are not of much help.. but i beg to differ! actually that very evening i wished you were there.. cuz i know i wont be lost.-
7:54 PM