Thursday, October 29, 2009
tired..
i am so tired of living...seriously everything hasnt been really good...
one after the other...
wished at that very moment when it happened i wish i left the world... maybe jus to be a vegetable and such... dont think to feel anything...
i know i am very selfish.. leaving ppl who love me behind without thinking for them.
i know it isnt the worse...
if i am the one consoling alison chua... i would had said that...
its a small thing... its a learning lesson... next time just be more careful...
it can be a life and death matter... i know... but to just thank god nobody is injured... be more careful next time... no matter how tired and unlucky it is...
life still have to go on... everyone been thru shit... maybe this is the shit i have to go thru... other ppl might been or going thru worse situation compared to mine.
for one monment i blame God.. why this why must it happen?!
but to think maybe God save my ass... he chose this to happen to me instead... cuz the other choice he had was a worse of thing...
rmb the cow story? if i rmb correctly...
there was a farmer who had a cow which was their only source of income...
yet the cow died...
farmer blamed God for letting it happen...
but the fact was, God chose to let the cow die... or else the person dead was the farmer's wife...
hahaha! this is wad i rmb... vaguely... something like that la... duno if it make sense u anyone who read this.. nvm... i understand can alr...
sigh! trying to look at the bright side... trying really hard...
ppl say, most importantly i am not injured...
comforting enough that the people involved ask me am i okay instead of scolding me...
seriously i wish i would die in my sleep tonight... due to complications i do not know...
selfish selfish selfish...
NVM MUST LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE!
-wish u could be here with me right now by my side... telling me its okay... telling me as long you are fine, that is wad matters-
9:43 PM