Monday, November 23, 2009
the first time ; 你会每次见到我会让你笑或开心吗?
你会每次见到我会让你笑或开心吗？希望现在的你还是那么想。(:(:
wahaha!!! influence by the korean drama! =p
anyway... my blog somehow got this person call KPO! haha! KPO introduced one song to me called 'The First Time' by surface...
i love it! (:(: found another wedding song to be when i get married!
1st- From This Moment
2nd- The First Time
anyway heres the lyrics! if u have the time listen to it! (:(:
THE FIRST TIME (Surface)
You know I won't forget
The time we shared together holding hands
And walking in the park
Sometimes we'll have to do it all again
We were so happy then
I have no regret
Can you tell from the look on my face that
I love you more today
Chorus
The first time I look into your eyes I cried
Do you remember the first time
We fell in love
You look into my eyes wiped the tears away
The first time
When we fell in love
Althought sometime has passed
I still remember just like it was yesterday
The time is moving fast
The love I have for you
Time won't ever change I'll always feel the same
Now until the end
Memories we've shared will live forever
Deep inside my heart I know I'll never fall again
10:12 PM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
relationships; words
been thinking of this word relationshipbe it friendship, kinship or love
thought of many words to describe it what we normally go thru tgt in the many months and years we been thru tgt...
a: arguements yet accomodative, awesome, action
b: bickerings, blessed, blissful, bias(at times)
c: caring, chill lex moments, confidant, comfortable, crazy
d: dissappointments, disagreements
e: emotions, endurance, expectations, envy
f: fearful to lose them, forgiving, freedom
g: grateful, greatness, gossips
h: honesty
i: irritated,
j: jolly, jealous
k: knowing
l: love, laugh
m: mental pillar, memories, meaningful
n: natural, needful, nonsensical
o: ongoing, open
p: painful at times, patient
q: quarrels, quality!
r: ranting, rely, random, relax
s: sweet, special, support, sensitive
t: treasure, thankful, tactful/less, tantrums!, tolerate, trust
u: understanding, unity
v: valuable,vent anger
w: willingness, wanting, warmth, whining! (:(:,worthy
x: =X
y: yearn
z: zany
so many many more! too many ways to describe them... too many
thou at times when there are downs, we do not know how to face it at the moment.. but i think it will come to a point we will understand and know how to deal with it...
at times we want to give up... just too tiring...
the troubles they produce...
eg, sister or brother being an idiot doing stupid things..
family not understanding and etc...
friends... quarrels and disagreements
love... endurance when we quarrel... yet whenever we see each other we feel love and being needed for...
at the very end we know they are impt and we love and treasure them still...
been really grateful for the relationships i have... i lost some and dont wanna lose anymore... i dont want them to leave their footprints in my life... but i want their feet, their physical presence...
i want to feel needful.. i want to feel useful... i want to be as impt as they are to me...
knowing family will always be there so i try not to take it for granted...
friends... i can have many many friends... but i would love to keep a few close to my heart.. and i have a few... been with me for ages... since secondary school..
love.... giving my all whenever i am in it... living with no regrets!
Cheers!
God created adam and eve... always blaming him for creating them whenever i am down...
thinking cuz of adam n eve i have to suffer in this world... but come to think of it...
God created adam and eve came along... for companionship for support... (:
at least God didnt really literally leave us alone... physically God cant be here for us... He uses many other vessels aka ppl to come and help us out..
1:09 AM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
worried
my Lbff is having a rocky peroid and i couldnt do anything to help her...reason being i do not know wad is bothering her.. wont probe further...
but wish everything will be okay for her..
life been pretty mundane... the car is back home but i am still not allowed to drive my sis in law's car.. understandable... but my dad made an effort to let me drive his car to work with him beside me 2 days ago (:(:
other areas pretty ok.. guess the previous entries are a little moody n abit of roller coaster ride..
update again! cheers!
12:56 AM
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
i am learning thru my bumpy rd..
growing up aint easy... no one says its easy...along the road of learning and falling we tend to get dependent on a person for support to pull thru such bumpy roads...
not cuz we choose to but for me its inevitable to be dependent at times..
knowing i dislike being weak.. i always hold my pride up high... refusing to cry in front of ppl or to show my true feelings.. i put on a mask... before i get hurt i put on a barrier before i crumble...
and whenever u pull down that mask without me knowing it, i got a shock.. cuz you touch something really sensitive that i tot ppl wont see...
we tend to get stubborn in ways cuz we dont see a eye to eye to things...
so we have to see it for our own to understand and believe to even give in or listen...
i can say i am emotional and crazy...
getting affected for the smallest things in life...
even the smallest mistake i made...
ppl say it takes time to heal and forgive oneself.. but i cant...
i tried... it can be a temporary forget instead of forgive...
and just one day, it will come flooding back that i couldnt breathe...
didnt know who to tell or how to say. afraid no one understands and find me a nuisance..
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time
expectations
promises
action
support
love
it all link dont you think?
in time we tend to expect things to happen which leads to having promises to be kept and when we made such promises we need actions to keep them or even fulfil them...
when we expect such action or promise, here comes a certain amount of love and support needed, to make them come thru/happen... or to even to start having expectations.
and to make it come thru we need to have support which is to undergo or endure, esp. with patience or submission; tolerate. most importantly to sustain a person's mind, spirit, give courage, etc. to have expectation of a love one...
i know tonight i took a wrong route... i had wrong expectation...
i cant promise it wont happen... cuz promise needs actions to prove.
but i hope i can make a point for myself to prove it...
alison dont worry... everything will be alright in time to come... cuz its all about learning and growing up... all abt getting used to it.. all abt getting the hang of it...
i always say
i dont want to be a burden and nuisance... and here am i asking for support...
how contradicting...
but i hope i will learn...
thru all the scars and wounds i will learn... with the trust and love... i will... cuz it doesnt matter how you fail.. but its how are you gg to finish... how you gonna finish strong... (:(: and u will find strength to get back up...
2:34 AM